Thursday, December 31, 2009

Mini Review 2009

     Its been a tough year for me... Juggling from school to work... to social life... Financially, i was a little strained... Due to the low pay, high expenses... To be honest, i did not spend much in the month of September through November. As my schedule was tight, i have little social time or shopping time. But i am glad that in 2009, i got myself some vocal training. Unfortunately, it is most likely coming to an end in January due to my school term. Next semester will see my Monday, Thursday & Friday evenings being taken up. Despite a drop in results, i will try to bounce back next semester! Nevertheless, i guess i learnt more about my vocal through the trainings. Hence, even if i am forced to leave, i guess i will try to remember them... (if i could) *haha*

     So in 2009, what did i set myself to do? let's see...

  • Lose >10kg (last year not defined),
  • Continue to score in the next two semester,
  • Get to go abroad,
  • Have people around me happy,
  • Have at least one great event,
  • Stay happy in 2009.

         I failed to lose any weight and i gained a lot over the last few months. I am depress over this but i began some exercise recently, hope to get it going! =) "Get to go abroad" - I definitely met this aim by visiting, not once but twice, Taiwan! With two different group of friends & two differnt itinery, i got myself different experience all over Taiwan. And now, i can say i am more Taiwanese!

         4th on my list is to have people around me happy. I certainly hope so despite not able to judge, i guess there will only be one or two unhappy when i am around... *haha* Overall, 2009 was not very happy one, but i guess i am happy enough when i look back at 2009. Any significant event happen this year? Yes, but i shall not consider it great. That was the death of my aunt. As for great, not remembering any! if you know one, let me know =) Thanks in advance...

         With 2010 being a potential year of changes. I have some new resolution:

  • Lose >10kg (Hopefully, i finally achieve this),
  • Get at least a B- in all my modules next 2 semesters,
  • Get to go abroad twice (there are 3-4 ongoing plans),
  • Able to control my mood better,
  • Make 10 different type of desserts,
  • Make more friends of common interest,
  • Have more adventures & MORE PHOTOS,
  • Get a job of a better pay,
  • Stay HAPPY in 2010.

         Wah! i have a long list indeed, i think i could go on and on... But its good to have an aim, isn't it? Let's work hard towards our aim together!

  • Sunday, November 22, 2009

    Tweet-a-tweet

    JarWee...

    ... paying respect to late Jeremy, though i admit, we are not THAT close! But i did miss him...

    ... has his mood lightened up by the J-team. its been a long time since i laugh like that...

    ... was 'molested' by a boy in Han's but enjoy the short interaction with the kid!

    ... was disappointed with them being LATE again! Heck! I have my own breakfast and start myself.

    ... managed to study in Woodlands library with jun hao for a day!

    ... is having knee & back injury! Can't really do simple exercise to lose weight *sob*!

    ... wanted to do a lot of things after exam!!!

    ... has his December weekends almost(all) filled up with events!

    ... missed his LIFE!

    Saturday, November 21, 2009

    如果没有你

    歌手:莫文蔚 专辑:如果没有你

    hey我真的好想你
    现在窗外面又开始下着雨
    眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
    不知道你现在到底在哪里

    hey我真的好想你
    太多的情绪没适当的表情
    最想说的话 我应该从何说起
    最想说的话 我该从何说起
    你是否也像我一样在想你

    如果没有你
    没有过去我不会有伤心
    但是有如果还是要爱你

    如果没有你
    我在哪里又有什么可惜
    反正一切来不及
    反正没有了自已

    hey我真的好想你
    不知道你现在到底在哪里

    你是否也像我一样在想你

    我落泪了

    是失望吗?
    是难过吗?
    还是因为我累了。

    是绝望吗?
    是自责吗?
    还是因为感触很多。

    一个人, 一辆车。 一首歌,一滴累。 难过与失望,
    无奈与无助,
    想念与怀念。

    嗨。
    情不自禁的多愁善感起来。
    听着,听着。
    一首平常喜欢的情歌,
    竟然还是能让我落泪了。

    男儿有泪不轻弹,
    只是未到伤心处。

    试问:

    我怎么了?

    Sunday, October 18, 2009

    Away not Out

          Had been away from Blogging for quite a while... Busy with work, gatherings, meet-ups, birthdays, weddings... What else? STUDIES!~ This semester had been a hectic semester for me... but honestly, i did not put in much effort yet... So i guess, its me to be blame.

          Had been feeling tired and down... Lost motivation and confidence... Especially when i can't even sing happily now. Last night was one of the more enjoyable night. That is very important to me...

          Early in the morning, i received smses from a friend and communication breaks down... I don't understand what he trying to say. I asked more yet did not get the answer to the questions im asking. It happens frequently to two friends of mine, a little used to it but still can be rather fed up. Imagine, i just woke up! What a day to start with.

          Collected my Nike Human Race Funpack. The tee is too big for me. i should have take a medium size. Anyway, Dingze & Ermei accompany me there and we lunch at Popeye. Not impressive meal. I head home after a little shopping at Marina Square.

          In the night time, my sister wanted to go to Queensway. I drove. On our way there, i met with some incidents (not accidents). The whole journey to and fro was not pleasant. I was exhausted after that. My sister keep nagging and pointed ALL my mistakes in driving. There are times where it were the other road users' fault, yet i was reprimanded. I wonder if she really a good teacher. Do teacher always scold before finding out the truth? Its rather irritating. I am not her students. Soon, i ignored her comments. On our way back, i even say "Talk to you can really vomit blood". I couldn't take it. The shopping there was a pleasant trip though. We are okay now, we just have heated conversations once a while.. hmm...

          Wasn't in the correct mind to judge the road, i asked my buddy to drive instead of me driving. He seemed shocked but agreed. I rested while he drive. Ermei re-joined us back for a fun bowl @OCC. I stared off feeling that i could control the bowling ball better. And soon, record one of my higher scores in recent years. Special thanks to the guy beside our lane. He bowled the same style as me, start at the same bolt just different arrows. He wasn't really consistent either, judging from the arrows his ball landed. Ermei and Dingze added the fun to it. DIY, i beat Dingze in the last game for the first time since... i can't remember... haha... so happy.

          Wasn't been bowling well for a long time, so i was happy with it. It came at the right time to give me a boost. Now i must study and prepare for next week's Nike Run! Its my first competitive run. Moreover, its 10 KILOMETERS!!!

    Monday, September 21, 2009

    你有什么感觉

    学业上的压力,
    财经上的压力,
    情感上的压力,
    给予自己的压力,
    排到慢慢的时间表,
    有时真的似乎喘不过气来。

    我有些疲惫,似乎到了该放弃的时候。
    但庆幸的是我有几位对我不离不弃,了解我的好朋友。
    面对他们,我能打开胸怀,有感而言。
    对于他们,我抱有万二分的谢意。

    谢谢你们!谢谢Thinyu, 定泽,Nat for the timely support!
    You guys may not notice it, but thanks a lot.

    现在的我除了疲倦,心情已经好很多了。
    面对迎面而来的挑战,我会做好准备,不容易被打倒。
    未来的路还很漫长,但我相信我能走到我要去的方向!

    Wednesday, September 09, 2009

    09.09.09

          what does '09' meant to you? Today, at 09:09:09Hrs & 21:09:09Hrs, we get to see something that we may need to wait for 100 years to achieve. Though next year, i believe we will see 10:10:10 phenomenum. But to be honest, do you feel anything at this time? How do you feel on this special day?

          I had been having a mixed feeling throughout the whole day. Yesterday, something happened and trigger my tiredness... Recently had been rather worn out over the events, assigments, school etc... Hence, get rather emotional easily...

          I gained a good friend 2 years ago, but lost a xiao di last year... both around this day. I had been asking myself if i should sms him. It was his birthday today. But... why should i take the first step since he is the one that did not wish to contact us... Why must we always be the one to give in...

          Despite all the struggle... i smsed him at 09:09:09pm a birthday greetings... to meet the special moment. But the reply i get was lukewarm. At least he bothers to reply, i guess? I shall not say i am disappointed... but guess still nursing the pain of losing a friend... but definitely not that hurting... Just tired... and a little emo.

          I wonder why he put the photo of me and him during our 'August fun Time'. Guess he did once said that he like the photos alot... So maybe i think too much, nothing significant over that decision... Anyway, i am too tired to think of anything else... But like what Nat say, i do feel better after deciding to sms him. Thanks thinyu for the listening ear too.. =D

    Saturday, August 15, 2009

    GAGA-LICIOUS

    An impromptu decision. An unsure decision. But in the end, i made the decision. I skipped a lesson just to watch Lady GaGa 'LIVE' in Singapore. Brought the tix on Monday for the Wednesday concert. Regret the decision? Not really. Disappointed? Just a little...



    Wonder Twins brought the question up over MSN on Monday night as they know i do like Lady GaGa's music and even bought her CD in HMV. Its more like a love at first... erm... hearing? I like dance music and hers are siimply catchy. Hence, when the proposal was brought up, i was tempted. But i had a lessons on WED though... after some persuation, i decided to go for the concert over the lessons... Bad Wee Liang...

