Back to Reality

      Wasn't feeling that well... emotionally for the past few days. Since HongKong trip, i couldn't help but feel sad despite the fact that i don't look sad in front of most people. Guess of all, only Dingze & Nat or maybe Xinyi know the reason why i am rather sad during or after the trip. Never did i go into details though. Its hard to say... Don't ask, i don't know how to put it in words.

      First day of work, i received lots of complai... erm i mean comments about my team members during my leave. None of the relief-leaders wanted to work with my members again. Now then they know how i feel. *laugh* Sometimes, i do respect myself for being able to survive despite being sandwiched. But still, i can't help to despise myself for the lack of leadership & unable to train my members to be capable FA. I even received call before one of the leader reach the work place early that day and edit their reports.

      Really getting annoyed and felt like quiting after hearing news that alot of them are leaving. Some planning to go ahead of me. Its rather sad to think about my own future. Where should i be heading to? Which course or industry should i choose? What i like may not be what i could get. Not everyone is like Jianqiang or Dingze who pursue what they wanted.

      Despite feeling all down and low, i am glad that i am still useful for my fellow friends. Apart from work, i am still the old listener or people who can give-advice-without-experiencing-it-myself listener. Ironic? haha... Spend my KTV session singing abit but watch a number of mtvs. haha...

      On a lighter note, I watched Alvin & the Chipmunks yesterday. Storyline was predictable yet the chipmunks are real cool & cute... Their voice also great in the movie. Songs are nice. I love scenes in the movie like Theodore having bad dreams and the trio singing at the window pane. Enjoyed the movie TILL that idiot Wani called from workplace.

RECOUNT

      Sorry for the late posting, guys. I wasn't feeling that well after my trip to HongKong. Let's recount where we had been... Terminal 3 before we set off to hongkong... its big & spacious... Day 1... we went to Lan Tau at Ngong Ping, Citygate Shopping Center... Day 2...Wong Tai Sin's Lung Cheung Mall... Temples... Snoopy World... Apiliu Street... The Sweet Dynasty...Day 3... Stanley Market... Waterfront Bay... and many more... We seems to go alot of places? Definitely... with lots of photo shots too...

      Before we even board the airplane, we are having fun. Ashton, Dingze, Jack, Jianqiang & me stayed overnight at the airport. So-called celebrating my birthday... but... NO BIRTHDAY CAKE~!!! hmmm... but at least get a treat from mr zhang. We went to Terminal 3, which will only start functioning on 9 Jan 2008. We jump around, walk around and pee around... oops... i mean in terminal 3's toilet. We noticed a fly print at the urinal for guys. For guys to aim? hmm... but there are alot of people who didn't get marksman out there leh.

      Many people asked me. Is my trip a shopping trip or a sight-seeing trip? My answer would be 50-50. We spent almost equal time on shopping & at the same time not forgetting to see the various places. We took tonnes of photos. Since day 1, we formed the 183 Club with a personal assistant & a semi-professional/amateur photographer (self-proclaimed). Hence, there you go... we snapped everywhere we went to. We also have 3 free-lance photographer who would simply take our 'natural' shots. Alright, before everyone goes 'what?', let me introduce to our roles. Here you go:

     01. Elaine Tan, Ashton Tan's sister : Personal Assistant, Photographer-in-training
     02. Joey Ng, Ashton Tan's cousin: Tour Guide, Photographer, Manager, Image Consultant etc.
     03. Ashton Tan, the yandao: member of 183 Club, Assistant photographer
     04. Jack Heng, ah jack : member of 183 Club, Free-lance photographer
     05. Lionel Zhang, ah qiang aka the act-cool-ah-xia (rich guy): member of 183 Club
     06. Donatello Wu, ah ze aka the gentleman-looking-ah-xia: member of 183 Club, Free-lance photographer
     06. Wee Liang, xiao pang: member of 183 Club

Snoopy World@New Town Plaza

      5 different characters formed 183 Club. All have different personality. With the 2 "Bao-Ga-Liao" crew... We look good in almost all pictures. Looking at our pictures, its hard to believe we aren't the chosen ones... haha... we had enough photos to compiled into a Calendar, CD covers, Magazine covers & even Xie Zhen Ji... Hong Kong looks amazingly beautiful at night. Espically the Avenue of stars & the Peak.

Village @Lan Tau

      What is Hongkong famous for? "买东西，吃东西, 买东西，吃东西" As advertised, Hongkong is a shopping paradise, especially true for ladies. I saw lots of beautifully-styled clothes. If i had a girlfriend, i may go bankrupt. We bought alot of clothes... bargains... and ate a lot of great food... and the bad ones... Their reputable Dim Sum did not disappoint us. Soya Beancurd from The Sweet Dynasty is the highlight. Smooth and tasty. You can simply eat it without the ginger-flavored sugar syrup. It doesn't cuddles like most Singapore's version.

The Arrival of 183 Club

      We did not went to Disneyland nor Ocean Park. That is one of my disappointment. I actually looking forward to visit one of them but in the end, we did not go to any of them, due to inaccessibility & price. Anyway, other free beautiful places, more or less, did cover up a bit. So still... we took more than 1.6Gb of pictures... 183 Club looks good wherever we go, however we posed *laugh*

We look cool no matter how we sit

      To sum it up, we had a good time together. But i would be lying if i say i totally enjoyed myself. Unsure if it was due to the headaches i had or some other small matters, i did not enjoy as i had expected before the trip. But nevertheless, its good to go overseas with friends. You will get to know a lot more about them. The experience? i would give it a 7 or 7.5 out of 10.

For more photos, visit: Dingze's Photo Album

Indescribable Feelings

      its my birthday again... what a great festive season i have... I had the most happening birthday celebrations to date on Sunday... Bowling tournament ends with great results for me... & in hours time... my first travel trip to Hongkong...

      On Saturday night, 7 of us... namely Jack, Jx, Dz, Liang, Teck & me... went for the Bowling marathon @CSC, Bukit Batok. Its a great night... We enjoyed ourselves totally... it rekindles our bonds since years ago... I lowered my competitiveness since previous experience caused me to be rather unhappy... This time round... all enjoy totally... I even break my duck of scoring low... and beat my rival cum buddy come team... Dz YEAH~! Not bad for someone injured for almost a year to recover...

The Ultimate Bowling Challengers

      On Sunday, a group of friends celebrate my birthday with me... Though i need to book for the ktv myself... and decide on the dinner place myself... haha... but its okay since they made it up by putting up a great "performance" in front of me & a great day... The most happening birthday i ever had... From KTV to "Amazing Race" in Cityhall/Orchard. Imagine how much fun & laughters we had... Its almost impossible for me to write the fun we had here in words... feel it, baby~!

X'mas lightings @Marina Square

      Special Thanks to... Teck, Xinyi, HangMing, Jiahui, Jack, Belinda, Derui, JunHao, JunWen, Ashton, John, Dingze, Rick, Cai Lei, Natalie, Kangwei , Raj, Mun & Weiping for their birthday wishes on the actual day... And once again to Xinyi, Ah wei, Nat, JiaHui & Bel for their gifts and celebration on SUN... Kang & also Cao Qing for the surpise gift. Never expect from CQ at all. She was not even in my department leh... haha... my 'ren yuan' not bad leh... Envy my collegues... Guess rumors will arise upon my return to work...

X'mas Tree with Gifts @Marina Square

      Oh ya... apart from the celebrations.. i also managed to pass my IPPT on the very last day of my possible test date. Meaning... i will not have to undergo the 8 sessions*4 hours of grueling trainings... Hooray~!!

      After a great birthday celebrations, events now... in hours time, i will leave Singapore for Hongkong... Want to take lots of pictures of myself & my friends in Hongkong... Want to enjoy 100%~!!! no... 200%... Hooray~! Got Spinelli treat & birthday celebrations tonight lor... See you guys on 26th~!

DECEMBER

      Exactly one more week to my birthday & a trip to hongkong a day after. Can't wait for this day to arrive. I have been waiting for this day to come. December is my holiday season & a month for me to enjoy. Apart from my birthday & hongkong trip, I also have a bowling marathon this coming SAT & an outing on SUN... & ending the month with a BBQ. But before all the happy events... Tomorrow will be my IPPT, which is likely to be my last try. Wish me luck, but i don't pint much hopes as i am now alot FATTER than before.

