你笑着说 他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安 那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说 我们 不是你和我
是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说 我们 不是你和我
是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我沒有错怪了什么
虽然你不说 都是错在我
太晚我才懂 爱了你太多
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是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
My remaining member is not performing well enough... He isn't suitable for FA job... our job. He is neither fast learner or fast in terms of checking & writing a report. He, himself,is planning to leave but stayed till another member is ready... on my account. He feel i helped him and feel bad if he left me alone. But still, i tried to teach what i can and handling my own defects well... maybe i am really slow... maybe i shouldn't be as hardworking... do things that i couldn't handle.
Things hasn't been well recently, and i do expect scolding email... since i had been OT-ing for the past 3 days plus... receiving emails since i am back in Singapore. Losing enthusiasm in working... No longer looking forward at work...
I wanted to love myself more... and i am working towards it... but guess its harder these days... till my work life improve as well... i will try NOT to hate myself... rather than love myself...
Not alot of significant events that stand out in a rather plain year... wait... actually i can think of some... maybe too many things perhaps? causing my confusion... i lost track of time anyway due to shift work. There is 2 chalet i co-organised... XY's Chalet & KW's Chalet. Then i also did a few gifts for my friend's farewell & birthday... Get to know Nat... Then late 2007... there is my birthday celebration (The Amazing Race), Bowling Marathon, HongKong Trip and those gifts i received... from different people out there... some with great meanings. I also return to organising with the two chalets & New Year BBQ. The saddest event would have to be losing one of my poly clique... Jeremy... Rest in peace, bro...
But when come to checking my resolution checklist. I failed terribly with a big 'F'... World Peace? haha i managed to do so for playing less Command & Conquer: General... but i failed to keep my weight at 60-65kg region... only get fatter & fatter... i also failed at my applications to local university... making a huge dent at my ego... haha... As for being a better person? hmm... i don't know if i achieved that... i feel i didn't...
Hence this year... i guess resolutions doesn't work for me that well... so should i still be setting it? Let's see... what i want to achieve in 2008... I will have to work my body & keep it in shape to fit in clothes... & hopefully FINALLY get into a courses i would love to study... Changing a better job & hoping to stay happy in 2008, will be my remaining things on my wish list.
Anyway, Happy 2008.... My dear friends...
First day of work, i received lots of complai... erm i mean comments about my team members during my leave. None of the relief-leaders wanted to work with my members again. Now then they know how i feel. *laugh* Sometimes, i do respect myself for being able to survive despite being sandwiched. But still, i can't help to despise myself for the lack of leadership & unable to train my members to be capable FA. I even received call before one of the leader reach the work place early that day and edit their reports.
Really getting annoyed and felt like quiting after hearing news that alot of them are leaving. Some planning to go ahead of me. Its rather sad to think about my own future. Where should i be heading to? Which course or industry should i choose? What i like may not be what i could get. Not everyone is like Jianqiang or Dingze who pursue what they wanted.
Despite feeling all down and low, i am glad that i am still useful for my fellow friends. Apart from work, i am still the old listener or people who can give-advice-without-experiencing-it-myself listener. Ironic? haha... Spend my KTV session singing abit but watch a number of mtvs. haha...
On a lighter note, I watched Alvin & the Chipmunks yesterday. Storyline was predictable yet the chipmunks are real cool & cute... Their voice also great in the movie. Songs are nice. I love scenes in the movie like Theodore having bad dreams and the trio singing at the window pane. Enjoyed the movie TILL that idiot Wani called from workplace.
Before we even board the airplane, we are having fun. Ashton, Dingze, Jack, Jianqiang & me stayed overnight at the airport. So-called celebrating my birthday... but... NO BIRTHDAY CAKE~!!! hmmm... but at least get a treat from mr zhang. We went to Terminal 3, which will only start functioning on 9 Jan 2008. We jump around, walk around and pee around... oops... i mean in terminal 3's toilet. We noticed a fly print at the urinal for guys. For guys to aim? hmm... but there are alot of people who didn't get marksman out there leh.
Many people asked me. Is my trip a shopping trip or a sight-seeing trip? My answer would be 50-50. We spent almost equal time on shopping & at the same time not forgetting to see the various places. We took tonnes of photos. Since day 1, we formed the 183 Club with a personal assistant & a semi-professional/amateur photographer (self-proclaimed). Hence, there you go... we snapped everywhere we went to. We also have 3 free-lance photographer who would simply take our 'natural' shots. Alright, before everyone goes 'what?', let me introduce to our roles. Here you go:
01. Elaine Tan, Ashton Tan's sister : Personal Assistant, Photographer-in-training
02. Joey Ng, Ashton Tan's cousin: Tour Guide, Photographer, Manager, Image Consultant etc.
03. Ashton Tan, the yandao: member of 183 Club, Assistant photographer
04. Jack Heng, ah jack : member of 183 Club, Free-lance photographer
05. Lionel Zhang, ah qiang aka the act-cool-ah-xia (rich guy): member of 183 Club
06. Donatello Wu, ah ze aka the gentleman-looking-ah-xia: member of 183 Club, Free-lance photographer
06. Wee Liang, xiao pang: member of 183 Club
5 different characters formed 183 Club. All have different personality. With the 2 "Bao-Ga-Liao" crew... We look good in almost all pictures. Looking at our pictures, its hard to believe we aren't the chosen ones... haha... we had enough photos to compiled into a Calendar, CD covers, Magazine covers & even Xie Zhen Ji... Hong Kong looks amazingly beautiful at night. Espically the Avenue of stars & the Peak.
