thanks, pals

      On the verge of giving up, a new hope rebirth... Having my soul lost over the days of driving test... Watch with my own eyes that friends are leaving me one by one... it wouldn't help much... Breaking down numerous times... feeling scared and useless again and again... finally... the thoughts of giving up appear in my mind... thankfully i didn't... or else...

      Without people around me showing support... i believed that i would not have make it... Alot of my friends... pals & buddies from 3SIG waits patiently for me to return... knowing that i can do it... they encourage me not to give up... pushing me from one test to another... finally i passed the last attempt... There are also people outside army supporting me... but these army people were with me all the times...

      Whenever i would be having a test, they would message me in the morning... spurring me on... but i keep disappointing them with my results soon after... even though i kept failing, they never stop believing in me... Encourage me, the way i use to do it on others... There would be too long, a list, for me to thank... But i would like to specially thank these people...

      Ah Jin, Ah Da, Ah Hsiang, JianXin, Jianqiang, Lee Chang and Er Mei... They had been there for me... regardless rain or shine... whenever they see me getting nervous or not right... they would show me support and give me warmth that reached my heart... to people, i may be mushy at times... but still i must say... Thank you very much... Love you guys!!!

      Last but not least, all the supreme powers that heard my prayers over the last two weeks and helped my friends to pass their test... Thank you....

weekend shop review

McDonald's (Queensway/SengKang)
Service: 7/10 (QN) & 8/10 (SK)
C.Fries: 10/10(QN) & 5/10 (SK)
      It was absolutely fantastic... The new curly fries sold in Mac tasted delicious, so does the whole properity meal... I simpl love it @ Queensway... Hence i bought one today in SK... totally disappointed... Not as tasty...

Queensway Clothings (Overall)
Service: 8/10
Clothes: 7/10
      The rating so high mainly due to the two shops i went to... #02-05 which do not have a brand on the shop head... produce great service... There was this new boy who smiles and always so friendly... and standing near the front... he earns almost 10 pts... but due to other shops.. Service could not get full mark from me... as for clothes... i notice a few not bad but price was not stated and some was not that cheap...

CompassPoint Eyewear (Service)
Nanyang Optical: 0/10
EastChamp Optics: 9/10
      Can you imagine u walk into the shop where no body serves you? I could easily give them negatives but since there is one customer being noticed & served by one of the three shopkeepers (including the boss)... i give them a zero... EasChamp was totally different story... They provide excellent service and there was a teamwork felt in their service... so there was no problem for me to give them 9pts...

ashton day out

      30mins break... do maintenance... 30mins break... go off... this is what happened on SAT... and for this, i have to stay in on FRI... time wasting... money wasted for the bus to send us there... etc... SAF waste too much...

      Since i could go back as early as 1030am... i decided to join JianQiang, Edwin & Lee Chang on a shopping trip in Queensway before catching Phantom with Xinyi... which was cancelled due to sold-out crowd... In the end... four of us went to Queensway, Orchard, Bugis... to shop the whole day... Edwin bought the most... for me? i get myself a top... but need to regain my shape for it though... haha...

      At night... Lee Chang had rented a car for SUN's activities... hence we took the opportunity for him to send us for supper... We went Jln Kayu for prata... before heading home... Nice prata... and nice outing.. my first ever outing with them...

      Bad news was that we will get guard duties if we never pass our Driving... our CSM, whom himself can't drive, said so... And most who pass driving could do alot of chin ups le... Hmm... pressure seems to keep increasing...

losing...

      Losing my dreams... losing my hope... losing my soul... losing my... self...

      i prayed and prayed almost every night... silently before bed... just hoping that we could have pass our driving test... no... i never prayed for myself... i prayed that my bunk could go IWCD together... that is my latest dream... but i guess, it will never happen... I knew that my bunkmates are much more ZAI than me... therefore i could understand that if i fail due to situation outside... but...

      Early morning, minutes and hours after the test started... good news kept coming... Out of the three that went for the test in my bunk... all three passed... my other friends also managed to pass the test... and soon... my turn... I panicked... afraid... that they will leave me alone... all alone in the bunk... but still i am happy for them... but i just couldn't stop worrying...