      Received my first birthday & x'mas gift from.... surprise surprise... mr kang... he gave me a box of cookie, i think, from Japan during his vacation there. I haven't open it as i am trying to resist the temptation of eating MORE food before my ippt. It was actually the 2nd gift from him. I remember i received chocolate on his previous overseas holiday. So its kinda nice of him doing so despite little contacts. He still occasionally send me good music & emails etc. A nice person indeed.

      At work, everything still ok since the company is not producing much... haha... maybe collapsing soon. *evil grin* Anyway. I will decide where i want to study after my holidays. I wanted to live my life to the fullest & do what im interested in more. That's why i come up with a few more options. As usual, i have people 'pour cold water' without even really understand my views. Thinking i am still the young kid who do not know that study part-time is tough. Anyway, i heard enough of this phrase. haha... i have lots of friends in part-time studies.

      Hotel industry? Engineering industry? Currently, i am interested in the former.. but latter is my rice bowl now... so i had an advantage staying in this field. Hmm... heck... will think about it in January. *laugh*

     

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

next stop...

      Moments of sadness has to come to an end... It is time for me to move on. No more tears. i do not think Jeremy will want us to be be sad. He inspires us in a lot of ways. Like what Jannah said during his wake. To me, i had learned to live the dreams... live with more passion... Bring more laughters to people around me... Do what the dead no longer can do... I do hope... i can succeed what Jeremy had left. Continue his fine job well...

      First up, the New Year Countdown. Last year, due to my work commitment & refusal to be an organizer for events, Jeremy was solely in-charge of food while Jocelyn plays the aliasing roles. This year, i decided to take the charge & hopefully can be as good as Jeremy do. He was great as i heard that he single-handedly get all the groceries needed & settle our BBQ. This year, he no longer around to do these chores... I guess, it should be the time i return... *laugh* Back to what i used to do, organize this small gathering. When was the last time i took over from him... hmm... its being Poly class rep in year 2.

      I gained a little bit of experience after co-hosting Feb's & Aug's KW Chalet. Know what food to get, what to avoid... How to choose between cheaper brands etc. I even BBQ myself for the first time in AUG. So December's BBQ will mark my year of return to the field *standing proud*. Alright, enough nonsense. But after a tiresome period of time, i really waiting to enjoy whatever i can. Upcoming HK trip, Dec's BBQ & in-planning Feb's Resort trip... I am downright busy since weeks ago. But i am happily busy. In between, there is Chinese New Year & Army Reservist.

      In short, i changed a little my perspective of life. Aiming to change my mindset a little & hopefully can return to the fun loving self... shedding the uncle image i grown after becoming a leader. *laugh*

Jeremy Goh Tze Xiong (1983-2007)

For the past 3 days, i was feeling lost & trying to maintained my composure. I guess i did well till i saw his photos or having a chat with my various friends through phone. Recapping on poly days, how outgoing or cheerful Jeremy is... it is never easy for us to accept this fact... that he left us.

I guess if you had been reading news or watching it on TV, you should had heard about this freak incident. Yes, it appears in all newspaper headlines for last 3 days. And its unfortunate that my friend was one of them... unfortunate that 5 young lads lads left their family & friends without having their last words. I took a while before i can type this post. One of the deceased is Reuben Kee, whom was representing Singapore as Mr Singapore this year. Apart from Jeremy & Reuben, the rest of them are Mr Chee Wei Cheng, 20, Mr Stephen Loh Soon Ann, 31, and Mr Poh Boon San, 27.

Smiles on Jeremy

Jeremy was always a role model in our poly days. He always fool around and entertained us with his cold jokes or funny movements. Never do we had a minute with him around, feeling bored. Despite his initial hiccups in his studies, he did not give up hope & achieved commendable results. One of the better students who really enjoy life to the fullest. He is our fashion icon too. Never did we see him come to school in repeated clothes, at least for that week. He is popular with everyone, our 1st year class rep, someone who know what he wanted.

He was a fit guy, a passionate dragonboat racer

Reading comments from his friends in the newspapers, i can't control my tears even though i am in MRT. He wanted to have a girlfriend but his schedule between work, trainings & studies simply couldn't allow him to. This incident stopped him from finishing his studies or fulfill his dreams. What hit me the most was... early this month, we were attending a friend's wedding dinner with my poly mates... all laughters & cheers... but now the month ended in a solemn note.

The last toast

We are still talking about the good old days then. How i became their nanny, helping them in studies or even cleaning his vomit on a cabby when he was drunk. Honestly, now, i didn't mind doing it again and again if it could bring him back to us. He is always the joker of our group. After that incident of being drunk, making a fool of himself, he try hard not to get drunk in front of us anymore. Actually, he is a great guy. Someone who can juggle between work & studies, know when to play hard, when to be serious...

 Our last dinner, Yiliang's Wedding

But i guess, i shouldn't be down too much as he may not want us too. i still had to be strong to others who equally shocked. This day will never be the same from now on as... it belongs to our dear friend, Jeremy... At the very least, his body is recovered and will be back in Singapore... and the fact that he leave with honours & passion for his sport. Jeremy, Rest in peace....


The Last Goodbye: Boon San, Jeremy & Reuben I managed to get the 3 NYP Alumna's Profile:
+ Jeremy Goh, 24 click here
   - In remembrance of Jeremy click here
   - A Tribute to Jeremy click here
+ Boon San, 27 click here
+ Reuben Kee, 23 click here
   - His music & profile click here

Obstacles Everyday

      Recently, i faced obstacles and unhappiness almost everyday. I made mistakes at work, having to redo my report due to error at MS Excel etc. I even lost my handphone due to my carelessness... but if i think positively, i should be rather glad that its my phone rather than my mp3 player, though my handphone cost more.

      I wore a jacket that has a pretty shallow pocket. One contains my handphone, the other conatins my mp3. My creative mp3 player, though bought during a promotion, is more valuable as me & my buddy bought it together. Hence i may be more depressed if i lost this. Each own one. As for my phone, i bought it merely two months ago. I was real depress when i found that i, once again, lost my phone... I had been losing phone for a few times, making me feeling rather insecure of getting another one. To get a cheap one, its like pathetic or mistreat myself... To get a good one, how long can i keep it? Losing bits of confidence...

      Thankfully, Rick,Jun Hao & Cai Lei cheered me up. We were on our way to Kbox @Hougang Plaza. Maybe its due to my sadness, i wowed the three with my renditions of those songs i sang. They are pretty impressed that i sound different from 'live' (during work). Throughout the journey, Cai Lei keep on cheering me & consoling me. Haiz... but though i still feel sad over losing of a phone, I felt slightly better after that. Now... only afraid of my getting scolded by my parents.

      All as expected, i get grumbling & 'reminding' from my parents, the minute i stepped home. But it didn't last long though. I believe they feel that i was unhappiness enough le... So they toned down a little. But they still 'reminding' me to go stop the line, ask me where or how i lost it etc. What a nuisance~! But its all over...

      Recently, Cheng Jing injured her leg over some freak incident. Other team leader and more experienced staff had to take over her duties and work OT. Me being the only one available from Team A, will cover her duties for two days. I feel that it may increase IF she are to apply more days to rest. Looking forward for my break in December~!!!

short updates

      Posh hotel. Nice food. But yet average service. This is how i feel after attending the wedding dinner of my classmate, Yiliang's. It is always good to see your friend getting married. Their photos was being displayed there. Hmm... What can you expect from a 5-digits package? The style of the photographer was indeed good. It captures the emotions of the model, opps.. i mean the newly-wed.

      Yiliang is always charming among us, while his wife is a pretty SIA air-stewardess. Hence, we are almost like looking at ads or professionals when viewing the photos. They are a great couple. But somehow or rather, i feel that Yiliang do not seems to be extremely excited. Its just my senses. Anyway, its like a class gathering for us as these group of friends came.

      The ambiance of of the restaurant was great. I am in the mood for love *laugh* Everything was great though its expensive, definitely. But it was a let down by fielding an inexperience staff to serve us. Not only she was slow, she was rough (you can hear the plates when she put down on the glass table)... Her face was dark (as if we killed her parents). Hmm, she should practice more and be more polite should she wants to stay in this line. I would grade her 'F' even if she is a new staff. Totally do not deserve my sympathy.

      I also noticed something. I actually not FAT to that extend of wanting to slim down. Hence, i decided to change my aim from "slimming down" to "shaping my body". I need to begin my training soon after for my IPPT before my window close. Thanks Dingze for being there when i sudden felt uneasy. *muakz*

High & Lows

      What a day... From enjoyment in kTv with my good friends... till FINALLY gotten the slightly-more-formal shirt for the upcoming wedding dinner of Yiliang's. Its gonna be the 2nd wedding dinner i went to for my friends... Erm the counting exclude HanKeong's, as i would be expecting another one due next year from him. Don't get me wrong, i am not saying that he will be re-marrying... Just that his official wedding dinner should be next year.

