2006 Report Card

      Just like in 2005, its time to recap on what 2006 had made me... 2006 did not have as much impact as 2005... More special even would be Taiwan Trip, maybe my Birthday... or suppposedly meaningful ORD Chalet & Genting trip... Just like last year... or maybe slightly better as in really slightly better than last year... as i have a job on hand with more cash flow... hurray~!

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     : Most Touching Incident :

#1 Not much touching incident happened this year to me... all are pretty mild... not one that can make me cry... maybe the more notable one will be a recent event... my 22nd birthday... had a quarrel with buddy & friends... but end up they still willing to celebrate my birthday with me... despite the weather (rainning whole day leh... sad) & tension in our friendship... JQ even bought me some small gift apart from the Lounge 12 shared gift... something i feel surprised and a little touch to receive... Thanks JQ~!

#2 Oh... how can i forget about the scar i had... i scalded the back of my palm with hot water... The whole node show tremendous care for me... Dingze & HengGhee offering me food... the others asking me to rest... asking me my conditions... etc... i really felt for the first time in the whole year that i actually meant something (if not alot) to my node people... i think i did drop a tear... not for the pain... but the heart-warming reception i received... they are really my brothers in arms...

     : Most Disappointing/Hurting Incident :

Its not about once or twice ba... more like a series of event that caused myself hurt... or maybe its me, myself & i causing myself hurt... since no one would have admit that i am hurt due to him... or them... so ya... at times, i felt like i was ignored... or people doing things behind my back etc... then i would be sad and felt hurt... especially if people who are closer to me... ya so... guess those incidents really create a dent in my heart... not going to recover that easily...

     : Friend Of The Year :

Terence (could have been jin or hangming) - Never thought that he would be the one i selected... Since i know him from SI days... he is a willing party to fool around with me... those times where i named my no1, no2 & no3... haha... now no longer the standings.. though they still hold a place in my heart... my no1 Terence... haha... had a short chat with me in Taiwan... where i really really almost wanted to give up everything i have... its him that make me feel like... someone really know what i am going through... many friends told me they understand... but they only say and i don't feel it... i alwayz thought... actions speak louder than words... and Terence won it hands down... love ya *muakz* haha...

     : Highlights Of 2005 :

Guess it would have been the Taiwan ROC Trip... The outfield allows me to show care to my buddy due to the cold weather, not sure if he feel it lar... haha... i like the warmth... in heart when we sleep in the unimog head... Our node also showed care & concern to each other... so its really a meaningful one... R&R to me was special, due to some reason, i chose to go with another group... though sad, but never regret my decision... they had a happy R&R without me... so what could i expect more?

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      To many, maybe i never really performed... both being a friend or worker... being a friend... i felt i did my best, its for my friends to judge le... i could say nothing more... being a employee... i had some ups & down performance but still acceptable... i gave myself a C grade for my performance this year ba... a small improvement from last year's D

X'mas 2006

      This year X'mas had proven to be the memorable one... as memorable as last year's. Till now, i still remember who celebrate with me... and the things we did last year... Though nothing special, its proven to be memorable... This year... though i celebrate with slightly different group of people... i really really enjoy myself...

      A ktv session, dine in clementi hawker, a game of 6-man billard... Ends with a chatting session that contains everything under the sun... erm Moon i mean... haha... damn... what can i expect more from a billard game... its really interesting... with all the soccer terms that we came up with... we enjoy not only those balls going in... we enjoy the misses... the poses... haha... its simply unforgetable... great session, guys...

      Its not a high-end christmas in terms of cost... but yet... its definitely a high-end enjoyment... with my group of friends... hey guys.. you know who you are... Hope that you guys enjoy as much as i do... and Thanks a trillion... i really enjoyed myself... and hopefully we stay strong together~!

      This year, i also received smses from people whom i least expected... no matter what time they sent... its still precious wishes... Janson, Jiemin, Joel... Ivy... and also those whom always been sms-ing me in different occasions... thanks alot... at least i know you guys never forget about me~!

my first trophy~!

      Recently, too many things happened... and i was so afraid i will not have any outing on my birthday... but thankfully, my friends, despite being hurt by me... (im hurt too ok... haha) willing to fork out their time for me... WST ~! Though my heart still have many uncertainties... for now.. i can only treasure the moments...

      Lounge 12 gave me a present... though it is obviously Ermei's idea... i know the rest of the 11 too well... and no one would came up with this gift's idea... and though i really hope for something special from my buddy... its unusual for him to do so... not after so many things happened... and this was better than nothing... though i had to admit... i wasn't pleased with idea initially... my brain think too much... looking at the gift... i had plenty of thoughts... but like i said earlier on... everyone still wish me well... that's why they chipped in...

      My first ever trophy... though i won 4 or 5 in sAvvyAwards or even in 3SIG... All is just a gift... or photoframe-made medal.... The first time i really hold a trophy... though others may say the idea is stupid... but hey... its the thoughts that count... and i have thought of making a trophy also... just that no one will support my idea if i said so... So i'm still happy receiving an unofficial one... in this manner...

      Special Thanks to those who supported me... The title... "Lounge 12 FC Star Achiever (Gold Award) for His Outstanding Personality"... (abit long sia) i don't deserve it... but its still... since its a gift from you guys... i will keep it... with honor... hoping to live up to the name... (sound like im giving a Star Award Thankyou speech) i will work hard the upcoming year... and hope you guys will be happy to see me... and not hating to see me... Thanks guys...

      A small note to Ermei: You still have the problem of typing/spelling error... haiz... work with you so many times... still never change... Thanks anyway...

roll of honours

      Special Thanks to the following person for their well wishes through sms, msn, e-card, frienster or verbally...

(Not in any order) my Family, Jin, YaoQiang, Teckhui, ChenSiang, Serene, Weiping, Din, JiaJing, Senior Weiliang, Jiahui, Kang, Kek, Liying, Songxian & Xiudian, Haymar, Ivy, Jenson, Jian Long, Belinda, Aris, Auntie Geline, JiuHsiang, Weiming, Jannah aka Ella, Jack & JianQiang, JianXin, others from Lounge12 (despite never wishes me... they sent me a gift)

Biggest Disappointment:

Dingze never say 'happy birthday' to me... but he did celebrate with me (Hence forgiven)

JiuHsiang unable to celebrate with me... but he called and chat with me (so... forgiven)

Happiest Moment:

WST make it a point to sacrify their TV time for me and celebrate with me. Despite some unhappy stuff happens recently, they celebrate selflessly... Thanks guys... i am touched...

Received Jx's call immediately after knowing its my birthday, (fine... i told him ok...?) but its been a real long time since i last see mr jx aka Kenji... at least can hear his voice & he explain his reason...

First MSN: Mr Jin
First Birthday Card: Ms Ivy (days before, i receive it)
First E-Card: Mr ChenSiang (or is it Ermei)
First SMS: Mr Ermei
First Testimonial: Mr Jianqiang
First Call: Mr Jx (J.Long miscall me)
The only Gift: Lounge12
The only Cake: Family
Last one to wish me: Ms Belinda (through Friendster)

back to SI

      My first post after im 22 years old... i am in a tough period of time... nursing my hurt that i caused myself... though till now... can feel the pain... or sadness... i suppress that feeling for the better of future...

      after dz told me abt our ns unit... i checked once i reached home.. but can't log in... as i forgotten my password... but thankfully when i click the 'forget password?' button.... a question that i could have easily answered pop out.... 'what is your buddy's name? just name' i was totally shocked... but thankfully.. you don't change buddy just like that... and luckily i never change my buddy... and i did answer it correctly to access the new password...

      SI is the place they put, but according to yaoqiang... SI no reservist unit... so i also now unsure if the unit is true or a temp. one... for this... maybe will know later ba... as for now.. i hope i will get to have a meaningful birthday this year... and hope that we all, not only me... can enjoy today... that is my wish... at least... for now... oh ya.. Happy Birthday Weiping~!

the reason... is you

      ZOUk... you are supposed to enjoy there... you are supposed to let out all and ENJOY~! but... but... why am i feeling so down... issit that i lost the passion for music? the passion for dancing?... maybe its due to the reason that i am really tired.... wanna sleep... but is that a reason? or is it due to the fact that my body is there... but my mind is elsewhere?...

      when i look at the paper bag i holding on... its filled with all the emotions... a box of chocolate that reminds me that someone out there still care for me... never forget me even he went overseas... a box of cards... that contains the well wishes i wanted to sent out to all my beloved friens... and yet... a few video tapes what remind me that i am sad... maybe not by the person whom i intend to pass to... but more on myself... why i am being made this way...

      no one would care how i feel now... haha... guess everyone would be saying 'what's new?' or 'isn't that a norm thing?'... but when someone who lived for his friends is being hurt due to his friends... what is his reason of survival...? what is...

curtains drawn

      The results is out... and i only managed to get 3 prediction right. Li Nanxing, Boon Hui Lu & Huang Yiliang win convincingly... Hong Huifang was not bad... though i thought Constance could win. Ivy wasn't that great in the show... Ann Kok was so much better... but guess i could do nothing. Weilian's fans' spending power was once again showed as he beat Elvin to it. Actually nothing surprising... Kym Ng seems to be underated after failing to win the host award this year. But at least she is back with the Top 10 award. Adrian was great though he lost in the Best Actor to Nanxing...

