2005 Report Card

      Alright... its time to summarise what had happens in 2005... i had always been saying... 2005 is the worst time ever in my whole life... the first time i ever suffer from depression... suffer from so many illness... injured for so many times... all i can say is... its a year i wish to forget ba... though of course there are times when i would love to remember... e.g. JB birthday celebration... i decided to mention only 3 notable incidents and 1 friend...

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     : Most Touching Incident :

It happens during Justin's birthday... i was having some struggle within my heart and i showed some attitude to my friends around me... but yet... they stick through me... on the way to the chalet... i left my handphone on the cab... and when i notice it... the cab had drove off... Jiu Hsiang & Dingze immediately chased after the cab with me... though failed to stop the cab... i managed to get the hp back... i was devastated in losing the phone again... i lost once before this year... hence losing the 2nd would be a hit... yet... Jiu Hsiang & Dingze keep calling my phone hoping the passenger would pick it up... and indeed, she picked up and the cab returned to hand over the phone... Terence & Kok Hong was there too... this incident immediately made me guilty on the way i treated them... they may say its in the past... but its these incidents that make me realise how idiotic i am and how much i should treasure my friends... Thanks guys... Thanks Dz & Jx...

     : Most Disappointing/Hurting Incident :

Losing a buddy that i treasure so much... After losing TH early this year, Jx had been offering helps for us to reconcile... being there for me when i was feeling down... all these had moved my heart... Trying my best to be there for him... making sure everything works well for him and taking care of him whether he really needs anot... but i guess, to him i am over-zealous... maybe a nuisance to him in return... and now i had lost a buddy... lost a friendship... he never really tell me what had happen... hence i could do nothing to salvage this friendship... Its absolutely hurting to lost someone so dear to you... someone you look up to... a brother in your life... i am really hurt... hope things turn around in 2006

     : Friend Of The Year :

Dingze - Though there are many people i would like to thank for doing so much for me... being there to cheer me up when i am down... People like Jianqiang & Kang etc... or Ermei for doing so much for me in the month of December... i would like to thank Dingze for sticking with me through thick & thin... whenever i am down... he pulled me up and assist me to move on... despite my wilfulness & being a nuisance to him... clinging to him... i would never do enough to thank him... Awesome friend... buddy... brother... Simply love him... *muakz* haha...

     : Highlights Of 2005 :

There isn't any really good events for me to be named as highlight... Whatever Teck done for me in Dec & My Birthday gift deserves a nomination ba... but i guess National Day '05/Finale is more amazing ba... After putting so much effort... everything paid off when we successfully performed in front of the National TV/Padang Crowd... in front of Singaporeans... and when you are right under the fireworks during the finale was really amazing... the feelings... the atmosphere... its definitely great... but that makes other fireworks not so interesting le... haha...

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      i guess that i didn't perform enough this year... being a friend... i am sucky... being a worker... i am just having so-so performance... failure to keep 2-3 friendships... causing hurts to people... haiz... but thankfully i salvage one, recovering another... but left one unsolved... so 1W 1D 1L, i guess? haha... average results? i gave myself a D grade for my performance this year ba...

'my brother'

      guess what... i think things are looking better when 2006 is approaching... Though still not as good... maybe its still not the Lunar Year 2006... My discman... newer than the blue one im using now... was spoilt when it was soaked in water when i had a fever during my BMT days... i forget to close my bottle then... hence whole field pack was wet... But it happens to work again just before i decided to throw it away... luckily my dad test it before i discard it... phew~! i had one more Discman in my inventory now... haha...

      It doesn't seem right today... i went to collect my PDL in SSDC, end up the system was down.. haha... so empty handed home... need to wait before i can start my lesson, not to say test... then my left eye keep twitching the whole day... even till a moment ago... as the old saying goes... left eye twitch means something bad will happen... hmm... hopefully not... hopefully is just that i am tired?

      Its been a long time since i dotA... played one game with Dz as he seems busy... and we teamed up to win~! RID POWER UP~!... hoho... its a nice game... long time since i last played online co-op game... After which i continued with the 2004 movie 'My Brother'... and guess what... i was moved to tears... the part one which i watched a few days ago... was still ok... then i watch the second half today... and was eventually touched... oh my god... their acting is superb... No wonder i like Won Bin... haha... not only he handsome... his acting is good too... A must-watch movie... its better to feel it yourself... haha... i cant feel it when Ris told him its a nice movie...

      A bit bored today... that's why i need some games... but guess everyone is busy today... nevermind... since i not feeling well... i shall rest more... maybe book in earlier then... haiz... so lonely right... haha...

