Tuesday, August 31, 2010

unlucky day

      It seems that AUGUST will end on a bad note to me. What could have gone worse than today, i often wondered.

      First, i woke up knowing that one of my favorite long sleeve Tee was dyed by another Tee of my sis. Then, in a foul mood, i forget to bring my wallet to the company. The only lucky thing is... Eugene drove to work today. Hence, he is able to drive me back during lunch time to get it, or i will give up my lunch. I have no appetite anyway. So, Thanks Eugene.

      I didn't had a good sleep due to doing some assignment for a friend. Hence, get tired and cranky easily. Poor health conditions do contribute to my crankiness too... lol! Anyway, the main reason of going back and get my wallet is because i am suppose to meet up with my friend after work. But in the end, the meet up was cancelled. I was supposed to pass him his assignment but he didn't even bother to contact me until i smsed him before i leave the company. This leave me disappointed... I called him and he told me to scan and send him instead. When sms-ed him after that, he apologised that he had something on "emergency". This obviously does not satisfied me. I refused to reply him via msn and has not been contacting him till now.

      At work, i got my request for net access for my school email to keep myself updated with the school timing and projects. The request was rejected! duh! What's up with the stupid company? My manager did not even approve or let me submit an official request! This is the spark that starts the fire! I seriously should consider what i wanted and don't give a damn shit about the company! By the way, my manager rejected my request as it was deem "more of a personal reason and not job-related" reason!!! F**k!

      Wanting to let off some of my anger, i prepared myself for a swim... But i realised before leaving my house that its MONDAY! and the pool was closed on every Monday! Plan changed and i went Gym! Just as i thought nothing could gone worse, my earpiece was severely broken during exercising! Yes, till now, i am still feeling angry, sad, fustrated, disappointed and IN NO MOOD OF STUDY! Should i skip my lessons, AGAIN??!!!

Monday, August 30, 2010

你不知道的事


你不会知道 我的喜悦,
你不会知道 我在生气,
你不会知道 我的悲伤,
你不会知道 我在开心,

因为你不视我的喜怒哀乐。

你不会知道 我在期待,
你不会知道 我的心情,
你不会知道 我在等待,
你不会知道 我的想法。

因为你不视我的重要性。

-未完-

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

你不知道的事 - 王力宏

  蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
  夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
  我飞行 但你坠落之际
  很靠近 还听见呼吸
  对不起 我却没捉紧你

  你不知道我为什么离开你
  我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
  你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
  在心里清晰

  你不知道我为什么狠下心 
  盘旋在你看不见的高空里
  多的是 你不知道的事

  蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
  夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
  我飞行 但你坠落之际
  很靠近 还听见呼吸
  对不起 我却没捉紧你

  你不知道我为什么离开你
  我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
  你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
  在心里清晰

  你不知道我为什么狠下心
  盘旋在你看不见的高空里
  多得是 你不知道的事
  我飞行 但你坠落之际
  噢噢~

  你不知道我为什么离开你
  我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
  你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
  在心里清晰

  你不知道我为什么狠下心
  盘旋在你看不见的高空里
  多的是 你不知道的事

Friday, August 13, 2010

封闭自己

欢乐后,为何会更悲伤?
玩乐后,又为何会更寂寞?

多久没有这种感觉了,或许因为自己已经建立起了一道无形的墙。保护最脆弱的心
灵,不让别人经略。但人总是防不胜防,在不知觉时,既然把防范之心给卸了下来。

难过可能是因为玩了很久, 是因为笑了太多, 是心理起了作用。

没有欢乐, 哪来的悲伤?
没有玩乐, 哪来的寂寞?
没有接触, 哪来的伤害?

突然间,脑子里浮现了一个问题?

是否该封闭自己一段时间?

好让自己了解现阶段的自己,要的是什么。
好让身心疲倦的自己,能得到适当的休息。
好让现在的自己,恢复平常的自己。

现在的我,真的快乐吗?