nothing to be happy about

      Yeah~! i did pass my adv. theory... but not as happy as i thought i might be... almost lost my hp... At first, i thought it was in my dad's car... so i did make a call (no one pick up)... before entering the room for test... but when i finish one round... i suddenly feel that it is by the road side... there is a possibility since my parents never pick up the call... hence, i panicked...

      Trying to finish fast & check fast... after i confirm i finish the test & pass... i rushed out to the road side & discover my lost hp... i was happy after that.. not for the test but for the phone... most wish me all the best & congrats me while i pass... but some, disappointingly, seems not amused or doesn't care at all... giving comments that you thought they might say for the sake of saying... its sad case but i could do nothing about it... hence my spirit was brought down a little...

      After which i went IKEA with Jin... there we had lots of misjudgement and end up wasting alot of time trying to get transport.... No cab... we ended up in mrt... we had enough time wasting le... haha... Jin get the required stuff le... though short of one item in his shopping list...

      Still not feeling very well... emotionally & physically... might go and see a doctor tomorrow... we'll see how...

nuttin much

      Rested the whole day at home... Enjoy some dotA session with Jx... KH, Fab... get to learn a new hero... as usual... i am the weakest link... haha... but trust me... i try to improve le... and is trying very hard... at least my death rate decreased and i did had one or two kill? haha...

     Jianxin seems to have fallen sick... Must take care leh... these days... people keep falling sick... Watched Naruto 157... a little lame and this episode contains a little bit of humor elements... so i guess i shouldnt be complaining, huh?

      Wondering who had actually come my blog often and how often they came... suddenly have that thinking... haha... i guess you guys should post more message in my tagboard... haha...

Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be the way
You are exactly
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
'Cause there's nothin' 'bout you I would change
Whatever you want to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
'Cause there's nothin' 'bout you I would change
Reach down inside
The love you find
Will set you free
You'll come out right
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through
You were someone else
You were meant to be the way (you were meant to be)
You are exactly
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself (love yourself)
You're better of by far
'Cause there's nothin' of you I would change (change)
No there's nothin' 'bout you I would change(Don't change)
Don't you ever say
And I hope you always stay the same
I think that you could be
Don't you ever wish
Don't you ever say
And I hope you always stay the same
Believe in yourself
Believe in yourself
Don't you ever wish
Don't you ever say
And I hope you always stay the same(Stay the same)

sentosa champs

      Today is our Coy Outing @ Sentosa... everybody is complaining before any games... but when the game start... we are fully involved and hoping to do the best out of it... N39 man managed to win the first game while the whole node won the second game to emerge as overall champion... its rather fun...

      its been a long time since i last had so much fun... during our free time... we played frisbie in Captain's Ball style... and beach vollyball... some of them play water polo too... Lots of laughter... enjoyment... a group of us even play with a group of Sec1 girls vollyball team... managed to trash them in second game... haha...

      i did enjoy today despite the fact that i must get myself invovle in activities in order to forget all other woes... i can't be alone... thankfully... most of the time... Specialists ask me to join them... they keep me company in swimming and games... so thankful to them... and MR WU never even get into water... hmph~! never suntan with me also... don't friend him le... hmph~!behind all these enjoyment... i suffer a little... had slightly sprained my leg again... hopefully its alright... haha... i guess no one saw it... this shows my acting not bad... if i let PC/PS know... i jialat le... i still need to train SOC de...

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Xiang(Jx),

      Had been thinking a long time... it seems like we had been drifting apart in the real world... the only time when i feel that you treat me as your buddy or close friend is when we are in the dotA world... why couldn't we be that lively or chat happily in the real world... maybe we are both too comfortable in our own area... our own world... i guess i had never been into your world... Jx, if you did see my blog... i guess you should know how i felt all these while... hope you open up to me more... and bring this virtual world to the real life... i'm really struggling... but what's consoling is... i guess, u are living a happy life... that's good...

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inferior

      what a week... apart from thinking about friendship... i had illness to think about... Teeth... Ankle... then came the vomiting part... haiz... not knowing why... simply feel like vomiting during the Guard Duty on Mon... and its been like that since... not having good appetite too... not sure of the reason... slightly better... Dz use my lines to shoot me to see a doctor... guess i had to if i still not well by Friday...

      Haven't been studying my advance theory... must start soon... haha... do the questionaire from Dz's book... Hope to clear it once and for all... even though i had a feeling that its gonna repeat what had happened during military lessons... i pass all theory in one take... but driving practical took me 6 times... and the sixth time is the last time... haiz...

      Feeling more and more inferior nowadays... had not been doing very well... i try to show my care and did not really felt appreciated at times... but its ok lar... since i do feel ashame from what i did to him or them last time... like what i told Dz... i could & would only blame myself for how things been turning out...

      A month of inactiveness in exercises... i am afraid of failing both SOC & IPPT... seeing others working so hard for SOC... making me ashame... all i did was stay in bunk or at the ending point... haiz... i guess i won't get to pass it... but i will definitely work hard... hope the rest could help to motivate me or pace me then... don't know why... feeling more and more inferior these days... maybe due to what i see and what i feel... too late to update now... maybe will update about this incident another day...

advance theory

      Last night had a meet up with Jenson, Twins, Ris & Long... ended up 4am then leave... they don't let me go due to 'some reasons' and ended not playing dotA... haha... sad leh... what to do... haiz...

      i went to book Adv. Theory or Final Theory this morning... guess what... There wasn't any long queue... so not much waiting... then when i booked... someone had withdraw from the 30th Oct test date... ended up, i took the slot... Others wait for 2 months just for the test... me? 9 days... must buck up soon... Everything just been pretty smooth... Dz, thanks for accompanying me there...

