High & Lows

      What a day... From enjoyment in kTv with my good friends... till FINALLY gotten the slightly-more-formal shirt for the upcoming wedding dinner of Yiliang's. Its gonna be the 2nd wedding dinner i went to for my friends... Erm the counting exclude HanKeong's, as i would be expecting another one due next year from him. Don't get me wrong, i am not saying that he will be re-marrying... Just that his official wedding dinner should be next year.

      To me, being able to attend my friend's wedding dinner is a form of well-wishes i wanted to give them. Being invited, its an honor. It meant that you are holding a certain position, be it a close friend or buddy, in the person's heart. It meant that you earn or did enough to get his respect for you as a person. Its certainly a great happiness to see my friend getting hitched and having that wonderful smile from their face. I hope to attend more~!! But don't expect me to be the main lead myself as i don't see myself in that shoes, in the near future.

      When buying the shirt, i was commented more young than a younger friend of mine. Though it supposed to be a sales action by the lady salesperson, i, of course, felt happy by hearing it. But sadly, when i went back Fairprice today, two of my ex-superior Iris & Ms Koh commented that i look shag and old, even having a more wrinkles than her 50+ years old face. Its kinda sad but actually i noticed it myself. Been asking myself, why am i getting older each day. Its okay. I still need to gear myself up for the upcoming event. Hoping to 'WOW' my friends attending. *laugh*

      It seems like bad things didn't stop at the right time. After all of us feeling down over comments by others, we get a shocked at Swensen's@Thomson Plaza. As usual, we ordered a regular Earthquake with some new flavours & 2 bowls of deep friend mushrooms. Earthquake was rather normal with those nice flavors, new and old. As for the mushrooms, that was... *vomited* Felt uneasy, coming to think of it... Imagine this....

Swensen's Deep Fried Mushrooms with Hair

Not one mushroom but TWO~!

      Yes~! Two mushrooms was caught with hair. Curly, some more~!! Imagine how we felt. And guess what the shop reactions? The waiter took these two mushrooms into the kitchen, showing to the manager. After that, he return and offer us a new plate. How could we still eat that thing? Imagine, we saw it only at the last two pieces. We could never know how many of those (with hair) did we ate~!! After that, the manager did not even come out and apologise. We decided to leave, despite unhappiness. Before our payment, the manager came to us without much sincerity and offer to give us 10% discount (HSBC discount was used). The discount was merely $4. Is this the service you expected from a well-reputed restaurant, Swensen's?

      Next time, before i dine at Swensen's i would think twice. I felt ashame telling people that i worked there before, even its merely for a month plus. Yucks *felt uneasy again*

Considering Retirement

      Actually, i meant what i said. I was rather devastated when i couldn't bowl properly yesterday. My finger is no longer the problem. But can you imagine that i actually scared of bowling a hook ball? My finger did not feel any pain after the bowling. Only when clenching my fist, i can feel slight pain. I hit my all time low (that i could really remember). But the fun with Jack & Dingze did made up a little. I actually feel that i will not be achieving any good results before bowling, so i did mentioned to Dingze about my retirement. *laugh*

      Apart from bowling, i couldn't really hold a tune well nowadays. Last week's KTV, i actually lost the feel to sing, the enthusiasm to sing also... What happen to me? My interest actually drops... I still wanted & interested to do well in these two areas. But seems that it couldn't be help... is it due to my tiredness? I couldn't motivate myself for exercise due to tiredness too... Alright, maybe its purely excuses... but i sure feel tired of everything. Recently, i became more solo. Staying at home, watching anime, playing pokemon... Hmm... was it bad? i don't know.

      I also went to HangMing's place for Maths revision. i am facing problem in Year 2 Polytechnic's maths. Used to do those questions with ease, now? Stuck for hours~!!! *laugh* Also lost the motivation to study, or should i say... don't know how to begin. I need a long break in order to be back at my peak i think... Can i really cope with University after 3-4 years of break? Beats me...

      Workload increased as now i need to lead a team of newbies, plus still perform my job well. Wonder if i could succeed. I feel that i done my best. But was my best good enough? Its for me to find out soon...

overseas

      Yesterday, i was offered to apply overseas with a good friend of mine. He is planning to quit NUS for overseas. This suggestions actually make me sit down and ask myself what i really want. Out of respect, i mentioned it to Xinyi, who i planning to study with next term. I also mentioned it to my team-mate. Both seems supportive enough and allow me to think for myself. My team mate support the idea though...

