good night rest

      Awaiting for the ARMAS... but end up there isn't any today... Hope tomorrow also don't have... its contradicting feeling... if it happens... im happy too... as i would not need to do another house visit next time round... but if not activated... i can rest at home playing with the rest WC3... watching my shows... and focusing on my project for that someone special to me...

     My ankle is not showing much sign of recovery... i think would not be able to do much exercise for next few days at least... have little difficulty in walking but must be a rather slow pace... the pain is still endurable... haha... so don't worry... even if its painful... i will not show you guys my painful face... haha... Terence even thought that my leg was not that painful... haha... i learnt to cover up so as not to let them worry...

      Got to sit in Dz's car... erm... his dad's... driving VERY safe... which is good... Singapore needs good driver... Dz, you can relax more... its an honour to sit in your vehicle right after you get your license... even you say i accompany you... its you provide me with company too... and transport home...

      i was feeling very happy now... hehe... 'cos he finally did talk to me like usual le... showing care too... i thought he wouldn't care about me anymore... haha... small kids huh? hmph~! We talk through msn & in game... but at least we did communicate... so i am very glad, excited & relieved... haha... i am sure i'll get a good sleep... Nitez...

sprained leg

      Got injured on the second day of the week... hmm... SOC... sibei jialat... i want to train and pass SOC... but somehow i injured myself... my landing was poor... not knowing why... couldn't concentrate... and end up slowing down at the high ramp... Maybe not enough sleep... maybe having other thoughts...? i don't know... but i did injured... Now limping around... Don't worry... it did get slightly better & i receive treatment from Sinseh already... though doesn't seems to be VERY effective... but let's observe for next few days...

      Was kinda worried for Jx's tooth... especially he didn't say much to me... but since he just now sms say "not a major problem"... i'm more an xin le... mei shi jiu hao... Don't wish to have him follow my footstep... i have weak teeth... the feeling is awful... whoever undergoes root canal treatment before would feel me... Its definitely not something that those healthy people can imagine... argh... my appointment is on 25th Nov, i think...

      Thx Dz for accompanying me once again to Toa Payoh for the Sinseh... Hmm... tomorrow hope that 3DIV will not be activated... haha... or else... i would have a busy time... Till then... back to gaming with Jin, Jx & friend, Dz...

a complete day

      a rather busy day... haha... i am all around Singapore... From Thomson to Hougang to SengKang to Punggol... Visited 8 Houses (never enter though)... 1 Sports Hall & one Shopping Center...

      Meet JiaHui, XY, YY, LY for FairPrice @ Thomson Plaza visit... Vivian, Weiliang & LaiHong still working there... too bad never get to see Annie & Iris... hmm... YY say i look pale... Susan say i look better last time... haha.. with more flesh... hmm... all found me getting thinner... am i? hmm... Do miss the place... hmm... too bad i don't think i'll return anymore... as a worker lar...

      After that... Hougang Sports Hall... played badminton with WP, HM & Allan... all very pro... i am the only one who still cant 'smack' haha... and a number of misses... i saw my own weak points... haha... CLC & FP went there do nothing... haha... never play at all... strange... but of course, they didn't pay for the Courts... hmmm a very nice 3h session... looking forward for more...

      The worst thing of the day was the 3h cycling... i went to 8 houses for the NSmen Recall thingy... and only managed to get 2 signature on my first 'shift'... then i went home almost knocked out... to have my dinner at 8+pm... before my sister drove me to the final 3 places... In the end... i get 4 signatures... 1 tomorrow birthday and turning 40... no need recall, so i never go his place... 4 not available at home for SAT/SUN... and 1 Champion who MIA... that one i don't know how...

     i know Jx complete his task too... which is good... wonder if kang complete too... me failed to complete... with one MIA... sianz... All kind of people i met... some changes here and there... haiz... but anyway... at least its over... :x

heartfelt

      Finally, the course had came to an end... Adv. MSET... a ITE paper... hmm... think have a few mistakes... but passing shouldn't be a problem... managed to concentrate on the paper... though i still feel like vomiting even till afternoon... haiz...

      Went Chong Pang for Nasi Lemak with Terence, Jq, Dz & Kek... not too bad lar... though Dz say Punggol taste better... After that i had free 'dumplings' from Ek's mum... haha... Not bad... After that we went to meet Summer & friends... for ktv... sing a few song before took a cab & rush back home... as i promise Kang & Jx for a game of Warcraft... but it seems too late after i finish patching... played awhile... which we did not even finish a game... sad... i guess its fated... wonder if i am the one that lag them... hmm...

      Told Jq & Dz about how i feel on 'the actions' but of course, nothing was expected from them... as they respect my actions... hence never really react that strongly... hmm... so im still feeling ok... and Thx Jin for the wonderful AfterEight chocolate... sweet in the mouth... warmth in the heart... haha... i do need something then... and that is the one...

sick

      Today's MSET was pretty boring... learn little... but get to drive LR for awhile when troubleshooting another 3 LR... stayed in the air-con room for almost the whole day...

      Not feeling well in the morning... Not knowing why... but feel like vomiting... or i actually did vomit... once... i keep drinking water to keep myself 'clear'... but i went to toilet countless times... haha... i guess water keep your urine 'clear' too... Not much appetite... i guess i am sick ba...

      Just installed Frozen Throne (thanks to Jx), Red Alert 2 (thanks to Dz)... but as for Yuri's Revenge... i don't have the CD-key... hence not installed yet...