    On that day, we grab a bite over at Great World City basement - Old Chang Kee's 'I Love Singapore' Curry Puff each & we shared 3 Cinnamon bread. I assure you, i can make much better Cinnamon bread (the flavours) than the place there. Its not up to standard yet... not up to the then famous Saint Cinnamon (the one famous in the late 90s in bishan J8). Anyway, we ate the food while queuing up for the entrance.

    The crowd was insane. As the venue was at Fort Canning, the crowd queue up to the Carpark far away from the entrance, up the hill. No proper crowd control, no proper instructions, no proper barricades. The place was a mess. To think that nothing could probably be worse than that, i was wrong. Everything other than Lady GaGa's performance was disappointing.

    The sound system was awful (no surround sound), The opening act was awful & draggy (poor song choice and boring beat box/DJ-ing), The time delay was tiring (delayed for at least 1.2Hr), The stage was lousy (No big TV screen, just a simple stage)... Poor air ventilation (lack of breath... those who know me should know i hate BIG crowds)...

    Though her performance was great... I have to admit that i was a little too tired to fully enjoy it... Oh ya... 10k people in Singapore went there. Imagine how squeezy it can be... i was sandwiched between 2 females... hence i can't move much, have to use the free 'fan' to block my breath from reaching the lady in front. If not, kana charge sexual harrasment then i jia lat liao.

    She did pretty good singing live... was pretty amazed as usually for someone who sing dance music, they can simply edit and add effects to their voice... but when she sing 'Brown Eyes' & soothing version of 'Pokerface', she was great.... =D Man, this girl can really SING~! Will want to go for more these type of show. provided if $$ permits...

    One thing i noticed, there are really alot of gay boys around... the one that caught our attention must definitely be the one who are topless wearing a ribbon & a tie... can you imagine that...? Ok, at least he do have the body to show off... LOL

    After that, we had a rest at Xing Wang HK cafe. Never had i thought that the first place i go to ION is a cafe. But the service and food are nice... will definitely go again... =D Great company... Will uploads some pics in facebook soon....

    Sunday, August 09, 2009

    Rekindle Memories

    It been more than a year since i last step onto the causeway. No, i am not talking about Causeway Point, but the actual causeway that link Singapore with Malaysia. This time round, i get to cross the bridge to the new custom of Malaysia. First Impression? Not impressive at all. The road was so jammed that we could take a nap on the bus... We spent almost an hour sitting on the bus. That is freaking long.

    The new custom is cleaner, air-conditioned... more stations but same speed. We still have to slowly wait for our turn, but at least its more cooling. Took a photo at the exit of the custom, but was stopped by security to delete away. To be honest, the photo only consist of me, Dz and the background of mini waterfall. Nothing about the custom. Hmm... strict? Maybe.

    We are simply hungry after the long wait. After changing our S$ to Ringit, we went to a new place to have our 'brunch', Mr Baoz. It is situated level 3 of JB City Square.


    We ordered six different flavours of Baos, including Curry Chicken flavour. But when we received our orders, i think it was not what we ordered, anyway, we were too hungry to remember what is our order. Hence, we began eating... The menu was really attractive to me... The variety was special.. Imagine Baos having so many kind of fillings and toppings... it looks more like Donuts but taste smooth... Can't wait to visit them a second time. Other than Baoz, Dz had local white coffee, i had a Peppermint Chocolaz, while Ermei had Strawberry Green Tea. I simply love my drinks~!

    heading to Danga Mall

    We moved off to the first destination... Danga City Mall. Ermei recommend that place as it is rather new and give us an impression of a great place to shop. To be honest, it wasn't. I don't blame Ermei as who will not get that impression if they just judge the place with their website... Most of the tenants are the property managment's own shop. Most of the shops have no one taking care of the shops, some did not even had any renovations. No crowd in the mall. At least, the transport from Custom to the mall is FREE. Dz and i did get ourselves a top each (Buy 1 get 1 free) to make the trip not totally fruitless.

    After leaving Danga Mall, we head to Taman Sentosa to shop, sing & eat... I got myself some socks and briefs... *shy* at The Store... Taman Sentosa's KTV is cheap... we spent around RM25 for 3 person... singing for 3-4 hours? I lost count le... We also recorded some videos during our KTV-ing... Despite going out of tune etc, we enjoyed alot... and that is what matters most... isn't it? its been a long time since i last went there... so it do brings back some memories... walking around Taman Sentosa or JB... finding food.....

    Talking about food, we 'Da Bao (take-away) some famous roasted pork/duck/char shew ate at the Famous food hawker... Thanks to Ermei, he recommended us the delicious dishes... Other than those we brought... we also ordered Beggar Chicken & Fried Oyster Omelette there. All taste delicious... Can't forget the strong herb taste of the chicken & duck... How can we forget the gigantic Sugercane? The meal make us BLOATED... sh*t! our tummy all came out... except for Dz...

    The Beggar Chicken
    Roasted Delicacies
    After dinner, we head to Danga Bay... Its our first time there. Walked down the beach, we came to see a stretch of restaurants before the Bay Leaf Convention Center. Its pretty nice... The building looks like a GIGANTIC Bay leaf... inside, it was having Orchid & Bonsai Exhibition... Overall, it looked cool, but i do not fancy the exhibits from other Asian countries... it lack of life... i prefer Singapore's National Orchid Garden.      Next to the convention center, there is a BIG stage. But it was still early then, no show was put up. We walked along another stretch of food center & shopping village. Man, it was so long... Our legs are tired after walking through it... Other than that, there are also a Pasar Malam style theme park, plant market... Its a nice experience, but definitely will not go there again due to inaccessiblity....

    Entrance to Danga Bay
    Restaurants @ Danga Bay
    Festive Street Mall
    Merry-Go-Round
    Petting Zoo @ Danga Bay
    Though tiring, its sure a great trip... looking forward to the next outing =D Malaysia, Truly Asia...

    Wednesday, August 05, 2009

    $ING DOLLAR

    Before Sunday, i wondered if i would be disappointed. I waited anxiously for the day to come. My first musical in Esplanade. My first musical since Secondary School days. Will it be a flop? Will it worth the money? But looking at the list of theatre casts, deep within my heart, i was expecting a great show ahead.

    On Sunday, i was treated with an awesome show. Never did it let me down right from the beginning till the very end. I laughed, I tear, I was touched. Kudos to the eight greats - Lim Kay Siu, Sebastian Tan, Hossan Leong, Selena Tan, Emma Yong, Pam Oei, Kumar & Najip Ali. Lim Kay Siu may seems to be outshone by the other seven casts, his existence added colours to the show. Sebastian's voice wowed me since i last heard him in the national song 'Will You'. i was surprised to find out that he was the singer for the theme song for 'Price of Peace' (Ch 8 TV Drama). Dim Sum Dollies, Selena, Emma & Pam, was simply great as well. They started out as the three 'Lui' (Hokkien for Money) before transforming into Tiger Auntie, Chinese Prostitute & Philipino Maid/Prostitute respectively. I simply love their accent. They are hilarious.

    Kumar, the Bangladeshi worker, was simply acting naturally, communicating with the audience and adding a new dimension to the show, Najip Ali, as Macik, was the first to touch my heart with his Malay rendition of "Keeping It Clean". But yet his small segment ended with laughter over his new-age dance move. Simply great. Did i miss out anyone? Oh yeah, Mr Hossan Leong. Hossan Leong was simply being himself, right from the beginning. I was like "hmm... ok, that is so Hossan". But he received one of the loudest applause when he impersonate Michael Jackson.

    He re-acted the classic scene of Michael Jackson's Triller and dance moves. He was joined by the other guys who acted as the well-known criminals with financial fraud in Singapore. Together, they dance and sing. Its like a small tribute to Michael Jackson. Initially, i was laughing and impressed by the idea and the various characters. But soon, i found myself in tears. When i saw the scene of the 5 guys dancing to the song 'White Collar Criminal', i couldn't help but think that it was great to see so many talented artistes sharing the same stage. I even thought this will be the greatest National Day performance compared to NDP parade shows over the years. Its a show that speaks truely Singaporean language... reflects truly Singapore culture... this is home... TRULY...

    Get your tix @ Sistic.com
    It definitely worth the price tag. I will consider going back to the broadway if time, schedules permits... Especially if such a powerful casts were put together again...

    Friday, July 31, 2009

    Awaits for Results

          My special term results was out... I managed only 2 Bs (B & B+). which is not what i aimed for... but i do expect this grade after failing to do my best in the papers. I aiming for As to pull up my CAP. Nevertheless, it wasn't too bad since overall CAP did move up by a little. Among my study group, i wasn't the best performer. This year, Lao Mao was the best again. Guess i will try harder this new semester.

          Recently had been feeling tired. But today, despite my tiredness, i made my first attempt on Blueberry Swirl Cheesecake. Its non-bake. A modification from my original Lemon Cheesecake (New York Cheesecake) recipe. Now it is sitting inside the fridge. i am waiting patiently for the results of the cheesecake. The mixture taste sweet without much cheese taste. But seems a little watery. So will hope that it turns out well... =D No matter what, it is still going to be the third flavour i ever made for cheesecake.