      To me, being able to attend my friend's wedding dinner is a form of well-wishes i wanted to give them. Being invited, its an honor. It meant that you are holding a certain position, be it a close friend or buddy, in the person's heart. It meant that you earn or did enough to get his respect for you as a person. Its certainly a great happiness to see my friend getting hitched and having that wonderful smile from their face. I hope to attend more~!! But don't expect me to be the main lead myself as i don't see myself in that shoes, in the near future.

      When buying the shirt, i was commented more young than a younger friend of mine. Though it supposed to be a sales action by the lady salesperson, i, of course, felt happy by hearing it. But sadly, when i went back Fairprice today, two of my ex-superior Iris & Ms Koh commented that i look shag and old, even having a more wrinkles than her 50+ years old face. Its kinda sad but actually i noticed it myself. Been asking myself, why am i getting older each day. Its okay. I still need to gear myself up for the upcoming event. Hoping to 'WOW' my friends attending. *laugh*

      It seems like bad things didn't stop at the right time. After all of us feeling down over comments by others, we get a shocked at Swensen's@Thomson Plaza. As usual, we ordered a regular Earthquake with some new flavours & 2 bowls of deep friend mushrooms. Earthquake was rather normal with those nice flavors, new and old. As for the mushrooms, that was... *vomited* Felt uneasy, coming to think of it... Imagine this....

Swensen's Deep Fried Mushrooms with Hair

Not one mushroom but TWO~!

      Yes~! Two mushrooms was caught with hair. Curly, some more~!! Imagine how we felt. And guess what the shop reactions? The waiter took these two mushrooms into the kitchen, showing to the manager. After that, he return and offer us a new plate. How could we still eat that thing? Imagine, we saw it only at the last two pieces. We could never know how many of those (with hair) did we ate~!! After that, the manager did not even come out and apologise. We decided to leave, despite unhappiness. Before our payment, the manager came to us without much sincerity and offer to give us 10% discount (HSBC discount was used). The discount was merely $4. Is this the service you expected from a well-reputed restaurant, Swensen's?

      Next time, before i dine at Swensen's i would think twice. I felt ashame telling people that i worked there before, even its merely for a month plus. Yucks *felt uneasy again*

Considering Retirement

      Actually, i meant what i said. I was rather devastated when i couldn't bowl properly yesterday. My finger is no longer the problem. But can you imagine that i actually scared of bowling a hook ball? My finger did not feel any pain after the bowling. Only when clenching my fist, i can feel slight pain. I hit my all time low (that i could really remember). But the fun with Jack & Dingze did made up a little. I actually feel that i will not be achieving any good results before bowling, so i did mentioned to Dingze about my retirement. *laugh*

      Apart from bowling, i couldn't really hold a tune well nowadays. Last week's KTV, i actually lost the feel to sing, the enthusiasm to sing also... What happen to me? My interest actually drops... I still wanted & interested to do well in these two areas. But seems that it couldn't be help... is it due to my tiredness? I couldn't motivate myself for exercise due to tiredness too... Alright, maybe its purely excuses... but i sure feel tired of everything. Recently, i became more solo. Staying at home, watching anime, playing pokemon... Hmm... was it bad? i don't know.

      I also went to HangMing's place for Maths revision. i am facing problem in Year 2 Polytechnic's maths. Used to do those questions with ease, now? Stuck for hours~!!! *laugh* Also lost the motivation to study, or should i say... don't know how to begin. I need a long break in order to be back at my peak i think... Can i really cope with University after 3-4 years of break? Beats me...

      Workload increased as now i need to lead a team of newbies, plus still perform my job well. Wonder if i could succeed. I feel that i done my best. But was my best good enough? Its for me to find out soon...

overseas

      Yesterday, i was offered to apply overseas with a good friend of mine. He is planning to quit NUS for overseas. This suggestions actually make me sit down and ask myself what i really want. Out of respect, i mentioned it to Xinyi, who i planning to study with next term. I also mentioned it to my team-mate. Both seems supportive enough and allow me to think for myself. My team mate support the idea though...

      Its a important decision to be made. Hence, its not as if i can just say 'lets go' and that's it... Financial factor, leaving the environment i am used to in 23 years, leaving my friends etc... I really consider the options. But who cares about how i think? My parents reject the idea. Initially, they 'said' to be neutral but actually, you can sense that they do not really like the idea. It really came as a surprised. I always thought that they are supportive and allow me to think for myself.

      Guess, to them, i am not old enough to think for myself. I am not disappointed that i couldn't join Xiao Ming but more over the fact i am not trust to think for myself. I telling them since they are my parents and wanting to hear their comments. But instead of being general or neutral... they start from doubting my willingness to study, my friend's character etc. Its is so selfish of them. FINE~! i am not from a wealthy family... BUT trust me... one day, soon, i will go out and strive a life for myself. I had enough of this environment i am in.

     It is not a willful comments or whatsoever. I had thought about it since last time. If not because of the financial factor... i may apply for overseas with him. Now, i can only apply local university and not even assured that i can get in. They are naive enough to say 'try again this year'. i had tried 4 consecutive years, not enough? how much more should i wait? or waste? Do they know how i feel after being rejected again & again. All they know is asked if i get in... that;s all... Totally not in the mood for anything else. Its a poor step i made to ask them so early before making my own decision even though i suppose to inform them...

      Study overseas have its pros & cons. I am still weighing which side is heavier... Its a golden opportunity to learn & grow independently. Moreover, now that a friend is with me, minus the potential of being lonely. I always wanted to move out and strive hard. Staying in hostel is one of the reason going to local university also. Hence, i really take this seriously when it first came up. Nevermind, whatever i think no longer hold any importance anymore.

      Sorry ming, i really do hope you can remain in NUS. Its hard if you going alone. But no matter what, i respect your decision. For me, i have no rights to make any choices.

哈蜜瓜

      Just read an interesting email... it is about what your name can tell you regarding your character. Though I do not know how accurate it can be, no harm trying... isn't it? yapz... i am Rock Melon

瓶颈

     我发现到... 这一两个星期，对我而言，并不是很好过...怎么说好呢? Hmm... 最近，在工作方面于同事有一点点冲突... 工作遇到了瓶颈... 常常设法鼓励自己往前冲... 上个星期的SPC Basic Training其实还挺不错的。除了让我能在工作上暂时换个环境，也同时让我有个学习向上的机会。其实我周遭的人并不了解我的心情。对他们来说，我是在逃避... 逃避我的工作... 不想做工。虽然挺伤心，失望... 但没办法，他们根本算不上是我的朋友，对我的了解可说少之又少。。。

      昨晚，在职晚班的时候，再次遇到了一些问题。与新人合作...的确还是不行。其实我并不怪她，突发的状况，谁也难以应付，更何况她是新人。她帮了我不少忙。我现在只能希望Angie能了明白我们的痛苦，而别纯粹只凭Shift Report就断定我们的工作能力。哈哈~~ 其实现在的我，也不管这么多了。收到e-mail也是很平常的。若没收到，才是稀奇的。

      很奇怪耶~！我周围的朋友们好像都遇到了不少的麻烦与苦恼。有的在人际方面遇上了问题... 有的是家人身体不适，需要检查与治疗... 有的甚至遇到公众的批评，走到哪? 讲到哪... 令人操心。虽然我感到很高兴，大家都把我当成好朋友，可信的人。否则，他们也不会打电话给我，跟我诉苦等。但实际上，我相当的伤心，为何他们个个都会遇到这些不开心的事。我已做我能做的一切，现在只能祈祷大家能早日度过难关。

      经过这些事情后，我察觉到...。我又成长了。能更清楚的看待整个事件的情形，而不会感情用事的做出任何的举动。好了好了...跟大家所遇到的问题比起来，我的算什么嘛！我会在工作岗位上，再接再励，直到我真正离开的那一天。所以大家和我一同努力吧~！加油~！加油~！

The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Sagittarius : The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

     Just received the above email. Looks like kinda true... with so many negative points being listed out... its the first time. Suddenly seems like, my character aren't that good as well... recently, detest myself even more le... don't know why... Maybe just tired of my current lifestyle.

