i'm back

      i'm back... rather busy recently... apart from starting work last monday... and have to study all my jobs & knowledge... i had been working on my buddy's gift... then the AFPD Idol audition on FRI... and Tze hee's farewell gift...

      i'm glad that my buddy like my effort with the help of teckhui... it really make my day when i receive his sms... hehe... as for my job... my superior want me to be fast learner... self-discipline... so there is a certain amount of stress there.. but they are all good people... at the moment at least...

      They taught me all they know and whatever i should know... answer all my queries... during lunch time... we ate together and chat... my superior was a 'gong shi fen ming' person... so we chat other stuff during lunch ba... she is the one who encourage me to join the AFPD Idol... Although i freaked out.. haha.. but she still sms me... and tell me that i almost went through if not because of one of the malay judge... haha... so kinda surprise to see her sms when im in SK...

      Must also thank Dz for keeping me company just before my turn through sms... Teck & xinyi did too... Thanks guys... and hangming for showing the enthu when i tell him i join the competition...

      i had been falling sick due to lack of rest since last friday... been very busy as i worked on tight schedule for my buddy's project... the work... then look for songs... etc... but managed to record some tunes with teck for Tzehee... but will go back to re-record some songs... me quite strict & a perfectionist producer ma.. haha... haiz ARS lost... sianz... but they will comeback de... yeah.~!

to my friends...

      maybe i am no easy person to deal with... maybe i turn moody too frequently that you guys feel its norm and don't care anymore... maybe i don't fit to be your friend... but no matter what... don't i deserve to be treated better? whatever i owe you guys... didn't i did enough in return? guess i overworked myself for friends...

      no matter how i am treated by my friends... no matter how many feud we might have... no matter how hurt i am by you... i ended up trying to let go and forgive... and make you happy... is it due to this kindness, i am taken for granted...? am i not worth to have what i had? are you taking away them from me?

      i had accepted the change in trust... i accepted the truth that we no longer same as before... i accepted that our lifestyle is different... i accepted that we see things differently than before... more and more differences i observe... i accept who you are.... but is it because i gave in too much... i'm taken for granted?

      i hate myself for pestering... i hate myself for feeling all these craps... i hate myself for giving in... i hate myself for giving my all... i hate myself for protective... i hate myself for suffering while you enjoying... but if i never do what i did... you think our friendships can survive...?

      maybe i tried too hard... tried to hard to maintain or get things that don't belong to me... something i don't deserve... but i know if i don't try hard... or being annoyance... i will end up losing what i treasured most... that is you.... my friends... my buddies... maybe only if i be less vocal... i'm appreciated more... an example is the event in taiwan... i felt i make the right decision...

getting old

      After falling sick last week, my body seems to be falling apart le... Till now my flu not fully recovered... and old injuries are back one by one... my wrist... my knee cap... my chest pain... guess maybe either i overworked my body or i really suffering from some illness... Had been feeling rather weak recently... maybe need to really had a good rest? or maybe start to exercise regularly... since i can't even do a simple pull up... my arm will get cramp.. and now still not recovered...

      Had been doing some running & exercising recently despite my flu... as last week's two buffet must really be worked off... haha... or else i will be back to who i am last time... Job searching & went some interviews and they cast some doubts about my thoughts about my future... the interviews went well but somehow, i'm in dilemna again...

      Received my driving license today... alright lar.. not as bad looking as i thought... so still can accept... kind of please that my efforts finally paid off... its not easy to get this blue card... and it had many of my friends wishing me luck & encouraging me... so its something i will treasure well...

      Now its 1am le... but Dz is still yet to be online... a little disappointed even he never promised to online.. but at least he know i am waiting... at least an sms to tell me he not online? hmm... ya... abit sian now...

missing them for REAL~!

      These two days... i managed to meet up with a groupd cool people... my better friends... people from army to poly... people like... Jeremy, Yaoqiang, JiuHsiang, HangMing, Li Chuan, Jason, WeeTeck & many many many more.... Its been a great time... ORD-ing... meeting bmt friends... and army friends that had been throught thick & thin with me...

      My mood get uplift last night after exchanging some smses with my budz... hehe.. me easily satisfied... but also only a few can really uplift my mood... haha... YY going HK for study... The rest enrolling into the local uni... all going to be busy... so its kinda sad for me to be unable to meet them often... i value friendship alot, if you know me well... Going to miss them ALOT~!

      Started sending resume & cover letter soon... now looking around for suitable jobs le... hoping to get one soon... haha... Congrats to Zhang for getting the license under 10pts... better than me sia... no wonder u Bernard's student... all three Bernard's student pass driving le.. haha...