          Here are some of the photos before it enter the fridge:


    The First Batch of Blueberry Swirl


    4 'mini' swirls


    One of the 4 'mini' cheesecake


    The Swirl of the larger portion

          Let's pray that it turn out well...

    Monday, July 27, 2009

    Blueberry Beats Marble & Tiramisu

          It had been weeks since i last posted. There are many thoughts running through my mind over the past few days. There are times when i was down... there are times when i was de-motivated... there are times when i felt that its time to let go... but of course, there are slightly happier times where i was encouraged somehow... now, i am still feeling in the middle of both sides... the happy and the sad...

          I wasn't feeling OK for quite sometimes. Only a few would know the reason behind it. I guess, majority did not even know or bother to ask. Collegues definitely should be able to see my difference. If not, they just don't care about me. It doesn't help when i was agitated easily by people around me. Maybe all of us been through tough times, no one will be giving in to me, especially since no one knows about my feelings. Anyhow, i decided not to blog what makes me feel this way... but something on a happier note.

          Had been having a good rest from studies since my exam over two weeks ago. I had some gatherings with friends, bought a mp3 over the weekend etc. Recently, i had been cracking my brains to get a farewell gift for a 3 friends of mine. Should i buy or should i make... until now, i had no idea if it will turn out well. Left one day before my 1st collegue going to leave the company. Well, i'll see how it goes. I still have 1 more day before the 2nd one leave... as for the 3rd, undecided if i should really do something for him.

          Thanks Team H. This team praise my cheesecake and encourage me alot. of course, i had other friends who praise my cheesecake. But team H really go the extra mile by encouraging me to open a store focusing ONLY on cheesecake first. Make it big. Sadly speaking, i have mix reviews about my cheesecakes with some other friends. Guess, different people have different likings? So far, i am only capable of making OREO Cheesecake & Lemon cheesecake.

         By Saturday, i will be able to make another new flavour. This time round, its by request from one of the Team H member who is going to leave the company. Blueberry Cheesecake. Initially, my plans is to learn Marble or Tiramisu. Marble is suppose to be easier while i face a big problem in finding Rum for Tiramisu. Hence, since my little brother requested the Blueberry. I will try to make my first and very own, Blueberry Swirl Cheesecake. Hopefully it works... =D

    Monday, July 13, 2009

    Week Round Up

          My last paper of the special term fell on Monday (13/07). That was a sad and bad day for me... Speak about Monday blues... its all true. Woke up early in the morning, around 4am, to see my bro off to US. Then when i were off to woodlands to get free ride, i noticed that i left my stationary at home. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM~!

          Thankfully, my friend had extra pen. I went into the exam with only 1 pen. Look confident isn't it? When i looked at the questions, i was dumbfounded. I was shocked at the weightage of the paper (though still contribute 50% to the overall grade). The questtions based on 100marks instead of 50marks, as from the past year's. The way the questions were asked were also different from the past year paper. That's not all...

          Right before the start of the exam, i thought it was a good idea to look through past year paper to get a grasp on how the lecturer will ask. Unfortunately, it is another wrong step. While reading and answer one of the question of my paper, the article of the past year paper keep flashing through my mind. I'm confused with the facts of the two papers. I answered based on the facts of the past year paperr. Just for your information, this paper is some sort of an essay-question-type of paper. Hence, i mixed up with the facts.

          And guess what, the second question were asked about a topic that i did not cover... YES~! THE ONLY TOPIC I DID NOT REVISE! No one to blame, i blame my own luck. But since this is an argumental, general questions. I am still able to answer but no longer confidence if i get what the lecturer wanted. Just pray for the best...

         Other than that, i had a tired week over exercising. Yet my exercises are not tough... so i guess, i am weak. Having a small headache now... time to rest.. ciaoz

    Wednesday, July 08, 2009

    我喜欢。。。

    我喜欢看你微笑的时候,
    能让我忘记所有烦恼...

    我喜欢看你哭泣的时候,
    能让我见到最真实的你...

    我喜欢看你傻笑的时候,
    能让我情不自禁的笑...

    我喜欢看你沮丧的时候,
    能让我不由自主的关心你...

    我喜欢看你躺在我怀里,
    能给我力量去保护你...

    我喜欢看你我吵架的时候,
    能让我见到你对我的关心...

    我喜欢看你我冷战的时候,
    能让我了解你的可贵...

    但没有你以后,
    我喜欢的一切...

    都已不再重要了...

    Sunday, July 05, 2009

    Electrico Vs 陈伟联

    On Friday evening, i found out that NDP 2009 song was out. I listened to both the chinese (就在这里) and the english (What Do You See?) version of the song. I feel that Electrico's version was more edgy compare to 伟联's. The vocal are strong and powerful... It reach out to the listener more...

    Kelvin's, on the other hand, was soothing but lack of identity... it will sounds like past year's song but yet lack of the 'proud to be Singaporean' feel. Did not read the lyrics for both the songs. But at least once you listen, you understand what i mean... Its downloadable from NDP official website.

    I had a great day out today, walking down and up of Orchard with my heavy bag (containing A LAPTOP). Its tiring but i think it will burn away the 'sins' i ate for dinner and supper. Healthier dinner from Subway, but 'supper' was Cappucino Cheesecake from Starbucks with dark Chocolate.. Ended the night with Himalayan (Frappe) Tea from McCafe.. At the very least, the cheesecake was delicious... thick and smooth texture... not too sweet, not too sour... you need to savour the taste slowly... but one is enough. You can't eat more... or you will definitely be sick of it... My bros (hao & wen) support my idea of opening my own cafe... I am happy with that... A target was even set for me... to open by the age of 35... I will aim at that... First, was to gather recipes and improve my skills...

    I also visited Orchard Central with Jin... It was a messy arranged buildings without an anchor tenant. 8 storeys high with a open air balcony which can provide a good view of Orchard Road at night. The design theme was seem to be metallic, mechanical style. I personally feel that too much space was wasted on the design of the building... Shops was made smaller and the corridors are pretty squeezy to accomodate the design of the building. A large area of the building was used to build hotel-like lifts. Many unique restaurants and sports-related stores are opened there. It can get tiring over shopping a place full of female oriented merchandise and restaurants. One advice to all, visit it ONLY when its fully open. As you may not want to go the second time after your first visit. B2 is under renovation and many other empty space are yet to be filled in.

    Orchard ION looks beautiful from the outside... but it seems an VERY EXPENSIVE place to shop. Big names filled the front and i do not expect the inside to be too cheap. I will wait for this to open.... Orchard Road are gearing up to fend off Marina IR as the shopping heaven....

    Friday, July 03, 2009

    twitter...

    CatCh me LIVE on Twitter~!

    in the naMe of JARWEE~!

    thOugh was aBit slow...

    but just try oUt for fun...

    sinCe its a siMple web....

    for simple thoughts...

    SLOWER in blogging due...

    coNgeStions of thoughts....

    without a gOOd flow...

    and tired of changing colour MANUALLY

    so... i trying, for the FIRST time..

    Blogger's 'Compose' function...

    like the EFFECT?

    Sunday, June 21, 2009

    i'm in love...

    when i first saw you... you were unattractive...
    when i first made contact with you... i had doubts about you...
    when i first hold you... i am still unsure...
    i am sure... it's not love at first sight...

    i ponder... i wonder...
    did i made the right decision...

    i tried reading into you...
    i tried to understand you...
    And i decided to give it a try.

    Maybe you are the one for me...
    Maybe we could work it out...
    i'll never know until i give it a try.

    You seems dark from the outside...
    yet you are pure from the inside...
    You are may be plain and light...
    but the more i know about you...
    the more i fall for you...
    My heart skip a beat at the very end of our contact...
    i never had this feeling for a long time...
    i know that i want you... i need you...

    i know we cannot see each other always...
    but i will try my best to go and get you again...

    i love you...
    my dear...
    Bonta Divina's Tiramisu

    Sunday, June 14, 2009

    Xiao Liang...

    is thinking whether he should use the name, 'Jaron'...

    wonders what is the proper pronounciation of 'Jaron'

    is getting lethargic... for no reason...

    is feeling depress over gaining pounds of weight...

    has learned the importance of letting go...

    should be expecting much lesser...

    had gained back a friend...

    is losing confidence in friendship...

    no longer believe in 'FOREVER' in friendship...

    believes every relationship need two hands to clap...

    treasures all people that treasure him...

    loves to be respected and thanks all who do respected him, honestly...

    values honesty and integrity more than money and power...

    is losing zest in studies...

    is asking what he really wants...

    is questioning his own beliefs...

    has lost another relative in his life...

    lost 2 relatives in the year 2009...

    likes the actors and actresses in 'The Ultimatum'

    still dreams a little dream...

    is deep in thoughts...

    Monday, June 01, 2009

    Meeting The Expert

          Singing over two days is indeed an tiring affair. Limited song list of mine did not do me any favour. But still, i am glad that i accept the invitation and go and sing with them.