     Tomorrow will be the first day after my colleague, Hnin Ko left the company. Kinda sad though i had cover her duties at times... now pairing up with a newcomer... i wonder if i can perform as a leader. With the tension between Tony increasing invisibly, we shall see if i can overcome all the unhappiness and return my focus at work.

     Recently, body is weakened. Feeling rather lethargic, tired & fat... haha... I also don't know why. No more motivation to exercise despite setting two timeline for myself. Have to motivate myself. Sleep almost every day i reach home from night shift. Once on bed, dozed off... first time like that... Maybe i am really tired despite workload was relatively easy last night shift.

     Engaged into Pokemon Emerald recently. Its more fun playing along with a few friends. Oh... managed to finish Nat's gift in a day time. Planning starts from night & start working on it the next day. Impressive, i say to myself. But being a perfectionist myself, i noticed many flaws. But i only have material and time for one try. So... i have to leave it that way then.

naive, i am not

      Is it because of my more positive thinking? Recently realised that my surroundings, my friends... are full of negative ions. All appears to be countering my beliefs. Not that i am going to change my views so easily, just feel that sometimes get a little tired hearing all the negatives comments. Hey, life aren't that bad, right?

      Not that i am living in a perfect world, nor that i haven't face any problems yet. But its more due to the way you view the world. Being a listener since young, i experience changes & problems, not only what i faced but also what my friend is facing. I'll beg to differ if anyone believes that i am too young to understand the real world. Or believes that i had not grown up to survive in the real world. Hey, i am now in the working world and surviving well. Even if i do feel tired and whatsoever, it did not affect my work performance.

      haha... maybe due to lack of sleep had causing me to fight back for my stand more... getting agitated, but never behaving abnormal. haha... Alright enough of this. Recently busy working, training newcomers and helping a friend over a relationship. But the latter had ended and now i am fully employed as a listener's listener. A promotion, i joked.

      After getting a digital camera a few weeks ago, i finally get a new handphone & signed a new line under Singtel. Bought the phone at $88 cash + $150 vouchers. Nice numbers isn't it. 88. So glad that finally get my own phone but guess will only be using in a few days time. Currently, only my buddy message me using that new number. The rest who want my number, get from me through MSN, k? haha

movie marathon

      Today was a tiring day. I had spent my whole day watching movies at two locations. First up, i met Xinyi at GV@J8 for the movie Hairspray. Excellent movie... another great musical movie. Slightly more light-hearted compared to Dreamgirls. Catchy songs, colorful clothes & meaningful stories pumped up the movie. Zac Efron (from the High School Musical fame) was sauve inside the show. I am sure he attracted alot of girls. No wonder one of my friend joked that couple shouldn't watched the show. Why? Your girlfriend may forget about you and drools for that charming guy.

      Special thanks to those girls at the show. It provided the 'Live' sounds with the applause and the 'oohs' & 'ahhs'that add lots of flavours to the show. I almost thought that i went for a 'Live' Musical.

      After which, we head down to Library to borrow... alright not books... but comics... Then its movie #2 at Shaw House. This was a mistake. We shouldn't have watched it. Rogue Assassin was easily identified by me as the worst Jet Li's movie, ever. Story wasn't good enough, even though there was a twist inside. Too much talking, too little actions. The story was a mess. The flow wasn't there. You may ended up wondering what are they doing. Who is who? etc... Don't waste your money one this. It simply couldn't make the mark. Anyway, Jet is old now... just like Jackie Chan, actions seems nothing impressive while looks, skin look damn bad (many close up scenes). Just imagine, i actually almost fall asleep if not because for Xinyi's handphone. I played a game during the boring period of time. That's how much it bores me.

      The movie marathon was tiring. Thanks to the miscommunication & bickering between me & Xinyi. Alright, i hate to bicker & she is the only one that can make me do that. *laugh* Hmm... her processing skills is slower and at times, getting me frustrated at times since she couldn't get the meaning of my message. Not that i want to, but seems like 90% of the time, she couldn't get my message right. Anyway, that's the tiring part apart from sitting inside the cinema for movie #2.

      We ended our day with movie #3, No Reservations. This was a romance & it sets the mood right. If i am there with the one i love, i believe that i will be really happy. Love is in the air. The movie features good acting, good laughs & good story. The mood was set just right with the 5 young girls sitting in front of us keep cheering with envy or admirations over the scenes where the main acter show his tenderness for the actress. Awww... How i wished i had a girl right now... and watched the movie together... *laugh* joking. Movie Reviews

good times, bad times

      I was busy & tired over the last two weeks. This is also the reason why i couldn't update my blog even though i wanted to. Where should i start? haha... Last week, i spent 3 days working/planning on ah wei's birthday gift in the midst of my working schedule. Did not really sleep. Then i went to his chalet after my night shift. Checking in and stuff. I'm the planner leh... haha... That ah wei better appreciate what i had done. Anyway, everything went well.

      Totally enjoy the 3D2N chalet even though i was really tired. But how i wish the chalet could last longer. Its enjoyable largely due to the people involved. Apart from the main star, Kangwei, Xinyi & Natalia also stayed throughout the whole of chalet. Nat became my new found friend. Its amazing that we could get along so well. We, as in four person lar... XY & me are the more anti-social ones. We seldom chat with strangers. Hence, i am still amazed that she became my first friend that i know through another friend. *laugh*

KW's injured finger being healed by Nat's Magic wand

      Another highlight should be the photo taking session of Ms Vivian. She really like to pose for cameras. Forcing me to take photos for her... with her beau, Weiliang. A whole series of photos was taken, enough for her to release a pictorial. But honestly, they look real good together... The combination of yandao & chiobus... make me this photographer filled with envy. *laugh* I do not mind capture their moments of Love lar... First time see ah liang revealed his wacky & fun side. Vivian, you are good! *laugh*

Clockwise: Me, WL, Vivian, XY, KW

      Back to reality after the fun, and it couldn't be sooner. On my way back from chalet, i was called up to go back to company earlier than the time i am supposed to reach. After that, 3 days OT out of 4. Workload never seems to ease a bit. Tired, but that's life ba... At least managed to have fun at chat on msn with a few guys, so managed to carry on till today. MY OFF DAY~!!

Items Attained

Digital Camera? Checked.
Handphone? *paused* Hmm.....

      And yes... finally get one of the item on my wanted list. Fujifilm's FinePix Z5. Went to COMEX 2007 yesterday and seize the chance to scout for a digital camera. Initially, i dismiss the idea of squeezing in the crowd and not getting anything. But soon, i decided that it shouldn't be that bad after Dingze asked me again. Hence, i went with 3 other Lounge12 members, namely Kek, "Ahmad" & Kok Hong.

      We went for lunch at Marina Sq & shopped for Kok Hong's Chin-Up bar. Its cool walking around, chit-chatting, teasing, joking with each other... After which, we head to the fair. Definitely, as expected, the place is crowded. Sony had the whole of 3rd floor to their own, showcasing their various products & brands. They even invited host & Superstars to grace their fair. Level 4 gathered all the major technology players including Canon, Creative, Panasonic etc. whereas level 5 were occupied by smaller & medium players. Which level did we spent most of our time at?

COMEX 2007

      Yap, you are right! *laugh* Level 4, of course. We actually skipped level 3 as Sony products are, firstly, expensive. We also do not have anything to get from them. We went level 5 first and went one round, looking for offers, then level 4. I took the chance to gather what is the best options available for my digicam while KH looks for LCD monitor. Thanks to personal advisor, Dz & comments from Terence & KH. I do not face any problems choosing what seems to be the best options available.

FinePix Z5

      The price was just right with all the complementary gifts. I was really happy to select at ease. If not for them, i may still be pondering around, not getting any yet. Just look at my handphone's case, i have selected the model yet i have not went down to get it.

      My great day ends at Singapore Pool @Paradiz Center. We (Dz&Jianqiang) watched 3 EPL matches showing there. Of course, our main concern is the liverpool match. We had to make a small bet in order to enter. We ended up won. Small bet, hence small earnings. But its good enough. Its been a long time since i last won in a bet. Alright, i do not bet often. Great feeling. Will Arsenal beat Portsmouth like Liverpool thrashed Derby? hmm...

my first visit

      It marks my first visit to the well-known Settler's Cafe @Central, yesterday. It was Dingze's idea as we had a small gathering, celebrating my buddy's birthday. Jianqiang, Weiliang & Jack form the rest of the party. They wore pretty former. Not bad looking... but feel we really grown up. My outfit was criticized though, so sad.

