15 Days in Tekong

     Everything seems to be quite fine... with all the introduction to regimentation & discipline and other activities like Standard Obstacle Course (SOC) or the Road March... etc... damn tired but still managable...

     Body begins to adapt to the physically tough activities... 1st route march... i have breathing difficulties... 2nd one slightly better... SAT's third one... i was really keeping up the pace and i feel good...

     I felt really good to complete things i know i will suffer... apart from road march (or route march)... i managed to clear the last 6 SOC items even though afraid of height... 2 of them requires to stand quite high... to conquer my fear for the moment is a sense of acheivement lor... so im glad i managed to go through it like a MAN! haha... as for the first 5... have not try... but should require lots of arm strength... haiz... much be prepared soon...

     There was 3 days which i felt like 3 years... As there are time for us to visit the Medical Officer (MO)... i am not able to go as i past the time... so in the end... i went on SAT but... Dentist was not around... In the end... the MO gives me painkiller only... It helps a little only... but i am suffering like hell even though i was on MC (attend B) for 3 days... In the end... my face swell on SUN night... Mon morning... i looks like ChipMunks... totally a new face... u will not believe its me de....

     But now... its getting better... just needed to do some follow up treatment.... hmm... guess i am losing a bit of weight lor... coz pants like baggy... *laugh* Anyway... i was in the Jaguar Company's Drill Contigent... the Drill team... considering the highest honour for a recruit... but tough training as we are expected to do well... We gell up well in one day time... so i think we can do it... *smile*... Guess that's all for the time being... Take CareZ!

You are Xuan Wu!
Mythological background: Because the turtle has a
thick, solid shell that serves as protection -
this animal is associated with stability.
You enjoy intellectual pursuits.
Also, in Feng Shui (the Chinese myths behind choosing a house), the black turtle's solidity is used to protect from cold northern winds.

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farewell

     10.42am now... Hang Ming, Shun Li, Han Keong, Jian Long & likely Peter are all inside now le... me will be joining them in hours time... This week also saw Wei Ping, Derrick, Wei Qiang, Yong Hao's enlistment... My time is about to come...

     Slightly panic over things like... files not fully back-up... Whether i brought enough things or did i bring too much things inside... and i hope i will not pull down my platoon mates due to my low fitness level... But i guess... i have no choice but go for it...

     Yesterday, i went to meet two groups of friends... THPZ & E5 friends... Morning and night... i managed to take pictures with Liyan, Yuyan, Jia Hui & Xinyi.... Forgotten to bring my camera... i can only chat with Eunice, Liying & Siang...

     We catch up with eat other's life... but i guess in the end... the highlights were the appointment of 2 fathers & 1 sister (or issit 2?)... We shall not go in depth on this.... it seems like i will miss my friends...

     I was actually pretty touched to have people wishing me good in MSN, ICQ, Phone, SMSes... although i was pretty busy the whole night... and i slept only at 3am... i was contented... as in... i was not complaining... i felt the warmth from them... I guess... its time to go and take a shower... and prepare to have my head balded... erm... i mean shaved....

SINGAPORE... Here I Comes~~~

a path that took 3 years...

     These 3 years... i had gone through alot... but with the least problems compared to my other friends... At least... i have lots of people who do care for me all these years... All treated me like their own little brother... take really good care of me...

     Friends around me had been complaining how competitive their classmates are... how worthless people around them are to be their friends... how unfriendly they are... etc... but i... did not really face this problem all my life... yes... i do suffer from depression over friends... but i guess... its due to my own problem... not others... maybe i always expect alot in life... causing more unhappiness...

     when i am down, there are people who would come over me and asked if i am alright... there are people who would noticed and care... but not express themselves... or even people who sits down and talk to me... or should i say FORCE me to talk... haha...

     Many people said before... You can have lots of friends... but those really true friends are less than 10.... but fortunately... i have more than 10 true friends... and at least 10 person i treated as buddies... They are people i don't mind dying for... if they need me... i shall be there... if not physically at least mentally...