          Due to personal reasons, Sito & Fabian haven't been feeling good for many days. Actually, Fabian did msn me about finding a day to meet up for ktv, just that i did not expect it to be so soon. *laugh* When he msn me hours ago, i was like... "erm... hmm... i sang yesterday, but don't mind sing with you guys'. Then off i went with the two 'singers'. How can i decline such a good offer... accompany my friends when down, plus having someone to fetch me.

          I always feel Fabian is a good singer... His voice is different from the way he speak. When he sing, its really hard not to be emotional. He belted out numerous old but nice songs. Sito, on the other hand, sound better when he is being himself. When he sang, he tends to imitate the original singer. At times, it can get irritating. But still, he do have a good voice. When he sang upbeat numbers, its enjoyable. It really did...

          "Singing session will be fun if you sing with all the good singers". I agree but how many friends of yours are good singers? For that question, Fabian say he can ask his friends who are better in singing to join us next time round. Part of me wanted to say "count me out" while another part of me say "why not". Those who know me well, will know that i don't mix with strangers or sing with strangers. I tend to shake and freak out... But eventually, i replied 'ok'. Maybe i wanted to open up a little bit of my circle since i used to think that "why aren't all my friend are good singer". Not that they aren't, but you will only improve if you keep singing with good singers. Maybe i can get some pointers from them. Anyway, its future plans... will not be happening so soon.

          Nevertheless, i really enjoyed myself despite lacking of sleep, postponing of report writing and feeling tired. Looking forward to singing with them again, but for now... i need a break from singing soon... *laugh* and listen more music.

    Sunday, May 31, 2009

    H1N1

          When the first case of H1N1 appear in Singapore, many kiasu Singaporeans went to get the thermometers and masks. While many others perform their daily routine as usual. But yet, there is this group of as*h*le stomper or netizens bashing the behaviour of these victims of the virus.

          Some questioned why they go to the affected areas when they know that these countries have high H1N1 death rate. While others slammed the victims' decision in returning to Singapore when they are not feeling well. Hey people, SHUT UP lar~! If you are them, i am VERY SURE you will do like wise or faster return home, or even keep mum about your conditions. At most, quarantine for days without visiting the doctor.

          This SMU student was brave enough to visit her doctor right after putting her things at home. Her boyfriend was with her and quarantine himself even before the doctor in Tan Tock Seng Hospital confirmed her illness. The family doctor did the right thing in calling 993 for ambulance to send her to the hospital immediately instead of letting her go to the hospital herself.

          This student (forget her name) could simply get the medicine (at home or from doctor) and quarantine herself at home. Her boyfriend could go home and not check into a hotel for self-quarantine. The doctor can merely give her some medicine and ask her to quarantine at home. Why couldn't people salute these people for their courage, right doings etc? Why can't Singaporeans be more sympathetic? Singapore is turning ugly SPECIALLY THANKS to these people. It maybe evil, but i do hope that you guys are the one that got transmitted with the disease instead of the victims now. Then will you understand their feelings.

          I heard that there are 3 confirmed cases. Its shocking to know that all of the sudden, so many cases appear. But does that means that our measures are working? our measures did not relaxed even when the color code change? Great job, Singapore~! (excluding those netizens) Get well soon, victims~!

    Sunday, May 17, 2009

    Uniquely Singapore

         I did not expect to kickstart my plans to explore Singapore so early. Early this month, an idea struck my mind. I wanted to explore those free for all places of interest in Singapore. Carrying my camera, I want to capture all the beautiful scenery that still existing for free. This idea became stronger after hearing my mum say Sentosa do not allow them to take photos while my cousins took those paid rides etc. It make me angry. Why the rest of the world allow photos to be taken at their places of interest and amusement park, but Sentosa denies? If any non-Singaporean see this post, i strongly NOT recommending Sentosa to you guys. Its way too expensive and nothing attractive.

         I am sure there are lots of places I had not went to. I had thought about going to heartlands to take photos, following the MRT track. From north to south, east to west. Other than heartland, how can i miss out Chinese Garden, Japanese Garden and the newly built Marina Barrage.

         I also have not taken time to visit the two latest Shopping center in Singapore - Iluma Shopping Centre & Tampines One. It will not only be a shopping trip but also a sight-seeing trip. I will take the chance to explore the design of the buildings. Do you know that National Library (in Bugis) is the Most intellegent Building in Singapore? You will be amazed if you find out all the technology in-built into that building.

         Look! I was so carried away in talking about my upcoming plans and forgot to say about last night's activity. The place i went last night was... Tanglin Village~! (click here) I didn't know there was such a place in Singapore. Thanks Bros...

         I was kept in suspense until i reached the place. I was told that we were going to a 'haunted' place to chill out. It sure look like one when we reached there. No street light, quiet road, lots of grasses make it look worse... Once we reached the Dempsey Hill (Cluster). I got to see one of the crowded nightlife in Singapore. Many restaurants, bar, cafe... are situated on the hill. Man, it was really crowded. We finally settled down at Dome

         After chilling, we walk around the hills to explore a little. Tanglin Village was divided into three clusters but only Dempsey Cluster are crowded with food and chill-outs. There are antique stores as well. For example, Shang Dynasty antiques or even 'Bing Ma Yong' (those grey warrior statue). It is scary to see these statues at such a dark place. We walked pass there pretty fast. haha. I am sure we will be there again to chill. I do recommend you guys to drive if you want to get there, unless you want to take a cab there.

         I have to wait for Brother Hao & Wen to send me photos before i could upload here. Looking forward to go Botanic Garden and Fort Canning with bros again...

    Friday, May 15, 2009

    Mood: Disgusted

         Disgusted. Frustrated. De-moralised. Tired... I couldn't really described how i felt. Its been a real bad week for me. Many little things happened, contributing to a bad week i had. Maybe, my lack of sleep cause me to get more agitated easily.

         I made a small comment on facebook and yet receive an unexpected remark. I felt very frustrated. Why couldn't I comment or do what I wanted? I took a day to cool down and decided not to care about those 'extra' people which my comments don't concern about them. So I do what I like. Unfortunately, I was disappointed not to receive any comments from the person I messaged. Alright, maybe she felt the way too. Its ok, its over. Some people are just more subjective. I met enough to comment this view.

         I had wanted to go for a swim on Thursday night since there were no lesson scheduled on that day. I had a bad day, plus the facebook thingy, I need some exercise to cool myself. Running was not an option for me recently, I felt tired at night since I usually run during late night. Thus, going for a swim may be a better options since i had not swim for a long time.

         I was shocked but happy to see that the pool was rather quiet. Usually, swimming pool are filled with people. That night, there are some swimmers at the two ends of the pool. Only one or two are swimming their laps. I got into the pool and began to swim. After i completed 100m, i took a breath and felt absolutely disgusted. Have you ever swam in a pool of flying ants, flies or insects? I didn't, too, till that night.

         Due to the weather recently, these insects will appear after rain. They tends to fly towards lamps and lights. Its not surprising that they flew towards the floodlights of the pool or stadium. Swimming pool was filled with water that reflect the lights and create an illusion to the insects that there are light source in the pool. These brainless insects begins to dive into the pool. When i saw this sight, i absolutely disgusted and disappointed with Singapore Sports Council. They should have close the pool completely instead. I tried to endure the 'fear' and swam another 150m before i gave up.

         i never swam so fast before and also lifted myself so high to catch a breath (and not the insects). I will never go for night swimming again. Day swimming? depends.

    Tuesday, May 05, 2009

    Roller-Coaster

         I'm on a roller coaster today... Ups & down... no... is 'Very Up' then... 'Very Down'.... haha. I did not expect today to be like this.. but overall... i learned a lesson, what's been going on behind my back...

         First, the not-so-happy thing... Those surrounding me should know that i did, once awhile, mention about my work place... Receiving remarks and comments that are negative about me... I wonder why and who did that... Though i do have suspect in my mind, the puzzle is not put together yet. During lunch, i heard that my ex-boss who peeped into our emails, asked my collegue about why i send a certain email. For your info, that email meant to be an info for shift members, letting them know who is coming to take over them during the one-man-per-team period. Am i wrong? The lady boss interprete it as i send them so that they know who is working on which day, so can plan outing... Though it wasn't wrong if we want to do that, but her comments was simply thinking that i was the one planning something. Even give comments like 'so i know who is playing politics'. I was like... "WTF~!" Whoever know me well, will know how much i detest about this. Thankfully, those collegues of mine, all know me pretty well and all know that she is the one playing politics, but... i just feel unfair and angry for being accused.

         She still can be friendly in front of me. But she seldom give me any information about the shift or things that i should not know... Wearing a mask in office is the worst thing anyone can do... that is why i kept myself out of offic, keep myself busy in cleanroom. If i am the kind of politics player... i would have curry flavour my manager... no wonder he also change his attitude towards me... but i don't give a damn, i worked there for my supervisor and shift members... if my supervisor think i underperform, i am willing to quit. But till now, he still know i am working hard.

