我没有很想你

我没有很想你
我只是在早上醒来的时候，看看手机，有没有你发来的信息，有没有你的未接来电。

我没有很想你
我只是在上网的时候，首先关注你的空间，看看你最近是不是有更新。

我没有很想你
我只是在聊天的时候，翻阅你发给我的短信，看着你的照片，回忆一下那些美好时光。

我没有很想你
我只是饿了会想你饿吗，冷了想你会冷吗?

我没有很想你
我只是走在大街上看到男男女女，好希望那一对对里有我们。

我没有很想你
我只是把你的来电调成唯一的铃音，放在我身边，并时不时的看看是否自动关机，是否信号良好。

我没有很想你
我只是在吃小吃的时候，想如果你能和我一起吃，那该是多幸福的事啊。

我没有很想你
我只是在听歌的时候，偶尔会被某句歌词击中，脑中出现短暂的空白。

我没有很想你
我只是想看看你的样子，听听你的声音。

我没有很想你
我只是在别人无意提起你的时候，愣在那里，不知答话。

我没有很想你
我只是在睡前紧握着手机，等待着你的情话，等待着你说晚安。

我没有很想你
我只是睡不着的时候想想你，但是，我不知道我是因为睡不着而想你，还是因为想你而睡不着我没有很想你我只是在每次醒来的时候，第一个想到你……。

或许想念只属于某一个人，如果两个人都在想念彼此，那一定是一对幸福的恋人。

我真的没有很想你...

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以上并非出自小弟之作，但因非常喜欢便想与大家分享。

UGLY UGLY UGLY

      "UGLY UGLY UGLY!" No, i am not calling anyone ugly! Honestly! It is all part of the card game - UglyDoll. When we see two 'ugly' monster appears together, we needed to shout "UGLY UGLY UGLY" and hit on the cards before we can claim those cards as our winning cards! Alright, XY actually commented that the 'ugly' monster aren't that ugly at all. I do agree with that. They are kinda cute in their own ways, haha.

      Despite late Friday night and waking up early in the Saturday morning, the fun keep me energise throughout the day! I only begin to feel it when i left the group. Yes, i am refering the ever fun-loving Xinyi, ever laughing-only-when-she-is-with-us Nat & getting-lamer-and-lamer Bernard! haha. Who cares, love their fun loving attitude! That is what make me feel young! Hmm.. sounds like i am alot older than them, but i am NOT! haha.

      We had our games at Play Nation. Other than UglyDolls card game, we had a taste of chair-stacking fun and Cluedo. I had the classic Cluedo at home. The newer version includes some power cards, better-looking weapons, floor-plan & 'Intrigue' cards! But the general rules sticks. Never had i enjoy Cluedo so much! Maybe due to my competitive nature, i remember me trying to track down the 'murderer', weapons & locations as fast as i could! This time round, i played with more wit! haha. Feeling good to make Nat believed that the "candlestick" is the weapon!! I'm good. But due to poor luck, i did not win despite being the first to have all the answer! Unlike last time, we need to enter the swimming pool in the center to solve the mystery!

miniature CHAIRS

big Yoshi and me =)

      It's a pity that i had to leave for my vocal lessons. Something i hope not to miss as there are limited lessons left and i really love singing. My friends would have know that! I do have a love of photography too. Honestly, i am happy with the photos i took during our lunch at Tea Cosy. I was treated with poker-dots cup of hot chocolate! It is so not me and i was being teased by the rest as the hot chocolate usually served in plain cup! haha. Maybe i am cute? haha.

      Miso Dory seems to be the best food i ate there, despite being a little bit salty. the desserts we ate weren't that impressive. But the decorations there are great. That is why i took lots of photos there. Everywhere, we can see little angels =) Hope you like the photos i took as much as i do! =)

hear no evil, say no evil, see no evil

kissing angels

dreaming

resting angels

emcee debutant

The experience for being emcee for the first time? Its Nerve-wrecking, I was so nervous like hell and needed a glass of alcohol (forget what the groom ordered for me) to calm myself a little. But i would say it is a great experience. Probably its once in a lifetime experience. But lesson learnt from this experinece: it is totally two different art in terms of speaking/communicating in chinese and reading out chinese script! Looks like i have to practise my readin skills before i ever become an emcee again =x (i.e. if there is any one to 'employ' me as one)

I must really thank all those who have been very supportive to me on taking up the job. Being someone with stage fright, i need lots of courage and encouragement to be able to stand there unfazed. I am glad i did pretty well for my standard but definitely not a professional one. I am my own critics that night. Hence, i really glad to have so many people behind me. I even received sms-es from a few people before and during the show... Thanks guys!

Frankly speaking, parts of me are pretty excited with the fact that I DID IT! I thought of doing it again if any chance arises. More probably that i could sing too... haha... The feeling is undescribable! I had a great co-emcee to keep me chill too. But i guess i should give myself some credits on handling the unexpected hiccups of the events. FYI, the show did not goes as planned, if anyone saw the flow on our script. Hence, i think i could be proud of myself and give myself a pat on my back =) Thanks Elaine, for sharing the 'spotlight' with me! haha

Anyway, i wore a blazor and look extremely smart for the first time in my life. Hopefully, i look good in suits! haha... Will upload some pics if i have them =)


my lovely co-emcee, Elaine
Lovely Summer, she shed 30kg!
Ris, HK & me

韋禮安

      Recently, i had been exposed to many new singer and one of the many that caught my eyes (or ears) is 韋禮安. A rather new singer on the block and his '有沒有' sounds simple but trust me, its not that easy as it seems when you sing in KTV. This song is a song you will love once you hear it. Hebe(S.H.E) did a good job in one of the variety show in Taiwan too.
      Other songs that caught my attentions are '慢慢等' & '因為愛'. Definitely a singer to look out for... and will go and listen to more of his songs... If you are bored with the chinese market nowadays, listen to him may spur some interest and hope in chinese music scene. =D

unlucky day

      It seems that AUGUST will end on a bad note to me. What could have gone worse than today, i often wondered.