      The most shocking results to me after seeing the full results online is the absence of many top artiste in the Top 10 category. Jacelyn Tay, Terence Cao & Hanwei was the few surprised exclusion. Gurmit Singh don't really deserves to be there. But since the emergence of many up-and-coming new stars like Elvin & Felicia... i shouldn't be surprised that much when big names out of the list. Thankfully Julian didn't win despite leading in the top 10 awards since the voting begins...

      Anyway... will go and watch the video before commenting of the night... haha.... By the way, ARSENAL drew with Chelsea... a commendable results with many big names missing in the Emirates camp. All the best.. hehe...

star awards 2006

      Annual Star Awards will be telecast LIVE tomorrow on Channel 8. So its time for my prediction this year. haha... i became not that active in watching local television compared to years ago, but i still managed to watch a few episode or a few series... so my prediction should still be ok? My BOLD Predictions:

Best Actor : Adrian Pang (or maybe Li Nanxing)
Best Actress : Ann Kok (or Jesseca Liu)
Best Supporting Actor : Huang Yi Liang (or Adam if mediacorp wan to groom him)
Best Supporting Actress : Constance Song
Best Variety Show Host : Kym Ng
Most Popular Newcomer : Elvin Ng
Young Talent Award : Kyle Chan Xing Yu (or Boon Hui Lu)

      Had been watching Ella's new show, Hana-Kimi with Wu Zhun (from Fahrenheit)... its really nice... some parts of the show reflects my feelings & my life... i wouldn't say identical... but its definitely similar... she was once gigantic... but for love & idol, she slim down and became a fast runner, even FASTER than the guys... i was once a fat ass but after slimming down for some reasons... though not the FASTEST runner... but at least my running had been improved too...

      Wasn't feeling so good these days... as the day is coming... and will it be a disappointment or will it be a day i dreamt for...? i had no idea... and there is a part of me feeling jealous seeing that particular picture in his profile... yet i never made it to his profile... never once... its saddening... but i have to admit it... he is his good/close friend... and may be closer than i do... i have to learn to feel content... its just me...

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      To say that i am not tired, its will be nonsense... i am really very TIRED... Feeling the stress piling up over the tight schedule & my inability at my work place... i felt that i am really lack of experience, lack of knowledge & i am definitely someone FAR TOO SLOW... i must admit... i am someone with reactions slow... is it due to age? im aging... HELP ME~! haha... i was so disappointed that i was not trusted at my workplace and was insist to verify my finding... but guess he will never trust anyone than himself...

      Glad to hear that Jx had finish his exam... Now... with that day coming... i wonder if i could have my wish fufiled... having my buddy & him around with me on that day... haha... Kinda wish him... and its always been my wish to be with my buddy & him on this particular day... to see if my dreams can come true... we shall wait & see...

      Had been watching Ella's new show, Hana-Kimi with Wu Zhun (from Fahrenheit)... its really nice... some parts of the show reflects my feelings & my life... i wouldn't say identical... but its definitely similar... she was once gigantic... but for love & idol, she slim down and became a fast runner, even FASTER than the guys... i was once a fat ass but after slimming down for some reasons... though not the FASTEST runner... but at least my running had been improved too...

      Wasn't feeling so good these days... as the day is coming... and will it be a disappointment or will it be a day i dreamt for...? i had no idea... and there is a part of me feeling jealous seeing that particular picture in his profile... yet i never made it to his profile... never once... its saddening... but i have to admit it... he is his good/close friend... and may be closer than i do... i have to learn to feel content... its just me...

status: offline

      After so many weeks of tough work... Finally, get to see my buddy... and my GMT friends... i totally enjoyed with the letter 'E'... haha... i missed him so much... i missed the GMT action... but last weekend, i got back all i missed... yeah~! enjoy so so much... With him back, i'm more secured... WE STAND TOGETHER

      My mood have been hitting quite low recently... resulting me not appearing online... even if i did, i would be 'offline'... Just don't felt so alone... and want to be quiet down more... hence appearing online will sadden me more... but no worries... its just a short period of moodiness... now that with my buddy back... i'm recovering...

      As all close friends of mine would know, my life is a little affected with my current job... the uncertainty of study or work next year adds into my woes... felt pretty alone these days... hence resulting in getting moody... Work stress piled up as i no longer sit back and relax... time for me to improve...

      Hence i really need to wind off during my rest days... and recently started to watch my diet a little... and exercise a little more... i'm getting fatter... time to slim down... haha (fine.. i'd been saying that all year round)...

cliive's condition

      Many of us is concern about Cliive's condition after hearing the news from Kelvin that he suffered some illness in his brain... Thankfully, everything is ok... maybe abit ugly...

WL: How's Cliive? That day, you went?
YD: Ya i went... he okay lar... still can talk c**k..
         but the cut in the head quite erxin... coz he abit botak
WL: He actually wat happen?
YD: but he ok lar 90% recover liao...
         he say got gastric... then faint n hit the ground
         flat ground... then blood clot liao... freak accident
WL: Wah! Gastric till faint... that's serious...i nv gastric till faint b4
         but glad he ok...

      Above is a short conversation via MSN with Mr Yongda... This incident, we learn one thing... either don't skip meals till gastric or... DON'T FAINT WHEN GASTRIC... haha... but thankfully everything is alright for Mr Cliive... Take care Cliive...

      After weeks (felt like months).. i finally going to meet my buddy... and friends... so long never see him... hehe... miss him lor... but enjoy alot... how much sins will you commit to see your buddy? hmm... for me... it doesn't matter if i eat alot sinful food during my trim&fit programme... as long as i enjoy the companion with my buddy... and jack jack (don't say i too favortism) also lar.. hehe...

* Previous post "so so sad" was accidentally deleted..

when is your birthday?

      Get this from Email.... kinda true on me... anyone interested can sms me or msn me or whichever way... i will email you guys...

DECEMBER BEAUTY...
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.

toddlers

      a newborn can really light up the life of everyone... when i received the news that Jocelyn had just gave birth... i hope i could make up time to visit her yesterday... its ok... at least i made it today... haha... thankfully its my off day today... Anyway.. the baby is simply CUTE~!

      Named Javier... the character of a Scopio... and only today, i realised this is the Year of the Dog... haha... his little action resemble any adults... he shivers... he yawn... he opened then closed his eyes, like a person who refuse to wake up... and he cuddles... haha... that is so cute... so happy for Joceyln & Kelvin... and most importantly... Jocelyn had a smooth process of giving birth... and health has been improving...

      What a day... i spent my whole morning... traveling to the hospital and staying with the new-promoted parents... Having chats... its been quite some time since we met up... guess since June... haha... but can see the happiness surroundings the couple... with Kelvin 'promoting' that his baby is the cutest baby... haha... but true enough... Javier was indeed cute...

vivo city

      after months of going separate ways... i finally get to meet kek, terence, kokhong and kang at Vivo City... first time went shopping there... went once with Jack & Dz only... for dinner... anyway... its been a great time...

      Due to kokhong falling sick and missed school the previous day, terence & him talked about their project which was due on TUE the whole day... haha... and Kang maintained his shape with kek improving alot... no longer that plump cake le... hehe.. now more lean le... its quite obvious.. and motivate me to start soon... hehe... but work is tiring ok?

      its such a good time we spent together... missed them alot... especially Jiu Hsiang... but guess he is not preparing for his exam... all the best to whoever invovled in the upcoming exam period... JIAYOU le...

fated coincidence

      is it coincidence or fate? i suddenly feel my handphone will have sms... so i went to my room and take... the whole day no sms... so i thought i'm thinking too much... just as i set my phone down... an sms came...

      its none other than Dz... so how should i view this case? haha... anyway.. having a huge headache aft that incident... Mr sito... as you wished i posted one more negative post le.. instead of hiding it up...

hidden wounds

      its been a long time since i felt so down... All these while.. i keep finding ways to hide my upset... find ways to forget all the sadness... find ways to be happy... from watching smile pasta... playing games... to music therapy... i guess its been rather successful... at least i can control and not blog about any unhappiness...

