misunderstood

      Lately, i had been rather busy with the sai gang haha... all the driving... all the carrying... but i do feel misunderstood at times... but glad that its all over... there surely will be more coming up... with NDP had not gone into full swing for me...

      I somehow felt Jiu Hsiang wasn't feeling well recently... but don't know why... me and him recently tends to get heat up easily... maybe he is tired of my wilfulness... i used to be able to help those around me.. but recently im still recovering... hence i had a limit in my ability...

      Will be doing guards with him this weekend... hope that can get a chance to talk to him... for myself... i felt much better, just hope to clear all the unhappiness between me and him... i personally felt there is...

Your Birthdate: December 19

Your birth on the 19th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life path. But at the same time, it poses a number of obstacles to overcome before you are able to be as independent as you would like. The number 1 energy suggests more executive ability and leadership qualities than your path may have indicated. A birthday on the 19th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. However, a somewhat self-centered approach to life that may be in conflict with some of the other influences in your life. This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush. You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed. You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations. You do not tend to follow convention or take advice very well. Consequently, you tend to learn through experience; sometimes hard experiences. The 19/1 is a loner number and you may experience feelings of being alone even if you are married. You may take on a tendency to be nervous and angry.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Nan Er Shen Nu Er Xin

      alright... im a guy with the heart as gentle as a lady... alright... i admit it... hmph~!

Your Brain is 86.67% Female, 13.33% Male

You have the brain of a girly girl Which isn't a bad thing at all You're emphatetic, caring, and in tune with emotions. You're a good friend and give great advice.

What Gender Is Your Brain?

absence

      A number to things happens during my two weeks of absence in the blogging industry... hmm... sounds like i am very important right? haha... ok lar... back to the topic... i couldn't blog... the main reason would be not able to access the net due to my computer down...

      My grandmother passed away peacefully on the 9th May and i only received the news on 10th... Hence i went down to the funeral on Fri-Sun... Taking care of the younger ones... and paying my respect... It wasn't as sad as many thought it would be... maybe due to the fact that i had grown up... and this was the second funeral... The first one happens during my secondary school days... when my dad's mum was gone... hmm.. i did feel sad... especially it adds on to my unhappiness i had recently...

      Alot of guys fell sick... Jiu Hsiang, Weiliang, JianXin... hmm... anyway... i did not tell others about the news as i don't see the needs to spread... Recently, i can get moody easily... or even angry for nothing... too childish ba... but after my grandma's incident... i learn to play with the word 'suicide' haha... i will take it more seriously...

happy mother day

      Like last year, we went to dim sum restaurant for breakfast... but to a different restaurant... Last year's at Tampinese... today, we went to Thomson's Kelong88 Restaurant... Not bad at all... the food there was nice and filling...

      Finally, after months and years of considering... my parents bought a oven for me to bake... haha... i love baking... the feeling when u see ur dough turns into delicacies... from yuckie to yummy... And the variety u can do using baking... pastries... cakes... bread... etc... nice... delicious... i may not be the best cook in Singapore... but i am the best baker in my world... haha... baking more often will allow me to gain more experience since my F&N days... and edit my recipes... haha... remember i am typing out Braddell's Recipe?

      Although still feeling aching, but i am definitely recovering... haha... i am just so happy NOW!!!

minimal budget • maximum fun

      Thankfully its coming to pay day... As my last few dollar notes were spent... Now i could only rely on my coins... hmm... wonder how much i have in the little pouch of mine... haha... With such a low budget... I still enjoy myself today... Walking from Dhoby Ghaut to Sunshine Plaza... then to Sim Lim before taking a bus down Takashimaya, Wisma... Too bad, Kek & Terence were doing their guard duties... restricted them from joining us...

      Went Library @Orchard... borrowed some Website related books... i wanted to look at other's ideas and came out with mine... i would never create a good one without learning from the others, am i right? Anyway... i created a temporary html file to prevent others from entering my old website... haha... Wanna take a look? [ Click Here ]

      Singapore is having a rather pathetic situation... Charity seems to became a routine in our life... every SAT, we will be able to see a group of people... be it students earning their Charity Pts or some kind souls... 'begging' or 'bugging' us for donations... its not that we, Singaporeans, are heartless or stingy... but simply because... the charity is increasing... how many charity can one singaporean donate per year? From TV's NKF to the Flag Days in school... One fine day, we will be broke... Occassionally, i will still donate for flag days though... but NO COUPON-kind of donation, PLEASE~!