The Settler's Cafe Singapore

      The food was not bad, portion wasn't stingy. Not that expensive too... considering that it includes a main course, a soup, a drink and a dessert. We enjoy ourselves quite a bit with two board games, Cartagena & another that involves those Too-Too Train in US (couldn't remember the name). I won the former but not the latter. I am quite surprise that i actually learn the games that fast. But its about friendly play. Hence never use strategy even if it is supposed to be strategy games. *laugh*

our first game, Cartagena

      The games actually quite fun. Easy to play and good interactions. Hence, i don't mind visit that shop again to learn more games if i have a chance to lar... Most importantly is the company you went with. Must be fun loving. *laugh*

      Recently, i forced myself to train. But due to weather. 3 days training become 2. Not getting motivated for the exercising, i guess. But i managed to do my the other interests. Music & drawings. Recorded one song (though not that good yet) & drew a few anime/comics characters. Pretty fun. If only i have a scanner, i showcase the drawings to you guys. *laugh*

trial ippt

      Read the headlines? Yap, i went IPPT today. For me, its a trial as i wanted to know where my standard is after last year's test. And also, accompany my buddy take. It is really boring to take alone. As expected, i am happy for my buddy, Dingze. He passed the test. No more IPPT for him till next year. For me, as expected, i failed. But surprisingly, i did not flunk the test. Borderline failures. Honestly, it did spur me up a little to train for IPPT. Who knows, i may be able to take in camp and get some cash from the test. But first, more training for me.

      I failed 2 stations. Standing Broad Jump (SBJ) & Chin-up. Both are my weakest stations during army days since BMT. But the results shows that, i can improve further. But need more legs & arms exercise. Skipping ropes did help, i guess. If not, could have fail more badly for SBJ. More gyms & push-up for Chin-up. i only managed 3 f**k-up one. *laugh* But today, the highlight was the 2.4km & my shuttle-run. 2.4km was conducted on treadmill. I had to run constantly at a high speed in order to pass. I did it, but it was a little shag. I used to sprint only at last 100-200m. Never constantly run so fast before.

      As for shuttle-run, my specs flew out while sprinting back the last lap. Yet, i managed to grab hold of the 'flying specs' and finish off the run. Though pass, one of my worse run. But its funny, when thinking back. Hence, i am required to take IPPT again since i failed more than 2 static. Train harder, try harder next time... *laugh*

      Oh ya, finally get my singtel voucher today. Finally can go and get the phone i wanted soon. Now is to decide, whether i should get a new number or continue with my old one. New number easier, right?

Happy ORD Anniversary 2007~!

      Yesterday, 10th August is my ORD date, hence i went out with my Jaguar brothers for the annual gathering. Since 2005, we met every single year on this date. 2005, we gathered for the first time after we POP in 2004 and went on to different unit. Last year, we met up for the ORD dinner. It also marks the biggest platoon 2 gathering ever. We had Section 1, 2, 3 & 4 representatives. We enjoyed the dinner at Suntec. A pool outing followed but many had to return home.

      This year, 2007, it is the third time we meet. And officially the 1st ORD Anniversary Dinner. As usual, Section 1 is the main cast. Only 3 non-section 1 was invited. Section 3 IC Desmond, Section 4 IC Me & my section-mates Jonathan. Sadly, both had night lessons and could not join me. Hence, i became the betrayer of Section 4. But honestly, though i get along well with everyone in Platoon 2, it is Section 1 that i am most comfortable with. Maybe due to the fact that they are more outgoing & we can click well.

7 Section One & 1 Special One

      Since the section ICs always work together, GuanMing(S1), Desmond(S3) & I(S4) are pretty good friends. Short of one? yes, he s Jason(S2). He was an outcast among us, due to his character. Honestly, Section 2 contains the most number of people the platoon dislike. So he is just one of them, together with the more famous, Kirby. In short, Section 2 is an outcast section.

Me & My darling(my mouth got food, cannot open~!)

      Time flies. We all missed those army days. This group of friends are also the more garang ones, or i should put it as more 'on' ones... Those present last night includes the co-organisers TeeRong & WeeTeck, WenHui, Jiemin, TiongHuat & my darling, GuanMing... Do you know? my first kiss ended up on GuanMing, special thanks to TiongHuat~!!! its memorable though... All the fun we had in BMT. Don't worry, GuanMing has a stable girlfriend... i am just one of his many 'flings' which includes Desmond too.

      After yesterday dinner, we went for some dotA fun. Alright, i am the 2nd weakest since TR never play before. But all was fun. Its been a long time since we last went overseas in 2004. Hope that we could went overseas together again soon... But first... my HongKong trip in decemenber, *yeah~!*

skating on ice

      MY BODY IS ACHING~!! haha... but i had so much fun. Yesterday, I spent my day at Jurong East Entertainment Center (if it is called so lar). HangMing, WeiPing & me went to ice-skate & pool. Total enjoyment if ignoring the pain i get there. Had a few falls but i feel i improved a lot... and really a lot. The first and only time i went there was in 2001 where Shunli brought us, the studious gang then, there.

      It feels great to skate and this time round, there is confidence in me that i will fare pretty well. Indeed, i wasn't disappointed. Though i am not expert, but i really improve a lot. Hang Ming is a pro there (at least among three of us)... guiding us... encouraging us... and indeed WeiPing was great yesterday too. Learning how to skate pretty fast. The most important thing is... we enjoyed alot. The feeling you get when u are able to skate through the ice gracefully was superb.

      Looking forward to another time should we be free lar...

      Over at work, i am happy with my performance but yet a little sad overall. Happy, i received so-called an indirect praise from my boss. She exclaimed that "wow, you two did quite alot last night" is enough for me to feel happy. Alright, its does spur me on the next night shift. Sad, i noticed that my team members are not really team player, especially Hnin Ko. She is a nice person being a friend but maybe her thoughts of leaving the department had made her less motivated in work. Somehow i feel, her working attitude wasn't that good. CJ is still ok but not that much better. But at least i feel there is an improvement.

      Now, i am still considering the options for my studies too. APMI studying schedule doesn't seems to favor my character. As for NTU, the distance is the main concern. NUS, their cert was slightly weaker then NTU FT/PT and NUS FT. UniSIM, not recognised and still new. Another concern for me is, should i heed my friend advice and go for FT study, PT work? hmm, getting more concern with my future. My interest isn't in any of the prospective field, yet i had to get one of these degree to succeed my dreams. Now, time to hit back the books real soon before i begin my studies plan.

Hearty Paws won my heart

      These days, i managed to watch 2 movie. Both korean. One with Xinyi, another watching through pc. Who Slept With Her? A comedy with a little bit sexual contents but no sex, of course. But it is a little strange to watch with a lady for such a movie. I never thought that it would have turn out this way. Its a comedy but story was ok... but the lady was gorgeous & one of the guy actor was suave. The rest? cannot make it. Its a movie for you to let go... but end up, i am a little tense as many guys stuff revealed in the movie... *laugh* Too bad i couldn't have Nacho with Salsa sauce. I don't really like too cheesy stuff. *giggle* But overall, its a nice outing.

      Have you watched Hearty Paws? It is a Korean movie. A movie i rate A+. Honestly, its touching, heart-breaking type of movie. If you are those going for actions. This is not for you. Its more emotional kind of movie. I watched via pc and i really cry throughout the show. Its been a long time or should i say, never did i cry till so serious before... watching it the second time make it worse. The little actor & actress are great in their roles... Especially the doggy. Its really a great movie. I will strongly recommend you go watch via whichever means you can have.

Starring:

Handsome Yoo Seung Ho

Cute Kim Hyeong-ki

Clever Labrador Retriever Dali

      The greatest movie i ever watched. It move to the top of my list. My heart still ache for the character in the movie. Think i am exaggerating? Watch it yourself. It will prove me right. WL Review

Arsenal will rise

      With the departure of Patrick Viera, Arsenal groom another youngster sensation named Fabregas. I am sure that Arsenal will be able to go against all odds this season and finish Top 4, at least. Thanks, Sir Alex Ferguson for believing in Arsenal when some of their players do not trust their club. Today, Ljungberg confirmed his departure to London derby, West Ham.

      I do not expect him to stay after much speculation about him leaving. But i never expect him to eat his own words. Its pretty unprofessional to say so much, only after you secure a transfer. Freddie Ljungberg had mentioned recently that he will not leave the Gunners for another EPL clubs with respect to them. But today, he joined not only another EPL club... but another London club. So much so for respect. R-E-S-P-E-C-T! Its a real disappointment. Not because he left Arsenal, but because he went on to join a club he vow not to join. I used to hold a lot of respect for him. But today, all the respect is gone. I dislike him the way i dislike Ashley Cole. Another guy who badmouth Arsenal on his way out.

