Journal for five days

     Just received a news this morning, a rather sad news. No, i'm fine. But my friend are not. Jannah's grandfather passed away last Saturday. Its rather ironical or should i say bad that we had fun on Friday but her kin died on Saturday. Still remember that we took Neoprints where i am photogenic. *ehem* I'm sure she will get through it.

     My job at Swensen's remained unchanged. Afraid of giving the wrong impression to that colleague of mine, i communicate with her very little. Refrained to only about work, even if we happen to be in the same station when our shifts overlapped. Overall, still a little bored since i am still the guy who only pours water and clear plate. 

     Recently i am not feeling too well again. Rather tired and seems like i do not have any good sleep. Last night, i am somehow awake in the middle of the night. Its not the first time but last night, i heard a scream from a lady. Not knowing whether she is human or what, i decided to pretend i heard nothing and try to get back to sleep. But i am still tired when i am awake. Attendances seems to be pretty bad, have been late for more than 20% of my project. 

     Last night, i also went to meet Siang, Yong Hao and Jeremy before meeting Qiang at his neighbourhood. Its been months since i last saw Yong Hao and Jeremy. i try to update myself with their news. *laugh* Not too bad, love to have nice chat with them.

     Feeling that i can do better in school, i try to learn more ways of using Flash. Wait, do not ask me to read up books. i will fall asleep. 2 books on hand, not the first time, read none yet. i would rather read a story book. Seems like my friend like my design, which is somehow a consolation to the unhappiness i had with my work. i will try harder...

Sagittarius [A-Type]
November 23 - December 21

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Personality: You're very clever about what comes out of your mouth. Usually there are more things brooding in your head than what you actually say. People perceive you to be more of a private person but realize that you are easy to befriend.

Love Tendency: The problem you run into is that you fall in and out of love too easily. But you do have this coldhearted manner, which women are strangely attracted to. You are also a man without words but that doesn't stop you from experiencing many relationships.

Life: Stocks and the related financial market are career fields that you would do well in. Income will naturally derive to you but make sure you control you cash flow. People around you might say that you are too risky but it's nothing to worry about. Things will level out as you get older. Take some time out to check up on your health regularly.

Good Match: O-type Sagittarius and AB-type Aries and Leos are people who will exactly know how you feel inside. They seem to have a sixth sense for that. O-type Aries and Aquarius are adventurous people who will hardly bore you when you are together. That's their charm.

Bad Match: B-type Cancers really test your patience. A-type Virgos will touch your nerves too much that it will get very annoying.

What About U?

white to brown

     Still very tired. When i reached home last night, it was already 12am. *smile* Then went online for awhile before heading to bed. Hence, not enough energy to jump... jump... jump! *laugh*

     i went to a saloon in Aljunied. You must be thinking "how on earth do you get yourself in Aljunied?" i actually went there with Aris to dyed my hair. For me, i merely covered my white n silver hair... So not much different if you see me in real person. *laugh* i am still not bold enough to get into brighter colour. i still got innocent and cute image, remember?

     Now... White hair? No more *laugh*

You're Most Like The Season Spring ... Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy. As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you. Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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what a day

     Have my presentation in the morning. Not too bad lar... i guess... *laugh* Managed to answer the questions the lecturers ask. As usual, i did stutter a little but everything just went smoothly especially the Q&A part *smile*

     It also happened to be my first day at work in Swensen's. It had been a long time since i work in F&B, but not forgotten what i learn, i mean the basics service stuff lar... but i had to refresh my skills *smile* as usual it is a Malaysian working environment, but i guess more Singaporean than Chatterbox.

     First day of work, happen to be a crowded day, hence not much was learnt., but i guess Jannah's buddy, Rena, guide me along and ask a guy to guide me too... but i forget the names of the staff... *laugh* Then came this girl, whom i don't know her name too, ask me whether i have a girlfriend. When i answer 'No', she was like mumbling what "i also dun have... dunno...." I can't really remember as she spoke too softly.

     Felt strange since we only met once before i work today ( i was the customer and she was the waitress lar... *laugh* ) and she asked me this question. Then she was smiling to me all night whenever she looks at me sia... *frown* i think i need to watch my action now... i do not wish to have a repeat of incidents...

What school subject are you?

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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better mood... better luck?