     Never had a chance to thank them... nor had the courage to say the word "THANK YOU"... its seems so easy... just two words... but i seems to changed alot.. and the more close u are to me... the more difficult for me to say "THANK YOU" but no matter how... if these people get to see this post... i would like to say a big.....

T H A N K  Y O U !

last but hope not the least

     After disappointment over not able to go sentosa... today went Orchard with Jun Hao & Wen before joining the rest for a BBQ-Chatting session at Lower Seletar... Its was a relieved since today was a rainy day... Hence, Thank GOD we were not in Sentosa...

     We tried on clothes in TopMan... & went to have dinner at COSi @ Scotts.... Nice western restaurant... Its drinks & fusili wasn't very sweet or salty... just nice... but kind of a little cold... wonder if the fusili was supposed to be cold...

     In the end, after Aris last minute withdrawal, 7 of us headed to Seletar for the session... Jeremy, Yiliang, Jenson, Hao, Wen, Jocelyn & me!! We have such a nice time... even that twins make me like Maria... haha... no, they called me Suzanna... Anyway... its better than the previous session... The BBQ was a success... haha... We took photos and enjoyed having each other there...

     So fast... 3 years is over... Can still remember the first day in Poly... we are not close or don't even talk to each other... haha... seldom i mean... and now all are friends for so long le... close enough for some of us... even Jenson is with his gf for 2 years le... Hmmm....

     One more day to go, before my next pace of life begins... hmm... gonna miss this world... or this part of my life... memories... shall be kept next to my heart....

missing u

     I'm just tired... Went for Basketball in the morning... then.. in the evening... went for the Dinner with Photonics Classmates...

     Apart from 5 (2 NS, 1 Work etc.... ), 13 of us managed to gather at Chong Pang... Definitely i will go down since they changed it from WED to TUE... because of me... Joel found a job, Gu Ming returning to homeland soon and will be back by July... The rest? either waiting for interviews or still looking for jobs...

     It was pretty enjoyable... and i am sure to miss them... *laugh* the usual me? always emotional... Anyway... i was in a light mood till i went home...

     I was very tired but still, i went online... We have to discuss the events for tomorrow... in the end... *sigh* the trip to sentosa was cancelled... something i do look forward to... We had plans on going Sentosa for months le... but never did we went.... Just feeling tired, disappointed and fustrated... but i guess i shouldn't be... and there wasnt a need to be... since in days time... everything will be over temporarily...

     Photos were updated... and now it holds 5 albums...

take picture take picture

     A whole day of activities... i am just too tired le... legs can feel the overworked-ness... haha... 10am i went for a run with Hao & Wen.... then we ate our lunch at Mac... its like... "wah... simply delicious!~" its been months since i last ate Mac... too expensive outside NYP... but too fattening when i am in NYP... normally opt to go to North Canteen...

     After that, i went home and take a shower before heading down to AMK MRT station to meet the gals... and erm.. a guy? haha... Belfred appear, surprisingly, but needed to meet us slightly later due to some things crop up... anyway... Xinyi, JiaHui and i went to East Coast first... and we had out bowling game... Although i used to bowl (not a good one also), i still not able to get good score... maybe too long never play le.. maybe using house ball.. maybe the lane lousy... maybe i am just too lousy... *laugh* The system, environment a little bit like AMK's Strikers' Bowl...

     We ended up in McCafe having Double Chocolate & 4 kinds of cakes... Not too bad... nice taste... strong flavors... Thumbs UP! We were chating while awaiting the arrival of Belfred... Finally, he appeared...

     We ended up not able to see the Sunset... not because of Belfred... but simply because there isn't any for us to see... the sunset was not held there, i guess... *sad* but we did had lots of fun and relaxation... We took photos with 3 cameras... hope at least all will be good... only one is Digicam... in the end... i guess my skill is still the best.... *laugh* i shall not describe the pictures... will upload soon...