      After which i went to get something for the someone special... haha... the 'Project Special' is for that someone... his birthday is round the corner... hope he like what me & my friends had been planning to give him... haha... the idea first came 1-2 months before the actual day...

      Not much dotA today... but did play FIFA with Dz... having fun but no communication... hmm... due to no such function... my sis using the pc now... update another time ba...

weakling me

      JD4 is an unforgettable experience for me as a driver... i drove Land Rover, not the aircon one mind you... and had a number of problem... almost has a wheel down a steep drain & crashing into a wall... Of course, its not the normal road that i was travelling but the cross country road... i guess i had scared 2Lt Wu out of his wits... haha... i'm definitely shakened... Rover simply couldn't went up slope & even had smoke in numerous occassion omiting an unpleasant burning smell... But seems nothing was burnt...

      Due to my ankle injury... i was still not able to participate in any SOC training... when i saw Jx & TH doing it with their hearts out... i simply felt so out of place... i wanted to join them... but i couldn't... hence a little sad... but all i could do for them is taking care of them... making sure they are alright & keeping an eye on their rifle... Jx & TH... u guys are great... even though might not meet SOC passing timing YET... but in my heart... you guys are the champions... haha... My hearts goes with you guys...

      Last week's dotA seems to be laggy when i play in KR's server... even though i get assurance & encouragement from Jx... i still decide to quit after 'holding on the line & staying with him'.... haha...

      Was happy that he initiate chat with me... everything is like slowly back into place... although might not be like the rest... but i'm contented... meeting hao, wen, jenson & ris for a movie... hmm.. wonder if ris's 2 friends are friendly...

good night rest

      Awaiting for the ARMAS... but end up there isn't any today... Hope tomorrow also don't have... its contradicting feeling... if it happens... im happy too... as i would not need to do another house visit next time round... but if not activated... i can rest at home playing with the rest WC3... watching my shows... and focusing on my project for that someone special to me...

     My ankle is not showing much sign of recovery... i think would not be able to do much exercise for next few days at least... have little difficulty in walking but must be a rather slow pace... the pain is still endurable... haha... so don't worry... even if its painful... i will not show you guys my painful face... haha... Terence even thought that my leg was not that painful... haha... i learnt to cover up so as not to let them worry...

      Got to sit in Dz's car... erm... his dad's... driving VERY safe... which is good... Singapore needs good driver... Dz, you can relax more... its an honour to sit in your vehicle right after you get your license... even you say i accompany you... its you provide me with company too... and transport home...

      i was feeling very happy now... hehe... 'cos he finally did talk to me like usual le... showing care too... i thought he wouldn't care about me anymore... haha... small kids huh? hmph~! We talk through msn & in game... but at least we did communicate... so i am very glad, excited & relieved... haha... i am sure i'll get a good sleep... Nitez...

sprained leg

      Got injured on the second day of the week... hmm... SOC... sibei jialat... i want to train and pass SOC... but somehow i injured myself... my landing was poor... not knowing why... couldn't concentrate... and end up slowing down at the high ramp... Maybe not enough sleep... maybe having other thoughts...? i don't know... but i did injured... Now limping around... Don't worry... it did get slightly better & i receive treatment from Sinseh already... though doesn't seems to be VERY effective... but let's observe for next few days...

      Was kinda worried for Jx's tooth... especially he didn't say much to me... but since he just now sms say "not a major problem"... i'm more an xin le... mei shi jiu hao... Don't wish to have him follow my footstep... i have weak teeth... the feeling is awful... whoever undergoes root canal treatment before would feel me... Its definitely not something that those healthy people can imagine... argh... my appointment is on 25th Nov, i think...

      Thx Dz for accompanying me once again to Toa Payoh for the Sinseh... Hmm... tomorrow hope that 3DIV will not be activated... haha... or else... i would have a busy time... Till then... back to gaming with Jin, Jx & friend, Dz...

a complete day

      a rather busy day... haha... i am all around Singapore... From Thomson to Hougang to SengKang to Punggol... Visited 8 Houses (never enter though)... 1 Sports Hall & one Shopping Center...

      Meet JiaHui, XY, YY, LY for FairPrice @ Thomson Plaza visit... Vivian, Weiliang & LaiHong still working there... too bad never get to see Annie & Iris... hmm... YY say i look pale... Susan say i look better last time... haha.. with more flesh... hmm... all found me getting thinner... am i? hmm... Do miss the place... hmm... too bad i don't think i'll return anymore... as a worker lar...

      After that... Hougang Sports Hall... played badminton with WP, HM & Allan... all very pro... i am the only one who still cant 'smack' haha... and a number of misses... i saw my own weak points... haha... CLC & FP went there do nothing... haha... never play at all... strange... but of course, they didn't pay for the Courts... hmmm a very nice 3h session... looking forward for more...

      The worst thing of the day was the 3h cycling... i went to 8 houses for the NSmen Recall thingy... and only managed to get 2 signature on my first 'shift'... then i went home almost knocked out... to have my dinner at 8+pm... before my sister drove me to the final 3 places... In the end... i get 4 signatures... 1 tomorrow birthday and turning 40... no need recall, so i never go his place... 4 not available at home for SAT/SUN... and 1 Champion who MIA... that one i don't know how...

     i know Jx complete his task too... which is good... wonder if kang complete too... me failed to complete... with one MIA... sianz... All kind of people i met... some changes here and there... haiz... but anyway... at least its over... :x