      Its a important decision to be made. Hence, its not as if i can just say 'lets go' and that's it... Financial factor, leaving the environment i am used to in 23 years, leaving my friends etc... I really consider the options. But who cares about how i think? My parents reject the idea. Initially, they 'said' to be neutral but actually, you can sense that they do not really like the idea. It really came as a surprised. I always thought that they are supportive and allow me to think for myself.

      Guess, to them, i am not old enough to think for myself. I am not disappointed that i couldn't join Xiao Ming but more over the fact i am not trust to think for myself. I telling them since they are my parents and wanting to hear their comments. But instead of being general or neutral... they start from doubting my willingness to study, my friend's character etc. Its is so selfish of them. FINE~! i am not from a wealthy family... BUT trust me... one day, soon, i will go out and strive a life for myself. I had enough of this environment i am in.

     It is not a willful comments or whatsoever. I had thought about it since last time. If not because of the financial factor... i may apply for overseas with him. Now, i can only apply local university and not even assured that i can get in. They are naive enough to say 'try again this year'. i had tried 4 consecutive years, not enough? how much more should i wait? or waste? Do they know how i feel after being rejected again & again. All they know is asked if i get in... that;s all... Totally not in the mood for anything else. Its a poor step i made to ask them so early before making my own decision even though i suppose to inform them...

      Study overseas have its pros & cons. I am still weighing which side is heavier... Its a golden opportunity to learn & grow independently. Moreover, now that a friend is with me, minus the potential of being lonely. I always wanted to move out and strive hard. Staying in hostel is one of the reason going to local university also. Hence, i really take this seriously when it first came up. Nevermind, whatever i think no longer hold any importance anymore.

      Sorry ming, i really do hope you can remain in NUS. Its hard if you going alone. But no matter what, i respect your decision. For me, i have no rights to make any choices.

哈蜜瓜

      Just read an interesting email... it is about what your name can tell you regarding your character. Though I do not know how accurate it can be, no harm trying... isn't it? yapz... i am Rock Melon

瓶颈

     我发现到... 这一两个星期，对我而言，并不是很好过...怎么说好呢? Hmm... 最近，在工作方面于同事有一点点冲突... 工作遇到了瓶颈... 常常设法鼓励自己往前冲... 上个星期的SPC Basic Training其实还挺不错的。除了让我能在工作上暂时换个环境，也同时让我有个学习向上的机会。其实我周遭的人并不了解我的心情。对他们来说，我是在逃避... 逃避我的工作... 不想做工。虽然挺伤心，失望... 但没办法，他们根本算不上是我的朋友，对我的了解可说少之又少。。。

      昨晚，在职晚班的时候，再次遇到了一些问题。与新人合作...的确还是不行。其实我并不怪她，突发的状况，谁也难以应付，更何况她是新人。她帮了我不少忙。我现在只能希望Angie能了明白我们的痛苦，而别纯粹只凭Shift Report就断定我们的工作能力。哈哈~~ 其实现在的我，也不管这么多了。收到e-mail也是很平常的。若没收到，才是稀奇的。

      很奇怪耶~！我周围的朋友们好像都遇到了不少的麻烦与苦恼。有的在人际方面遇上了问题... 有的是家人身体不适，需要检查与治疗... 有的甚至遇到公众的批评，走到哪? 讲到哪... 令人操心。虽然我感到很高兴，大家都把我当成好朋友，可信的人。否则，他们也不会打电话给我，跟我诉苦等。但实际上，我相当的伤心，为何他们个个都会遇到这些不开心的事。我已做我能做的一切，现在只能祈祷大家能早日度过难关。

      经过这些事情后，我察觉到...。我又成长了。能更清楚的看待整个事件的情形，而不会感情用事的做出任何的举动。好了好了...跟大家所遇到的问题比起来，我的算什么嘛！我会在工作岗位上，再接再励，直到我真正离开的那一天。所以大家和我一同努力吧~！加油~！加油~！

The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Sagittarius : The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

     Just received the above email. Looks like kinda true... with so many negative points being listed out... its the first time. Suddenly seems like, my character aren't that good as well... recently, detest myself even more le... don't know why... Maybe just tired of my current lifestyle.

