easing tension

     After months of shunning, today i managed to talk more with Weiliang le... After that incident... i seldom talk to him... so did he... at most one or two sentence job-related stuff he need to tell me or vice versa... but i guess... it all ended today... Of course, its hard for me to treat him the way i used to... but i guess i am already taking a big step out of the shadow of that incident...

     Its my last day of work and his belated birthday lunch... hence we joint-treated Jia Hui, Mei Ling and Xinyi some dishes... not very full, but i think ok le ba... not too bad either...

     I did not open counter today. i was in the Chief Cashier Room doing paper works, counting money and of course, carrying plastic bags etc... Meiling did one or two transactions as she was cleaning the counters and cashier rooms... while me and Weiliang cleared the Plastic bags etc before he helped ML...

     Everyone there wishes me luck etc... when its time for me to leave, i have to... so i guess, i have to learn to let go... i would be back... surely... at least a few days later :x to return my uniform etc...

     As usual... doing nothing online apart from usual email checking, friendster checking... getting bored... Feeling slightly relieved as two person had return me my money le... one was a draggy one.. the other was like "sure..." and my money was back...

How Bad Is Your Temper?

SAGITTARIUS (November 22 - December 20)

You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You're also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you're upset with them.

House : Brown
Being a sensible person, you prefer to research any situation before taking action. You don't trust anyone's opinion but your own. You handle your money carefully and accumulate it in small, but secure, increments.

Shirt : Blue
Preferring a more casual appearance, you are more comfortable in jeans and a t-shirt than in a suit. You don't like over dressing for any occasion, although you never look scruffy.

Rose : Red
You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life. You are more comfortable talking about work than relationships.

Car : Black
In your mind, the image your friends have of you is very important. You like to have the latest brands and are prepared to invest a lot of your money in quality and expensive possessions.

Handphone : Grey/Silver
You are very sociable! You are the center of attention and have great stories to tell. But this often prevents from establishing deep relationships.

TeddyBear : Pale Brown (Beige)
You are very considerate. Friendship is the world to you, and you are friends with everyone. Be careful, as sometimes this works against you if you are too trusting.

Colour Personality Test

TYPE C

> Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance
> power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in
> social life but seems that no one will talk bad about
> you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
> always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every
> person differently. To look at the bright side, you
> adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack
> of character, although you are one big nice guy but
> you lack of charm. On the surface, you havr a lot of
> friends but once you have troubles, you lack of
> soulmates to help you around. You must try to express
> yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you
> can understand yourself more.

::Steamboat Personality Test::

ShengXin's Chalet

     Ms Chee, Meifen, Xueling, Kaiyi, HanWei, Thomas, Diana... All these names are people i almost see them for the first time after last year's chalet or even worst... after many years... Others like Shuyi, Hong Ching, GuoXin, Belinda, Siang, Eunice, Hao, Qiang and of course, the main character of the day... ShengXin... i saw them this year before this BBQ/Chalet...

     Its kind of strange as i attending ShengXin's Bday... i feel that we are not close... but yet still close... don't really understand and can't really describe this feeling... But just glad to see them... Xueling & Thomas change till i can ever remembered... most i can easily recognise... this two i think twice before confirming... haha... but i did enjoy myself ba... Catching up with some of the people... and mixing around with people i not so close with.. but somehow... i ended up with Belinda & GuoXin... 3 of us were the quiet lot for the night... as there isn't much topic...

     Names like Zhenquan & Meiyan was brought up... but unfortunately never get to see both of them... as for the rest... i managed to take photos with Eunice, Siang, Qiang, Hao, Belinda & ShengXin... i think this is the first time i took photo with Belinda & ShengXin.. hope i can get the photo soon?

     As for how i feel now? Feeling better even though not much *hmmm...* le... Aris, Twins, HweeLi did give me some encouragement... and even though we tried hard... i guess me and Hang Ming are too identical... hence ... topics of conversation are still not much... although its not supposed to be an excuse... but i guess... there is nothing else for me to describe...

     Currently working on my website... hoping to come out with one before going NS... So i guess, u guys have to wait before the newest version is out?

The Voice Within

     Searching for my EZ-link card... i alighted the bus slightly later... After i finally get the card, scan it... i realised that my friend still on the bus... but how can it be? i thought he alight first? it must be that my bus is right in front... i looked, and yes it is there, i needed to change bus to get home... After saying goodbye to my friend... i boarded the other bus to get home...

     My bus was just in front of his... Minutes later, just before the cross-junction, a loud BOOM was heard... This was the second time... the first time happened while we were still on the same bus and one vehicle behind us, can't remembered what kind, exploded... This time round... it was the bus i just alighted... YES!!! and MY BUDDY/FRIEND ARE STILL IN IT...

     Scared out of my witts... i immediately looked over the other bus... THANK GOD!!! he was perfectly alright... but that was close... as the front part of the bus was totally gone and he sat one seat away from the cracked of the bus... From then on, i realise how a friend can be so important to me... Especially my close friend... even though we do meet each other.. i had never say out how much he can meant to me... i'm sure i feel the same if my other buddy happens the same way....