      But somehow... i felt so uncontrollably down now... maybe due to the incident just now... i cant feel the accomplishment even after my game... when it happened... my feelings returned... feelings that i thought had long forgotten... long recovered... i had been deceiving myself... all these while... i will never forget somethings that happened... i will never forgive people who hurt me...

      Choon siong, Zhengqiu, Shawn and Weiliang... four people from two different place... i had forgotten the hurt they gave me... the hatred i used to felt for them was gone... hence i naive-ly thought that... this time round, i could pick myself up again... but seems like... this time round... i couldn't forgive him... maybe the fact that all the above four lasted only a few months... and soon i never contact them... apart from Weiliang, i lost contact with all...

      The wounds still new... fresh from cuts... and occassional salts doesn't make me feel better... guess all along, the wounds was only covered by gaux and not healed with medication... how long will i take? i don't know... guess it could be one year... 2 years... or maybe forever...

global chinese award

      6th Global Chinese Music Award ended last Saturday with Stef & Andy winning 5 each... Jolin & Jay both won 3 awards but both were not able to attend the event. Twins' A-Sa was ill and ended up only A-Jiao came... Weilian's fans was reported to be saying that Weilian beat Stef in fans' voting for the 'Outstanding Artiste (Singapore)' award... but still losing the award in the ceremony... SHE, Andy, Eason & Stefanie is having fun during the presentation itself... Too many Chinese not-so-popular singers receiving awards... Too many awards were given out & hence de-valued each award.This are a short recaps...

      Joi Chua was great... Being the first performer... she dished out a song with her power voice and silence the crowd... Time for her to go into the asia stage... Too bad she only sing once... Kaira Gong, Kelly Poon, Hong Junyang & Weilian... sang a Singapore Medley... songs sung or created by local singers in the 90s... Weilian is the best among them... though i don't really like the sound system... as it is pretty deafening at times... Nevertheless... Overall, i enjoy alot... haha...

      Had food after the awards too... Poor service by the erm... duno-what Dim Sum Restaurant in Geylang... will try to get the name from my buddy... Had a great time... despite the rushing from work etc... Its all worthwhile...

      Working early and ending late... hence i can only update at this hour... and guess what... prepare for work le.. haha..

music journey

      i finished my first music diary, titled 'music journey', for my little sis... this time round i worked with Xinyi... and produce a surprisingly good chemistry... no... we did not sing.. but we read a story for Jiahui... we were having fun and yet we did something great... my sister who heard the tracks... was also praising Xinyi's vocal acting... though not my skill.. haha.. Its great that JH like it...

      Singapore's transport is really making me angry... first is the bus... 27... 161... now is the cabbie... it make me end up late for work... its really very annoying... i can reach work place and at most late for 5mins... but ended up late for 15mins... and guess have to explain to my supervisor when she return tomorrow... He make me just go round tampinese before FINALLY take understand where i want to go and bring me there... with the help of directory... He still dare to question my description of my work place... saying PIE not TPE... wah... he is indeed idiotic...

      There was once i took a cab and he make me waste some time... hence he take lesser money from me... this guy? hmm.. if 20cents is counted... then ya he did give me a discount... 2nd day late for work le... guess my appraisal are not going to be good... but i won't regret as i enjoy yesterday before my work...

      hmm.. time to turn in... while u guys are enjoying the public Holis.... 'nitez'...

weak-o-liang

      yes... im down with flu... seriously weak... i noticed the change in health recently but still wasn't that bad... when i met dz that night... i begin to feel more weak le... today, finally get flu... guess its the weather... can't really focus at work today... but thankfully, my team-mates understand my situation... and they take up most of the reports... while i work the more simple one... so we survived...

      Tomorrow, my department will merge with another rival department and move into their office... small and surely full of firepower one... imagine Starhub & M1 appears in the same office... hmmm... i will only feel it in the upcoming night shift... wonder how we can survive... Can't think much now... too sick for that...

      Suppose to reach home by 11pm... ended up reaching home 11+... thanks to Bus 27... he bring me to Hougang... SK Compass Pt is so huge.. im sure i will not miss it... no matter how sick i am... then... when taking bus 161 back from Hougang... the bus driver like driving his own fast car... break just in time to halt the bus at traffic light or the bus-stop... everyone swayed with the bus lor... imagine? haiz.. wat a bad SBS transport day...

      i finally finish smile Pasta eps 14... had been working till quite late... so no chance to watch... hmm still the best show.. but... heard its ending le... hmm...

reflections

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?

      An extract from Christina's Reflections... i was totally shocked after working for 16hrs and reached home in yellow... No.. not my clothes... but my face... Looking into the mirrors... i suddenly don't know who is the guy in front of the mirror... is it really me? i look so old... my skin look so bad... my eyes had eye bags now... and suddenly i felt like the one staring at me is some drug addict....

      Felt so weak... after hours without food... without rest... but still i went to meet dz, jack & jq... why? why don't i go rest, right? hmm... they are my motivations to work now... so if i give up my social life for work... i don't see the point of working so hard le... no life... working zombie... 'coz i know... even we maybe at different place... WE STAND TOGETHER~!

negative feelings

      i had been feeling very negative the whole night shift... not knowing why... first... i receive some 'scolding' emails... for doing the job well... then the company have a power dip... and cause some equipment & pc not working... ended up delaying our report doing... end up doing OT till 10+am.... haiz... last night is also one of my busiest night... do many sampling...

      We end up missing break for some food & i whole night only drink and never really eat... so my team was kind of hungry... We keep rushing the reports... Money really dont come easily.... I try to get some sleep after reaching home... but cant really fall asleep... There is construction in my neighbourhood... and i keep tossing ard on the bed...

      Now feel so lethargic... tonight i believe i am surely cannot be awake all night....

a smokey mooncake festival

      its the first Mid-Autumn festival that is so smokey that even the moon fails to shine brightly at his best time... looking back at the Compass Point on my way home... it seems that i reached Genting again... but with a stench... yeah... the smoke smell... i felt weak all over... maybe due to lack of rest and overworked body... but the unhealthy air is definitely here to stay... at least for a month... if my dad is right...

      The kids still having fun... enjoying themselves with candles... or maybe lantern... but i only see candles lar... Kind of feeling sad & alone when i was walking back in a mooncake festival... which suppose to be a gathering... still remember last year, this time... i wasn't having a good time either... at least, i am far better this year... so i should feel content... haha... anyway... to all my readers.... ZHONG QIU JIE KUAI LE~!

baby steals the limelight

      i watched Rob-B-Hood during my OFF day and i totally enjoy it... Not that the storyline is great or fighting scene is cool... Alright, i should say not the best fighting show by Jackie Chan... When you have the cool dude, Louis Koo & action figure, Jackie Chan in a movie... you would never expect that it was the baby that stole the show...

      As it seems that it is normal to find pretty lady in Jackie Chan's movie acting as his love interest... the nurse in the show was not bad looking... The baby is the CUTEST... keep smiling and reacting with the baby's action... the baby is just so... so... CUTE~!!! Felt so young again... hehe... If you guys are finding a movie to relax... Rob-B-Hood is definitely a movie i will recommend... Thumbs UP~!

      When shift starts... the tiredness kicks in... Not enough sleep... busy workload... maybe i am still new... so doing things can be kinda slow... hence end up feel like never seems to finish my job... of course, at times feel rather discouraged... but thanks to friends... i am still going strong... Thanks budz... Generals really take my mind off work... Had not been sleeping well... i even dream about my work in sleeps... Imagine that... haha...

      Time to prepare for work... WE STAND TOGETHER~!

once in a lifetime

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shift, idol...

      Just as you guys are still sleeping by now, i am all set to leave my home for work... It is the second day of my work after starting shift. I could feel that i beginning to lose my normal living style... since its deems to be more difficult for us to accomodate each other than last time...

      But everything still went quite well for the first day, as i said its not all that well but overall, its still a nice day at work... at night, the Finals of the AFPD Idols was held... i only watched the performances and not the results hence not sure who is going to win... but i guess its going to be a battle between the Malay, Noor or Jap, Nakazawa.... both possess a great voice... but too bad... AFPD is no Mediacorp... the system is kinda bad... and of course they sing too close to the mike... and judging criteria is not that transparent for me to gauge the champions...

      i voted for the malay since his voice was almost identical with the original singer... he sang a malay song full of emotions... this also make me feel that... chinese talent in singapore seems to be quite little... maybe at Proj. Superstar, i hope to see some hope being regained.... haha... Singapore Idol? i am going to root for Hady... he is far better & polished than Jonathan... but of course, Jon is much better than Slyvester Sim.... haha...

