next stop...

      Moments of sadness has to come to an end... It is time for me to move on. No more tears. i do not think Jeremy will want us to be be sad. He inspires us in a lot of ways. Like what Jannah said during his wake. To me, i had learned to live the dreams... live with more passion... Bring more laughters to people around me... Do what the dead no longer can do... I do hope... i can succeed what Jeremy had left. Continue his fine job well...

      First up, the New Year Countdown. Last year, due to my work commitment & refusal to be an organizer for events, Jeremy was solely in-charge of food while Jocelyn plays the aliasing roles. This year, i decided to take the charge & hopefully can be as good as Jeremy do. He was great as i heard that he single-handedly get all the groceries needed & settle our BBQ. This year, he no longer around to do these chores... I guess, it should be the time i return... *laugh* Back to what i used to do, organize this small gathering. When was the last time i took over from him... hmm... its being Poly class rep in year 2.

      I gained a little bit of experience after co-hosting Feb's & Aug's KW Chalet. Know what food to get, what to avoid... How to choose between cheaper brands etc. I even BBQ myself for the first time in AUG. So December's BBQ will mark my year of return to the field *standing proud*. Alright, enough nonsense. But after a tiresome period of time, i really waiting to enjoy whatever i can. Upcoming HK trip, Dec's BBQ & in-planning Feb's Resort trip... I am downright busy since weeks ago. But i am happily busy. In between, there is Chinese New Year & Army Reservist.

      In short, i changed a little my perspective of life. Aiming to change my mindset a little & hopefully can return to the fun loving self... shedding the uncle image i grown after becoming a leader. *laugh*

Jeremy Goh Tze Xiong (1983-2007)

For the past 3 days, i was feeling lost & trying to maintained my composure. I guess i did well till i saw his photos or having a chat with my various friends through phone. Recapping on poly days, how outgoing or cheerful Jeremy is... it is never easy for us to accept this fact... that he left us.

I guess if you had been reading news or watching it on TV, you should had heard about this freak incident. Yes, it appears in all newspaper headlines for last 3 days. And its unfortunate that my friend was one of them... unfortunate that 5 young lads lads left their family & friends without having their last words. I took a while before i can type this post. One of the deceased is Reuben Kee, whom was representing Singapore as Mr Singapore this year. Apart from Jeremy & Reuben, the rest of them are Mr Chee Wei Cheng, 20, Mr Stephen Loh Soon Ann, 31, and Mr Poh Boon San, 27.

Smiles on Jeremy

Jeremy was always a role model in our poly days. He always fool around and entertained us with his cold jokes or funny movements. Never do we had a minute with him around, feeling bored. Despite his initial hiccups in his studies, he did not give up hope & achieved commendable results. One of the better students who really enjoy life to the fullest. He is our fashion icon too. Never did we see him come to school in repeated clothes, at least for that week. He is popular with everyone, our 1st year class rep, someone who know what he wanted.

He was a fit guy, a passionate dragonboat racer

Reading comments from his friends in the newspapers, i can't control my tears even though i am in MRT. He wanted to have a girlfriend but his schedule between work, trainings & studies simply couldn't allow him to. This incident stopped him from finishing his studies or fulfill his dreams. What hit me the most was... early this month, we were attending a friend's wedding dinner with my poly mates... all laughters & cheers... but now the month ended in a solemn note.

The last toast

We are still talking about the good old days then. How i became their nanny, helping them in studies or even cleaning his vomit on a cabby when he was drunk. Honestly, now, i didn't mind doing it again and again if it could bring him back to us. He is always the joker of our group. After that incident of being drunk, making a fool of himself, he try hard not to get drunk in front of us anymore. Actually, he is a great guy. Someone who can juggle between work & studies, know when to play hard, when to be serious...

 Our last dinner, Yiliang's Wedding

But i guess, i shouldn't be down too much as he may not want us too. i still had to be strong to others who equally shocked. This day will never be the same from now on as... it belongs to our dear friend, Jeremy... At the very least, his body is recovered and will be back in Singapore... and the fact that he leave with honours & passion for his sport. Jeremy, Rest in peace....


The Last Goodbye: Boon San, Jeremy & Reuben I managed to get the 3 NYP Alumna's Profile:
+ Jeremy Goh, 24 click here
   - In remembrance of Jeremy click here
   - A Tribute to Jeremy click here
+ Boon San, 27 click here
+ Reuben Kee, 23 click here
   - His music & profile click here

Obstacles Everyday

      Recently, i faced obstacles and unhappiness almost everyday. I made mistakes at work, having to redo my report due to error at MS Excel etc. I even lost my handphone due to my carelessness... but if i think positively, i should be rather glad that its my phone rather than my mp3 player, though my handphone cost more.

      I wore a jacket that has a pretty shallow pocket. One contains my handphone, the other conatins my mp3. My creative mp3 player, though bought during a promotion, is more valuable as me & my buddy bought it together. Hence i may be more depressed if i lost this. Each own one. As for my phone, i bought it merely two months ago. I was real depress when i found that i, once again, lost my phone... I had been losing phone for a few times, making me feeling rather insecure of getting another one. To get a cheap one, its like pathetic or mistreat myself... To get a good one, how long can i keep it? Losing bits of confidence...

      Thankfully, Rick,Jun Hao & Cai Lei cheered me up. We were on our way to Kbox @Hougang Plaza. Maybe its due to my sadness, i wowed the three with my renditions of those songs i sang. They are pretty impressed that i sound different from 'live' (during work). Throughout the journey, Cai Lei keep on cheering me & consoling me. Haiz... but though i still feel sad over losing of a phone, I felt slightly better after that. Now... only afraid of my getting scolded by my parents.

      All as expected, i get grumbling & 'reminding' from my parents, the minute i stepped home. But it didn't last long though. I believe they feel that i was unhappiness enough le... So they toned down a little. But they still 'reminding' me to go stop the line, ask me where or how i lost it etc. What a nuisance~! But its all over...

      Recently, Cheng Jing injured her leg over some freak incident. Other team leader and more experienced staff had to take over her duties and work OT. Me being the only one available from Team A, will cover her duties for two days. I feel that it may increase IF she are to apply more days to rest. Looking forward for my break in December~!!!

short updates

      Posh hotel. Nice food. But yet average service. This is how i feel after attending the wedding dinner of my classmate, Yiliang's. It is always good to see your friend getting married. Their photos was being displayed there. Hmm... What can you expect from a 5-digits package? The style of the photographer was indeed good. It captures the emotions of the model, opps.. i mean the newly-wed.

      Yiliang is always charming among us, while his wife is a pretty SIA air-stewardess. Hence, we are almost like looking at ads or professionals when viewing the photos. They are a great couple. But somehow or rather, i feel that Yiliang do not seems to be extremely excited. Its just my senses. Anyway, its like a class gathering for us as these group of friends came.

      The ambiance of of the restaurant was great. I am in the mood for love *laugh* Everything was great though its expensive, definitely. But it was a let down by fielding an inexperience staff to serve us. Not only she was slow, she was rough (you can hear the plates when she put down on the glass table)... Her face was dark (as if we killed her parents). Hmm, she should practice more and be more polite should she wants to stay in this line. I would grade her 'F' even if she is a new staff. Totally do not deserve my sympathy.

      I also noticed something. I actually not FAT to that extend of wanting to slim down. Hence, i decided to change my aim from "slimming down" to "shaping my body". I need to begin my training soon after for my IPPT before my window close. Thanks Dingze for being there when i sudden felt uneasy. *muakz*