         The positive news, i am back on talking terms with Tun Min. After shutdown (around a month plus already), he did not say hi or talk to me in office. Today, i try to talk to him like nothing happen before. Initially, he did reply but the atmosphere still pretty tense... but i was so happy when he came over to help me inside cleanroom... without me asking. Then things became more relax, he smile more, joke around abit more... I was so happy...~!! i know it may sound stupid to some of you... but i treasure friendship alot...

         i decided not to ask why and what happened in the past weeks. I learnt that when a guys don't wish to say, don't pester for the answer, if everything is ok with you, just leave it as it is. In the past, given my character, i would have pester to know what happen... but i learned along the way and learnt from bad experience... Anyway, what matter most is my effort pays... we are back on talking terms... YEAH~!

    Monday, April 27, 2009

    Have a Break

         Ok, to be honest, i had not been full swing studying for my exam. Saturday paper is a gone case. Let's just pray for me to pass~! I can't expect good grades this year. Confidence is running low. On a lighter note, that paper is the one which i fear most. The other two are slightly cope-able for me. Anyway, i'll be studying the next few days before attending the examination on thursday and saturday.

         Yesterday was the biggest event of the year for Singapore TV Scene- The Star Awards 2009. Mediacorp showed fairness and favoritism over the artistes. Dai Yang Tian, with his mediocre performance in The Little Nyonya, won the best newcomer. I believed the other nominees are much better than him. Maybe this was given as a makeup for not making it to the list of Most Popular Top 20 Artistess. The Little Nyonya was one of the most hate show I ever watched in Channel 8. Overrated, but kudos to those supporting casts, their good acting prove that this show is still watchable. Thankfully, Jeanette Aw lost the best actress to Joanne Peh. I would rather Joanne Peh or Chen Liping win instead of that lousy, expressionless Jeanette.

    Surprises

    Kym Ng and Michelle Chia did not make it to the Top 20 list. Ann Kok did not even qualify for the top 40. Henry Thia made it to the Top 20. Gurmit Singh and him, should not even get the nomination. What was Henry Thia show in 2008? I can’t even recall Gurmit’s show too. I would expect a battle of the young male idol next year in the Top 20 category, since the two LEEs will be up in the Sheng Tai - Christopher Lee & Mark Lee. I will call for Kym next year, remind me~!!! Last surprise was that there are two award winner in Supporting Actress category~!

    Not so Surprising

         Chen Hanwei won the best actor, Joanne won the best actress, Xiang Yun & Ng Hui won the supporting actress. In supporting actor category, Chew Chor Meng beat the other capable nominees. He may not be the clear favorites, his acting was still good. The more popular Seven Princess qualify for the Top 10 while the other two, Fiona & Dawn, was out again~! The Little Nyonya won the best TV series. Its not surprising, since they spend so much in promoting the ‘Nyonya’ culture.

         I don’t believe The Little Nyonya’s main song should win. There are better songs available. I think Perfect Cut should win the TV series and also the song. I simply love Shi Xin Hui’s two songs from the show. Both songs was featured in my blog here. Guo Liang deserves his host award while Belinda deserves her award in infotainment host award. Over at the newscaster category, Dong Shu Hua beats Zhang Hai Jie to win 5 consecutive. Isn’t that an achievement over someone who also won many times consecutively before jumping over to, now defunct, MediaWorks?

         Alright, its all my view. No hard feelings but Jeanette & Dai Yang Tian had a long way to go before they can claim any acting awards.

    Sunday, April 19, 2009

    Garden of Music 2009

         A night of party... A gathering of good old friends.. Lee Wei Song & Lee Si Song marks their 25th year in showbiz with a party like concert showcasing their songs, their 'babies' and a few artiste whom they worked with. The guests includes A-list big names like Jolin, Show Luo, Jam Hsiao and Singapore very own YanZi... Other guests includes Maggie Teng, Daniel Chan (long lost Xiao Dong that no longer xiao) and Ai Jia (Campus Superstar III runner-up), their Wei Song Music School's students that includes Da Feng Cui (SuperBand II runner-up).

         Surprisingly, i had expected a better turn-out. With a list of stars appearing, most fans should be there supporting their idol and pit against other fan club. It was not the case at this concert. Those sitting at the balcony seats were shifted down to make the stadium look pack (from what i see). It was a rather cheapo show if not thanks to the league of the stars. The production team, cameraman etc did not put up a good show. I don't like what i see on big screen. It is rather badly taken.... The sound system is too loud... As the stadium is pretty empty, the sound was consider to be way too loud.

         Si Song & Wei Song, obviously aren't singers... Apart from poor volumn control of their mic, their voice often sounds irritating. Wei Song obviously is the better singer among the two. But credits to them for holding some tunes in a few songs... Their products to those stars are good too.

         Those stars performed up to expectation... The worst performer, apart from the main characters, happened to be Jolin, in my opinion. Her voice sound a little strange, bi ying too strong. The surprise act will definitely be Chong Qing, who recently likes to impersonate Ai-yo-yo. He brought laughter to the bored audiences. Show Luo showed his hosting skills. Daniel was one that i couldn't recognise. He became fatter and a little too friendly, but still can sing... majority in cantonese... *laugh* for a few minutes, i thought he and Wei Song got 'something' going on. Maggie was too old for showbiz, Jam Hsiao belted out a tune showing that he can sing 'Live' (unlike Yoga). We were expecting more from Yan Zi, but no favortism showed here. She sang the same number of songs (2) as the rest of the stars.

         I went to 3 concerts. This was more like a music show. JJ is still the most disappointing one. Maybe i expect this show to be so-so... haha!! I also never expect Daniel to become so fat and so derrick-like. Gone are the days of youth in his prime age. Yanzi to appear in that manner... Hope Yanzi can style up before appearing. Her Medusa-like hair was scary and ugly... Her concert is coming up in July, go support her~!

    Friday, April 17, 2009

    i.m.a machine

         Finally its over, a week of hardship... countless hours of hardwork... days of late night working, burning midnight oil... finally, i completed the mission impossible of finishing 2 projects, 2 presentation (alright, 1 for me) all within a week. What more, i received pretty good coments...

         First, in HFE project, we are one of the three groups to be given a choice either to record our presentation or present to him 'LIVE' in an arranged timing. This was because there were a total of 9 groups presenting, the class can only accomodate 6 presentations. I was the sole presenter for our group as i feel that having more than one presenters might break the flow of the presentation during the changing of presenters. Here's what his feedback via email:

    "I just finished watching your video presentation. I though it is quite good. The video quality is good enough to understand all that was said. I had no problem coordinating the presentation with the slides that I printed out and the hardcopy report I have in front of me. The content of your presentation itself is good. I expected more than one presenter, but… It’s ok. You did a good job. Thanks."

         Frankly speaking, when i saw the email in my company, i gave a 'YES!' shout, almost out in the office... thankfully, i was able to contain the unbelievable feeling. A few reasons to why i feel so... Firstly, the six teams that presented on that day were bombarded with questions, given a stern face etc. I will sure shiver if i were there presenting. Secondly, its a rush job, i finish the slides on the eve of the recording and the next day is the deadline. Report was completed on the eve of the deadline too. Imagine the rush? Guess i am good in doing a last minute rush of jobs. It reflected in my history. *opps* Last but not least, the whole video was me alone. Its the second take that was submitted. i felt a strange sense of acheivement. My team mates were shocked by his positive comments too~! *laugh* They even joked, "looks the lecturer like you, next time will have you present more often". Yes, i was HAPPY~!

         i made my stand and eventually excused myself from the second presentation, despite being recognise as the obvious choice presenter due to my command of english over a group of china-born mates. My focus was back to the report and managed to change, edit, write the whole report in a night. i received the 'draft' only at 10+pm and noticed that many things to change. I read, think, edit, re-organise and eventually finish the report only at 4+AM.

         Alright, time to take a rest over the weekend before exam study period begins... *sigh*

    IE2140E Group 7
    My Project Group

    IE2140E
    My IE2140E Class

    Sunday, April 12, 2009

    伤心。难过。失望

    你是否曾经因为太过失望,激动,生气到心跳加速,胸口很闷?

    现在此时此刻,我就有着这样辛苦的感觉。我很累,很累。也许期望高会导致失望更大吧。我会有这样的感觉多亏于我学校的团员。我们在去年八月以来,合作过无数次。去年的成绩还算不错,所以今年并无须太多顾虑,便决定一起再次合作。没想到,结果会是这样。

    今年,何瑞常迟到,几乎没有早到过。文武也在其中一次的讨论会上,没理由的迟到了一个多小时。那天,还是他提出早点讨论的。大家约定在9am在Chua Chu Kang麦当劳,我和Lina提前告诉他们,我们会迟一些到,让他们先开始。结果,我九点多,十点抵达MRT才接到何瑞的电话,问我在哪,说联络不上文武俊浩,他自己还没出 门。俊浩晚班过来,我能原谅,工作可能耽搁了。可是为何我一个住那么远的竟然先到~!换了个地点到Sembawang,结果俊浩先到,何瑞还在家里。若你是我,你会气吗? 那天我很气,但忍了过去了。 星期五,Good Friday。何瑞常说我很难约,常常有事,说我们所剩的时间已经很少了(下个星期得交两个报告,做两个Presentation),要我一定得把剩下的时间空下来做报告 。星期四,我叫文武转告何瑞俊浩,记得告诉我时间和地点。他回复说他们叫我等他们的SMS,等当天才确定。结果我等了一整天,一个屁都没收到!让我很生气!