      Now that all my shift begins.. i could only hope to enjoy all the outing i had whenever i could... Money Vs Lifestyle... a tough decision... but seems the question is always around...

scars of life

      i am emotional kind of person... and when i am all alone... doing nothing... i will start to have my mind reflecting about my life... what i had done... and this time round... i start to think about the scars i get all these 21+ years...

      it all begins when i had cuts and bleeds in my company... some are deeper... some are minor... no worries... its normal as i never wear gloves handling glass panels... but after that i went to take a pair of gloves....

      i noticed that on my right hand... i had a small scar from primary school... we are playful and i get hurt by a friend... no, i don't blame him... but this scar made me remember his name till today... we are good friends then... Lionel... haha... Then came secondary school... the emotional scar... some things happened... and till today... i am still living with it... not totally affected but cant deny that it made my life dented...

      Army is the place where i earn my happiest moment and also my saddest moment... i had a number of scars... haha... emotional... physical... and also first time ever... i create scar on people i valued most... all my friends.... physically... i had one for mr Sito... i had a deep cut on my left leg when i fell into the small drainage... some upgrading in process and i fell into the 'trap'... and many small cuts while operating & work as RID 2IC... i am a golden spiker... remember? haha... Just as i about to leave army NSF life for good... i scalded myself... and that had become a scar in my left hand... a very obvious scar... it make me remember of the love i received from all my node mates when the incidents happened....

      thanks guys... its you guys that i missed most in army... the people i worked with in army... but of course not all lar.. haha... i try to forget those who bully me & treat me bad... hehe...

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

welcome, ahmad & xy

      first and foremost... a special welcome to Terence & Xinyi... Terence should be first time here... someone who made me feel understood finally in ROC... and Xinyi, after a year or so absence from my blog.. haha... Terence feel free to post message here ok... if not will be quite bored... as Jin always busy also.. haha... then Dingze and my other friends also never post message de...

      Today, i can't really finish my job again... but my superior ask one of the team leader to tell me continue to work on MON... so i left at 7.30pm... actually can go off earlier.. just that i never get to see the TL and they thought i left... so i am kind of glad...

      Again, leaving the company alone can be kind of lonely... and makes me wonder if i can really survive there... but when i working... time fly real fast... and time seems not enough... today i delayed and shortened my lunch without informing my supervisor... as i am handling one important case... first time felt like im of some use... though managed to keep the TL & supervisors informed... the reports make me delay my other work... but at least i finish one out of two right... hehe...

      Working there did affect my plans for further study... whether i want to work or go for studies... the people there quite nice... and the job at the moment still kind of interesting to me... but will have to see how things go.... tomorrow will head down to SIM with renjie & yaoqiang... take a look at what they offers... before have a clearer picture? though NTU is still my first choice... haha.. if i ever get in ba...

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 60%

Pride: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Greed: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 26%

You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic.

How Sinful Are You?

smile pasta

      finally finish one episode of smile pasta... the idol drama from Zhang Dong Liang & Cyndi Wang... It not a bad show... not bad at all... cute... comical... but with some emotional parts... their acting had surpass my expectation... haha... it brightens my tough day a little...

      i am having a tough day today... not that smooth at work... can you imagine how i would feel if i do a report using 4hrs? i felt so so tired and felt that i am so slow a learner... but its my first time doing this kind of project leh... Maybe i giving myself too much pressure... Felt so alone when i sit at the bus stop... haha... just maybe too tired.. the emptiness set in... no worries... i am ok now... thx ming ming... we will work hard together...

      hmm... guess its time for work again... jiayou jiayou jiayou....

drivin' out

      After having a test drive yesterday morning in the carpark beside my home... i get to drive out for the first time since i pass my driving test. Guess who is my first passengers? haha... Its my best friends, Zhang & Dingze...

      We went for supper after an outing... and decide to ask my family if the car was available.. and thankfully, it is... and there you go... my first driving... and i am so happy that it turn out to be Dingze & Zhang... Dingze is both my first V-Comm in army & now in civi... felt secure with him around... he knows Singapore road well... unlike me... haha... that compliments my shortings... haha... things went quite smoothly... we ate our supper... everyone home safely... i park my car beautifully but i spoilt my bro's ornament in his car... haha... but he did not give me a thrashing... so was really glad over it...

      its really great outing with Jack, Dz & Zhang... have ktv, LAN and then supper.... though i had a cough, sore throat & tight pocket... its all worth it... how many chances you can get to enjoy... and that's what i need most at this moment... Thanks guys... you made my day...

stressed out

      Since i passed my written test last friday... i had been moving on to hands-on in my job... doing some simple analysis... and had been trying to learn how to do it... plus report... but now, everything back to square one... as i can't explain the little details of the process of the manufacturing of the product in my company... hence i had to learn all over again... the details and will have a small test on MON before the upcoming BIG test to confirm my post in the company...

      have been rather stress out over my work... Everyone thought i'm earning big bucks... but unfortunately... there is more to the fact... i'm not drawing big salary yet... and had been spending alot on food (SAF is free) and transport (SAF stay-in)... so me going bankrupt soon... haha... Hence i really need to chill out...

      Going out later to relax abit with a group of my best friends... Zhang, Jack & Dingze... Time for fun... yeah~!

i'm back

      i'm back... rather busy recently... apart from starting work last monday... and have to study all my jobs & knowledge... i had been working on my buddy's gift... then the AFPD Idol audition on FRI... and Tze hee's farewell gift...

      i'm glad that my buddy like my effort with the help of teckhui... it really make my day when i receive his sms... hehe... as for my job... my superior want me to be fast learner... self-discipline... so there is a certain amount of stress there.. but they are all good people... at the moment at least...

      They taught me all they know and whatever i should know... answer all my queries... during lunch time... we ate together and chat... my superior was a 'gong shi fen ming' person... so we chat other stuff during lunch ba... she is the one who encourage me to join the AFPD Idol... Although i freaked out.. haha.. but she still sms me... and tell me that i almost went through if not because of one of the malay judge... haha... so kinda surprise to see her sms when im in SK...

      Must also thank Dz for keeping me company just before my turn through sms... Teck & xinyi did too... Thanks guys... and hangming for showing the enthu when i tell him i join the competition...

      i had been falling sick due to lack of rest since last friday... been very busy as i worked on tight schedule for my buddy's project... the work... then look for songs... etc... but managed to record some tunes with teck for Tzehee... but will go back to re-record some songs... me quite strict & a perfectionist producer ma.. haha... haiz ARS lost... sianz... but they will comeback de... yeah.~!

to my friends...

      maybe i am no easy person to deal with... maybe i turn moody too frequently that you guys feel its norm and don't care anymore... maybe i don't fit to be your friend... but no matter what... don't i deserve to be treated better? whatever i owe you guys... didn't i did enough in return? guess i overworked myself for friends...

      no matter how i am treated by my friends... no matter how many feud we might have... no matter how hurt i am by you... i ended up trying to let go and forgive... and make you happy... is it due to this kindness, i am taken for granted...? am i not worth to have what i had? are you taking away them from me?

      i had accepted the change in trust... i accepted the truth that we no longer same as before... i accepted that our lifestyle is different... i accepted that we see things differently than before... more and more differences i observe... i accept who you are.... but is it because i gave in too much... i'm taken for granted?

      i hate myself for pestering... i hate myself for feeling all these craps... i hate myself for giving in... i hate myself for giving my all... i hate myself for protective... i hate myself for suffering while you enjoying... but if i never do what i did... you think our friendships can survive...?

      maybe i tried too hard... tried to hard to maintain or get things that don't belong to me... something i don't deserve... but i know if i don't try hard... or being annoyance... i will end up losing what i treasured most... that is you.... my friends... my buddies... maybe only if i be less vocal... i'm appreciated more... an example is the event in taiwan... i felt i make the right decision...

getting old

      After falling sick last week, my body seems to be falling apart le... Till now my flu not fully recovered... and old injuries are back one by one... my wrist... my knee cap... my chest pain... guess maybe either i overworked my body or i really suffering from some illness... Had been feeling rather weak recently... maybe need to really had a good rest? or maybe start to exercise regularly... since i can't even do a simple pull up... my arm will get cramp.. and now still not recovered...