      Totally agree with Sir Alex Ferguson that Arsenal will definitely shine next season. Being an underdog, i am sure they will spurn out better performance. They relied too much on Henry. With Ljungberg gone, i believe next to leave Arsenal will be Gallas. He recently had voiced his unhappiness about the direction Arsenal is moving. Though i had to agree with him that Arsenal need a few big names, i had trust in Arsene Wenger. But its a growing concern that Arsenal could not lure big names to the club. Or... is Wenger even trying?

Betrayal Ljungberg mentioned Henry's departure influence his decision

      This season, only 4 being signed. Keeper, Lukasz Fabianski along with Bakari Sagna, Harvard Nordtveit & Eduardo da Silva. The scale is unbalanced when Arsenal had let go 2 first team players (Henry, Ljunberg) & 7 reserves team. Now, the ball is back to Arsenal's court. Only them can prove the critics wrong and show those a**h*le who left Arsenal that Arsenal is better without them, go on and win a cup at least this season...

Victoria Concordia Crescit

Bowling Championship

      I'm back. *laugh* After having a busy time at work over the week, i went for some fun with my bowling kakis... Jack & Dingze. Its fun... and been a few months since we last bowled. I keep track of our bowling scores. The record keeper of the 3...

      It wasn't a good day at the alley. Apart from mr Jack, both of us score pretty average results & the feel is no longer there. Can you imagine? i actually scared of bowling out my first few throw... Not enough sleep, fatigue or finger injuries are some excuses i gave myself for the poor showing. Lane affect our performance too? But Dingze finished off our 6-game match with a bang. Impressive as he was the better scorer since i start recording. Me? never get back my form since the Feb freak incident. Hope that my finger can recover soon. Will seek for help this Friday, most likely...

      After the competition ends, we spend our time at AMK eating the less-than-impressive-yet-expensive Sa Bo Fan. We shall not go to the place again or should say, shall not eat the item again. Too expensive for such a meal. AMK Hub's Cathay is now open and AMK is really crowded because of the night shows... AMK night time always have lots of people. Now the Hub make it more happening. We watched Invisible Targe. Watching good hunky cops dealing with martial arts robbers... Typical HongKong movie but not too bad as an entertainment. Reviews by Me @ Multiply.com

Main Cast:Jaycee,Nicholas & Shawn

      Looking forward to other movies outings... Since my schedule getting more busy, its hard to meet friends nowadays. Glad they still make it a point for asking me out. Thanks guys. Meanwhile, i shall need to recover & train hard to dethrone my buddy over the Bowling Crown... oh ya... The fantasy soccer crown too... *evil grin* My time will come...

      Kangwei injures himself again. 2 injuries that caused our ubin trip to cancel. A little disappointed. As all gathering with him had been canceled since last week. But health is more important ba... so rest well A-Wei

mistake

      When i thought that i am finally getting used to being a leader... leading a team... earning their cooperation... working as a team... i am now facing a little hurdle at work that the worst thing can happen is... sack or bad record in the company...

      Many thought that i am doing pretty well in the company... smooth sailing ride to promotions. But actually, it isn't that smooth. It isn't that rough compared to many though. I worked hard even not extremely hard. Being a leader, with the former leader still in the team & another member who joined the company with you, it takes time to win them over... Former leader cooperates well... the other just take a little longer... but they all understand my stand and now cooperating with me well...

      Last time, i am just a 2IC... my part is more simpler... a so-called double jump to be a leader... Its tough on my part. Lack of knowledge is obvious as days goes by... Now this incident... a mistake consider severe in the company policy. Hope my supervisor can save me this time round. But still may face the Asst. Manager tomorrow...

      Thanks guys... Cheng Jing for showing your support... Angie for not submitting the final warning to HR and now facing the QA for me... Boyes & Wani for not reprimanding me for that... Thanks alot...

      Its obvious that my stress doubles... my white hair now is very obvious... Looking older than my age... haha... If everything went smoothly, i have to watch my back from making another mistake before i leave the company... and guess i have lots of knowledge to brush up with... Ganbate, Wee Liang san

07 07 07

      07 07 07... Earth Live Day or so they called it... Many couples rushed to get married or registered today. A hot day indeed... Heard from my friends that their neighbourhood have malay couples getting married too. Love is in the air... for earth... for couples...

      Its my poly bro, Han Keong's ROM celebration day. He was real nervous, shy etc... It is in his blood, even on his big day... but honestly, happy for him. I guess i will feel more on his actual wedding day next year. Honored to be in his list of invitees. Only 3 of us from poly made it to the list. His reason? We gave him lots of memories... Aww... its touching for all 3 of us. As i did mention in my previous post, some of us actually had to make arrangement for his day. But anyway, we all made it there.

      I was asked to assist him as emcee but turn down, but Jannah helped him with the script after stating that she is not suitable for it due to some reason. Me? Ended as music director... haha no lar.. just music source. At first, i thought he put all his songs... but as the dinner goes, all my songs came up... he liked it... and i am so glad... i did something for him. But feel bad that i arrived late and couldn't helped him during the photos display...

Mr HanKeong with Ris, Jannah & Liang

      A night for 3 of us to chill out. Ris need some help for his work. Its a small part, i managed to get it done and 3 of us off for some catching up. Its been months... since 3 of us sit down and chat... Talked about poly days, Fbodz thingy... Honestly, Fbodz was great... its a dance club in NYP. Very popular there. Youtube.com have some great clips too... maybe if you interested, can take a look. Ris was the pioneer batch of Fbodz and he was the one who make the guys section popular... He was great too... Now? haha... never get to see him dance anymore... Fbodz evolved alot... Now even have Fbodz TV, its cool... Honestly, go watch it...

      Unfortunately... I received a not so nice news today, Tze Hee's dad was gone today. Less than a year after his mum's death... Real sad that i am on night shift today, will head down tomorrow... He is a good pal of mine during army days...

Double Movie Treats

     2 movies in a single day? That was what i got when i decided not to go for OT support despite the seductive OT rate (2 times). I never regret after that... I need rest too, i am human... haha... watched Transformer & Fantastic Four... Former is more interesting than the latter... (My Movie Reviews)

      Lido Shaw counter lady messed up what supposed to be a great start of my day. First mistake, she gave us 10pm show instead of the 10am show... After going back to change with her... The wrong cinema was given to the morning screening. Xinyi & I were stunned and thought its commercial when we entered the wrong cinema (its a chinese show)... But thankfully, the usher came in and asked us which show and redirect us to the correct cinema... Thanks, uncle... As for the auntie, TIME TO RETIRE~!!! haha...

      After that show, we went Novena Square's extension, Square 2, for a walk. Had the chocolate dip thingy, Fondue at Andersen's Ice Cream. Since only two of us, we go for the Couple Fondue. They are real stingy in terms of fruits etc. I could get more at Fairprice. Poor service, normal food make the outing a rather forgettable affairs. We sat down and chat about working experience. It maybe better if we could do the Fondue ourself but hey, its down right sinful...

Andersen's Couple Fondue

      I wore my new cap today. The one that i bought with Kangwei. Looking into my wardrobe, i picked a matching color vest which i did not wear frequently. I wore another polo tee inside and its a decent two piece. The street-style jeans make the whole look pretty cool... Honestly, i fall for myself that very moment. Impressed with myself. But honestly, had to agree with Dingze... i do look pretty cheena and a little oldies... but hey, at most i look good right? Its a trial, as i may wore this outfit to HanKeong's ROM this coming SAT. Comments, anyone?

New Look, New Style

Naturally Shot

Field Of Dreams

      National Stadium finally came to an end after 34 years of glory days. She serves Singapore well from SEAP Games to Malaysia Cup.... National Day parades to ASEAN Championship (previously known as Tiger Cup). Though i am not so attached to the building, its saddening to see it gone... The tribute to the stadium was indeed meaningful.

      Unfortunately, the promoters did a bad job. I never really see any promoting for the events. The turn-out was disappointing. Merely 45,000 (max. capacity is 55k, i think). The sound system wasn't that good, i can hardly hear the legend, Rahima Rahim sings. Neither could i hear Kit Chan's voice... The only good part was Mark Richmond's exciting introduction for various soccer moments, Daniel Ong's & Jean Danker's emcee-ing... Brian Richmond is just ok, not that bad either... And that's all...