     Not a bad day at all... i'm feeling good... Even though i am still a little tense up but i guess its normal since it was due to the presentation coming up on WED. Half way done with my slides but what i am really afraid of is that i might once again stutter. I think i will be better but there is still a little phobia that i might freak out. *laugh* as usual...

     i know twins and Aris are not really happy with this but it is true *laugh* We are chatting at Mac while having out lunch (FJ take-aways). My god-sister saw me and called me but i never noticed it *hehe...* Then when i message back, she called again. She told me that her friends said that i am the *ehem..* better looking one among the four of us *laugh* a little unexpected joke but i guess i am a little lucky to have someone saying i am handsome... Especially compared to fashion-savvy Aris and Twins... *laugh* Fine... don't puke! but it is true. *mega-watt smile*

     Then Jian Long called me up around 4.50pm... That made my day. It had been months since i last heard of him. Never thought he would call, but glad he did that. Have a little nice chat with him, even though a bit of 'bird-language' was used *laugh* Feeling good... i always LOVE to find out my friends are doing fine, at least not yet die *laugh*

     Had a haircut yesterday at a barber in Ang Mo Kio. Now, my hair is not as short as that time in Industrial Attachment, but still short to many people. Looking fresh but i guess its the same old brand new me... *laugh*

KOOKABURRA

(Sagittarius Nov 23 - Dec 21)

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    The kookaburra's distinctive laughing call is contagious - it makes one feel like laughing along. It can stir up feelings of joy and of positive energy. When you hear a kookaburra laugh, remember to allow yourself to laugh as well, for laughter and joy are part of the very essence of our being.

    The kookaburra man dislikes discipline and confined spaces. He is very optimistic, idealistic and intelligent. He likes a partner who will share his love of fun and adventure. He is not possessive, jealous or demanding, and likes to be free to come and go as he pleases. He is honest, open minded, easy to get on with, friendly and popular. He must have a challenging interest in his life or else he will become bored and restless.

*MAROON*

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You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you be patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

up neXt

     Its time to get my hair cut again. But due to the heavy rain yesterday and the need to bring home my bowling ball, i did not go. Aching all over, i guess i need to beef up my hands etc. *laugh* i begin a little small step of my 'Keeping Fit' program... *laugh* Hey~ at least i start...

     i eat slightly lesser and chose to eat. *smile* i will never go on diet. That's hard on me *laugh* i try to excercise too, so that i can bowl better and last longer. NAPFA and MIW checkup are up soon. Must prepare myself. I have not booked it yet as i am not ready yet. *sigh*

     This week is going to be a slightly more busy week. Project Presentation on WED, start work on WED too... Have to remember to book MIW Check up too... What a week?! Thinking of having a hair cut and dying my hair, but i scared that it will screw up my presentation. Hmm... should i or should i not?!...

You're goin' down! FOR KIDNAPPING!

What Would You Go to Jail For? (Many outcomes)
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turning of life?!

     What a night?! i missed the band concert last night but it seems to be worth it... *smile* Hanging out with 4 of my friends, we chat and 'shop' even though i was not in the mood to shop *laugh* No lah, i'm just not those shopping freak that is why my clothes seems the same all these while.

     We are chatting and chatting but i also not very sure on why the arrows begin to point towards me. All of the sudden, all topics was on me. They noticed a change in me or should i say they think i do possess with a problem. So, they keep asking me and in the end, have a talk. Believing that my mindset is not correct, they try to correct me.

     i know that they care, and i'm very happy as usual *smile*, but this things cannot rush. i need time to change. i will try and i am trying hard, maybe just not hard enough. But trust me, i will not let you people down... i will listen to you guys, listen to Siang. But the past behind and change the future and not wait for the future... Once again... Thank you!

So... You're a rock.... That's pretty damn
sad...Let's see, you're boring and....boring
and boring. Anything else?

What type of freak of nature are you?!
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getting slightly better

     After all the grumbles, i'm much better now. Really very happy to have friends showing concern to me when i'm down. At least i know that i will never be alone in this world. *smile* It may be just a short while but it is worthwhile. Who knows what i'm going to happen next year... who knows what will happen in army... Don't worry, all i learnt from the past and friends is... Treasure the Present!!! *smile*

"Bu Zai Hu Tian Chang Di Jiu,
Zhi Zai Hu Cheng Jin Yong You"
     Still doing FYP and now are going into Week 6, a week that we will have to showcase our progress of our project. For me, its presenting what i have done in the past weeks. From what my supervisor suggest, wear shirt and pants to impress the audiences, which consist of various Managers *sigh* The presentation will be held in a lecture theatre. Around 10 people will be present during the presentation. Its been a long time since my last presentation. A little nervous, but i need to know my stuff and i should do fine, isn't it? *smile*

     Now trying to get the job done as soon as possible to prove to myself that my ability is definitely more than doing simple job *smile* Pray for me, guys!