      The amount of time people around me blogs... seems to decrease... hence i went to xiaxue's blog & saw some media coverage about Blogging in Singapore featuring none other then xiaxue herself... Although i don't really like her... or even her looks... her character... During the interviews... her views are pretty correct and i do agree with her... so i guess... she wasn't that bad after all...

      Was pretty surprise when i saw my darling, Guan Ming, writing me a testimonial... and i was MORE surprise over the fact that he sms me in the middle of the night... Pretty miss him and the rest... Those were the days... haha...

      Shout Out to Guan Ming : I only have one Darling and that is you lar... Really thought that you had forgotten me... So glad u message me... *muaks* Take care always... Hope to meet up one fine day...

restless & sick

      Updates this week? Let's see? Completed Full SOC run down... first time ever to clear all obstacles during a full run-down... tired but satisfied even if timing was not met... News also came that N33/39 will be involved in SAF Day parade with SAR21... CSM made it sounds so exciting and great... but unfortunately, he was just crapping around to me... Oh ya... i was one of the few selected again for NDP 2005's show... heard that it is going to be 'Act 1'... more information should be release soon....

      Some of them view it as a hassle to be involved in either the NDP or the SAF Day... to me... its ok... but it means i would be getting lesser rest... I was just tired about all these allocating of stuff... making N33/39 the rubbish bin... unwanted stuff... will be thrown to us... Mentally tired... Complaints do not work under SAF... so... what for?

      Getting rather restless this weak... and TeckHui out of concern tried to talk to me... but somehow... not that i do not want to open up... but not knowing how to... the child in me... the childish, petty me... always get agitated over little things... so its almost a norm to me... i myself not knowing what i want... just that... at times... felt that whatever i do was not appreciated... maybe i am over-sensative... a little remarks... makes a big deal to me? haha... Alright... i'll learn to open up more... okay?

      Alot of us falling sick... Jiu Hsiang, Teck Hui... both caught a cold and definitely fever... need lots of rest... me, myself, was having slight headache as well... but not as serious as they do... hence i ask them to us the umbrella yesterday, while the fitter one like Terence, Dingze, Kok Hong & me can run to the cookhouse over drizzle... but on our way back... the two ask me to share with them... this shows they do care... and i definitely know in my heart...

      Shout Out to Jiu Hsiang & Teck Hui : You guys are great people... Don't get affected by me... Just treat me like little boy who 'shua pi qi'... In anyway, you guys would not lose me as a friend... if i really angry with anyone of you guys... i would not have bring you guys the umbrella today from TCC2 alone... Not having lunch, but just to bring u guys some shelter... Afraid that you guys' fever get worse... So don't worry... c",)

      Shout Out to N33/39 : I know you guys do care about me... i shall not complain that i am not wanted... Thanks for making me feel wanted...

simply love baking

      Recall Mending? AMAS? Making me feeling so alert over the weekend... afraid that any moment of time, i will be recalled back to the camp... Thankfully, there was no recall... till this moment of time... But somehow hope that have recall... it must be an unique experience... haha... kill me please, someone...

      Spent my Sunday shopping for ingredients, baking cookies & went over to grandparents' place... Its great to bake once again... even with the not-up-to-standard toaster oven... getting a new one real soon... bugging my parents to do so... haha... Why the sudden urge to bake? hmm... baking was indeed one of my favorite past-time... just that i was lazy to gather the ingredients and 'tools'... haha... thinking of baking some cookies back to camp... hope that its edible and not causing food poisoning... Being in bankrupcy state... thankfully all ingredients are sponsored by my sister... haha.. but hey, we did go for the cheaper alternative... next time, i will not be heading NTUC to get the stuff... but Hougang's Shophouses... its relatively cheaper... and more variety... designed to sell Confectionary-related items and ingredients... isn't that great...?

      Over at my grandparent's place... two person call me the wrong name... haha... My grandmother, whose conditions seems to get worse and my little cousin.... Both mistook me as my elder brother... My little cousin was afraid of me, haha... due to the fact that my brother was the 'catcher' who keep grabbing him and 'catch' him... disturbing him... but soon after he recognise me and play around with me... hmm... 2 months of absence really do make a difference...

      I do feel a little sad and unfilial not being able or wanted to visit my grandparent's place... My grandma's condition was not getting better... The last time i visited her was in hospital where she still recognise me and still was able to chat and talk... This time round... she keeps lying on bed, so much more quiet... Don't look very well indeed... This making me treasure my health more... much more...