     Exploding? BOOM? What am i talking about? NEWS never state any explosion... Don't worry, Singapore is still safe... All this happened in my dream... And this was what i am afraid of... why do it happen in my dream? i mean... i know that Singapore was safe at least from explosion... of all kinds of dreams... my brain choses explosion...

     This was considered the first time ever for me to have this kind of dream... was it there to tell me how this buddy is important to me? Not to give up on him? Or telling me... even if i am disappointed, he is someone i treasure deep within me... The Voice Within now telling me how i felt deep inside...

     Two friends disappoint me recently... as i treat them really good... but in the end... this dream only have one of them appear... does it mean that i am really given up hope on the other? Maybe... after months of disappearing... i somehow had already treated the once-close friend of mine had gone... This one that appear is no longer the one i know... Now still recovering from that weird dream of mine...

tick tock tick...

     Time is ticking away... 5mins... 10 mins... 15mins... slightly bored of waiting ... i decided to message them... In the end, they were at the other place... having their lunch le... A little miscommunication had cause all these... and i do have the feeling of returning home to cool off... Can you imagine i almost fall asleep in the MRT station while waiting? In the end, i took the pencil and started to draw on my Checklist...

     I suddenly realise that its been a long time since i last draw something... suddenly realise... i am not living the life i wanted to live in... but i have to no choice as i had adapt... now i feel like living at others' expenses instead of mine... as in... affected in everyway that other people are living in... i somehow feel not original... but still... drawing and singing are my favorite pastime...

     Anyway... i continue to meet them and i tried to lighten my own mood... i guess not totally succeed... but at least i did a little bit... and as i once said... i no longer expect as much as before... i think i am just disappointed now instead of angry... Get most of the army things ready... left with about 5 items to get... and left with packing it into the bag... maybe i tomorrow try whether the bag was big enough...

     Realising this year... i am at my weakest position ever... Yes, when project are due... i have to be strong and strive for the best results... or else other people will suffer because of me... i need to be strong.. so as to motivates others... but who knows all the stories behind all these so-called success? so what if i get As & B for the two projects-based modules?...

     Riez, done up his own website too... which means... i have a place more to surf and lesser time to brood over things... just hope one day i can really find 'the one'... may not be a girl... but someone, maybe a friend, who can truly understand me... and not hurt me...

FROZEN KING You dont want love to come through to you. You like it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you. You are already used to it. You say yourself that you dont need anyone, that you stand on your own two feet or that you dont have time for these things. But in reality you are scared to get hurt. You feel save where you are by yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You invent your own relationship in your dreams. You just need to know that you COULD get a partner. ~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need?~ brought to you by Quizilla

torchlight?.... check

     Next week, i will be officially moving on with the next phase of my life... Hence, i am now preparing the things i need for next week major revolution... *laugh*

     Liquan, WeiPing, Hang Ming and i went on our 'shopping' from AMK all the way to Army Market... We first met in AMK and did go round and round Fairprice... but pushing a trolley in... ended with a trolley empty out... only bought 4 drinks...

     We did get things we needed in Army Market... but i guess we shouldn't have bought the lighter... My brother say its provided... Other than that, we or should i say I bought little items... preparing a checklist... modify from WeiPing one.. and might pass to my bro to double check... before start get things done...

     Later part of the day saw us at Compass Point... After shopping at Cold Storage... We went to Liquan's house to have Hang Ming's Rootbeer Float... and Breadtalk as dinner... its the first time i went there, as in after exams... slightly different feelings ba... coz no longer presurising le...

     Maybe i am just tired... have a heavy feeling... deep in my heart... kind of not able to lift my mood up... just hope that its not a series of bad mood ba... Oh ya... yesterday i receive two friend's compliments that i am handsome *laugh* now le... hmm... am i? *shrug*

mon night

     after weeks of planning... and months of proposing... 7 of us finally met up... it maybe a night without Ms Aljunied or Mdm Ong... its still a memorable night... i guess we are too tired... but i'm sure we all had fun...

     We had our dinner at Kenny Rogers at Suntec City and after that Karaoke Session in K-Box. Yes... FINALLY... the Karaoke Session... most of us were craving for it and it finally happen... *laugh* Most of us change alot...

     Eunice shed about 10Kg and looks better now... much more prettier i guess... She is now looking more professional... many of us notice the change in her... my view? much more latin... *laugh* Liying cut her hair... looks better... she still look as cheerful as before... Diana is forever our DA JIE lar... haha... but now more professional le... Eunice and Diana are pursuing their Degree soon le... and Liying going for NIE... so happy for them...

     The guys had not much difference from the last time we met... Due to en-listment soon... All of them now have longer hair... Qiang, Siang and Hao all look the same... behave the same *erm..* ... ya behave the same... *laugh* But i guess 2-3 years down the road... we will have changes in us...

     We were almost trapped in Suntec... as we left around 3am... hence the Suntec is basically LOCKED... i thought we were going to have some fun looking for exits... but in the end... we found one very soon... bored... *laugh*