     Its great to be there... i have never been out with Bel, JH or XY like this before... its nice experience... just sad that the girls do have curfew... so i guess... too bad...

fashion day

     Giodano, Dano, U.W.N, G2000, U2, P.O.A., SEIYU, Samuel & Kevin... You hear me right... these were the fashion outlets (in J8) i went to today... Have our lunch/dinner at Crystal Jade Restaurant. It was still affordable for some dishes... Eunice ICQ-message me to meet up and to pass me one Vanessa-signatured CD. Liying joined us after her shopping spree with her brother...

     We went window shopping... Try on some clothes... me? i only tried on Samuel & Kevin's 2 top... both not my style but the feeling was not too bad... but never buy as i will not have any more days to wear them... *laugh* And guess what, i managed to see Ivy in Giodano... never thought she was transferred to Bishan... anyway... she offered staff discount to Eunice... She has to thank me for that *smile*

     After the whole shopping journey, we sat down at Olio Dome (behind Bishan Interchange) for a drink and snacks... We chat the whole night... its a long time since we sit and chat...

     Finally, i received the Audio Book from Eunice... Vanessa Fernandez, from the Urban Xchange, sang solo-ly for the album... a total of 8 tracks (excluding two, mix and LIVE, tracks) out of the 16 trackes available.... The rest are either instrumental or sound mixed for the poems... Her vocal was still strong as before... even though she sang jazz-y now rather than her usual pop-hiphop style... I still prefer hiphop though... The songs she covered gives me a kinda Dido's styled feeling...

     its not for sale... the album itself... it was distributed months back, in conjuction of a poetry book... As my friend was involved somewhere, somehow... she managed to get it for me... and asked Vanessa Fernandez, a friend of her as well, to sign for me... Isn't that great?

easing tension

     After months of shunning, today i managed to talk more with Weiliang le... After that incident... i seldom talk to him... so did he... at most one or two sentence job-related stuff he need to tell me or vice versa... but i guess... it all ended today... Of course, its hard for me to treat him the way i used to... but i guess i am already taking a big step out of the shadow of that incident...

     Its my last day of work and his belated birthday lunch... hence we joint-treated Jia Hui, Mei Ling and Xinyi some dishes... not very full, but i think ok le ba... not too bad either...

     I did not open counter today. i was in the Chief Cashier Room doing paper works, counting money and of course, carrying plastic bags etc... Meiling did one or two transactions as she was cleaning the counters and cashier rooms... while me and Weiliang cleared the Plastic bags etc before he helped ML...

     Everyone there wishes me luck etc... when its time for me to leave, i have to... so i guess, i have to learn to let go... i would be back... surely... at least a few days later :x to return my uniform etc...

     As usual... doing nothing online apart from usual email checking, friendster checking... getting bored... Feeling slightly relieved as two person had return me my money le... one was a draggy one.. the other was like "sure..." and my money was back...

How Bad Is Your Temper?

SAGITTARIUS (November 22 - December 20)

You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You're also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you're upset with them.

House : Brown
Being a sensible person, you prefer to research any situation before taking action. You don't trust anyone's opinion but your own. You handle your money carefully and accumulate it in small, but secure, increments.

Shirt : Blue
Preferring a more casual appearance, you are more comfortable in jeans and a t-shirt than in a suit. You don't like over dressing for any occasion, although you never look scruffy.

Rose : Red
You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life. You are more comfortable talking about work than relationships.

Car : Black
In your mind, the image your friends have of you is very important. You like to have the latest brands and are prepared to invest a lot of your money in quality and expensive possessions.

Handphone : Grey/Silver
You are very sociable! You are the center of attention and have great stories to tell. But this often prevents from establishing deep relationships.

TeddyBear : Pale Brown (Beige)
You are very considerate. Friendship is the world to you, and you are friends with everyone. Be careful, as sometimes this works against you if you are too trusting.