      Had been doing some running & exercising recently despite my flu... as last week's two buffet must really be worked off... haha... or else i will be back to who i am last time... Job searching & went some interviews and they cast some doubts about my thoughts about my future... the interviews went well but somehow, i'm in dilemna again...

      Received my driving license today... alright lar.. not as bad looking as i thought... so still can accept... kind of please that my efforts finally paid off... its not easy to get this blue card... and it had many of my friends wishing me luck & encouraging me... so its something i will treasure well...

      Now its 1am le... but Dz is still yet to be online... a little disappointed even he never promised to online.. but at least he know i am waiting... at least an sms to tell me he not online? hmm... ya... abit sian now...

missing them for REAL~!

      These two days... i managed to meet up with a groupd cool people... my better friends... people from army to poly... people like... Jeremy, Yaoqiang, JiuHsiang, HangMing, Li Chuan, Jason, WeeTeck & many many many more.... Its been a great time... ORD-ing... meeting bmt friends... and army friends that had been throught thick & thin with me...

      My mood get uplift last night after exchanging some smses with my budz... hehe.. me easily satisfied... but also only a few can really uplift my mood... haha... YY going HK for study... The rest enrolling into the local uni... all going to be busy... so its kinda sad for me to be unable to meet them often... i value friendship alot, if you know me well... Going to miss them ALOT~!

      Started sending resume & cover letter soon... now looking around for suitable jobs le... hoping to get one soon... haha... Congrats to Zhang for getting the license under 10pts... better than me sia... no wonder u Bernard's student... all three Bernard's student pass driving le.. haha...

      Going to meet my darling Guan Ming, Jon, Jason, Jiemin & Weeteck later... be back at night and hopefully & finally some gaming actions with Dz & Jack... yeah~!

wandering soul

      A performer last year... i became a spectator this year... i went to NDP 2006 after my bro & parents keep asking me if i want to go... My bro keep tix for me... say who ask me to be his bro... haha... so i bo bian go lor.. haha...

      The experience is different... and maybe my body there... but my heart is somewhere else... i did not enjoy the celebration well... i was a little out of place.. somehow... didn't get into the mood there... even when on my way back... my heart is still wandering around...

      Maybe i think too much again lar... but that's me... i sms people and never get the reply... i get sadden le... these days had been waiting for people to play online game with me... like red alert... but unfortunately... that someone was too busy or not interested to be online... i wonder if you see this message... haha... i miss you... for... the game lar...

      Finally received his sms... so feeling slightly better ba... hmm... tml ORD lor... a day to remember... a day to be happy... but till now.. not in the mood yet.. hopefully soon...

the click

      First time or should say a long time since i last sang with a lady for duet... Yesterday went ktv with kelv, Kr & yQ... kelv asked two of his lady friend to join us... and glad so... the songs choice went broader... i am also surprise that i managed to sing at ease for most songs.. haha..

      Quite bored online recently... no games.. no nothing... only focus try to alias for the node tee... which final details are waiting to finalise... its not easy for me to do all by myself... thanks to support from a few friends... if not... guess everything will still be zero...

      Today's outing was thought to be abit of disappointment... as i waited so long to go for a movie with my friend.. end up it last for 3-4h? and we heading home... but at least we managed to had a dinner... which make the outing ended on a higher note... yeah...

      My friend say The Click was ok and watchable.. but to me... i feel its not bad at all... have hidden meanings between the show... it touches family value with humor... and yet real touching at parts... i was indeed moved... watch it if u need a laugh... its a comedy with good values... yeah... The female main actress was real babe...

december Baby

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness.

Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to
dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.

finally... i pass

      After days of worries... nights of nervous-ness... finally.... i PASS my driving Class 3 License... Its been a tough journey for me... Those who have been by my side all these while know how i feel... thanks for all the support & well wishes... its been fortunate to have you guys around...

      I have been worrying about three things all these months... Jobs... School... Driving License... All these while the most worried... and currently my priority... is to get the license... Not only it took away my time... it took away my money... Though have to think that i am fortunate to spend only 1.3k for the License... but the mental stress is hard to bear...

      My army friends, esp. my buddy know exactly how i feel... having to take 6 test to pass my military Class 3&4 License... i had some bad experience... in learning & in tests... Hence i always felt like wanting to give up whenever i failed my civilian driving test... Thanks to Kek, JiuHsiang, Teck & ESPECIALLY DINGZE... for putting faith in me... and give me the much needed confidence... Thanks alot... Love you guys...

      Yes~! Finally pass.... Guang Ming Shan's AE 86... here i come to challenge... Watch out... KEK~! haha... Congrats to my most supported band... Mi Lu Bing... though i still love J3's Jazz version of Xiao Wei... Damn POWER~! i love all but so-so towards Lucify... Still... All did a credible job in their first two songs... definitely top SuperBands~!

Your coffee drink is Sweet

A kind and caring soul like you is as warm and comforting as a hot cup of sweet coffee. From parties to book-club meetings to backyard barbecues, you're friendly and welcoming no matter if you're playing host, mingling with guests, or just chilling out with good friends.

You've got a big heart, and you're not afraid to share your feelings and let others know how much they mean to you. People know your friendly smile and fun personality can brighten up any occasion. Sound sweet? A dash of sugar is just your style.

What Kind of Coffee Drink Are You?

little summary

      Now feeling a little sad... not knowing really why... maybe due to my buddy ba... alright Dingze... since you guys might say i have a number of buddy... Though i am sure he maybe just tired of the same gameplay or no mood for games... and will be back normal tomorrow after his sleep tonight...

      Recently had been concentrating on driving lessons... Start from scratch... but picking up fast... so now i am back to the standard last time... just afraid that i fumble my test... wish me luck guys... hope that this will be the final test i am taking... Good Luck to JQ too.. he will take it on my ORD day....

      The highlight of last week should be the encounter with a boy & 2 other kids in 159, on my way back after lessons... Totally stranger... i ended up playing & joking with the handsome little boy and chubby little girl... The two of them are enjoying their own performing of nusery rhymes and soon he caught the eyes of mine... i only look at him and somehow we just 'click' haha... its difficult to write the whole experience... guess i still have the kids charm? haha... that marks my day...

      Post '16 days' has been deleted accidentally... if you guys noticed...

knowing me better

      Recently, i had meet up with a few pals that i seldom met up with... ivy, hangming, weiping, pearly, jiahui, xinyi etc etc... they all play a part in my life... Poly... working... i'm sure they will continues to be my good friends when time goes on...

      i'm glad that i haven't lost the touch to bring laughter to their lives... even though i may lost some to bring to lives of my army friends... its really great to see people laugh... smiling all because of you... and you know they had troubles... they have worries... but they cast them aside when you are there... maybe not entirely about me.. but i'm glad... i contributed... its then... i finally found back my soul... why i had friends with me... why my friends chose me to be their friends...

      Just when i had thought that i had lost the buddy in him... he appeared in my life once again... and help me return to my poly soul... my usual self... at least no worries at that time... and sure... getting to know who i used to be... or gaining my usual self make me live happier... i wouldn't say i no longer unhappy... but its getting good progress... and specially thanks to Hang Ming...

      i can have lots of friends... lots of good ones... or even brothers etc... but not everyone can be my buddy... and i chose two... Dingze & HangMing... its the spiritual connection... the common thinking... the i-know-how-you-feel & i-know-what-you-think that make me feel that i made them my buddy... and glad ... i'm recognise in return... and you definitely need two hands to clap.. the same goes for buddy...

      I will try to be who i am and who i was...evolving into a better friend... listener... Thanks jianqiang, wansan, jiahui, xinyi and kang for encouraging me to quit the Ambassador of Sadness position... so... i applied for Ambassador of Laugther le... lol...

time to grow up

      At many times, i feel that i can handle situation correctly or maturely... but i guess its all just lucky that i managed to do things correctly at a correct point of time... i'd never been mature enough... You probably had enough hearing me rant about how sad i am... how wilful i am etc etc... but its nothing but the through... it came to a point... i'm overboard...

      Everytime, i feel that i'm hurt... but maybe at the same time... i gave hurt to my friends... being protective... giving them more pressure... i complain about myself being negative after certain incident... but seems like i never give myself any real chance of changing for good... They gave me enough chance... they gave in to me, so as they say... yet i seems not to be able to feel it many times...

      Being friends... i expected to be scold if im in wrong... but 21 years of my life... i'm being protected... i had a life too smooth... no one around me really scold me for my mistake... only quarrel if i started it... and this had cause a scar in many people's heart... i always thought i had open my heart... so people can understand me... but in real life... are people ready for me? for me to open my heart and accept that fact?