    进度那么慢,我并没有说我自己没有任何的错。我也有错。

    一。我当天应该SMS何瑞俊浩两人,而不是只SMS 俊浩一人。俊浩,当天因为职夜班,接到何瑞的电话后,便去睡了。何瑞取消了那天的约会。

    二。我不应该旷课。因为出国,我对老师的要求一无所知。在课堂上的进度变得很慢,无法给予有明确的建议。

    三。我太信任他们了。不知是老师没说清楚,还是他们不专心,没有人对我们的project有很明确的方向感。即使我问他们老师要什么,"不清楚"!

    刚跟俊浩MSN,让我更加激动。算了,既然大家意见不同,没必要合作下去。下个学期,也许我不会和他们合作了。这次的考试,我决定自己在家读了。

    Tuesday, April 07, 2009

    food poisoning

         one miscarriage, one death, a lot hospitalised. Yes i am talking about the Geylang Serai Rojak food poisoning incident. It seems a trend now... *laugh* and i get the same illness too with less severity. My symptoms are similiar with what being reported on news. I did not eat the rojak, thankfully, but i believe that the root cause should be Sakura International @downtown east. Why do i say so?

         Aris SMSed us, checking with us whether anyone having runs like him. He did that the next day. I was having runs too but passed it off lightly. I usually have to go toilet a number of time after buffet. It seemed normal to me then. But this thing carried on till today. Recent visit to toilet ended with no 'cake', yet i felt the pain at my abs/stomach area. My body is also aching since then.

         Feeling weaker, i decided to visit our company-affliated doctor. I was diagnose having the same illness. But not to worry, it wasn't THAT serious. I think thanks to the 1L of water per day. *laugh*

         Alright, time for some read up. I haven't complete my HFE homework 4 & 5 which was due tomorrow. Ciaoz

    Saturday, April 04, 2009

    longest post ever

          Its been days since my last post and I broke my promise of having a daily updates during my reservice. Something had happened when I crossed the half-way mark during my ICT. On Sunday, March 22 5.50pm, my aunt passed away peacefully. My schedule became messy after that. It reminds me that whatever job we have, we should try and finish it as early as possible so that we leave ourselves some time allowance for unexpected things to happen.

    Army ICT

          Nothing special happened in ICT. The bad apples continues to rot, while the good ones continue to sleeps. *laugh* Oh, I passed my IPPT (with a little help) in one go and get $100~! For the past few years, I only passed the IPPT with a few tries. I usually passed the Chin-Up on a different attempt. I was pretty pleased with my 2.4km timing. I was unfamiliar with the route, just like the rest, yet I ran 11 flat timing. I came in third but I think I did inspire a few to better their timing (I hope). 2 of my friends were aiming to get a silver timing, hence I tried to let them chase me. Paul ran passed me on the last stretch. *laugh* I remember me shouting on the last 100m to him. He ran faster as he thought I was very near him. *laugh* That, to me, was an achievement. It makes me remember my last IPPT in BMTC. I helped my friend to pass his 2.4km to pass the IPPT. I gave up bettering my timing. But was happy enough~!!! *proud of myself*

    Studies – Projects & Tests

          I was informed that there will be a test for Engg Econs on the last day of my ICT. Hence, I was a little afraid that I couldn’t study. Initial plan was to study during that week after ICT since the test falls on a Friday, I have a Sunday to study as well. But due to my aunt’s death, I went to her wake (though not of much help) as a form of respect and accompany my other relatives and cousins who were there. In the end I couldn’t concentrate much and did not study till the exact day of test. Thankfully, my friends and army in-charges were all supportive (bad apples aren’t my friends), or else I may not make it. Due to the lack of time, I decided to study smart after knowing my lecturer’s style. It worked; I can answer most of the questions. But I have to thank my aunt for watching over me. The results were out two days ago. When lecturer went through the answers, I seems to made a lot of mistakes like writing down the wrong numbers. I do not deserve the score I get (I was above average). I get to score thanks to the leniency of my lecturer’s marking. He gave points to workings & understandings, instead of final answer. Thanks Aunt, for watching over me.

          Deadlines for projects and homework were getting nearer, but I am still lost here and there. But things are getting clearer. We managed to submit our homework on time, though I expected a much better product. Never mind, I guess I shouldn’t expect much from this group of people. I was severely insecure and agitated over the past few days. But thanks to Ermei, Qiang for listening to my non-stop complaining to get me back at work… Xinyi also did hear a little bit, but that was after I was calmer. Things are now back on track, so not to worry. Thanks Ermei for running here and there to get the information I need. I appreciate it~!

    Taoist Youth Society – Mini Exhibition

          I felt a change in me, or I should say, I felt a change in me is needed. After my aunt pass away, i get less agitated easily and more willing to help people around me. I went to help Ermei in a neighborhood mini exhibition last Sunday. Though I am a free thinker, I was more inclined towards Taoism or Buddhism due to my family’s influence. Maybe this is the reason I can relate more towards the event and accept the invitation to help out.

    Other changes in me

          I recently change my diet a little. I tried to drink at least 1 litre of water a day (plain or green tea) and I did it successfully for 3 consecutive days. I cut down on meat intake as well. Apart from wanting to get a healthier diet, it is a form of giving respect to my aunt. I will eat vegetarian whenever I can. Hope I can last long. Not sure if its due to the food, my temper became much better. *laugh*

          I noticed that I became slightly more open, more vocal at home. Many may not know this; I was a very different person at home or outside. Something my parents should have noticed long ago. When I was younger, I always quarrel with my brother but was usually asked to give in, due to his character, by my family. This resulted in me getting quieter and finding it no point in saying out my views and will definitely avoid conflicts if I just keep quiet. I actually did it outside too, but with friends, I am more comfortable to be more vocal. I felt that we are all equal.

    Family and Friends

          Our family seems more close-knitted. I do not usually go out with my cousins. But recently, we went to pay respect together, went play basketball, Wii,bring my cousin to polyclinic with my other cousins… yesterday, I had a mini family vegetarian dinner with my 9 relatives. Its great and we went AMK to have a walk after that. I treat them desserts, local delights. I was supposed to treat them Andersen’s but plan postponed *phew* because the adults are more inclined to cheap and good food, prefer local delights. My cousins warned me that they will still demand a treat ‘soon’, *sigh* Looks like I couldn’t run away. *looking at my wallet* I was enjoying my time with my relatives. Throughout the journey, the battle was on. *laugh* The battle of ‘DJ Max’ on PSP interface. All right, I was couldn’t win my cousin, who has been playing this for a long time. But I was better than my sister and other cousin, okay?! *laugh*

          Due to my tighter schedule, I did not find friends to go out. But I did go to two functions which was planned before my aunt’s incident. Qiang’s birthday celebration and EC0118’s reunion dinner. I enjoyed the time with friends but I noticed one thing, I do not have the urge of going out with friends as much as before. May be due to my tired-ness, hope that I will not become hans solo as this is not who I should be.

    Saturday, March 21, 2009

    Reservist Day 05

         From my blog, i am sure that you guys think that ICT is an enjoyment. It is true... only for this time round. Due to the clearance issue, i am enjoying ICT but a few of us still wondering why we are tired during this period of time. Today did not play table tennis nor gym. Pool is the game. Played a while, lost some, win some... but time do pass pretty slowly i think. I was tired after playing so many games consecutively...

         I decided to skip my lecture today. I haven't been concentrating well and going there just increase my pressure yet zero input to my brain. Hence, i decided to go to Singapore Expo with my good friends, Teck & Dz. We had a great dinner at Jerk... erm i mean Lerk Thai. The food was pretty nice... The dessert are just a little too sweet (the colourful coconut one). But overall, its a great meal... After meal, we went to POPULAR bookfair. We actually spent more than an hour in the fair... Can you imagine?

         Hoho. I ended buying a Vcd, 3 books (not story books), 1 travaloge... I cant remember what else i bought now... haha... but our bags are really heavy due to the uniform... haha... travaloge is about.... SINGAPORE... yes... i feel like i do not know much about Singapore. So it would be good that i go take a look when i have time. haha.

         I reached home at 11+,12+ to watch the perfect cut on video... The final episode. A great show, really... those who can catch it on a repeat telecast, please do... its good... haha...

    Thursday, March 19, 2009

    Reservist Day 04

          Headache... severe headache... today really feel tired... The weather recently is irriting. From CAT 1 in the morning to hot weather in the evening, i felt my head bursting soon. So tired that i have no mood to went out to do any other things. Slept on bus, think i irritated the lady beside me as i think i occasionally lean against her... but i really try hard to move myself back... but the bus move and i have no much strength to control le... Sorry auntie... I apologised... but thankfully that auntie did not stare or scold me etc.

          Today due to some squadron run or whatsoever, our training ends at lunch time. After that, its free time again. Some guys broke the rule and return late. Its obvious they are different from us. At least the attitude, but i noticed that one of them is different. And i am not mistaken... the guy is different. Mass comm (NP) student, how bad can that be? that course is one of the most difficult and much sought-after course. Too bad, he is mixing with that group of dark apples...

