December Child

You think its true for me?

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* Loyal and generous
* Patriotic
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Ambitious
* Influential in organizations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialize
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
* Logical

Extract from FW emails...

not me?

      Do you find it strange? One week holiday and i did not update my blog everyday like i used to...? this week have been an uneven week for me... emotionally... lots of ups & downs... i have been to extreme ends... from most happy day in recent months... to the most disheartening times... but now i'm recovering le... and ready to blog again...

      Had been busy doing the project... rushing to do it... and whilst doing it... i face the emotional struggle... haha... doing this project brought me many happy memories which made me more sad... of what had happens after those fond events... thankfully, i had someone by my side... encouraging me... giving me pointers... helping me through these times... and finishing 33% of the project le... by tomorrow should be able to finish all... no dotA for me tomorrow... haha...

      This week not much events.. only on SUN i went swimming with my SI platoon mates... N33/39/35.... i enjoy that day... its my happiest times... honestly... whoever know me well, know that i won't lie... we played around... even though i injured myself sligltly when i was swimming too vigorously alone... its worth it... i get back what i thought had lost... i simply can't hide my happiness... that day... till night... everything was fine...

      We played bowling... ended up very stress... 'cos no one supports me... they say i from NYPBC... so all want to win me.. of course they did... i was under-performing... no one support me... jx never support me... 'coz ermei is there... of course he support him... Dz is one of the player... so end up i crumbled under pressure... so many platoon mates see my fall... haiz... so sad... got nice posture also no point.. couldn't deliver... disappointed with myself.. and sad that jx nv support me... oni kek & kh joke with me, i beg for their support lor.. pathetic right... haha...

      After being ask to see a doctor by Dz & Ermei... i went this morning... Last night slept early, hence i am feeling better for my flu when i woke up in the morning... Special Thanks to JiuHsiang for asking me to sleep... if not i guess i won't get better that soon.... and thanks for keeping me company by sms... i guess i had cost you alot ba... so sorry... bills pass to me k? haha... k lar... i'll stop here... i know my blog is getting more boring already, agree? hopefully not... haha...

cheapo trip

      Apart from buying the games... which i shared with Dz... this is the cheapest JB trip this year... spend about RM110 (including games) total... haiz... blame on my luck... the game in my hand is spoilt one... haiz... sianz... hope those in Dz's hands is working... my sunday was well spent...

      Went to KTV & had dinner at Sentosa which we only spend about RM15 per person... we shared 3 dish plus fried oyster & satay... worth it... pretty full... too bad Jx cannot join us... Terence too... suppose to meet the rest of the guys... but we had a change of plan... so we never met up... Me, Dz, WL & TH went cheaper ktv... haha...

      Going to to take the advance theory later... wish me luck, man... pray for me... now going into one hour of intensive study le... ciaoz...

nothing to be happy about

      Yeah~! i did pass my adv. theory... but not as happy as i thought i might be... almost lost my hp... At first, i thought it was in my dad's car... so i did make a call (no one pick up)... before entering the room for test... but when i finish one round... i suddenly feel that it is by the road side... there is a possibility since my parents never pick up the call... hence, i panicked...

      Trying to finish fast & check fast... after i confirm i finish the test & pass... i rushed out to the road side & discover my lost hp... i was happy after that.. not for the test but for the phone... most wish me all the best & congrats me while i pass... but some, disappointingly, seems not amused or doesn't care at all... giving comments that you thought they might say for the sake of saying... its sad case but i could do nothing about it... hence my spirit was brought down a little...

      After which i went IKEA with Jin... there we had lots of misjudgement and end up wasting alot of time trying to get transport.... No cab... we ended up in mrt... we had enough time wasting le... haha... Jin get the required stuff le... though short of one item in his shopping list...

      Still not feeling very well... emotionally & physically... might go and see a doctor tomorrow... we'll see how...

nuttin much

      Rested the whole day at home... Enjoy some dotA session with Jx... KH, Fab... get to learn a new hero... as usual... i am the weakest link... haha... but trust me... i try to improve le... and is trying very hard... at least my death rate decreased and i did had one or two kill? haha...

     Jianxin seems to have fallen sick... Must take care leh... these days... people keep falling sick... Watched Naruto 157... a little lame and this episode contains a little bit of humor elements... so i guess i shouldnt be complaining, huh?

      Wondering who had actually come my blog often and how often they came... suddenly have that thinking... haha... i guess you guys should post more message in my tagboard... haha...

Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be the way
You are exactly
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
'Cause there's nothin' 'bout you I would change
Whatever you want to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
'Cause there's nothin' 'bout you I would change
Reach down inside
The love you find
Will set you free
You'll come out right
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through
You were someone else
You were meant to be the way (you were meant to be)
You are exactly
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself (love yourself)
You're better of by far
'Cause there's nothin' of you I would change (change)
No there's nothin' 'bout you I would change(Don't change)
Don't you ever say
And I hope you always stay the same
I think that you could be
Don't you ever wish
Don't you ever say
And I hope you always stay the same
Believe in yourself
Believe in yourself
Don't you ever wish
Don't you ever say
And I hope you always stay the same(Stay the same)

sentosa champs

      Today is our Coy Outing @ Sentosa... everybody is complaining before any games... but when the game start... we are fully involved and hoping to do the best out of it... N39 man managed to win the first game while the whole node won the second game to emerge as overall champion... its rather fun...

      its been a long time since i last had so much fun... during our free time... we played frisbie in Captain's Ball style... and beach vollyball... some of them play water polo too... Lots of laughter... enjoyment... a group of us even play with a group of Sec1 girls vollyball team... managed to trash them in second game... haha...

      i did enjoy today despite the fact that i must get myself invovle in activities in order to forget all other woes... i can't be alone... thankfully... most of the time... Specialists ask me to join them... they keep me company in swimming and games... so thankful to them... and MR WU never even get into water... hmph~! never suntan with me also... don't friend him le... hmph~!behind all these enjoyment... i suffer a little... had slightly sprained my leg again... hopefully its alright... haha... i guess no one saw it... this shows my acting not bad... if i let PC/PS know... i jialat le... i still need to train SOC de...

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Xiang(Jx),

      Had been thinking a long time... it seems like we had been drifting apart in the real world... the only time when i feel that you treat me as your buddy or close friend is when we are in the dotA world... why couldn't we be that lively or chat happily in the real world... maybe we are both too comfortable in our own area... our own world... i guess i had never been into your world... Jx, if you did see my blog... i guess you should know how i felt all these while... hope you open up to me more... and bring this virtual world to the real life... i'm really struggling... but what's consoling is... i guess, u are living a happy life... that's good...

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inferior

      what a week... apart from thinking about friendship... i had illness to think about... Teeth... Ankle... then came the vomiting part... haiz... not knowing why... simply feel like vomiting during the Guard Duty on Mon... and its been like that since... not having good appetite too... not sure of the reason... slightly better... Dz use my lines to shoot me to see a doctor... guess i had to if i still not well by Friday...

      Haven't been studying my advance theory... must start soon... haha... do the questionaire from Dz's book... Hope to clear it once and for all... even though i had a feeling that its gonna repeat what had happened during military lessons... i pass all theory in one take... but driving practical took me 6 times... and the sixth time is the last time... haiz...

      Feeling more and more inferior nowadays... had not been doing very well... i try to show my care and did not really felt appreciated at times... but its ok lar... since i do feel ashame from what i did to him or them last time... like what i told Dz... i could & would only blame myself for how things been turning out...

      A month of inactiveness in exercises... i am afraid of failing both SOC & IPPT... seeing others working so hard for SOC... making me ashame... all i did was stay in bunk or at the ending point... haiz... i guess i won't get to pass it... but i will definitely work hard... hope the rest could help to motivate me or pace me then... don't know why... feeling more and more inferior these days... maybe due to what i see and what i feel... too late to update now... maybe will update about this incident another day...

advance theory

      Last night had a meet up with Jenson, Twins, Ris & Long... ended up 4am then leave... they don't let me go due to 'some reasons' and ended not playing dotA... haha... sad leh... what to do... haiz...

      i went to book Adv. Theory or Final Theory this morning... guess what... There wasn't any long queue... so not much waiting... then when i booked... someone had withdraw from the 30th Oct test date... ended up, i took the slot... Others wait for 2 months just for the test... me? 9 days... must buck up soon... Everything just been pretty smooth... Dz, thanks for accompanying me there...

      After which i went to get something for the someone special... haha... the 'Project Special' is for that someone... his birthday is round the corner... hope he like what me & my friends had been planning to give him... haha... the idea first came 1-2 months before the actual day...

      Not much dotA today... but did play FIFA with Dz... having fun but no communication... hmm... due to no such function... my sis using the pc now... update another time ba...

weakling me

      JD4 is an unforgettable experience for me as a driver... i drove Land Rover, not the aircon one mind you... and had a number of problem... almost has a wheel down a steep drain & crashing into a wall... Of course, its not the normal road that i was travelling but the cross country road... i guess i had scared 2Lt Wu out of his wits... haha... i'm definitely shakened... Rover simply couldn't went up slope & even had smoke in numerous occassion omiting an unpleasant burning smell... But seems nothing was burnt...

      Due to my ankle injury... i was still not able to participate in any SOC training... when i saw Jx & TH doing it with their hearts out... i simply felt so out of place... i wanted to join them... but i couldn't... hence a little sad... but all i could do for them is taking care of them... making sure they are alright & keeping an eye on their rifle... Jx & TH... u guys are great... even though might not meet SOC passing timing YET... but in my heart... you guys are the champions... haha... My hearts goes with you guys...

      Last week's dotA seems to be laggy when i play in KR's server... even though i get assurance & encouragement from Jx... i still decide to quit after 'holding on the line & staying with him'.... haha...

      Was happy that he initiate chat with me... everything is like slowly back into place... although might not be like the rest... but i'm contented... meeting hao, wen, jenson & ris for a movie... hmm.. wonder if ris's 2 friends are friendly...