      The match between Singapre Ex-International & Malaysia Ex-International is just rubbish, i guess no one really want to watch... it ended Singapore won over a coin toss after a 1-1 draw... Stupid right? haha... The match between Socceroos & the Lions aren't as good as expected. The Lions lost 3-0 to the Aussie. Australia was at second-gear throughout the 1st half, missing their chances & giving Singapore chances to score... Unfortunately, the lions couldn't perform... Its not that they did not have any chance, they have lots of one-on-one chances instead... all blew wide, keeper saved or worst still... give the ball back to Australia.

Socceroo Mark Viduka (centre) is challenged by Lions

      0-0 at half time is not credit to Lionel Lewis. He hardly made any saves. At most 2 commendable saves... The rest? Socceroos missed the chances themselves. His performance is below-par... Made many silly mistakes, e.g. pass the balls to opponent... Indra Sahdan failed to keep up his reputation in scoring against big team. He is famous for scoring against Man Utd, Uruguay, Japan & Denmark. Today, he did shoot, but failed to score...

Aussie shows EPL standard

      Singapore wasted many chances in attacking. They do not shoot directly or try to, whenever there is a chance. They will wait, hestitate or ponder awhile before trying for a shot... by that time, opponent had reacted and snatch the ball back. Hey, we are against European based Aussie leh... At this rate, we can't even be ASEAN Champions again. Thailand actually played better that time in National stadium. Singapore use long-ball techniques again... which actually failed against Thai... Aussie punished them in second half with Harry Kewell subbed in... a player with class...

      A little disappointed today, after the event. Not a good outing... No enthusiastic crowds (unlike against Thai), No full attendance... Post-events really s**ks big time... (Who is the singer again?) Hopefully, can see better performance from Singapore. More matches like this is needed.... till more improvement, i guess i may not go watch SIN matches in near future...

Team A

      After finishing my 4-day Team B shift, i started as Team A today. Rather uneasy for my first day. Not because of the ex-Team A leader but more because today, we had a rather easy day. Not something we face in Team B. Never had such a relax day. So i couldn't really gauge if its a good or bad thing going to Team A. Guess, i can only judge or comment after a few days or weeks...

      Today, i ended up trying to communicate with other members... Chatting with them more... Playing the role as a counselor or listener rather than a team leader... Made a mistake at work, largely due to the fact that yesterday was a busy day... rushing for many reports. Thanks Team B for helping me out... Now have to prepare for more 'challenges'

      Bonus was given this month... Pretty low... increment? low too... this year increment is lowest in AFPD history... according to my colleagues... so sad... Added more workload, responsibility yet no increase in pay for that... sounds like Army... yes, it is... at least Army increase rank have more pay... Don't worry, i am hanging on... lol

what i need is... rest

      A little update about me from work. An official email been sent to my department's people stating that i will transfer to team A as leader next week. Hence i had to work 5 consecutive days before the leave i took on SAT to take a short rest. After that... 3 more working days before my official 2 days off... Hectic workload... This explains why i quite busy recently....

      Having fever on Monday... Now, i am still having bad sorethroat & cough... its hurt... these days... my whole body felt weak, had severe headache... i went work despite having MC. Bo bian, MC not recognised... But now, slighty better le... though still having cough... Toothache also seems to be gone after visiting the dentist on MON.

      Today, i met up with some of the Lounge 12 members... Never get to sleep... so i was expecting a tired or sleepy meet up... but surprisingly, i was fully awake & was enjoying myself. Did some catch up with all... JiuHsiang, Dingze, Jianqiang, Weiliang, Jack, Terence... It was great~! i had been busy for weeks. Never even chat with them much online... Today, we also talked about the overseas trip...

      Before today meet up, i actually was feeling a little uneasy over meeting JiuHsiang... i can still remember him acting strange with me around... and i am also afraid if he asked much about Teck... But all turns out well... I enjoyed the chat up with him too... its was back to good old days... those memories with him & the rest... Guard duties, NDP, Outfield etc... Those were the days... haha

      The only sad thing that bothers me is... Henry's departure to Arsenal... I was angry in the beginning... As he denied all reports for past few months... in the end... its true... he is leaving... Now, i feel that ARS will be better without him... No one player is bigger than a club... so... Bye Henry... Really hope you don't join the Arsenal-leaver-flops list...

goodbye Haymar

      Today, erm... yesterday is the first day of working without our ex-Team leader Haymar... My mama... haha... all because of her name 'Mar' x2 = "MaMa"... Will definitely miss her...

Haymar with Baby mushroom

      Did a small gift for her, she liked it alot... i was glad that my effort was not wasted. It took me a little while to gather all the message & photos for her... Due to some people not cooperative enough, Thinyu & Nay on long leave... i have to try to cover up for them... but i guess, i did well haha... it was well-received in my department and many people praising a job well done...

Baby Mushroom is for Thinyu

      I created a small commotions. A few commented not to let me quit till they quit... some even say... they quiting the next day, want me to do one for them also. Wah... die... haha... but really happy to hear their praises... and Haymar give me a Distinction for that... wooHhoo... but sad to see he leave. She and me click very soon after i joined the team. We became closer & good partners... due to our similarities in character. Our age are only 5 days apart. I owe her for who i am today, i learn alot to survive in this company.

Haymar & Ashton

      I can't really clicked with the new leader, though we worked together since i joined the team. Our views are different. But strangely, we still can cooperate well if we don't need to chat lar.. haha... But soon, i will need to leave the team. I am either going to be the new leader of team A or just a member of team C. haiz... i am in a difficult situation.

Team B & Supervisors

Jun Hao joins New Team B

please stop me from... laughing

      A long waited short break. I had not met up with Kangwei & Vivian since Feb Chalet. The gathering last time was short too. This time round, we spent 2 days enjoying ourselves and fooling around... haha. Xinyi made up the group of four... We watched Shrek 3 and laughed our heads off... Xinyi make me & Kangwei laughed throughout the whole movie. Both of us keep teasing her after that. Vivian only joins us after movie.

Kangwei, Vivian & Ashton

      We went to a few places for our meal. Never been to there before... Day 1, Dian Xiao Er for lunch... & Carl's Jr for dinner... Day 2, we settled our dinner at Long House at Thomson. DXE was a little expensive but not too bad. Portions was big... Carl's Jr was great but i will never eat double again... ITS HUGE~! plus wholemeal bread, OMG~!! More exercise for me... its tough to finish it... Long House's chicken rice was rather ok... but its the company that make it taste better... haha...

when spider-lady found her prey, as MJ

Guys acting cool; Ladies acting innocent

      Its been a long time i enjoyed so much... with wacky Vivian & fun-loving Kangwei... The hidden me was brought back to life... argh... so tired due to the laugh we had... Xinyi should open up more and fool with us more... We took alot (and i do mean ALOT) of photos. Wacky ones, cool ones, ai mei ones (censored here), innocent ones... many many more... camera just couldn't stop clicking... Ms Vivian is our 'super star' while i have to settle down being a 'famous star' haha....

the most photogenic TRIO

      In short, we are really having fun... In the midst of playing, we visited Ms Lim @ Bukit Panjang and Ms Koe & THPZ staff. We definitely made their day as they are having a hard time at work. Their smile assure us that we made the right move... Too bad many cashiers not working that day... Never mind, there is always another time. Can't wait to go out with them again before my xiao di, Kangwei enter army...

hating myself

      Have you ever feel tired after working... and feel why are you working so hard for? Have you ever look forward for games after working so hard to end up knowing that you aren't going to play? Disappointment is there, even one know that no one is at fault. Wanting to play games, is it my fault?

      I wasn't myself for days. Stress from work... First time ever, i really feel brainless for life... An argument with my mum over small stuff... I'm tired... tired of my life... a life of no life... i doesn't seems to have things my way... Before anyone reading my post going to scold i'm childish, or i am willful. Make this clear. I AM JUST TIRED~! It may not be one of you guys who cause my unhappiness but it just trigger my unhappiness... That's all. Moreover, everyone have the right to be angry.

      I'm tired... real tired... i don't care if people think that i am not grown up, whatsoever... i want a life... so many things in mind... sleepless nights for so f**king long... Now... i feel that no one to turn to... i'm back alone... striving hard for this stoopid 'life'... No longer working for interest... its the money that get me going....

      Alright, go on... think whatever you guys want... i don't f**king care anymore... i'm tired... i am really tired... wanting out...