      Different people view things differently... and i get affected when things don't go my way... maybe im just over concern... i value friendship too much... or simply wilful... and not mature to handle these things... for that... i guess i'm always went overboard at things... i no longer a child... no matter how much i wish... for time to stop... for my buddy to be around... for my friends to make me happy... i could no longer wish for that... the time have come...

      i had step over the line... the thin red line... and there is no turning back... i need to learn to be see things more maturely... and maybe think before i say anything... maybe i could no longer feed anyone my thoughts... but not to worry... i'm fine... and i'm really fine...

junction of life

      What do i really want? Who i really am? What my future lies? What could i ever give? Is it all worthwhile...

      In the path of life... we always get to make decision at cross junction... every steps count... a wrong step may led to an Armageddon... the right step may led you to better life... happier life... and which end up in another junction, isn't it...? What if, there is more than one decision to make when you are at one junction? How are you going to make then?

      I'm here again, at another junction of life... Different path, different decision will lead me to different place... and different life... yet i am a little lost... like the little sheep in the forrest... wondering where to go... what to do... i may had done this and that... and end up thinking, is it all worthwhile?

      i'm a little sensitive today... don't worry... i'll get over it... need some time... i am human... i need care and cheer up too... and thanks for the encouragement that whoever had gave me... thanks

7 : 1

      Yes, it was a soccer match's score... No, its not the world cup... but Singapore Cup... SK Dolphines Vs Balestier Tigers... What a score... I went all the way to Toa Payoh (Balestier Home Ground) and this was how the Dolphines welcome me there... Guess its more of Balestier welcoming Dz... its a pity the scoreline isn't bigger... This match does not featured the team that drew 4-4 in Hougang... but the team that make SK bottom of the S-League...

      I received a double hit... England failed to get past Portugal... They played brilliantly... at least to me... but penalty kick ended their dreams... So what if you keep practising? Ricardo never practise and stop 3 of your penalty-regulars... Lampard, Gerrard & Carragher... It saddens me as they gave us so much promise... only to lose in this manner... though better than SK but hey... its still a disappointment... not a shame result to me... SK oni plays 20mins of better football... England? at least 100mins...

      Due to not feeling well last night, i did not watch the Brazil-France match... thankfully, France did me proud... Henry scored the winning goal... Not sure how they did it... at least my faith in them was repaid... I had a gut feeling that France may upset Brazil... and they did...

      Not feeling well these days... wondering why... stress? shouldn't be ba... but not sure... need more rest...

gym attraction

      Hitting the gym is indeed an enjoyment for me... After gaining so much weight over the last two months... especially the junk food i ate over the World Cup period... i became a little self-conscious le... gained back the 5kg that i lost during the depression period... But hey its not a good thing ok... but i am going to make sure i use this to build up my muscle... haha...

      Yishun SAFRA really make me feel like home... its not crowded... the people there are friendly... environment encouraging... but too bad... no hunks or babes... only people like me... lol... i simply love the sauna... imagine someone who almost fall asleep while running on thread and end up feel so energetic upon leaving the place... Sauna did the thing for me...

      My old injury return while i am running... hence i slowed down the speed and soon stop... i felt lethargic as i slept quite late for a few days le... after my short regime... i went to the sauna in the male's toilet and rest there... in 5 mins... i sweat more than i exercise 1hr... haha... its really great feeling... i almost tempted to sign up for the SAFRA EnergyOne membership lor... end up didn't lar... hey need money ok... but may consider...

      Need to watch my diet soon... hehe.. maybe after world cup? hehe... will look into it... but now... i can only grumble... I AM FAT LE *sob sob*

OREO* Cheesecake

      Mon's buffet wasn't a bad outing... first time ever, 12 of us all available for an outing... My first outing after trying to reconcile with teck... i am not rushing into things... need more time... see how things work ba... Hmm... Never get to talk to Jx that day... i think the rest 10 i had conversation with le... nevertheless... still ok lar.. the outing... food wise.. honest speaking... was average...

      Got myself a new 512RAM with the help of my buddy... now my pc is boosted with 768RAM le... no more laggy dotA... haha... its really smoother running... my pc seems to be having small upgrades... router... sound card... now RAM... it cost me some money though... but if its worth it... no harm... just have to save up more? and may work harder for money after the losing in World Cup... haha... no worries... i'm just a small punters... its the fun with friends that make me buy more... hehe... alright.. i am just finding excuses... *bleah*

      i had just make some cheesecake... OREO Cheesecake... 2nd attempt with a total different recipe... but i won't say its a success... due to lacking of ingredients... but its really simple.. thanks to Kraft Kitchen... at least i did try... right? haha... My dream home must have a kitchen with all my baking needs in it... i still want to have fun in kitchen leh...

Oreo Cheesecake...

...with little decoration...

      i'd tried hard to make it look appetizing... maybe its still not so... But i'm sure, its not gonna be the last... but i am a little sick of cheese for the moment... lol...

My First Concert

      Dinner on FRI... a make-up dinner for Ris... Jocelyn, Yiliang, Jeremy & twins make up the numbers too... Jocelyn is the bride on the previous SAT... she look gorgeous that day... it simply proved that the 'a lady will look most beautiful on her wedding day' quote... a little rush for me.. but overall thanks to my friends who all had transport... sent me to Tiong Bahru MRT... Felt strange that i seems to move on to another level... used to be relatives wedding.. now? friend's... lol... kind of strange.. but definitely happy for them...

      I went to JJ Live Concert... saw Campus Superstar at MRT... they look really small... JJ is great... His rendition of 'Qing Ni Gen Wo Zhou Ba', a song he wrote for Wilber... was very nice... He sang 4 composition he wrote for other singer and 4 songs from 4 'senior' in the music industry that make an impact in his music... A-Do & Jin Sha is his special guest of the night... they both did a duet with JJ... JJ vocal powess was showcased too... he made me feel like joining Superstar, i'm honest... Do you guys support me? Anyway... near the end... he almost became the 2nd person to sing live in front of me and moved me to tears.. the first being Dz...

Jin Sha & JJ

JJ dancing

A-Do & JJ

Stylist JJ

Singing Cao Cao (my buddy surname behind)

Finale

JJ belt out his last song

      JJ's concert is definitely worthwhile... the atmosphere... the songs... the vocal... it make me wanna go for concert again... now... i guess... wait for Dingze to accompany me to another one? lol... As most of my friends seldom go for concert... Jin also can lar... if you have any in mind... i may consider... maybe one day... i have a concert too... lol...

losing

      Spent my last guard duty with another special friend to me... but... ended with alittle sadness... maybe every good things will come to the end... but its a fact i do not want to admit.. especially friendship... Hmm... if we left SAF, i am sure we still have time to meet up and not insist that we will never be gathered again... its all down to each's mentality... Hence, just a little sadness... No matter what i will never give up my friendship...

      World Cup fever had burnt me... lost some money at this world cup... the first world cup that make me follow... the first that i bet on... the first time i watch soccer matches... live somemore...its kinda great... as for the money... never bet alot.. but still betting will not kill my interest in soccer... i hope to win $$ but yet more if the team i support wins...

      Jin ask us to play badminton today... had a great session with Terence, Dz & of coz... Jin... he is not bad... just that use abit too much strength.. hehe.. but nice sparring session... though you let me won... lol... But one bad omen today... i lost my handphone... yes... again.. this time round.. it will never be back...

      Jin ask us to play badminton today... had a great session with Terence, Dz & of coz... Jin... he is not bad... just that use abit too much strength.. hehe.. but nice sparring session... though you let me won... lol... But one bad omen today... i lost my handphone... yes... again.. this time round.. it will never be back... No more taxi chasing... or Cleaning uncle incident... i will never get back the phone le...

      Now waiting for Dz to play dotA... need to vent my anger... OWNING... lol.. but Dz Dz... where are thou?

living ashamed

      Time to update my weekly doings? Had some emotional bust up... but now better le... Thanks to Dz & sorry for making enduring my sh*t... I'm just a weakling... Making him suffer alot... feeling so ashame... hmm...

      My combat shoot proved to be a successful one... as i miss only one shot in the day and hit about 10 pts in the night.... i managed to cover my friend's misses... i'm pleased with it... consider that i had a bad headache then... can't even maintain my balance when i try to stand up... Dz helped me to bandage in the morning... its an emotional booster.. lol... buddy help one leh.. of course lar... but end up, i am forced to change it... as the Velco torn the bandage... but still the thoughts never leave the bandage... haha.. mushy right me?