      Things seems to be ongoing for awhile... had been forcing myself to look normal... but i guess, i succeed... haha... or at least do look normal ba... i tried to keep myself busy so as not to think too much... but when i'm back alone... thoughts began pouring in again...

first day

      First day of Adv. MSET and i felt sian already... we were seated ard 8am and only begin to move into groups around 9am... which is a wastage of time... not enough rest as this Adv. MSET's environment had totally changed, compared to Basic MSET... All instructor, apart from two, are new faces... pretty strict rules are enforced... i feel there are pros & cons though... shalln't elaborate that...

      At times, i felt that what's the point of clearing your unhappiness when there is no turning of events... hmm... sometimes disappointment will result in having lesser motivation to ask question ba... if a student ask 10 questions to a teacher & the teacher in return failed to reply any of them... Do you think a student will ask again? if i am the student... i'll simply keep quiet...

      Feeling the problem lies in me... what can i do? Since i observed that no matter how much i said... things will improve only for the following two days... and no more... i guess its the CSM case... maybe its just me... so if myself did not change... i will feel that all around me wasn't what i wanted it to be... feeling tired yet no mood for sleep... need to force myself again...

      Perhaps... just that he or they don't really cares...

flames

      Just two days in Jurong... Booked out for Adv. MSET in Sembawang Camp for the next 3 days... will be staying out... Before booking out, we had Detachment lessons... TSD most tiring as their lesson was directly after SOC... RID? only stress as CO came over and have a look follow by a 'why RID is important' talk... hmm...

      SOC was indeed tiring... especially with Gortex... and two full bottles... you can 'feel' it... At first i wanted to have a run when i reached home... but seems that i was not having the mood... maybe tiredness and mini things that happen in camp makes me lose morale ba...

      Different people have different characters and hence deal things differently... what i view as actions that i use being closer to the person end up become a taboo action... hmm... sound ironic? hmm... for those who know me... i always place my hand at another person shoulder (seldom on girls though) but i guess to a small group of people... i am actually killing their 3 flames... its some chinese saying... Reason given as pan-dang... maybe i shall stop the motion ba... and keep my hands to myself...

      Even though what Terence may be right... saying that they are just joking... but it seems like its for real... so i guess i can only be unhappy within myself ba... sian... don't know what to say lar... just feeling down... disappointed... whatever...

      Need to go and visit 10 NSmen houses stretching from Yio Chu Kang Rd to Punggol... on SAT's 8-10pm... can i do it? hope so...

gathering

      Qiang's grandparent's place was pretty easy to find but due to the inadequate description... haha... but thankfully, i had a mild impression about the location... so i can ask my dad to stop at the junction before making a U-turn and head back to search for it...

      Singapore was indeed small... i saw my attachment partner from NYP who happens to be in the same camp with Qiang... and they also know Alvin... my Jaguar's section mate... Its been a long time since we last met... so i guess its nice to see them again... Afterwhich, we went to Ktv @ Cuppage till 4am... its really very tiring... Anyhow, i think my voice & Hanwei's compliment each other... nice and harmonious... now i could still feel the tiredness...

      Then went to meet Photonics people... haha... My study budz... All are clever ass... oOops... i mean smart people... HM, CLC & gf, WP, FP & one of their friend, WH.... We watch the movie starring Karen Mok & Andy Lau... not bad actually ... pretty touching... a few of us almost cried... haha... Anyhow... the kids are simply cute... haha.. especially the one acting like andy & his little brother.... After that we had a few pool games before i leave them... They are pretty good... me? simply lucky... haha...

      Alright... need to go le... need to entertain my young little cousin, Berwin le...

Children Day

      its Children Day... so... HAPPY CHILDREN DAY~! its been 10 years since i last celebrate Children Day... haha... can still remember those times we get off during school day and celebrate in Hall as a school... haha... oh ya... Happy Birthday, Qiang... going Qiang's celebration later...

      Everything had turned out to be fine... things had been sorted out... hence i am feeling so much more relieved and glad... pretty happy now... hehe... silly me, isn't it?! Sorry... but that's simply me... haha... Though still feeling a little weak & stomach not really recovered... but i guess i'm feeling better le... my eye's condition has not improve yet... think it will take some days...

      Busy burning out songs or anime out from pc... 'cos pc disk space low... haha... still wonder we don't have much game... and why is the pc lack of space... Minusing the anime... hmm... where is the rest of the 10GB space? haha... me just s**ks in everything...

      Alright... preparing to go to Qiang's grandma's place le...

Lonely

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo, this one here goes out to all my players out there man, ya know
Got to have one good girl whose always been there man like, ya Know
Took all the bullshit then one day
She cant take it no more and decides to leave
I wont up in the middle of the night
And I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,
Coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was deenin,
So I hadda take a little ride,
Back tracking over these few years,
Trying figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
'Cos ever since my girl left me,
My whole left life came crashin'...

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl)

Can't believe I had a girl like you
And I just let you walk right out of my life,
After all I put u thru u still stuck around and stayed by my side,
What really hurt me is I broke ur heart,
Baby you were a good girl and I had no right,
I really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl...

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl)

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl
that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run
And I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be,
Aint noone in the globe id rather see
Then the girl of my dreams that made me be
So happy but now so lonely...

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl...)

Never thought that id be alone,
I didnt hope you'd be gone this long,
I jus want u to come home,
so stop playing girl and Come on home come on home,
baby girl I didn't mean to shout,
I want me and you to work it out,
I never wished Id ever Hurt my baby,
and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own girl...)

Lonely... so lonely
So lonely... so lonely
Mr. Lonely... so lonely
So lonely... so lonely
So lonely, Mr. Lonely...