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Spiderman 3 : Review

James Franco stole the limelight

Spiderman 3 was really nice... The way they develop the characters. Venom, Sandman, Spiderman & New Globin... All did their parts great... Suddenly fall into the charm of James Franco's (New Globin) smile... He was a real charmer... Never really think he look quite good till Spiderman 3. Especially when he lost his evil memories... he smile so charmingly... No wonder he was elected by his senior class as the boy with the "best smile" in Palo Alto High School in 1996...

MR James Franco, New Globin

MS Kristen Dunst, as MJ

MR Tobey Maguire, Spidey 

      Kirsten Dunst(as MJ) looks most beautiful when she was on stage at the beginning... during her broadway performance. Alright, they made the right choice to replace her with the other girl. Vocal wise, Dunst didn't make the mark. Tobey Maguire stunned me with his dance & 'new look' during one night at the lounge where MJ worked at. His moves was grooving and nice... but its a turn-off when he did that on street... haha... the dance at lounge saved the day...


Sandman's & Venom's performance quite good... but i hate Venom teeth... a little bit insightful. Or they purposely made it that way. Overall, the movie was quite good. I will recommend people go and watch... For the stories... Muscles... Smiles... but not much beauty... Its a fantasy... comics, man... haha... Can't wait for Fantastic 4 too... What other great movies coming up... hmm....


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Singing Passion

      Singing has always been my passion... whether i sounded good or not. I keep telling people i wanted to join Project Superstar. Many passes it as merely a comment. None really take it seriously. But actually deep within me, i really have the urge. haha... I know my limits. Hence i am still here.

      The biggest step i took in competitive singing was last year's AFPD Idol. I flop. Its the 3rd time i had to sing solo in front of a group of audiences more than 5. The first time i did so was in Braddell where i am vying for a spot as one of the male soloist in the musical, Wizard of Oz. I shook my way through losing to my senior Zhiqiang. But hey, my teacher see me as a backup should he fall sick. haha... The second time was Music & Drama Company (NS). I was totally unprepared. Thought its 1-to-1 audition, ended in the middle of 5 judges. I wasn't impressive... Hey that day was early morning leh... haha... alright i shall not find more excuses....

      I always thinking of continuing my passion in singing. Until this very moment, i can only sing in KTV. I bet i was much better last time in Sec Sch. Nowadays, not sure if its army or due to my growth, my vocal sounded weak. I can hold the note in He Se You Mo (Dark Humor) by Jay. Don't pray pray~! haha... From a tenor 2 to base 1, i can hardly hold a note for tenor. But hey i am still working on my voice. Practice makes.... alright, practices will improve my vocal?

      Today, The Artist Academy (Tiny Box Music) message me in friendster. Checking if i am interested in the courses. Alright, if its those messages asking me to join their company, i normally delete it. But this Artist Academy seems to have a strong back up in music industry. Lesser known artist like Malaysian Project Superstar winner & runner-up worked with them, our Kelly Poon also signed with them too. Hence i am thinking if i wanted to join the courses for fun... passion... hehe...

      But you guys know me, if its me alone, i unlikely will go, but if someone interested in joining me, i surely will join de... Just like if someone want to join Superstar. JIO ME~! haha... but before that, back to basics.... Do... Re... Mi... Fa... So... La... Ti... Doh~!

distance Vs recognition

      Plane crashed into Singapore military camp in Taiwan became a hoo-haa last week. Allowed me to pay tribute to my nanyang poly-ECC junior, Pte Fan Yao Jin & NUS candidate 3SG Isz Sazli... May you guys rest in peace... The rest of the injured fellow Singaporean, may you get well soon...

      Its kinda saddening when i saw the news about 2 guys being 50% burnt & one of them even had been burned to his respiratory system... that's dangerous.... SGH staff... help them ease the pain please.... Thank goodness, this incident did not happen a few months back... where my ex-signal-comrades were there on training... Thankfully, they had been back in Singapore for a long time... but still this is an unfortunate incident... My condolences to the family of the death...

      As for myself, i had been caught in the decision making. Whether to go for NTU parttime or accept the place in UniSIM. Many factors and friends did suggest NTU is a better choice, but due to the location. I had to consider more carefully. Special thanks to Haymar, Jx, Liying, Eunice, Qiang... you guys did give me a better advice rather than asking me to think what i want or decide myself.

      Frankly speaking, i prefer NTU. Better degree, more recognised, reputable, more modules to learn (meaning i can learn more) and with the aspect of converting to FT after 4 semester (case to case basis). It suits all my criteria... UniSIM is good in all aspect, but its recognition in our engineering field is the cons. Hence, as of my MSN personal message, its distance Vs recognition. But at the moment, i am definitely drawing more nearer to choosing NTU. But people may shoot me another question, am i sure i can get NTU part time place... Honestly i don't know... i am waiting to consult Desmond & Guanjie, both applied for this semester.

      If you guys have any advice to give me, poor little guy... haha... but seriously please do, MSN me...

tying a knot

After Jocelyn's marriage & child birth last year... Yiliang's ROM months back and a wedding is being lined up at the end of the year... Another great occassion coming soon... Out of my surprise, i received an sms from a guy whom i never contact for awhile.... haha... since he is busy with army, i am busy with job... Hankeong getting hitch this coming June... Honestly, i am happy for him... i shall dedicate this little post to him... haha...

HK, his little nick last time, was someone i know since poly year 1. In year 1, i am considered one of the studious guy in our class... so is he, we formed a study group and studied our way to sem 2. Soon, due to some differences in the group, we break up and never study in such a big group again... of course, we still study together once a while....

i still remember him as someone who is kinda competitive... alright, who isn't? i admit i am too... but i did, at that point of time, feel a little pressure to succeed as well, with his presence. Others feel that he is comparing many things with me, so its not just me feeling it... We shared common goals & interest. Both were bowling members. Alright, he did fare better than me, but once awhile, i show that i am a force not to be reckon with.. hehe.. and he will try to beat me... its friendly competition... In studies, i am one of the better Singaporeans in our class, with the top spots normally occupied by my other good friends (foreigners)... Hence... you'd guess it... i am considered the 'upper class' in terms of studies...

Though i constantly lost to him in bowling terms, i fared better than him in academic. We did studied together in the beginning but as i soon went to help another group of friends. Me & him, never study together much again... moreover he stay in the north, me? AMK, Bishan seems to be a better choice for me... and it is more important to help friends to pass, than to achieve GREAT results isn't it? Hence, i decided to spend time with those who often skipped lessons etc. (you guys out there, touched right)

Maybe its due to results, i guess i am fortunate to get into the elite class after some of the elites choose opted out. And i become the minnows there... He, on the other hand, failed to make it to the class but if i am not wrong, he did pretty well in other specialisation... alright, photonics students do regret chosing Photonics but the people there are majority great.... hehe... as in personality wise of course... Academic? Needless to say, they count by numbers of As but yet they are humble... Those who know my results... i am one of the weakest link.

HanKeong achieve good results in Bowling terms. He is outgoing & like to socialise, which made him the top choice by the senior to be the next club chairperson. But we (a few committee members) feel that he is not yet up to the standard as he always heeding our help rather than making the cues himself. Hence soon after, a few of us quit... wanting him to be more independent... but that is a correct decision i feel... at least i lost my favorite CCA, i earn back a friend. A class chalet at the end of our poly years allowed him to say his apologies and of course, i was touched... it strengthen our ties...

Honestly, i am glad that regardless how i treat him during those days... he always regard me as a brother... and even now, call me when he planning to ROM... i mean, he can simply forget about me, isn't it? but he didn't... He never did anything wrong to me, so i never really hate him... haha just jealous that he get all the attention in bowling more than i do... hehe... alright, i hate to socialise to that extend, happy?! We even had short stint together in Fairprice before he left to concentrate on his studies.

Fond memories, huh?! Definitely... so i am really happy to see him ROM so soon... too bad not Jiahui... haha but hey, love cannot be forced right, so i am glad that mr HANK(eong) is getting hitched...

p/s to~
JH: Not sure you still treat him as friend, but i hope that you forget what happens last time and give him well wishes... i actually forget what happen... haha... alright, at least he made you stronger... and made u treasure Bel more, right? haha...

HK: If you get a chance to see this post, Congrats~! POWER lar... missed those bowling days... our schedules just can't accommodate a bowling session... but SIR~! congrats once again... Hope that you have a blissful marriage... so envy... haha...