Colour Personality Test

TYPE C

> Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance
> power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in
> social life but seems that no one will talk bad about
> you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
> always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every
> person differently. To look at the bright side, you
> adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack
> of character, although you are one big nice guy but
> you lack of charm. On the surface, you havr a lot of
> friends but once you have troubles, you lack of
> soulmates to help you around. You must try to express
> yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you
> can understand yourself more.

::Steamboat Personality Test::

ShengXin's Chalet

     Ms Chee, Meifen, Xueling, Kaiyi, HanWei, Thomas, Diana... All these names are people i almost see them for the first time after last year's chalet or even worst... after many years... Others like Shuyi, Hong Ching, GuoXin, Belinda, Siang, Eunice, Hao, Qiang and of course, the main character of the day... ShengXin... i saw them this year before this BBQ/Chalet...

     Its kind of strange as i attending ShengXin's Bday... i feel that we are not close... but yet still close... don't really understand and can't really describe this feeling... But just glad to see them... Xueling & Thomas change till i can ever remembered... most i can easily recognise... this two i think twice before confirming... haha... but i did enjoy myself ba... Catching up with some of the people... and mixing around with people i not so close with.. but somehow... i ended up with Belinda & GuoXin... 3 of us were the quiet lot for the night... as there isn't much topic...

     Names like Zhenquan & Meiyan was brought up... but unfortunately never get to see both of them... as for the rest... i managed to take photos with Eunice, Siang, Qiang, Hao, Belinda & ShengXin... i think this is the first time i took photo with Belinda & ShengXin.. hope i can get the photo soon?

     As for how i feel now? Feeling better even though not much *hmmm...* le... Aris, Twins, HweeLi did give me some encouragement... and even though we tried hard... i guess me and Hang Ming are too identical... hence ... topics of conversation are still not much... although its not supposed to be an excuse... but i guess... there is nothing else for me to describe...

     Currently working on my website... hoping to come out with one before going NS... So i guess, u guys have to wait before the newest version is out?

The Voice Within

     Searching for my EZ-link card... i alighted the bus slightly later... After i finally get the card, scan it... i realised that my friend still on the bus... but how can it be? i thought he alight first? it must be that my bus is right in front... i looked, and yes it is there, i needed to change bus to get home... After saying goodbye to my friend... i boarded the other bus to get home...

     My bus was just in front of his... Minutes later, just before the cross-junction, a loud BOOM was heard... This was the second time... the first time happened while we were still on the same bus and one vehicle behind us, can't remembered what kind, exploded... This time round... it was the bus i just alighted... YES!!! and MY BUDDY/FRIEND ARE STILL IN IT...

     Scared out of my witts... i immediately looked over the other bus... THANK GOD!!! he was perfectly alright... but that was close... as the front part of the bus was totally gone and he sat one seat away from the cracked of the bus... From then on, i realise how a friend can be so important to me... Especially my close friend... even though we do meet each other.. i had never say out how much he can meant to me... i'm sure i feel the same if my other buddy happens the same way....

     Exploding? BOOM? What am i talking about? NEWS never state any explosion... Don't worry, Singapore is still safe... All this happened in my dream... And this was what i am afraid of... why do it happen in my dream? i mean... i know that Singapore was safe at least from explosion... of all kinds of dreams... my brain choses explosion...

     This was considered the first time ever for me to have this kind of dream... was it there to tell me how this buddy is important to me? Not to give up on him? Or telling me... even if i am disappointed, he is someone i treasure deep within me... The Voice Within now telling me how i felt deep inside...

     Two friends disappoint me recently... as i treat them really good... but in the end... this dream only have one of them appear... does it mean that i am really given up hope on the other? Maybe... after months of disappearing... i somehow had already treated the once-close friend of mine had gone... This one that appear is no longer the one i know... Now still recovering from that weird dream of mine...

tick tock tick...

     Time is ticking away... 5mins... 10 mins... 15mins... slightly bored of waiting ... i decided to message them... In the end, they were at the other place... having their lunch le... A little miscommunication had cause all these... and i do have the feeling of returning home to cool off... Can you imagine i almost fall asleep in the MRT station while waiting? In the end, i took the pencil and started to draw on my Checklist...