My Brothers [2004]

Elder Brother, Sung-hyun

Baby Brother, Jong-hyun

X'mas

      Christmas is finally over... This marks the year 2006 is drawing nearer... its time for me to list out what i have to do in 2006... and my wishes for the upcoming year... 2005... hmm... a bad year indeed...       This year... my Christmas eve was spent with Zhang, Kek, Kang & my buddy Dz... not exciting... not fun... but not bad either... We begin with a Jazz performance at Theatre of The Bay... I thought she was just some local malay girl with a big voice... but i am wrong... Angelita Li is a successful Jazz performance who travelled to many countries... and was hongkonger... want to preview her singing? click here. Here LIVE performance that night sounds better... Though this song did not do any justice to her voice... i think its nice too...

      After meeting up with Zhang... we went over to NYDC outside HMV Orchard... my drink was called e=mc2... a mathematic formula... a weird drink... prefer the rest's coffee... its more fulfilling... this e=mc2 is chocolate soda plus ice-cream... hmm... feel the taste? haha... anyway... we siam all the way to the cafe... we avoid those guys who spray white foam on others... haha... we left around 2am...

      Christmas itself... the shopping was cancelled.. hence, only in the evening, i went over to Eugene place with Teck... which joined by Daniel, their bmt friend... we spent overnight playing games... UNO... and drank a little alcohol... hmm... Eugene & Teck vomits... me? going strong hehe... Teck wasn't feeling well... hope he gets better...

      Until today afternoon, i return home with Teck... took a bath & meet Dz for shopping... Zhang met us around evening... didn't really see any nice clothes.. or should say not really in the mood to choose... maybe too tired or maybe other reasons... hehe... i'm keeping it a mystery... but end up get a Pinkish Shirt... pretty refreshing ba...

we met first @ Esplanade

buddy, dz... under the meteor rain?

ME~! Outside ParkMall...

Beatiful X'mas Orchard

NYDC Chit Chatting

Not enough battery for all to take as one

No Sleep

      Not enough sleep... really... haha... had been working on Proj Xmas till wee hours... slept at 4+am on Thurs night & wake up at 8+am on FRI morning... that's not the end... i went swimming with JB Kakis @ SAFRA Yishun... i wonder is it because of lack of sleep or my fitness drop... i can't really swim much... 10 laps to-and-fro... i get tired le... hmm...

      From buying the materials to preparations to start doing... it took me a hassle to get it done... but its worth the trouble when i look at the end result... pretty satisfying... its simple yet unique... everyone can say that its do-able by a small kid... but i did took time to choose the design leh... this gift is the second design le... i made two... for different person... but hope they like it... as its a non-usuable item... just for display... its the thoughts that counts isn't it?

      Got a reply from Phyo... he is a great guy during our poly days... simply one of the best person... but hey, i won 4 awards beating him twice to be the overall winner ok...? so R-E-S-P-E-C-T, people~!... haha

Tiramisu

      i... am totally touched... and surprised... as i received a gift personally from Teck... after my family's celebration had cancelled... i went out to meet him as i need to shop for materials... but ended up... he gave me a gift... photo albums... i once worked on Project Jx... hence i know how hard it will take... somemore he did it on Sun night till wee hours... ALONE... that time i still have him to help me...

      He did more than he should for my birthday... Getting lots of people to sign my birthday cards... weeks before my 21st birthday... Almost all TCC2 people get their names on the card... then he organise the 11-people JB celebration... now this gift... if i never meet him... he might came all the way to my place to pass to me... Can you imagine... i would have cried immediately... honestly... i am really touched... We spent the last few hours of my birthday at Padang area... eating Breadtalk's Tiramisu cake... we went places to places just to find it lor... its a christmas design cake... but taste sweet at heart... i might not worth the effort he put in... don't deserve so much... thanks...

      After Jxsito's touching testimonials... i never expect more to come... Jin wrote one for me... Thanks guys... I even received Dz's e-greetings... some error caused me to receive 3 instead of 2... one repeated... but the words touch my heart... thanks a million Dz... *muakz* Thanks guys... An honour knowing you guys... Erna's & YaoQiang's greetings were simply icing on the cake...

      Most testimonials in one day... i need to thank all of you... Kek for your bear bear... i love it... Especially Teck... i did not regret in giving myself... and you one more chance... Thanks a million...

i'm... 21

      Arghh~! The day has come... and i am now 21 le... old le... haha... "Wo Bu Xiang, Wo Bu Xiang, Bu Xiang Zhang Da" (extracted from SHE lastest album)... Somehow... i guess its time for me to grow... haha.. in army... all my friends had turned 21... they keep reminding me im 21 le... sad... but its truth... haha..