     Tomorrow will be the first day after my colleague, Hnin Ko left the company. Kinda sad though i had cover her duties at times... now pairing up with a newcomer... i wonder if i can perform as a leader. With the tension between Tony increasing invisibly, we shall see if i can overcome all the unhappiness and return my focus at work.

     Recently, body is weakened. Feeling rather lethargic, tired & fat... haha... I also don't know why. No more motivation to exercise despite setting two timeline for myself. Have to motivate myself. Sleep almost every day i reach home from night shift. Once on bed, dozed off... first time like that... Maybe i am really tired despite workload was relatively easy last night shift.

     Engaged into Pokemon Emerald recently. Its more fun playing along with a few friends. Oh... managed to finish Nat's gift in a day time. Planning starts from night & start working on it the next day. Impressive, i say to myself. But being a perfectionist myself, i noticed many flaws. But i only have material and time for one try. So... i have to leave it that way then.

naive, i am not

      Is it because of my more positive thinking? Recently realised that my surroundings, my friends... are full of negative ions. All appears to be countering my beliefs. Not that i am going to change my views so easily, just feel that sometimes get a little tired hearing all the negatives comments. Hey, life aren't that bad, right?

      Not that i am living in a perfect world, nor that i haven't face any problems yet. But its more due to the way you view the world. Being a listener since young, i experience changes & problems, not only what i faced but also what my friend is facing. I'll beg to differ if anyone believes that i am too young to understand the real world. Or believes that i had not grown up to survive in the real world. Hey, i am now in the working world and surviving well. Even if i do feel tired and whatsoever, it did not affect my work performance.

      haha... maybe due to lack of sleep had causing me to fight back for my stand more... getting agitated, but never behaving abnormal. haha... Alright enough of this. Recently busy working, training newcomers and helping a friend over a relationship. But the latter had ended and now i am fully employed as a listener's listener. A promotion, i joked.

      After getting a digital camera a few weeks ago, i finally get a new handphone & signed a new line under Singtel. Bought the phone at $88 cash + $150 vouchers. Nice numbers isn't it. 88. So glad that finally get my own phone but guess will only be using in a few days time. Currently, only my buddy message me using that new number. The rest who want my number, get from me through MSN, k? haha

movie marathon

      Today was a tiring day. I had spent my whole day watching movies at two locations. First up, i met Xinyi at GV@J8 for the movie Hairspray. Excellent movie... another great musical movie. Slightly more light-hearted compared to Dreamgirls. Catchy songs, colorful clothes & meaningful stories pumped up the movie. Zac Efron (from the High School Musical fame) was sauve inside the show. I am sure he attracted alot of girls. No wonder one of my friend joked that couple shouldn't watched the show. Why? Your girlfriend may forget about you and drools for that charming guy.

      Special thanks to those girls at the show. It provided the 'Live' sounds with the applause and the 'oohs' & 'ahhs'that add lots of flavours to the show. I almost thought that i went for a 'Live' Musical.

      After which, we head down to Library to borrow... alright not books... but comics... Then its movie #2 at Shaw House. This was a mistake. We shouldn't have watched it. Rogue Assassin was easily identified by me as the worst Jet Li's movie, ever. Story wasn't good enough, even though there was a twist inside. Too much talking, too little actions. The story was a mess. The flow wasn't there. You may ended up wondering what are they doing. Who is who? etc... Don't waste your money one this. It simply couldn't make the mark. Anyway, Jet is old now... just like Jackie Chan, actions seems nothing impressive while looks, skin look damn bad (many close up scenes). Just imagine, i actually almost fall asleep if not because for Xinyi's handphone. I played a game during the boring period of time. That's how much it bores me.

      The movie marathon was tiring. Thanks to the miscommunication & bickering between me & Xinyi. Alright, i hate to bicker & she is the only one that can make me do that. *laugh* Hmm... her processing skills is slower and at times, getting me frustrated at times since she couldn't get the meaning of my message. Not that i want to, but seems like 90% of the time, she couldn't get my message right. Anyway, that's the tiring part apart from sitting inside the cinema for movie #2.