     I suddenly realise that its been a long time since i last draw something... suddenly realise... i am not living the life i wanted to live in... but i have to no choice as i had adapt... now i feel like living at others' expenses instead of mine... as in... affected in everyway that other people are living in... i somehow feel not original... but still... drawing and singing are my favorite pastime...

     Anyway... i continue to meet them and i tried to lighten my own mood... i guess not totally succeed... but at least i did a little bit... and as i once said... i no longer expect as much as before... i think i am just disappointed now instead of angry... Get most of the army things ready... left with about 5 items to get... and left with packing it into the bag... maybe i tomorrow try whether the bag was big enough...

     Realising this year... i am at my weakest position ever... Yes, when project are due... i have to be strong and strive for the best results... or else other people will suffer because of me... i need to be strong.. so as to motivates others... but who knows all the stories behind all these so-called success? so what if i get As & B for the two projects-based modules?...

     Riez, done up his own website too... which means... i have a place more to surf and lesser time to brood over things... just hope one day i can really find 'the one'... may not be a girl... but someone, maybe a friend, who can truly understand me... and not hurt me...

FROZEN KING You dont want love to come through to you. You like it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you. You are already used to it. You say yourself that you dont need anyone, that you stand on your own two feet or that you dont have time for these things. But in reality you are scared to get hurt. You feel save where you are by yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You invent your own relationship in your dreams. You just need to know that you COULD get a partner. ~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need?~ brought to you by Quizilla

torchlight?.... check

     Next week, i will be officially moving on with the next phase of my life... Hence, i am now preparing the things i need for next week major revolution... *laugh*

     Liquan, WeiPing, Hang Ming and i went on our 'shopping' from AMK all the way to Army Market... We first met in AMK and did go round and round Fairprice... but pushing a trolley in... ended with a trolley empty out... only bought 4 drinks...

     We did get things we needed in Army Market... but i guess we shouldn't have bought the lighter... My brother say its provided... Other than that, we or should i say I bought little items... preparing a checklist... modify from WeiPing one.. and might pass to my bro to double check... before start get things done...

     Later part of the day saw us at Compass Point... After shopping at Cold Storage... We went to Liquan's house to have Hang Ming's Rootbeer Float... and Breadtalk as dinner... its the first time i went there, as in after exams... slightly different feelings ba... coz no longer presurising le...

     Maybe i am just tired... have a heavy feeling... deep in my heart... kind of not able to lift my mood up... just hope that its not a series of bad mood ba... Oh ya... yesterday i receive two friend's compliments that i am handsome *laugh* now le... hmm... am i? *shrug*

mon night

     after weeks of planning... and months of proposing... 7 of us finally met up... it maybe a night without Ms Aljunied or Mdm Ong... its still a memorable night... i guess we are too tired... but i'm sure we all had fun...

     We had our dinner at Kenny Rogers at Suntec City and after that Karaoke Session in K-Box. Yes... FINALLY... the Karaoke Session... most of us were craving for it and it finally happen... *laugh* Most of us change alot...

     Eunice shed about 10Kg and looks better now... much more prettier i guess... She is now looking more professional... many of us notice the change in her... my view? much more latin... *laugh* Liying cut her hair... looks better... she still look as cheerful as before... Diana is forever our DA JIE lar... haha... but now more professional le... Eunice and Diana are pursuing their Degree soon le... and Liying going for NIE... so happy for them...

     The guys had not much difference from the last time we met... Due to en-listment soon... All of them now have longer hair... Qiang, Siang and Hao all look the same... behave the same *erm..* ... ya behave the same... *laugh* But i guess 2-3 years down the road... we will have changes in us...

     We were almost trapped in Suntec... as we left around 3am... hence the Suntec is basically LOCKED... i thought we were going to have some fun looking for exits... but in the end... we found one very soon... bored... *laugh*