      I spent my day at BigSplash @EastCoastPark... Trunk2 organising the BN Outing (suppose to be Dinner) there... TCC2 won only Captains' Ball after ULTRA-bad refree-ing... but alright lar... we sportsman ma... unlike TCC1 pc... anyway... first time there... hence a good experience ba... after that i went to modify my Xbox with Dz & Sito... No xbox for me these days...

      Hey... have i really shrunk? Sito being the second person, after Liying whom she said yesterday too, that i had become smaller in size... not really slim down but look 'smaller'... haha... Ly even scared i grow shorter... Don't worry, i'll jump more... hehe... Sito... i'm gaining back weight le... i guess... :x

      Received sms & greetings from some friends... and some testimonial... Sito's the most touching one ba... thanks Sito... Family celebration had cancelled due to some time clashing stuff... don't wish to say about it... but i don't really need it anyway... so... that's about it... haha... c",)

prayers

      it has been the worst year i had ever experience in my whole 21 years... facing lots of misunderstandings... lots of clashes... losing handphones... losing buddy... losing friendships... torturing of souls... mine... and people around me... having lots of injuries... insects bites... gastrics pains... haha... oh ya... the positive thing? i lost lots of pounds too...

      due to all these... i had wanted to go pray when someone important to me suggest it to me... hence the idea keep flashing through my mind... all i could do was to pray at night... im useless... haha.. don't dare to go pray alone lar... so make this someone to go with me... haha... finally, today i went... and even went to, not one but i think, 3? Buddhist, Taoist... both have... Thanks alot... Teck... for accompanying me there... i used all my heart & soul to pray... just hope that my prayers could be answered...

      May or may not happens... at least my mind is having some peace... after that ... suppose to meet Eunice, Siang & Ly... ending up oni a small lunch with ly... as something crops up... for everyone... hmm... a little sad... but not angry... as they all tried... but under such circumstances... nothing could be done, i guess... hehe... time to rest then...

11 Warriors

      9 friends celebrate our birthdays, Edwin's & mine... Pre-organised by TH & then WL... they launched a surprised attack using cakes... i was careful but still cornered... *sigh*

Dec Babies... 4th & 19th...

Edwin, ambushed...

Me, out of my seat...

Eleven of us graced the event...

Bunk One Re-Unites...

TCC2 Group~

7 of the MANY MANY photos...

time to rest

      After three weeks long of exercises... its finally a time for me to rest my heart, body & soul... What do i get from the last exercise? Lots of insects bites... haha... not confirm if its mosquitoes... but definitely lots of bites... those who saw my body had their eyes wide open... haha...

      After much persuasion from Dz... i finally agreed to go for the JB trip... 10 of my friends went... namely Dz, Jx, TH, Jq, Kek, Kang, WL, Edwin, Jack & TERENCE... yes! finally we went out together... alot of times when he went out with the rest, i am not free... this marks the first time ever i went out with him one whole day... plus he sang also... haha... finally...

      As expected... there are some unhappiness over there... but overall its a memorable... many first time was marked (others than those concern about terence)... First time celebrate with so many friends... first time celebrate overseas... first time kana sabo by friends esp. on birthday... first time took picture with Jq? haha... actually quite a number... but hard to list them all... Not really in the mood to sing but somehow persuaded to sing still... haha... but never sing alot... mostly either backup singer or sing a bit and stop... not in the mood... guess, still unable to let go? haha... but definitely trying...

      Touched by what Teck did for me... The cards contains Eugene & Valerie's signature... so kinda surprised... and the gift itself... though Teck say not nice on me... yet it was given as a gift... design different but the style is something i always wanted to try... and the lolipop.... my favorite kind... hard to find these days... Thanks a million, Teck...

      Though like i say... its not a perfect day... or in a perfect mood... but definitely a perfect memory to keep... i will never forget this day...

downsize

      Unbelievable... i am downsized... haha... from a someone whose waist once reached 38... i am able to squeeze into a waist of 31... If my butt is smaller... i might even squeeze into a 30... haha... so surprising... but that means that i must not gained any more pounds... haha... especially the waist... Thanks DZ for advice...

      Yesterday... Met Xinyi for Chicken Little which was joined by JiaHui for lunch... after that we went to Christmas Shopping... They surprised me by getting me a gift package from the BodyShop... guy's range... Did consider whether i should get it... since its not really expensive for BodyShop products... yet its still above my normal product's price ma... Then went to Belinda's birthday chalet... and played GuoXin's PSP... nice game... the dynasty warrior... haha... Had supper in Maxwell... Mutton Soup was a first in my life... never really try before...