Miki

Which Utena guy are you?
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Hee! You are Jack's "You have to find
yourself a girl, mate ... you're not a eunuch,
are you?" speech. You're quite a bit sex-
crazed, and you assume that everyone else is as
horny as you are. Get it on as soon as
possible so that you can join the rest of us on
Planet Earth ... I'm sure you'll have a good
time doing so.

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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Your inner animal is a Penguine. You like to dress
up, and like cold weather. You're family
oriented, and like to swim. You're also good at
hunting and gathering.

What's your inner animal?
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good movie, bad outing

     Pirates of the Caribbean, a movie that includes a little bit of scary element, a little bit of love element and laugh element, is lack of a story line. Not a very interesting story line but is enough to make a person day better and attract enough attention.

     A much awaited movie outing with Aris and Twins. It was postponed for a few weeks since and i was looking forward to it. *sigh* Recently, not feeling very good and a little down and depressed, i hope this outing can lighten my mood. Unfortunately, it did not and make me feel worse. I did not enjoy the movie due to lots of interruption from the handphone. Never really get to enjoy the movie, even though i know what's going on... 

     A friend of mine need my help in terms of financial help. For those who know me well, will know that i will help IF i can. But unfortunately, that was not what happen last night. i am rushing throughout from Final-Year Project (FYP) to Swensen's interview to Orchard. i totally have no time to do a transaction and of course, i have assured my friend that i will transfer the money right after the movie.*frown* She know that i am in the movie, yet keep messaging during the movie.

     This interruption spoiled my day, or night to be exact. i expected myself to enjoy the movie and get better over the bad feeling i had in the past few days. Instead, i'm feeling let down by friend. No matter how urgent the need goes (not mentioning the reason to me)... i believe i do deserve a break for movie isn't it? It really struck me after that, am i really too nice? i transfer the money even before i took a leak which seems to be more urgent.*sigh*

     No matter how good the movie is, it is wasted that i did not enjoy the movie as much as my friends do. Swensen's job was, of course, a successful one. Get the job with a very low pay. But i guess i need more exposure in different line. In Swensen's, there are chances for me to be a runner, a waiter, a cashier or even the 'ice-cream man', the person who scooped and arranged the delicious ice-cream for us. To achieve all these, my performance there must be good. Now waiting for calls on which day to go for work. Next week, i will no longer be as free as now, which i think is a good think for me. *smile*

~ You are most like An Emerald ~
Caring, giving and very emotional. You're the
person people turn to with a problem. You worry about
everybody, and genuinely want to help - a little too much
sometimes. As an emerald, you tend to take a more backseat to
the other gems, but your inner beauty soon captivates those
who take the time to get to know you.
Congratulations ... You're the selfless gem
everybody needs as a friend.

?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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struggled with feelings

     i'm suffering from depression as i believed i am. Suddenly, i am feeling lost in this world. What will the future be like? Why am i not doing what i am suppose to do? Why are things work against me? Yet i should be happy with some things that happen and meant to be good news...

     Aris and i went for a job application at the same outlet of Swensen's. I am chosen for the interview while he is not. i should be happy that i get the job, isn't it? But on the other hand, i like the environment in NTUC. I wished to go back, but fear to go back. There are people there who i don't wish to meet or work with and, i guess, don't wish to see me either. I am also sad that my buddy didn't get the job even though the person who contacted me say he can go down and fill up another form and place under KIV, i guess is shortlisted. Should i go for it?

     i should be happy that my supervisor saw me today and say he was quite happy with my progress, my performance. But i don't know why the feeling is short-lived. Soon, i am filled with sadness again. And more worst, the fear of screwing up the Wk6 presentation make me feel more down. Why, just why, can't i be happy at the moment? i know i can do better, i wasted lots of time. i can finished the stuff using less than a week, but i always stretched it to a week. Poor productivity.

     Getting my blog done few days ago was the happiest moment for these days. But just now, i accidentally deleted one whole part of the blog, making the alignment look ugly now... i hope i can find the only back up in my school lab. Recently, i drank. "No big deal!" to many of you, but to me, if you know me well, i seldom drink. This time round i drank for two days. Even though i only drank one or two bottles and not yet drunk, i felt like drinking more...

     i don't know why i am feeling all this right now. Don't ask me, i am not sure myself. i really cried just now when i deleted the blog. It had been a long long time when i last cried. i guess its few months back. i felt very secure with Liying and Siang when i meet them just now, so i asked them to stay longer with me. Even though i really have nothing to say or interesting to chat about, i am glad to feel their presence. Call me stupid, call me childish. There is a child in everyone, and i only ask for the company of friends when i'm lost in this world, is it ridiculus? Can't i make such a simple request?