      My mind now is much clearer... and emotionally strengthened by talks with my buddy... Dz don't worry, i'll learn to control... if really a need... then maybe i will refer myself to professional... at the moment... have you enough le... left with IPPT to clear...

You should pick your Zen Friend

      You know who we're talking about — the person who always has their head on straight, who can sound reasonable even in the most unreasonable of times, and who makes you calmer just by standing in the same room as you. Whether you've known them all your life or recently met them in yoga class, there's just something about this calming companion that made you realize from the very beginning you wanted them in your life.

      This highly evolved, kind, caring, and soothing sidekick has a contagiously peaceful presence. Their grounding influence and nurturing heart give you a spiritual boost you don't easily find with others. The two of you share an appreciation for individual expression that makes any time a perfect time to spend together. Ommm!

Scalded Last Outfield

      I quietly cried a little... no, not due to the scalded wrist... but the concern i received from all... Not only my buddy... but the whole node... This happens outfield... They all bring me to the medic down the hill, share their food with me... i'm really touched... its painful but i decided not to tell them that... as in my heart... their care did ease the pain and i don't want them to worry... Luckily Dz was around to attend to my needs as it is kind of inconvenient to use one hand to work... so Thanks Buddy... Anyway, went to see a doctor & its recovering... Hence, no worries...

      With World Cup kicking off... Germany's match marks my first WC Full match... first time watch with friends through net... Watched ENG match with Dz & Jq... nice experience though we were not treated to a good performance by ENG... The Underdogs lived up to their names in this world cup... CRC, CIV, T&T all perform pretty well... though only T&T managed to snatch a point from SWE...

      My mood had been improving... after talks & outing with Dz and people... so don't worry about me suffering from depression again... as i promise i will try not to went into the situation... as i know you guys will be worry & do care about me... erm... right? haha...

Great Times

      My PC have too many minor problems le... haha.. thanks Dingze for helping me and acting as an advisor, technician, IT assistant... etc etc... Finally get a sound card & a RAM from Dz... hoping to improve my PC's condition... Though i had not yet installed as last night came home to late... and i still need a disc for my sound card from Dz...

      Yesterday mood was a little dampened after the Paradiz Center's Lan gaming was smaller now and the conditions of the pc making us all 'pek chek' and it really waste alot of time... but at least there is a turning point... We went to the building beside it... Parklane? Not sure... and we enjoy great time... FIFA 2005... haha... 4 person... 2v2... its really, really fun...

     We had friendly competition... Me & Jack Vs Dingze & Jianqiang... and it turn out that me & Jack were the better ones *clear throats*... haha... 4 wins... but i must give credits to the opponents... they had greater possession and just unlucky to not having all goals conveted... it ignite the passion for FIFA within us... i'm sure this is not the only time we play together... Let's play again...

      Like Dz said... they will come back stronger & not let us win... Bring It On, baby~!

inhumane

      Guess i am not that inhuman after all... Alright, i did hate him for making my life miserable... i did hate him for making me feel so insecure with my buddy... i did hate him for making my buddy treating me not as good as before... i did hate him taking away my everything... but still... i tried to help him? haha... guess i'm a fool isn't it?

      No matter how much i hate him for... he is still my buddy good friend or best friend... and still i couldn't help but jealous... haha.. AGAIN?!!! that my buddy care for him... but what to do... he is my buddy's good friend what... For my buddy, i am willing to let go some hatred and try to help him... Just for my buddy... Hmm... i had been trying hard to earn my trust & assurance from my buddy... though i still get none... hmm... assurance, i mean...

      i'm not that inhuman... i still care for him as he is still a person... a comrade... a ex-friend of mine? or maybe i still treat him as friend ba... its not that i'm cold blooded... whoever know me well, know this fact... Whenever i tried to give in abit... i saw things i did not wish to see... Jealousy, petty-ness... anger filled me again... blocking all the thoughts of reconcile...

      Now that he is feeling better, i can also relax awhile... too many people falling sick... IPPT is indeed tough... my buddy Dz... Terence both weakened by IPPT... my good pal, Jx also down with fever... Hope all recovering soon...

emOtions, Guo Min

      Dui Bu Qi Wo Ai Ni... the atmosphere in the room is now filled with lots of emotions & love... We came into the room with some duets and did some credible job on those songs... two guys... what do you expect? But things changed when he sing Joi Chua's Dui Bu Qi Wo Ai Ni... I simply quiet down and listen to him attentively... something went wrong within me...

      When he belted another solo effort, Guo Min by Rainee Yang... my body became slightly numbed... i felt somehow a little pressurize too... haha... as i felt that suddenly he sing with 'gan dong du' while my singing detoriates... haha... so when i sing the next song after Guo Min... my body starts to numb and my heartbeat goes faster... yes... i don't know why but i simply goes emotional... very emotional indeed...

      i tried to relax myself... but when he started to sing Hui Jia... i'm moved to tears... CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? this is the first time i went KTV with a friend and he can moved me... yes... Fabian may possess a great voice... but still i never moved to tears by him, yet... Now this person holds the record of the only guy to make me cry while listen to him sing... and he is.... none other person than my buddy, Dingze.... Dingze... you are simply great... powered up with your rendition of Guo Min & Dui Bu Qi Wo Ai Ni...

      During the week, i am shocked and disappointed at some news about my buddy... but soon i got over it... and he had long reinstated his position as my idol... someone i really look up to...

      i'm really weak after ippt... time to rest... to recover from the cold i get on TUE...

not fairytale

      Dream don't always come true... as it is for me... after so many hiccups over the week... today... as usual, i couldn't produce a hatrick by passing my driving... Mun & Weiliang pass earlier this week. Its just a bad day at a bad timing... blame no one but myself, i guess...

      Its likely that due to my diet getting heaty recently, i had a slight irritating pain ard my ear area... its rather annoying... This morning, i noticed that i left my photos in bunk... and my right eye was somehow very itchy... it became red while i try to put on my contact lens... in the end? i wore specs for my test...

      It didn't went too well for my test... Made mistakes in circuit... the previous time i perfect it, remember? its devastating... today's mistake counts is more than last time... though i reduce my previous faults... Feeling a little dejected when i did not receive my buddy's wishes... but i guess, as usual, he was sleeping... was upset & a little angry at first... but soon after a long walk (abt 3-4 bus stops) from NYP to AMK Industrial... my tears went dry and feeling tired...

      If not for the encouragement from Dingze & JiuHsiang... i may still be down and grumbling or... even gave up on driving... I did had that kind of thoughts... but not anymore... Thanks guys...

bad management

      A management that made me totally gave up on... Army in Singapore is really f**k-up organisation... The management is really idiotic... they simply change their mind... their schedule whenever they like... eating our OFF and making me changes my plans...

      Suppose to meet up with my group of friends on MON... but a sudden call back to driving almost ruin my day... Thankfully, there is enough CSOs... Jx willing to substitute me & Dz drive my vehicle... only then, HengGee allow me to go... Thanks Jx & Dz... Love ya...

      My driving lessons almost took a knock... suppose to take lessons on WED & Thurs... now... i change to Thurs & FRI... and must make sure my instructor have slots... but he doesnt sound happy... when i need to change my circuit lesson... i almost had to pay even if i didn't go... if he couldn't find replacement.. Thankfully he does... but... haiz... still i wonder how SAT going to be... my test... since this week doesn't look bright...

Appeal

      Still recovering from my fatique after doing guards on THURS. My second guard duty in May... This time round, i do it with a group of good friends. My detail consist of my buddy and best friend... Dingze & JiuHsiang... while my guard com is my good friend since BMT days... Teerong... Hence this guard was one of the better guards i did. Remember? i go for emotional than quantity... If my guard duty is with great pals... i wouldn't grumble that much... haha... stupid me? You bet...

      I had just sent an appeal on application to NTU. This time round, i get my god-sis Eunice to assist me due to her command in english and experience in all these adminstration stuff... Its just too bad that i had to edit it due to the 50-words limit set by NTU. Hope my editing will not affect the essence of the letter. Its great to have friends... We all need friends, do we? Alright, you might think that i am getting mushy and crappy here... but hey, its from the bottom of my heart, ok?

      Next week supposed to have a week off but unfortunately, i had to return to drive vehicle to 9SIG due to the change of arrangement in the admin side. Its rather last minute and i did grumble as i do afraid that my plans with my ex-thpz friends will be affected. i don't like to create troubles to people due to me. Though can't help it, i still don't like the feeling... but thankfully, HengGee allow me to me go off early once i finish my job. Hence compromise from both side and hopefully everything go well...

tickle.com test

      Wee Liang, your true color is Yellow!