      First, i woke up knowing that one of my favorite long sleeve Tee was dyed by another Tee of my sis. Then, in a foul mood, i forget to bring my wallet to the company. The only lucky thing is... Eugene drove to work today. Hence, he is able to drive me back during lunch time to get it, or i will give up my lunch. I have no appetite anyway. So, Thanks Eugene.

      I didn't had a good sleep due to doing some assignment for a friend. Hence, get tired and cranky easily. Poor health conditions do contribute to my crankiness too... lol! Anyway, the main reason of going back and get my wallet is because i am suppose to meet up with my friend after work. But in the end, the meet up was cancelled. I was supposed to pass him his assignment but he didn't even bother to contact me until i smsed him before i leave the company. This leave me disappointed... I called him and he told me to scan and send him instead. When sms-ed him after that, he apologised that he had something on "emergency". This obviously does not satisfied me. I refused to reply him via msn and has not been contacting him till now.

      At work, i got my request for net access for my school email to keep myself updated with the school timing and projects. The request was rejected! duh! What's up with the stupid company? My manager did not even approve or let me submit an official request! This is the spark that starts the fire! I seriously should consider what i wanted and don't give a damn shit about the company! By the way, my manager rejected my request as it was deem "more of a personal reason and not job-related" reason!!! F**k!

      Wanting to let off some of my anger, i prepared myself for a swim... But i realised before leaving my house that its MONDAY! and the pool was closed on every Monday! Plan changed and i went Gym! Just as i thought nothing could gone worse, my earpiece was severely broken during exercising! Yes, till now, i am still feeling angry, sad, fustrated, disappointed and IN NO MOOD OF STUDY! Should i skip my lessons, AGAIN??!!!

你不知道的事

你不会知道 我的喜悦，
你不会知道 我在生气，
你不会知道 我的悲伤，
你不会知道 我在开心，

因为你不视我的喜怒哀乐。

你不会知道 我在期待，
你不会知道 我的心情，
你不会知道 我在等待，
你不会知道 我的想法。

因为你不视我的重要性。

-未完-

你不知道的事 - 王力宏

　　蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
　　夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
　　我飞行 但你坠落之际
　　很靠近 还听见呼吸
　　对不起 我却没捉紧你

　　你不知道我为什么离开你
　　我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
　　你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
　　在心里清晰

　　你不知道我为什么狠下心　
　　盘旋在你看不见的高空里
　　多的是 你不知道的事

　　蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
　　夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
　　我飞行 但你坠落之际
　　很靠近 还听见呼吸
　　对不起 我却没捉紧你

　　你不知道我为什么离开你
　　我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
　　你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
　　在心里清晰

　　你不知道我为什么狠下心
　　盘旋在你看不见的高空里
　　多得是 你不知道的事
　　我飞行 但你坠落之际
　　噢噢~

　　你不知道我为什么离开你
　　我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
　　你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
　　在心里清晰

　　你不知道我为什么狠下心
　　盘旋在你看不见的高空里
　　多的是 你不知道的事

封闭自己

欢乐后，为何会更悲伤?
玩乐后，又为何会更寂寞?

多久没有这种感觉了，或许因为自己已经建立起了一道无形的墙。保护最脆弱的心
灵，不让别人经略。但人总是防不胜防，在不知觉时，既然把防范之心给卸了下来。

难过可能是因为玩了很久, 是因为笑了太多, 是心理起了作用。

没有欢乐， 哪来的悲伤?
没有玩乐， 哪来的寂寞?
没有接触， 哪来的伤害?

突然间，脑子里浮现了一个问题?

是否该封闭自己一段时间?

好让自己了解现阶段的自己，要的是什么。
好让身心疲倦的自己，能得到适当的休息。
好让现在的自己，恢复平常的自己。

现在的我，真的快乐吗?

east coast park

      Over the weekend, i had two major activities... cycling @ East Coast Park should have been an easy affair BUT it is not. Lots of tussle going on and we get tired with a little knocks here and there. Still, i am able to take some of the nicest photos i ever took =).

Anemometer @ Bedok Jetty Donatello, Me & Edwin
Sun Setting view
One of the best photo i ever took =)
Flag Bearer for NDP 2010

rough time

      It happened to my friend before. It is happening to me now. But the reasons for the happening are different and now... the outcomes are different too. i had missed my exam timing due to oversleeping...

      I had a rough time today... I could not get a cab despite trying to go for the exam... Waited for 40minutes to no avail. It leave me no choice but to visit doctor for my sickness... Hopefully my appeal will be granted... For now, i could only sit and pray...

      I cried... i laugh... i even went crazy for a few minutes. Its been a long time since i behave this way... I remember the last time was in 30SCE during my night jog... i cried when i feel helpless at getting a cab... and when i reach home, i got another hit... salt on my wound... when i know that i made it to the Dean List. its an acheivement that i am suppose to be happy... I should be proud... i should boast around... but i couldn't as i was now at the bottom of my mood...

      But thanks to xiao ming who is available to accompany the whole day... i feel so much better walking around... exploring Kampung Buangkok! =x I also want to thank all those who saw my fb & tweets... consoling me via all mediums... Thank you.