Chocolate fudge

What dessert are you?
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Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You are Classical Music. I will not judge you
according to this. Me, as a person, I could
probably have some good times with you.

What type of music are you?
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You are a Mexican Jumping bean. You are so cool. I cannot believe how cool you are.
You (and other people) like you have got to be
the coolest people in the world. Thats so
amazing.

What kind of bean are you?
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fustration

     My Oh My! Guess what... My brother is coming back to live with us. Normally, he only came back on weekends or some weekdays. This time round, he will be moving out of the old camp and live here!!! He is now moving to Bedok camp, i think, which he will not be staying in camp. Not sure the reasons, but its a bad news for ME!

     From his attitude to his manners, none is appreciated by me. A male Chauvinist, "Da Nan Ren Zhu Yi". No toilet manners etc. WHAT A MAN!

     As i am right, after he moves in, lots of things happen. Not really big but when small small things added up, it was big, isn't it? i no longer can enjoy my TV shows with that ass keep switching channels... He is currently holding up about 50% of the cupboards in my room. Now he needs more. What the... Just for your information, the other 50% is shared by me and my uncle. So...

     i can feel that my life is not going to be smooth. With my opposition party coming back to stay... *sigh* PRAY for me!

YOUR IDEAL CELEBRITY DATE IS

RACHEL STEVENS

YOU LUST AFTER THE GIRL NEXT DOOR. SHE'S SWEET AND PRETTY, BUT ALWAYS GAME FOR A LAUGH

What's Yours ?

Congratulations!! You're a strawberry daquiri!!

What Drink Are You?
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My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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shouldn't i be glad?

     Days without template... No posts.. No grumbles... Nothing... I have something to say !!! *laugh* but i can't... its terrible feeling... And FINALLY it's back *smile*

     Tiring... Going out... No mood... All have contributed to the time taken to update or should i say create a new blog... At first, i was thinking of using the old one. But somehow or rather, i got a feeling... its time to move on and have a change... and results? Here it is... im pretty proud... Like it?

     But... *smile* somehow i feel sad... no, of course not because of this blog. it happen always. Poor service, but since its free, i just let it be lor... Somehow, i begin to fear for my future. Its seem so unpredictable. But as usual, i get tired of thinking about it since its no point. But recently i did made some adjustment to my life. And i hope... it will make me a better person.

You should be dating an Aquarius. 20 January - 18 February Your mate is communicative, thoughtful and caring.
Though he/she can be tactless and rude and
sometimes self-interested, he/she enjoys the
intellectual experience of sex.

What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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luck

     Guess what, i won the weekly lucky draw from McDonald's. Have you heard 'The Dog'? McDonald's is now selling it at $3.95 with every purchase of Extra-Value Meal. Yes, i won one of it. No, not the small version, it is the BIG BIG version. Huggable-Cushion-like. i attract alot of attention on my way home with the Plushie with me. It is pretty big. i carry using one hand and was damn tired. :p

     But of course it is worthwhile. Not everyone will get the chance to own it, isn't it? Do you know it is actually my first Lucky Draw Prize, even though i participate in a few Lucky Draws. Hence, this prize kind of important to me. I enjoy a benificial week. From the camp to the lucky draw, it seems that my luck is getting better.

     In school, i managed to finish the stuff my supervisor asked me to do. But once again, i am not able to find him in his room. i waited for 15mins outside his office just now. Most likely will go and look for him later on, in the afternoon. Hope my luck can really change!!! *smile*

Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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Friend Bear

What Care Bear Are You?
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:: Type B ::

Your power to create romance is okay.

But this power is suppressed due to your passive personality.
Luckily, you are very good at getting people's attention and care.
it's not hard for you to get a good and caring girlfriend.
However, you should be aware that people might get jealous at you.

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confidence

     Yes~ I'm back... i am back from the FOCUS Camp. Feeling tired but definitely great. Even though the camp only last for 2days 1night, the team still managed to bond together and claim second. i'm really very glad that i went to the camp. Although not really much was learnt, i believe that i am a little bit more confident than before i went for the camp.

     In the camp, we were put together as a team. No matter what activities organised, teamwork is there. Leadership is kept in mind too. i, now, can communicate better and can be a better person. Especially after the success in the acting performance on the last day. A comical one, but i managed to stand in front of so many people and act.

     That is really a first for me. Normally, i will stutter in front of a group of people that is much smaller than yesterday's crowd. But yesterday, i do it in such a good flow. Absolutely happy with my performance. i believe this have create an impact on me that makes me no longer afraid of crowds anymore. *YEAH~~*