      You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things
      you definitely bring to everyone around you.
      It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence;
      your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it.
      The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness

      you show friends and family (and strangers, too).
      Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment,
      you know how to make people feel good about themselves,
      so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and
      inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!

M:I:3

      Watch Mission Impossible 3 this morning with JH & XY... Not a bad show... first time watch MI's series... Maggie Q is really gorgeous... Jonathan Rhys Meyers & Tom Cruise was dashing... its a really good-looking group... The show is filled with action as well... *Applause*

      Its been a long time since i met up with the rest... Vivian, Weiliang, Xinyi, Jiahui and all the loveable aunties... Hmm... am i really slimmed down again? i thought i now had a tummy? Each time they see me, they will commented that i slim down again... hey, i am thinking of going for my tummy-removal plan... time to build up exercise again...

      Time to go for my first driving lesson after the ROC le...

fool again

      Never take any of your friends for granted... it may be too late when you start to realise it...

      Never take them for granted... they may stick to you till you find them irritating... you may feel that you do not need to give them any special attention... they will still be there for you... if you have any thoughts of that... though you may not realise... you are wrong... when the times come and they disappear from your life... that is when you will regret for not treating well enough in the first place... but everything will be too late... am i taken for granted too?

      i had thought that i had finally thought it through but guess, i am wrong again... all these while, i keep telling myself to take things easy... telling myself that i am just over-suspicious... think too much... etc etc... but i couldn't seems to control my emotions when i'm all alone... when all the thoughts ran through my mind... i simply couldn't sleep... too many things to worry...

      And its a really terrible feelings to have... trying to sleep yet couldn't... trying not to think at all... but your mind keep functioning... and the next day? haha... guess what... its Guard Duty... its not i don't want to rest... but i simply couldn't...

      When i am all alone... i would suddenly felt my eyes turned teary... and soon it starts to flow... its not easy to explain how i feel... i used to think i could... but all of sudden... i felt that no one can understand me... and i given up explaining my feelings...

      Guess what... haha... i am crying now... haha... how can it be right? ridiculus... but... haha... i don't know... i'm just stupid... i guess i am a sick person... haha.... i going crazy... tears keeps rolling... the wound is opening up... the heart is falling apart... our time together will be over soon... not going to see them when June ends... no more suffering for them... as for me... God knows...

      Anyway, these week nothing special... setting up vehicles back... oh... i was worried sick when i heard that kh & dz got caught... all i could do was hope that they are find as i try to reach dz... i was at sentry alone... but was slightly relieved to hear that they are ok... but still it make me more awake... cant go to sleep... even if i am really really tired... end up talking to Jx who took over me at sentry...

      Being persuaded to sleep... i went to guard rm... and kh & dz ask me to rest and they will settle the things... managed to catch some sleep only then... These week only good news is... my good friend, Jocelyn getting married... So happy for her...

DECEMBER BABY

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...
better than all of these other months!
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything.
Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know.
Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken.
Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind.
Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke.
Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind.
Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person.
Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds.
Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up.
Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions.
Takes time to recover when hurt.
Sensitive.

router's trouble

      Yesterday was the polling day... No surprises... but almost did... In Aljunied GRC, WP came fiercely with 40%+ votes... Other GRCs & SMCs also did show that opposing party is gaining support... In future elections, i forsee WP to grow stronger than ever...

      Spend whole day doing my router connection... Getting rather fustrated as i couldn't solve the problem and had to wait for Dz's call... i was woken up twice in the morning as early as 8am... i slept late the previous night, you see? Then i sit in front of the computer trying to solve the problem... but yet facing regular asking on "still cannot ah?" & "can use the pc anot?"... If you guys can do it... then do it lar... don't wake me up and when i start to solve... keep bugging me...

      *sigh* a week back from Taiwan... still have a little bit of missing there... especially the 7-eleven... More variety, lower price... Simply great.. But these days... i'm gaining weight... In Taiwan, i keep eating... in Singapore... at home... i also non-stop eating... Now i had a huge tummy le... haha...

      Terence's recommendation of Char Kway Teow wasn't that bad... though it was suppose to be better... Uncle had his bad day i guess... so it did not meet Terence, Dz and Jq's expectation... but to me... it still have the unique... old-school taste... its nice...

      The highlights of the week should be the badminton sessions... but it ended with a 'bang'... haha... i was hit 'Bull's eye' right on my eyes... its really pain at the moment & i need awhile to recover... seeing black ring around my eyeball... haha... whole day with uneasiness... But not to worry, i'd recovered le...

the NTU reject

      Finally, i received my letter from NTU one day after my arrival in Singapore... But as i expected, i'm being rejected... though under my expectation, i still somehow feel really sad and disappointed... But glad my good friend Jx had been accepted to his course in NTU... now i must start to think what to study and where to study le...

      Been feeling rather sian... rather than the disappointment... it seems that i had alot of thing to do too... like scheduling of driving lessons before my TP this month... my dental appointment... and it all had to be settled this month... planning of my study also... Rather stressed this days... but keep myself occupied...

      Health is still recovering from diarrhoea that pester me for almost 2 days... one of the worst diarrhoea i ever had... But look at the brighter side... i'm recovering, isn't it?

      My gameplay also been affected with the return of my sister... not another one who going to snatch my gameplaying schedule... being born in a big family... everything had to be shared... but i just feel so sian that i can't control my own playing time... i had to change for their sake...

safe 'n' sound

      Seeing this post means all but one thing... i'm BACK... in one piece definitely... emotions filled my heart when i step back the shore... Everything seems to be unexplainable... i felt so good to be back in Singapore yet... i will miss those times in Taiwan...

      i gained experience driving and siting as a passenger in ROC... deploying outfield was special... those times i'll never forget too... it is those cold weather... i felt the warmth in bonds...

      Spend my rest of the ROC days with another group of friends... and had a total new experience... a more commercial kind... try lots of local food... saw the famous 'Bin Lang Xi Si'... Apart from hiccups from the Army side... the overall experience is still memorable...

      At times, i do feel disappointment emotionally but yet i learnt alot... and gained alot... hence i'm not complaining... but it's really good to be back... too...

zuo you wei nan

      i struggle and struggle... i ask myself again and again... it is not an easy decision to make... but for the sake of you... for the sake of me... i made this stupid decision... Zui Hou De Teng Ai, Shi Shou Fang Kai... Bu Zai Rang Ni Zuo You Wei Nan Le...

      i am not having a great time last week... i get fustrated easily... i get moody easily... i simply cant control my mood anymore... my gastric & stomach is weaker now with the fact that i felt like puking last week again... and i did, in fact... but who cares... i suspect myself suffering from depression... Thanks TeeRong & the specs for caring and letting me sleep in their bunk when my bunk is loud...

      i was hoping to settle my problem before going ROC... but somehow... my hopes were dashed... on TUE night, i would be leaving... and i may not be back... it all depends on what the someone above wants... i no longer yearn for safety nor scared of danger in ROC... i will not explain why i feel so, but it no longer hold any importance in my heart...

      Congrats to HangMing for getting into NUS, he deserves the place... For me? still yet to receive any notification from NTU... Don't think i will know if i get in unless i made it back to Singapore in late April... Till then, Take care my friends...

      Dedicated to Dz: Zuo You Wei Nan

life without...

      Army could be tough... but friends simply make things simpler... even if there is much things to do and not much rest... Thanks to Kelv, KokHong, Jx, Mun and terence... my life pretty entertaining when i return camp on TUE... They filled up the emptiness in my life... though not totally covered up, at least i live much happier... then alone...

      Life without TH is simply great... the three days is one of the happiest time i had for months... free without his presence... simply not affected by him... i lived the life i wanted for those days... basketball... fooling around... joking around with the rest of the guys...

      it wasn't easy for me as i had a quarrel at home before booking in on MON... but and i found the emptiness in my heart... the space left by my buddy... it will never be filled up... i suddenly felt that i had no one to turn to... no one to speak to... Thanks Jin... for listening to me... showing concern... i really appreciated... everything just went wrong...

      Though we gave each other some time off the matter... but THURS & FRI simply remind me how things will never be the same... i wanted you to be happy... but i can see that there is nothing you would change for me... that doesn't matter anymore... i shalln't go into details... im sure you aren't interested... just go on with your happy life... its heartening to see you do enjoy your time these days...

      Home became the last place i wanted to be at ... after the bust up on Mon night... maybe one day... you will find me loiter around the void decks... haha... who knows... and who cares...