not improving

     We finally meet yesterday. SSMC-NYP IA Students. We went to Darryl's (Ngee Ann) birthday celebration. Chit chat a lot. Even went to a beach that is not so romantic at all. Bad view... Don't ever go to the beach at Pasir Ris. *laugh*

     Still recovering from the weakness. Not sure if i can really be lively tomorrow when i go to camp tomorrow. Tomorrow i will be in the Leadership Camp with Hankeong in NYP. i merely stand in for Sebastian, Bowling Vice-President. He can't make it to the event.

     Yesterday, im glad i went to the bowling event even though i feel very tired over the fully packed schedule. My turn-up prove to be fruitful. i was corrected on the way i bowl. Even though i still cant really get used to it. i hope it will help me to improve my average results. Due to the lack of cash, my training was brought down to minimum. Making it once a week. Sometimes not even train for two weeks. Yesterday was the first training i went for the past 3 weeks. i have been showing a very slow improvement in my games. i only managed to get an average of 120, from 110 early this year. *sigh*

Tarzan!

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Falling ill

     Down with flu and cold, feeling weak all over my body. its been whole day. i never really managed to smile with that bad headache. Especially when Twins could not make it to the movie session, we supposed to have. But i guess, i am lucky enough to have the trip cancelled. *laugh* if not i might just lay flat in the middle of Orchard Road.

     i am still tired. May be the rain on Saturday that make me ill. I feel the coldness in my computer lab and whenever breeze blew against me... i feel weak. *sigh* Need more sleep. Days are working against me, i guess. Darryl's Chalet will be on SAT. The only time when all SSMC IA Students have the chance to meet again. Pretty look forward to it. *smile*

     As for my school project, i still did not get to see my supervisor this week. Finally finish one part of the topic 1. So tired, and eyes are sleepy. i guess its time to sleep and hope get better tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

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Down But Not Out

     i'm feeling down recently. Feeling lost, sad, angry, tired, everything... No of course, i will not resort to death... *laugh*

     i just feel that things had not gone my way and feel sad when i turn my head back. My handphone has not been working well. it doesn't matter the fault lies on the battery or the phone itself, it just doesn't work. Now then i realised the importance of my phone and i am now dependant on it.

     i can recite a whole lots of numbers of my friends' handphone or telephone number just like that... Now, i can only remember some of my Secondary School's friends' number. Some even might have been mixed up, not knowing which is whose. *laugh to myself* Lame? Just feeling sad.

     On Saturday, my administration number was written down by a lecturer, stating that we are disturbing his P6 Program's students. Twins and i were too tired to retaliate, or should i say too weak? But it wasn't that bad, since my Project Supervisor did not call me up yet.

     When i watched Iron Ladies II VCDs at home, i suddenly feel sad. The story line are not bad but the whole movies seems to jumble in a messy way, pretty hard to understand. I watched in a happy mood but soon it ends, Jung & Nong are good friends. Jung is one of the 'guy' that help Nong realised that he is one of the kind. But due to some things happen, Jung hate Nong. I suddenly feel like that scene was talking about me *laugh*

     Of course, i'm not saying that i make someone realise he was a gay or i was made realising. But the feeling was like, losing a friend you always treated as best/good friends or even buddy. You miss the person, yet you just can't stop feeling angry for what he has done. This was a real struggle in myself. When i thought everything was put behind, i once again proven that the thoughts were deceiving.

     I guess, the hurt is too hard for me to accept or the relationship is too important to me. Still recuperating from the hurt *laugh* of losing a buddy?! As i always said...

i would rather keep a good friend than to know a new one

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SAT's fun

     Fourth day in school, yet nothing concrete. Apart from a very simple briefing by my supervisor, i not sure what i was suppose to do now. All i know is that i am required to do some elearning materials as my project, nothing else. Pretty boring... No neopet's games. No ICQ. what a life?

     i really hope i will have something to work on. but unfortunately, i do not have anything to do. i dun really mind programming or whatsoever. At least there are something i can do or a little bit interested on. how long could i survive with this nothing-to-do days... *argh!*

     These days, i went and have breaks and lunchs with Riez & Twinz. Tomorrow, will meet NYP-NTUC students. It will be the first time we meet for meal in NYP. After tomorrow's meal, who knows when will be the next time...

     Going for an interview later on with Jannah & Riez. Need money *smile* No money? No Talk! *laugh* Most probably will be working in Swensen if nothing goes wrong. Then will have money *laugh out loud*

THE PROTECTOR

You are the rock, the keystone of your friends and family. They look to you for support and leadership. You don't push for devotion and attention, but when the situation is desire even the Idols and Exhibitionists will turn to you. You are the trusted, the loved. You have the capacity to love more deeply than any other type, and are fiercely devoted to your friends and lovers. Highly idealistic, you would sacrifice everything for a person or cause you believe in. But you trust so deeply and compassionately that a betrayal could shatter you. Jealousy is your downfall, and sometimes you need to give people more space and not become so enamored. Be careful whom you place your trust in, for a Protector's broken heart will never fully heal. The world needs more of you but you are few. And sometimes it seems like you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.

