Stress

     Saturday, i went to karaoke with a group of my friends. i'm pretty glad that they kind of like my voice. I know that i did not sing very well, so i would not be complacent. Just feeling happy, as a few people say my voice sound nice *smile* i sang a few song but i can't really sing well due to the heaty food i eat these few days. Hence, there was a few part which i actually can't sing to the pitch *frown* but overall, it was fun....

     But actually, the feeling this time round is slightly a bit tense... And i confirmed my intuition was right yesterday when ML calls me... Firstly, i sensed the theme of the songs chosen was 'sad love songs'... Then i can sense when they were singing, they looking at me as i was sitting near the TV set, my back faced them... I know you might think that they were looking at the TV instead of me, that's what i told myself. But ML has confirmed it. They were looking at me... *sigh* I made the right choice not to turn back but the wrong choice to sit so front... Sherona also saw the happenings...

     The most stressful moments were when i was singing Jay's "Hei Se You Mo". The whole room was absolutely quiet. i can only hear the voice of myself... Can you imagine? They were like listening attentively at their idol singing. I was like *sigh*... So stressful... The only break of silence came when one part end and i was like taking a deep breath... and lay my head against the seat. They start to say "You need to follow the music and hit the seat?". After that silence again, till one part when one of my friends say, "Wow! He can sing this part. His voice is really nice hor?". She was the one keep saying my voice was nice, as this is the first time 4 of the 6 ppl (excluding me) hear me sing through the mike *smile*. Stress....

	Your Astrological Court Card Knight of Wands Astrological Sign: Sagittarius Element: Fire Personality: outspoken, direct, charismatic, blunt, instinctive, easily bored, subject to wandering Most suitable vocations: athlete, politician, teacher, instructor, philosopher, inventor, musician Most suitable lover or partner: Queen of Swords – Gemini, Libra, Aquarius
	Your Personality Court Card Knight of Cups Element: Water Personality: sensitive, reflective, warm, vulnerable, loving, romantic, imaginative, talkative Most suitable vocations: institution work, self-help organisations, poet, dancer, make-up artist, anything to do with illusion. Most suitable lover or partner: Queen of Pentacles – Capricorn, Virgo, and Taurus

You represent... HAPPINESS.
Boy, are you full of cheer or what...? You have a
sunny disposition and enjoy trying to spread
your happiness. You have a tendency to be a
little hyper, but you have the ability to make
your own fun no matter what.

What feeling do you represent?
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Missing Home...

     Feeling emotional... feeling sad... feeling something missing in my life... If I were allow to choose, I would definitely choose to be with my friends and in school. I do miss NYP, my second home... I miss my brothers and sisters there... I know its kind of childish to say, but who cares? I'm the youngest :p I miss the Nasi Lemak... the environment... the time i spend there (not the exam time lar)... I just MISS HOME!!!

     Of course, I know, there will be a day for me leaving this big family. But I guess, I'm still not really ready for this day. One and a half more months before I 'return' home. Even so, most of my brothers and sisters will be leaving from home. The time we had will be my memories... Even though, sometimes, my wilfulness is a little irritating... They will be there for me... Endure my characters... Maybe I need to learn to be more independant :p Hey! I thought I say I do not want to be emotional this month? Hmm.. let's drop the topic before I cry. *laugh*

     I'm so bored with my work till I go back and play Real Thugz. This will be my 2nd time going back to the game after giving it up twice, each in the last two semesters. But I guess it will not be the same anymore since my 'Kakees' from 'The Professional' are not playing... so I'll be fighting alone. Later meeting my ex-colleagues. Maybe will go watch movies or shopping. But all girls, should be quite boring ba ... *smile* haiz... Girls...

a circle rainbow.A cicle that flows around in
circles.

what type of rainbow are you?
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You are a GOLD dragonrider. A queen atop a queen.
You are levelheaded and steady, always ready to
take charge. You run the wyer with strong
leadership, but also know when to let go and
allow your wyermate to lead.

What Dragon Would You Impress?
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your a good ol' office pen. Happy and dependable.
you've got an optimistic outlook on life and
are down to earth. you either are just
genuinely happy and get along with everyone or
you just don't give a flying noodle what anyone
thinks about you and your different ways. You
rock!

What kind of pen are you?(with pics! oh joy!)
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Sunglasses. Trendy and cute, but oh so practical.
You like to take in your surroundings before
plunging in headfirst!

What Part of a Beach Ensemble Are You?
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Dude, you're Joe! The nice drunk! You truly are
the best drunk of all. I wouldn't worry about
being raped or beaten by you, why...I'd take
you home and do it myself! Joe, you rock!

Which Drunk Are You!? (Mostly for guys...)
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Chicken OR Egg

     Chicken & Egg, which came first? haha... a lame but interesting questions which no one have the answer, isn't it? No matter how researchers research, its seems that there is no solid base explanation. But life is the same, isn't it? Sometimes we don't seems to get the answers to our questions. Of course, Egg is an answer... Chicken is also an answer. But Man will not accept things which does not have proof. Scientists, researchers only accept things that have been scientifically proven. They don't even believe in Spiritual.

     There are many questions in my head. No one can provide me satisfying answers. They can tell me what to do, whom to be with, who to ask... But i still don't accept the answer. No not that i stubborn. But i just somehow need more convincing answer isn't it? i believe that only when the time is ripe, the answers will float up in my mind... Till then queries after queries... questions after questions...

     Currently still trying to get my database done. I have a feeling that I CAN DO IT. But something is just not right. I can't seems to focus on my work or there isn't a motivation i guess, or maybe, i'm distracted by the stuff i'm more interested in... Hmm... As for dinner, Chicken Or Egg?