      Today... Supposed to be a gathering... but was a little disappointed that HanKeong & Maz was unable to make it... but thankfully still managed to see Maz at her work place... End up, i had lunch with Summer & ShiHui @ Swensen before we went KTV with Ek & Kelton... They surprised me by handing me a gift from ShiHui & card from summer... Then came the cake... Really happy that they celebrate with me... i had been having too many sad periods... so having friends remembering your birthday & celebrate with you... its simply heartwarming...

      haha... actually i tries to keep next week free to see if any friends wanna 'book' me for celebrating.. haha... but SUN is booked by liying le ba... haha...

too much to bear

      Bruises... cuts... insects bites were all over my body... foot rots... pimples outbreak... somehow i was injured... never had time for myself... i had to endure mental torture... wasn't able to get into sleep... due to the same old matter... resulting in chatting with Daniel till 1.15+ am...

      Had been enduring my Det Comm... not really able to endure the way he works and cooperate with him... but fortunately... we did not fumble in front of OC in Kranji... or RSM in Mandai... In Kranji Dam, the whole node outperform ourselves... RID made the timing on the dot... for the first time... 30mins... though im sure we are far from it... but i feel we are getting close... all work hard for Lt Wu sake... for the first time this week... his smile was beaming...

      i don't know what happen to TH again... during Ex Falcon, he mood swing and had a misunderstanding... and after Ex... he simply paired up with Jx again... now 2 V 1.... Great... with so much physical pain... i had Det Com problem... and now back to Jx + TH problem... i am really being tore apart... Thanks to Daniel... i am able to calm myself... if not... i don't know what will happen... but now... i don't wish for anymore things le... they can treat me whatever they want... they only care for themselves... so who cares...

      If this is what you guys want... its not me giving up on friendship... but you guys decide to give it up... stop playing me out... making me suffer... you guys like it, isn't it? enough is enough... no matter how hard i tried... no matter how much i changed... nothing will be enough for you guys... i couldnt care much anymore... one day... i will go beserk...

Photonics gathering

      Photonics class was the surprise surprise group of people... haha... honestly... never had thought that i would still contact with them and still pretty close with them... We met out on SAT... went Mache, Hereen... first time to Marche... Food ok... but i prefer The Village... more variety... A long time since i last saw Joel, Pearly, HanChien etc... Too bad alot of them still couldn't make it there... Upload the 2 pictures we took soon...

      Today is Brother's birthday... so Happy Birthday to him... anyway... just now got a Blackforest cake from Compass Pt's Bengawan Solo... Looks like a christmas cake though... haha... mostly are for Christmas... but this looks most like a normal cake with beautiful outlook... taste not bad...

      Might go camp earlier to catch star awards... hmm... see how ba...

The Night

ShengXin, brother of braddell...

Jo, flew back from Aussie...

Diana, the designer...

Eunice, My god-sis...

Feng, her rare appearance...

the girls & i, after Jo's speech...

One Candid...

Mdm Ong & Ms Aljunied, Great Language Teachers

Braddellites...

prince for one night

      First of the three consecutive exercises... it doesnt seems to start well... Day One, it rains... Day Two, i fall sick... Day Three? We gave up on the vehicle & wait 6hours for the towing vehicle to come by... that's how good Military Vehicles & Services are... Get it? I guess i just tired... need rest... but hey, when will i stop whinning? haha... alright.. alright... i stop here...

      Last night was the farewell dinner to all Braddell, Westlake, Braddell-Westlake Secondary... BWSS had survived 6 years... 4yrs under the color-coordinated Monica Quek... She was simply great... *cough*... anyway... managed to see alot of great teachers like Mdm Ong, Ms Aljunied, Mrs Teo... and oh yes... very respectable Mrs Song...

      A Special Thanks to TH & Dz... TH lend me his full set of clothes... A shirt & jeans... My top went mysteriously missing... its a brand new one, ok? haiz... anyway... TH's clothes seems to do wonders... i wore and let them see... they seems to say that i should wear that kind of clothes... haha... hmm... thanks to them, i looked great last night... they made a prince out of a toad... catching some attention... oOops.. that's a little exagerating... whoever went that night... comment please... haha...

      Thanks Dz, for accompanying me to TH's place & also carried my 1000pound luggages to SengKang... Now still stinking your place isn't it...? i tried to meet up with you earlier... but guess i couldn't due to lunch with another group of friends... i get from you tonight... i owed you guys a BIG one...

      Oh ya... btw... my DVDs, e.g. David's concert, is working fine in DVD player.. just not that suitable for pc ba... but still haha... its dirty & scratchy, the disc...