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SAT's fun

     On Saturday, i went to KTV with NTUC people. Great day i guess. Have fun but kinda boring when come to the choice of songs. As usual, i am the top scorer of the day. 94 pts *laugh* The choice of songs were lack of creativity. Choices of the songs were all sendimental. Even if its fast and energetic songs, they sing with the energy. ML's oldies made the session worse. But apart of these, the fact that we meet make the session enjoyable. Dinner were settled at Chomp Chomp, Serangoon.

     After the dinner, i rushed home for a shower before heading to my friend's house to stay over night. I took a cab there as i'm afraid that i might be late. The taxi driver was a little 'cock-up'. He made two wrong moves, making my journey not so smooth. First, he turned too early and we ended up in Ang Mo Kio Ave 3 instead of the road that lead us to Bishan. * frown* Then he should turn left at the cross-junction. Guess what? he goes straight. But luckily he realised the mistake and make a sudden turn. it's illegal but still i am happy he did it. Wasting loads of time and money on this stupid cab.

     A long long time since we had fun together. Jenson, Glen and i went to Eugene's place to have fun. We played 'Winning Eleven' and wrestling game. I have lots of fun. We joked, scold, tease and bonds very well... *laugh* I enjoy myself even though i am tired due to lack of sleep during last week.

     Not much happening today. I went to Boon Lay MRT with Glen to explore the location of his attachment. Pretty deserted. My guess is that today is Sunday. I think it will be very crowded on week day. Double-decker bus for a internal route? Not a norm for SBS. *yawn* i guess its time to get some sleep. Tomorrow still need to wake up early...

gonna miss 'em

     Tomorrow will be back in NYP for project. Looking forward to meet the EC0118 and ex-NTUC ppl *smile* Apart from some hiccups, i am having a great week. Being busy caused me lack of time to post.

     My company, SSMC, is divided into departments where will further divided into sections and sub-sections. I am in ThinFilm\CMP. On Wed, there was a CIT Presentation. Hence there was free food. KFC & Pizza Hut. Nice food. *lick my lips* That night, the section brought us to Long Island, a seafood restaurant. The service are damn slow but quality wise are good. This is the first time i see most of the Section's Engineers. And this is the only time we interact and i found out one of them lives just opposite my block. *laugh out loud* Have a lot of fun, playing pool with a few of them and joked around. Making me miss them a lot.

     Then, my supervisor (not official) brought 3 of us to a THAI restaurant in Downtown East. Since my supervisor love to eat spicy stuff, he need some company which is us. Others do not really enjoy spicy food. I was the best spicy-food-eater *haha...* He is really very good to us. On our last day, he was not there, he was on leave. So, my partner and i, accompanied by Darryl (NP's IA Student), went and get them a cake. To thank them for treating us so good, just like their family members in this big family.

     Last day was taunted to be the most tiring day. I try to rush my report out with pressure from Darren (my partner). He had done his portion. We worked on 2 projects, hence there are two portion in a report. Of course, i am used to the pressure and get it done. *grin* i will definitely miss them.

You are Peppe Le Pew: (without the smell)

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You are a lover. Romance, flowers, and wine are all you need to enjoy yourself. You are serious about all commitments. A family person. You call your Mom every Sunday, and never forget a Birthday. Don't let your passion for romance get confused with the real thing.

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IIFS
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  GENERAL LIFE:
  IIFSs have an imaginative and idealistic approach to life. They are caring
  and compassionate, with great insight into both themselves and others.
  They have a gift for understanding people's feelings and motivations.
  Privacy is important to IIFSs, and they need to have their own space in
  order to 'recharge their batteries'. Although IIFSs are warm, friendly and
  easily approachable, they need time to get to know other people before
  being able to share their often complex thoughts, feelings and insights.
  IIFSs are happiest when doing activities that are consistent with their
  strong values and beliefs.

  LOVE LIFE:
  Even though two people from any type can enjoy a healthy relationship,
  IIFS's ideal partner is the EITU, or the EIFU.

  WORK LIFE:
  Typical IIFS Career Paths: Writer, Art Director, Marketer, Architect,
  Interpreter/translator, Clergy/Religious Work, Teacher, Medical
  Doctor/Dentist, Alternative Health Care Practitioner,
  Counselor/Psychologist/Social Worker, Musician/Artist, Librarian,
  Photographer, Early Childhood Development.

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My Status?!

     Hmm... its seems that i have not update my blog for days?! My life was not very happening for the last few days i think... As usual, my schedule of going bowling training is still on. Saturday's NDP 2003 was actually not bad at all. With the colours combination and the effects, no one will feel dull at this year's celebration. Parade, as usual was good even though there are some minor mistakes. The word "NDP 2003" really surprised me!!! Very well done, Singapore. I'm proud of u!!