          Was it that i am tired or am i too emotional in watching show? The Perfect Cut 2 airing every weekday... i watched 2 episodes today, 1 from video and today's episode. I was so moved and cried when Sky went missing while Xiaoli fell when looking for him. She was afraid he commit suicide. She was plump and used the stairs when she couldn't enter the lift that are full. She fell at the stairs and couldn't stand up, felt useless and helpless... she cried... but thankfully Sky appear and offer her the helping hand. I may not be descriptive enough to let you feel how i feel. The scene is really touching.

          This show is really superb... i may really consider getting the dvd. There are alot of great scenes and story. Seeing Alex Tan feeling insecure, i can't help but feel sorry for him. Even the best will feel insecure, even the best can feel threatened, only the best will be afraid of losing EVERYTHING. His love for Sky (his brother) is strong, for Kelly is strong, but unfortunately, he is not good in his words... alright i shall continue watching the show... its really really the best show so far from Mediacorp...

    Wednesday, March 18, 2009

    Reservist Day 03

          its Day 3 and i begin to feel tired... haha tired after playing table tennis & do a little weight lifting. I felt lethargic of going to school. But seems like it is inevitable for me to go school. Lecturer advvise me to attend the WED lesson next week as its a tutorial with hands on lesson.

          Nothing much special happens today at ICT. As i mentioned earlier... i simply felt tired the whole day. Not feeling all that well. Will see if anything special happens tomorrow. Hope the squadron run will have us participate.

    Tuesday, March 17, 2009

    Reservist Day 02

          its day two. i felt more tired today. it is largely due to lack of sleep (i slept around 12+am yesterday) and 'vigorous' exercise i had today. Yesterday's lesson left me agitated and irritated. The lecturer s**ks big time. If this continues, i am sure i will give him a 'good' grade & LOTS of 'COMMENTS' during the lecturer feedback. Trust me, i am good at it. Even if its of no effect, at least let the whole world know how f**k up the lecturer is. I shall not elaborate on him. A disgrace to NUS.

          Anyway, i spent most of today in lectures. I was really tired and felt sleepy. No disrespect to them, but i am really sleepy and tired. Moreover, the speakers' tone was really mono... thankfully the Mdm from Zone 4 & 1 are more lively and make me more awake.

          The 'vigorous' exercise i am referring to is Table Tennis. I had a lot of fun with it today. Even had a sparring with the NSFs (i think) there. We won 2 matches and lost 1. Though not sure how it happens, but guess we DID IT~! Alright, its not a pro game and we had minimal rules implied... But who cares, a win is a win... most importantly, we enjoyed. Mdm suggest that we should bring Admin Tee to change on instead of wearing uniform, as it may get us sick. i will bring tomorrow~!!

          No PSP. No MP3... i wonder how am i going to survive my 161 journey from woodlands after school. i still try to go to lessons after reservist. But to be honest, i am feeling lethargic to go school after reservist. I am tired, maybe next week i will not go for lessons. Just maybe. Aiight time for my project~! *sigh*

    Monday, March 16, 2009

    Reservist Day 01

          The nation needs me... and i do need the nation... at least NOW i do need... Returning to army, i will finally get full pay for this 2 weeks. But instead of serving for the Army, i am serving Singapore Arm Forces in Paya Lebar Airbase (PLAB).

          For this 2 weeks of in camp training (ICT), i will be blogging daily stuff... complaints & compliments (if any)... anything that is interesting or what i actually do there... Yes, even if its boring... i will still post.... so tune in to the 10 part special...

          Yesterday, i had to fold my smart4. for almost 1 year not touching my uniform, i almost forgotten how to fold. But fret not, being the Ultimate N39 best WARRIOR~! i managed to fold once again my smartest 4 (just the folding). Will try to take a photo of me in green, maybe just abit of green as the uniform is TOO BIG for me le.. i look extremely FAT~!!

          First day at PLAB was a great day. We hve some forms to fill, underwent individual interview by warrant, a briefing (a little boring) on what 113 SQN is all about, and lots of free time while waiting for our interviews. We played pool and even table tennis. Its cool... as we really enjoy. But if you expect this ICT to be slack... it is going to be... to some extent...

          As we are not cleared to be able to perform duties on field, this 2 weeks will be full of lessons & 1 IPPT test integrated into the programs. Hence, its only today we more free time. Just on the first day, 3 NSmen was caught with long hair and tomorrow will have a turn out parade. Hmm..

          Most of my previous ICT (3SIG) mates are around apart from John & Yongda (both had deferred). But today also see Siang, my sec friend who will be with us for the 2 weeks. Our new motto: "Misson First, Safety Always" hoho...

          One thing for sure, 113 SQN loves to take photos. A photographer was snapping away when we are having the briefing. Alright, that's all for today, if not nothing to blog le... haha... time for lights off... ciaoz..

    Tuesday, March 10, 2009

    K-ge ING

    黃靖倫- 慢半拍

    黃靖倫- 走音

         These two songs are the latest two songs i am going to learn... or should it be of a challenge? It seems melodic after a few times listening to it... plus Jing Lun trying to sing low with his high pitch voice... meaning its at a tone just nice for me... haha my Ktv khakis... you may be hearing me sing this soon... the next time we hit kbox or partyworld...

         KTV seems to be the only place where i can perform to a certain standard and proud of myself... though recent time i did not 'perform' that well yet... lol... i will work hard... haha as if someone is willing to hear my hard work... lol.. wait... just notice that 'man ban pai' is tough... its a real challenge then... lol

         Just finish my test... didn't perform that well ba... its the 2nd test in 2 weeks? pray hard and leave to fate... will have another test on my last day of ICT... wonder if i can cope. Project datelines also coming soon and yet i don't know what i am suppose to do...

         First PC, then network... now is laptop... All the things got problem at one go... irritating... haiz...

    Friday, March 06, 2009

    Facebook Quiz

    What does my your birthday means?

    Your birthday means that you love the sun and the beach.

    Your best colors are red and yellow. You tend to have many friends and you are well-liked, possible because of your outgoing and sunny personality. You are a very positive and enthusiastic person. Shopping is likely something you enjoy very much, not just for yourself, but for other people as well. You shine at parties and get togethers, and you are definitely an extrovert.

    Friday, February 27, 2009

    Suspect X : Review

    Physics versus Maths. Who will win? Maths expert gave a 'tricky' question. All polices moved in the direction of what the maths expert wanted them to. Physics expert took a little while but in the end, still solve the question. So who wins? Hard to judge... How can Physics expert solve Maths question? How can Physics & Maths be friends? Its simple... they are from the same family. Physics uses maths to calculate too... right?

    This show is about how the main character Ishigami, the maths genius, helped someone he is fond of to cover up a murder case. Hanaoka Yasuko is the lady who 'saves' him when he was about to leave the world. When he learns that Hanaoka and her daughter have killed a person, he then helps the two of them to construct the perfect alibi. The police investigation runs into difficulty and Detective Kaoru Utsumi seeks the advice of his friend, the brilliant physicist Manabu Yukawa. Ishigami is happens to be Yukawa's college friend. A fierce battle breaks out between the genius mathematician and genius physicist.

    It is a pretty nice show. I was caught surprised at the end when the Physicist solves the mystery of the case. I am suppose to be touched but maybe this isn't 'touchy' enough... i was moved but not into tears. Or am i too concentrated on the two genius pitting against each other. On whole, you guys should go and watch. It doesn't matter whether you guys watched the TV series or not.





    Saturday, February 21, 2009

    Mood: Bad

         It hasn't been a good week for me. I had a few unhappy issues with friends over the whole week. 'Someone' even talk behind my back and complained to my boss.. But i strongly believe that this is not the trigger. If my ex-boss likes to play politics, the one who suffer will be her.. She think she can fit into our group? Wishful thinking. She can never fit in. Not someone who trying to create conflicts among her members. We aren't kids anymore. We can 'see' with our eyes, not only you have 'spy'

         It seems like i will fare poorly in yesterday quiz. Initially was rather uptight, but slowly relax as i remembered one of my friend say the difference between 70 & 80 of the quiz, is just a difference of 1 point in final grading... so... relax lar... haha...

         Next week begins my off days... hope i can exercise back my fitness, catch up with my studies & enjoy my break fully.

    Sunday, February 15, 2009

    没事了

    没事了。
    我早就没事了。

    虽然我外表大个子,内心却不是特别强悍。

    因为以前的一些经历,使得我对很多事少了分安全感,才会发生我‘想太多’的情况。关心我的朋友,谢谢!亮仔没事情了。至少对于之前提过的事情,已经告个段落了。

    这几天还挺忙的。除了赶落后的学业,解决工作上的问题,还需要为朋友‘动手动脚’的。哈哈!别误会,并非你们想象中的那么‘限制级’~!