      Indeed, i let myself down... let all my friends down... there was no use for their well-wishing... their lucky watch or even lucky pen... i was left behind... i made numerous silly mistakes before turning back to original start point... never even went out of the road... i felt devastated... as i walked back... i have no face looking at them... i could only stop my tears from rolling... as i record my mistakes... Once everything is done... i walked into their group... i sat down... All eyes was out of concern... gathering around me...

      i let them down... i let myself down... i let my instructor down... soon i lost my composure, my calmness... and eventually my soul... i tried to control... but i couldn't... i was able to calm people down... but deep inside me... i am afraid... nervous... and eventually all these took control of me...

      I don't feel good since i forgot to bring my wallet... then soon... somehow or rather, indirectly, i caused two friends' failure... at times, i really hate myself... why am i causing troubles to people... now that there is only 5 of us from 3SIG left... i wonder who will be gone first, or could we all go together... i am disappointed with myself... Once again... sorry JianXin & JianQiang

will the lions roar?

      In just minutes time, Singapore Lions will be going up against Indonesia in the 2nd Leg of Tiger Cup 2004 Finals.... Will they maintain their composure and beat the Indonesian? or will they like Arsenal, who lost to a weaker team, Bolton by 1 goal...? Let's just wish them good luck..

      Feeling heavier and heavier... i finally got the chance to swim this morning... its a great feeling back to pool but also more disappointed when i look at my body... Today wasn't my day, as i think that my Discman was spoilt after water spilled over it... like what had happened to my Handphone during BMT last year... Now, i have to go back to old discman to provide me with music...

      Talking about music, i bought Taufik's CD... although it wasn't as good as i expected... its typical Idol material... Just look at what is in Fantasia's, Ruben's or even Kelly's debut... But i guess, its still listenable... smooth delivery... But i am sure, he did work hard... haha... his IBU is really the same song as the Fernleaf's ads....

      I also met up with Yuyan, Liyan & Xinyi for KTV session... a last minute organised gathering... i have the urge to sing, hence i met up with them... even though i had a "price" to pay... haha.. I felt that i wasn't singing my best... and its more like having fun than singing pro... but thankfully, i still received good comments... haha... felt pretty flattered... my fans seems to be staying for good... haha...

      Wait a minute... its 1 - 0 for SINGAPORE!!!! i go and support Singapore now... See ya...

The IQ Test

You have answered 31 questions out of 38 correctly.
Your IQ is ~ 129.

A score below 70 indicates that you performed way below the population average.
A score between 70 and 84 means that your performance on this test was significantly below the population average.
A score between 85 and 99 would put you slightly below the population average, but it's in the normal range.
A score of 100 represents the population average.
A score between 101 and 115 puts you above population average but is in the normal range.
A score between 116 and 130 means that your IQ might be significantly above average. Scores of 130 and above mean that you are brilliant.

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lightened the depression

      Just returned from the movie, Kung-Fu Hustle with Ris & twins... It was a crappy movie but that is the selling point... it simply brought laughters to the audiences... i managed to unwind a little even though there are some unhappiness at the arranging of the meet up that almost cost this meeting to be called off...

      Check the Tiger Cup 2004 Results... Singapore lead Indonesia by 3-1 for the first leg... This result is important to Singapore... They finally one step nearer to be the true CHAMPIONS after winning the 1998 edition unconvincingly... This time round... everything seems right for them... Coaches, Players, venue etc... Now, i just hope they maintain their standard and not throwing away their leads like they do when they played Myanmar...

      Life couldn't be worse... for me at least... Getting very tired about the course... Everyday will have to suffer... the nagging and scolding of my instructor... Maybe i am not borned to be a good driver... hmm... But still, i managed to pass my Parking and Height & Lashing Test in 1st attempt... By doing so, i have passed 3/4 test in 1st attempt... now left with Driving test... which i am expected to fail during 1st attempt... at least my instructor say so...

      There are many times i really wanted to give up... but i perseveres and here i am, still standing strong... i do not wish to be a quitter and i prove Mr Roslan wrong... I can DRIVE!!! Maybe not as good... he also say it takes 1-2 years of experience to be a good driver... SO!!! don't expect me to be that good lar... STOOPID!!! I managed to endure all the curse, scolding... etc... left 1-2 weeks left... i must get over it...!

boredom

      The first two days of 2005 ended without much excitement... I spent my New Year in my auntie's house for a gathering... playing with the younger lots... Then at night, i begin the first training of 2005 and the only training this week due to bad weather... I had been kept at home without exercising... Plans of going Gyms etc... haiz.. all gone...