      Going to meet my darling Guan Ming, Jon, Jason, Jiemin & Weeteck later... be back at night and hopefully & finally some gaming actions with Dz & Jack... yeah~!

wandering soul

      A performer last year... i became a spectator this year... i went to NDP 2006 after my bro & parents keep asking me if i want to go... My bro keep tix for me... say who ask me to be his bro... haha... so i bo bian go lor.. haha...

      The experience is different... and maybe my body there... but my heart is somewhere else... i did not enjoy the celebration well... i was a little out of place.. somehow... didn't get into the mood there... even when on my way back... my heart is still wandering around...

      Maybe i think too much again lar... but that's me... i sms people and never get the reply... i get sadden le... these days had been waiting for people to play online game with me... like red alert... but unfortunately... that someone was too busy or not interested to be online... i wonder if you see this message... haha... i miss you... for... the game lar...

      Finally received his sms... so feeling slightly better ba... hmm... tml ORD lor... a day to remember... a day to be happy... but till now.. not in the mood yet.. hopefully soon...

the click

      First time or should say a long time since i last sang with a lady for duet... Yesterday went ktv with kelv, Kr & yQ... kelv asked two of his lady friend to join us... and glad so... the songs choice went broader... i am also surprise that i managed to sing at ease for most songs.. haha..

      Quite bored online recently... no games.. no nothing... only focus try to alias for the node tee... which final details are waiting to finalise... its not easy for me to do all by myself... thanks to support from a few friends... if not... guess everything will still be zero...

      Today's outing was thought to be abit of disappointment... as i waited so long to go for a movie with my friend.. end up it last for 3-4h? and we heading home... but at least we managed to had a dinner... which make the outing ended on a higher note... yeah...

      My friend say The Click was ok and watchable.. but to me... i feel its not bad at all... have hidden meanings between the show... it touches family value with humor... and yet real touching at parts... i was indeed moved... watch it if u need a laugh... its a comedy with good values... yeah... The female main actress was real babe...

december Baby

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness.

Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to
dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.

finally... i pass

      After days of worries... nights of nervous-ness... finally.... i PASS my driving Class 3 License... Its been a tough journey for me... Those who have been by my side all these while know how i feel... thanks for all the support & well wishes... its been fortunate to have you guys around...

      I have been worrying about three things all these months... Jobs... School... Driving License... All these while the most worried... and currently my priority... is to get the license... Not only it took away my time... it took away my money... Though have to think that i am fortunate to spend only 1.3k for the License... but the mental stress is hard to bear...

      My army friends, esp. my buddy know exactly how i feel... having to take 6 test to pass my military Class 3&4 License... i had some bad experience... in learning & in tests... Hence i always felt like wanting to give up whenever i failed my civilian driving test... Thanks to Kek, JiuHsiang, Teck & ESPECIALLY DINGZE... for putting faith in me... and give me the much needed confidence... Thanks alot... Love you guys...

      Yes~! Finally pass.... Guang Ming Shan's AE 86... here i come to challenge... Watch out... KEK~! haha... Congrats to my most supported band... Mi Lu Bing... though i still love J3's Jazz version of Xiao Wei... Damn POWER~! i love all but so-so towards Lucify... Still... All did a credible job in their first two songs... definitely top SuperBands~!

Your coffee drink is Sweet

A kind and caring soul like you is as warm and comforting as a hot cup of sweet coffee. From parties to book-club meetings to backyard barbecues, you're friendly and welcoming no matter if you're playing host, mingling with guests, or just chilling out with good friends.

You've got a big heart, and you're not afraid to share your feelings and let others know how much they mean to you. People know your friendly smile and fun personality can brighten up any occasion. Sound sweet? A dash of sugar is just your style.

What Kind of Coffee Drink Are You?

little summary

      Now feeling a little sad... not knowing really why... maybe due to my buddy ba... alright Dingze... since you guys might say i have a number of buddy... Though i am sure he maybe just tired of the same gameplay or no mood for games... and will be back normal tomorrow after his sleep tonight...

      Recently had been concentrating on driving lessons... Start from scratch... but picking up fast... so now i am back to the standard last time... just afraid that i fumble my test... wish me luck guys... hope that this will be the final test i am taking... Good Luck to JQ too.. he will take it on my ORD day....

      The highlight of last week should be the encounter with a boy & 2 other kids in 159, on my way back after lessons... Totally stranger... i ended up playing & joking with the handsome little boy and chubby little girl... The two of them are enjoying their own performing of nusery rhymes and soon he caught the eyes of mine... i only look at him and somehow we just 'click' haha... its difficult to write the whole experience... guess i still have the kids charm? haha... that marks my day...

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