    所谓的‘动手’是指摆‘动’我的双‘手’来把950个小拼图组在一起。
    所谓的‘动脚’是指摆‘动’我的双‘脚’找遍各各店铺寻找适合的框框。

    俗语说的好,‘台上一分中,台下十年工’。
    要一个庆生会成功,并非易事。但当一切都算成功时,一切的付出都是值得的。

    现在,是时候把精神传回学业上了。

    也许你们会觉得我无聊,幼稚。
    但真正了解我的人,会知道我为什么会这样。
    对我而言,这可以算是我很重视的一件事。

    我不想重蹈覆辙。
    我不想再次跌倒。
    我不想再受伤害。

    不止是我不想,而是我应该不能再受打击。
    若再次发生,或许我也会像友人,变得孤僻。

    就先让我冷静一下下吧。

    Monday, February 02, 2009

    我很害怕

    我刚才去跑步了。
    为了减肥,应为有你们的支持,这次我更想真的瘦下来。

    一向来,跑步让我减压。
    流着一身汉,什么忧愁,什么伤感,统统能化为乌有。
    但,这次 却是跑步后, 变得害怕,不知所措。

    突然之间以前所发生过的一切,漂浮在我脑海中。
    一幕幕的情节再次让我变得悲伤,恐惧。
    这应该是我其中一个恐惧症吧。

    我是真的害怕。

    也许你们会觉得我无聊,幼稚。
    但真正了解我的人,会知道我为什么会这样。
    对我而言,这可以算是我很重视的一件事。

    我不想重蹈覆辙。
    我不想再次跌倒。
    我不想再受伤害。

    不止是我不想,而是我应该不能再受打击。
    若再次发生,或许我也会像友人,变得孤僻。

    就先让我冷静一下下吧。

    Sunday, February 01, 2009

    我回来了

    一年多后的第一个旅游。台湾,深情之旅。好开心,真的很开心。
    跑遍了整个台湾。从花莲到高雄,日月潭到台中,再回台北。车程虽辛苦,一切还是值得的。亲生体验到了台湾的文化,历史,热情。去台湾,还是要跟着旅行团跑一遍,才来个'Free & Easy'购物之旅。
    这次我真的玩的好开心。跟朋友出国度假,通常只有两种情况。对彼此有更深一成的了解而变得更陌生或跟亲近。我很骄傲的说,我现在是处于第二种状况。我,俊文俊豪,三兄弟变得更亲密(close)了。二哥与三哥,全程都蛮照顾我的 (大哥因为某种原因而无法和我们一起同行)。他们爸,妈,姐(Soo)也都对我很好。当然,我还是会在Soo面前比较自在。哈哈!
    也许性格还蛮接近的,喜欢摄影,看服装,大家玩的很开心。导游幽默,风趣,领队的安排使得整个旅程很充实。司机的驾驶技术绝对无人能比,虽有点危险刺激,但这也不能怪他,因为时间紧迫,而他却能在最短的时间,最快的速度抵达我们要到的地方。佩服!佩服!这7天,走了一下就是吃,走了一下就是吃,把我吃到怕。我这个小肚腩都养大了。
    对了,说到摄影,我们用了3台照相机,4长储存卡拍下了各个风景,食物,表情,绝对精彩多姿。我就让你们欣赏一下我所拍摄的几张照片吧。剩下的可以游览我的Facebook网站。


    特务 L
    哪可以少了自拍

    Changi Airport

    花儿@美伦大饭店

    花儿@美伦大饭店

    在85大楼看夕阳

    往旗津岛的船上看见的夕阳

    五角船板 餐厅

    台湾才是真正的花园城市

    五角船板的新鲜手工麻薯超棒

    二,三哥 (同时也是我旗下的艺人)

    新朋友,大Cheburashka

    新朋友,小Cheburashka

    太鲁阁峡谷 (Taroko Gorge)

    冒雨拍摄

    保险套? 不,是巧克力。

    Studio现场














    这次的旅行花了我不少,也变胖了许多,所以接下来的日子,要积极的减肥和省钱了。



    Tuesday, January 20, 2009

    你没想像中爱我

    你小心翼翼 牵我手
    其实是担忧 藏不住我
    自尊也投降 活在她之下

    你字字句句说 你不爱她
    那又是什么 让你害怕
    我疑惑但是原谅 因为你留下
    我 好傻

    不是我不说就不在意空等候
    原来 你没想像中那么爱我
    我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
    你的存在 让我更寂寞

    你寸步不离 像天使的她
    挥霍我的爱 从不放心上
    我有一丝无奈 也有一些明白
    该 放开

    不是我不说就不在意空等候
    原来 你没想像中那么爱我
    我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
    不爱我别再说 假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

    啊~~ 谁说我不在意空等候
    原来 你从来都没深刻爱我
    我才懂不是我不心痛
    其实是心没了感受

    呜~~~

    你没想像中爱我

    Monday, January 19, 2009

    Fancy Delight

         In preparation of the trip to taiwan, i went shopping with Twins & their mum. I did not get any, as i going on the next day. Its abit strange shopping with an 'auntie', prefer to shop with people of our generation. *laugh* Nevertheless, i bought a tee & a sweater the next day with Nat & XY, gearing for the trip.

         We watched Ponyo (in short, the actual name too long). The story is really fairytale. Drawings is so-so... but The little boy & Ponyo is cute. The sea creatures are SCARY... not recommending kids to go watch. *laugh* Nonetheless, still an enjoyable show.

         I get to taste some special tarts in Takashimaya's Basement. It taste normal actually and cost $1.40 each. But the flavours are indeed special. I tasted Charcoal, Banana, Green tea & Chicken & Mushroom Flavours. They added Charcoal & Green tea to the 'crust' to make it taste unique. the Traditional Flavour taste different, with more milk taste.


    Banna


    Green tea


    Chicken & Mushroom

         That's all for now, been busy recently at catching up with friends, doing Kieron's gift & preparing for the trip. Will blog when i came back next time.

    Monday, January 12, 2009

    first day of school

          It is my first day of school. Just like any other children, i am excited over this day. I enjoyed my last semester despite a stressful ending. So how was it? Did everything went well? Am i well like by my new classmates? These are the common parents-children Q&A.

          For me, i feel happy yet unhappy. Happy because i get to restart my NUS school life and this semester i must score well... The first lecturer did give me some security compared to last semester lecturers. But the module.. its Quality Control. I am sure XY will fare better than i do.

          So why am i unhappy? First day of school, i need to pay $80+ for course materials. Jun Hao is still on a holiday to Hong Kong, He Rui left for collegue's wedding dinner after collecting/purchasing his course materials, leaving me & Wenwu in the lecture. Wenwu is still upset about last semester results. I think he is unhappy with other things that happens around him, but i still get affected by this. He seems less motivated compared to last sem. This, as usual, affect my morale too. Hope he will get back to the smiley Wenwu soon.

    Bedtime stories

          Last week, i went to watch the movie Bedtime Stories. I wasn't very impress from the beginning. Maybe i expect alot more. It was as funny as i expected. But overall its pretty entertaining. So it is not a must watch movie though. Save your dollar for other shows.

          I got to miss Bolt but i hope i can catch Red Cliff 2 soon.

    Cape No.07

          Its another disappointing movie. Alright, maybe due to its high publicity like the little nyonya, it wasn't as great as expected. The story was expected, the acting was passable, the only thing that i like was the singing in the last part. The band really sounds better in the movie than their 'LIVE' performance at the Golden Horse Award ceremony. Oh ya, just before you guys say i am rich, i watch this at home. *laugh*

          Alright time to stop here. Will try to update more frequently.

    Thursday, January 01, 2009

    Mini Review

         Its been week since my last post. Crossing over to 2009. Its been a busy december for me. Birthday celebrations, Xmas celebrations, Photonics countdown & gathering. Just a december and i seems to enjoy alot within a month. Hence, i really been busy enjoying myself. of course, i get tired and bad mood here and there. But overall, i must say i did enjoy myself, especially the countdown. Putting 4 fun loving people together... posing for storyline... for theme... *laugh* we are turning ourselves into camwhore on the last day of 2008 & first day of 09.

         Like every year, its time for me to do a mini review... what i have done over the years & did i done my 2008 resolution. let's see...

  • Keep in shape to fit in my clothes,
  • Get into a course of my interest,
  • Change for a better job,
  • Stay happy in 2008.

         Of the above list, i guess i did get into a course of my choice, score pretty well in exams and have a great group of classmates. I learned alot from them and especially in HR lessons & presentation. We are great. (at least i think we are.) Overall in 2008, its a happy one, despite losing a friend and unpleasant incidents here and there, but whose life don't have? I did not change my job but i did get a better position now, my supervisor treats me good and even bought me a gift or two (though i request it before he left). I was really surprised. Thanks boyes. The only thing i fail to do so is, as usual, keeping fit. I actually gain lots of weight since i started school. But recently had been reducing or should say maintaining it.

         With 2009 being another new beginning. I hope that i could do the following:

  • Lose >10kg (last year not defined),
  • Continue to score in the next two semester,
  • Get to go abroad,
  • Have people around me happy,
  • Have at least one great event,
  • Stay happy in 2009.

         though some of the resolutions seem to be tough or repetitive. it is really what i hope to acheive. Its a brand new year, let's hope that the economic recovers and everyone stay happy~!