      We ended our day with movie #3, No Reservations. This was a romance & it sets the mood right. If i am there with the one i love, i believe that i will be really happy. Love is in the air. The movie features good acting, good laughs & good story. The mood was set just right with the 5 young girls sitting in front of us keep cheering with envy or admirations over the scenes where the main acter show his tenderness for the actress. Awww... How i wished i had a girl right now... and watched the movie together... *laugh* joking. Movie Reviews

good times, bad times

      I was busy & tired over the last two weeks. This is also the reason why i couldn't update my blog even though i wanted to. Where should i start? haha... Last week, i spent 3 days working/planning on ah wei's birthday gift in the midst of my working schedule. Did not really sleep. Then i went to his chalet after my night shift. Checking in and stuff. I'm the planner leh... haha... That ah wei better appreciate what i had done. Anyway, everything went well.

      Totally enjoy the 3D2N chalet even though i was really tired. But how i wish the chalet could last longer. Its enjoyable largely due to the people involved. Apart from the main star, Kangwei, Xinyi & Natalia also stayed throughout the whole of chalet. Nat became my new found friend. Its amazing that we could get along so well. We, as in four person lar... XY & me are the more anti-social ones. We seldom chat with strangers. Hence, i am still amazed that she became my first friend that i know through another friend. *laugh*

KW's injured finger being healed by Nat's Magic wand

      Another highlight should be the photo taking session of Ms Vivian. She really like to pose for cameras. Forcing me to take photos for her... with her beau, Weiliang. A whole series of photos was taken, enough for her to release a pictorial. But honestly, they look real good together... The combination of yandao & chiobus... make me this photographer filled with envy. *laugh* I do not mind capture their moments of Love lar... First time see ah liang revealed his wacky & fun side. Vivian, you are good! *laugh*

Clockwise: Me, WL, Vivian, XY, KW

      Back to reality after the fun, and it couldn't be sooner. On my way back from chalet, i was called up to go back to company earlier than the time i am supposed to reach. After that, 3 days OT out of 4. Workload never seems to ease a bit. Tired, but that's life ba... At least managed to have fun at chat on msn with a few guys, so managed to carry on till today. MY OFF DAY~!!

Items Attained

Digital Camera? Checked.
Handphone? *paused* Hmm.....

      And yes... finally get one of the item on my wanted list. Fujifilm's FinePix Z5. Went to COMEX 2007 yesterday and seize the chance to scout for a digital camera. Initially, i dismiss the idea of squeezing in the crowd and not getting anything. But soon, i decided that it shouldn't be that bad after Dingze asked me again. Hence, i went with 3 other Lounge12 members, namely Kek, "Ahmad" & Kok Hong.

      We went for lunch at Marina Sq & shopped for Kok Hong's Chin-Up bar. Its cool walking around, chit-chatting, teasing, joking with each other... After which, we head to the fair. Definitely, as expected, the place is crowded. Sony had the whole of 3rd floor to their own, showcasing their various products & brands. They even invited host & Superstars to grace their fair. Level 4 gathered all the major technology players including Canon, Creative, Panasonic etc. whereas level 5 were occupied by smaller & medium players. Which level did we spent most of our time at?

COMEX 2007

      Yap, you are right! *laugh* Level 4, of course. We actually skipped level 3 as Sony products are, firstly, expensive. We also do not have anything to get from them. We went level 5 first and went one round, looking for offers, then level 4. I took the chance to gather what is the best options available for my digicam while KH looks for LCD monitor. Thanks to personal advisor, Dz & comments from Terence & KH. I do not face any problems choosing what seems to be the best options available.

FinePix Z5

      The price was just right with all the complementary gifts. I was really happy to select at ease. If not for them, i may still be pondering around, not getting any yet. Just look at my handphone's case, i have selected the model yet i have not went down to get it.

      My great day ends at Singapore Pool @Paradiz Center. We (Dz&Jianqiang) watched 3 EPL matches showing there. Of course, our main concern is the liverpool match. We had to make a small bet in order to enter. We ended up won. Small bet, hence small earnings. But its good enough. Its been a long time since i last won in a bet. Alright, i do not bet often. Great feeling. Will Arsenal beat Portsmouth like Liverpool thrashed Derby? hmm...