What is Hongkong famous for? "买东西，吃东西, 买东西，吃东西" As advertised, Hongkong is a shopping paradise, especially true for ladies. I saw lots of beautifully-styled clothes. If i had a girlfriend, i may go bankrupt. We bought alot of clothes... bargains... and ate a lot of great food... and the bad ones... Their reputable Dim Sum did not disappoint us. Soya Beancurd from The Sweet Dynasty is the highlight. Smooth and tasty. You can simply eat it without the ginger-flavored sugar syrup. It doesn't cuddles like most Singapore's version.
We did not went to Disneyland nor Ocean Park. That is one of my disappointment. I actually looking forward to visit one of them but in the end, we did not go to any of them, due to inaccessibility & price. Anyway, other free beautiful places, more or less, did cover up a bit. So still... we took more than 1.6Gb of pictures... 183 Club looks good wherever we go, however we posed *laugh*
To sum it up, we had a good time together. But i would be lying if i say i totally enjoyed myself. Unsure if it was due to the headaches i had or some other small matters, i did not enjoy as i had expected before the trip. But nevertheless, its good to go overseas with friends. You will get to know a lot more about them. The experience? i would give it a 7 or 7.5 out of 10.
For more photos, visit: Dingze's Photo Album
On Saturday night, 7 of us... namely Jack, Jx, Dz, Liang, Teck & me... went for the Bowling marathon @CSC, Bukit Batok. Its a great night... We enjoyed ourselves totally... it rekindles our bonds since years ago... I lowered my competitiveness since previous experience caused me to be rather unhappy... This time round... all enjoy totally... I even break my duck of scoring low... and beat my rival cum buddy come team... Dz YEAH~! Not bad for someone injured for almost a year to recover...
On Sunday, a group of friends celebrate my birthday with me... Though i need to book for the ktv myself... and decide on the dinner place myself... haha... but its okay since they made it up by putting up a great "performance" in front of me & a great day... The most happening birthday i ever had... From KTV to "Amazing Race" in Cityhall/Orchard. Imagine how much fun & laughters we had... Its almost impossible for me to write the fun we had here in words... feel it, baby~!
Special Thanks to... Teck, Xinyi, HangMing, Jiahui, Jack, Belinda, Derui, JunHao, JunWen, Ashton, John, Dingze, Rick, Cai Lei, Natalie, Kangwei , Raj, Mun & Weiping for their birthday wishes on the actual day... And once again to Xinyi, Ah wei, Nat, JiaHui & Bel for their gifts and celebration on SUN... Kang & also Cao Qing for the surpise gift. Never expect from CQ at all. She was not even in my department leh... haha... my 'ren yuan' not bad leh... Envy my collegues... Guess rumors will arise upon my return to work...
Oh ya... apart from the celebrations.. i also managed to pass my IPPT on the very last day of my possible test date. Meaning... i will not have to undergo the 8 sessions*4 hours of grueling trainings... Hooray~!!
After a great birthday celebrations, events now... in hours time, i will leave Singapore for Hongkong... Want to take lots of pictures of myself & my friends in Hongkong... Want to enjoy 100%~!!! no... 200%... Hooray~! Got Spinelli treat & birthday celebrations tonight lor... See you guys on 26th~!
Received my first birthday & x'mas gift from.... surprise surprise... mr kang... he gave me a box of cookie, i think, from Japan during his vacation there. I haven't open it as i am trying to resist the temptation of eating MORE food before my ippt. It was actually the 2nd gift from him. I remember i received chocolate on his previous overseas holiday. So its kinda nice of him doing so despite little contacts. He still occasionally send me good music & emails etc. A nice person indeed.
At work, everything still ok since the company is not producing much... haha... maybe collapsing soon. *evil grin* Anyway. I will decide where i want to study after my holidays. I wanted to live my life to the fullest & do what im interested in more. That's why i come up with a few more options. As usual, i have people 'pour cold water' without even really understand my views. Thinking i am still the young kid who do not know that study part-time is tough. Anyway, i heard enough of this phrase. haha... i have lots of friends in part-time studies.
Hotel industry? Engineering industry? Currently, i am interested in the former.. but latter is my rice bowl now... so i had an advantage staying in this field. Hmm... heck... will think about it in January. *laugh*
First up, the New Year Countdown. Last year, due to my work commitment & refusal to be an organizer for events, Jeremy was solely in-charge of food while Jocelyn plays the aliasing roles. This year, i decided to take the charge & hopefully can be as good as Jeremy do. He was great as i heard that he single-handedly get all the groceries needed & settle our BBQ. This year, he no longer around to do these chores... I guess, it should be the time i return... *laugh* Back to what i used to do, organize this small gathering. When was the last time i took over from him... hmm... its being Poly class rep in year 2.
I gained a little bit of experience after co-hosting Feb's & Aug's KW Chalet. Know what food to get, what to avoid... How to choose between cheaper brands etc. I even BBQ myself for the first time in AUG. So December's BBQ will mark my year of return to the field *standing proud*. Alright, enough nonsense. But after a tiresome period of time, i really waiting to enjoy whatever i can. Upcoming HK trip, Dec's BBQ & in-planning Feb's Resort trip... I am downright busy since weeks ago. But i am happily busy. In between, there is Chinese New Year & Army Reservist.
In short, i changed a little my perspective of life. Aiming to change my mindset a little & hopefully can return to the fun loving self... shedding the uncle image i grown after becoming a leader. *laugh*
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| Smiles on Jeremy |
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| He was a fit guy, a passionate dragonboat racer |
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| The last toast |
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| Our last dinner, Yiliang's Wedding |