     Can't seems to sleep well these days. Don't ask me why or am i facing problem because i, myself, can't find the answer too... Just feeling tired, yet can't sleep. Maybe i'm used to sleep late, now can't sleep early. Whenever i try to sleep early, my brain will flash alot of things and i will end up sleep around 12am plus. Tossing on my bed from 10.30pm or 11pm, can u imagine? Things that i always wanted to do, issues that always concern me or i'm concern on, etc. Hmm... maybe i should read something before sleep. Its a good habits isn't it?

     My health is recovering but my face is getting a little bad!!! But i hope it will be back to norm *smile*. Pretty busy this few days. Not knowing what *giggles* Pretty happy that my wisdom tooth has grown and no operations are required. i just feel a little not used to the extra skin dangling while developing the tooth. Suddenly feel that i am poor, in terms of money. *laugh* Those people who owe me money better return hor!! *laugh*

     i'm actually pretty glad to know that people read my blog and ask me why didn't i updating it. *laugh* i guess i'm fortunate to have people who do cares about me, aren't i? Will be working on my FAQ for my Homepage... so watch out! as many, many stuff will be revealed *laugh* If you want to ask me anything personal... email me... i'll try to answer your querry!!!

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Number 1

If u were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number One ... You are Smart, straight talking, Funny, stubborn, hardworking, Honest, jealous on competing basis, Kind hearted, Angry, friendly, authoritative, Famous Person. Always want to be and regarded as First on poll position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self-confident people!

You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future, if you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction n respect at you, you can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament so because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But make sure in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down this is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children. You are Pioneer, Independent & Original. Your best match is 4,6,8,9. Good match is 3,5,7.

A: You easily feel stressful!!!

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Only with a little bit of additional work plus controlling of your temper, you would then lose energy.

Not only you would accumulate your stress, you are weak to release it. For this type, exercise and Karaoke will be the best way.

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Monkey

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You are attractive and hyper. You have a lot of friends and your really outgoing. You gossip alot. Your funky and "unique" theres no one else like you. You want attention and like to be a leader.

Confused

     Pretty busy indeed. With Industrial Attachment ending soon, our projects' deadline is getting nearer. i just finished rushing one database even though nothing is concrete yet as they have not try it out. So i might not have enough time to do the debugging. This is also why its been a long time since i last update my sites and blog. i do feel happy on going back, but a little sad to have to leave the people here and the pay, of course. They treat me nice, this only make me feel bad.

     Recently, i don't seem to be able to sleep early... like 10.30pm ++. i not sure what the cause of it, but i just keep tossing on my bed. Even if i'm tired, it took minutes to hour to sleep. Understand? That's terrible. It makes me more tired and stressed.

     Not really sure myself, even if i'm getting back to my usual self, i still have troubles and woes (as usual). Doubts about my life still exist even if i don't wish to admit. i know that i still can't let go some things which have always present in my head. But i will try my best to walk out of the past and move on in life *smile*

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    Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

You're Rini and Helios. You are the ideal couple.
You don't lie to yourself, and you're very
realistic with your love. You're not one to
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all relationships are this good.

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Ups & Downs

     I guess i have somehow injured my arms 'a little'. 'A little' because the injury is not serious, just feeling some strain. But i guess i have some good news though, currently i am now getting more used-to the ball after re-plug. Although i have some complaints, bear with me *smile*... But as usual, i will just keep my mouth shut and try to solve it by myself. Its getting on me to be a rather quiet and not voicing my views.

    Jenson celebrated his 21st birthday over the weekends in DownTown East and we (NYPians) went down on Saturday. Even though its not really fun since its pretty crowded. But i guess its a nice time to catch up with each other. Glad to know that they are currently doing fine. Oh ya, we also went for bowling. Very FUN! We play with a little competitive as we represent different CCA and came out with the 'CCA Bowling Challange'. I even said that we are the TOP 5 (finalists) *smile*. But as usual, i don't fair well. But friendships first. It bonds us a little more closer.

     . Aris (F.B.), Koon Ek (ex-Sakura), Rajesh (Debates), Phyo (ex-Geo) and I (NYPBC) played one game each. Its a three-horse race at first, but became a two-horse race near the end with Raj and Phyo claiming 1st and 2nd.

     That night, Glen and i stayed till wee hours. We awaits for Jannah who will be coming after work. In the end, due to the time, we decided to change the venue to Yishun. Nearer to Glen's and Jannah's house. This will save the travelling time and need not pay extra. Its also because Jenson, the birthday boy, was already sleeping.

     i'm quite upset about the fact that Braddell-Westlake will once again merge, this time round with GuangYang Sec. We only can blamed M.O.E. for bringing in Miss Monica Quek (ex-Serangoon Sec.'s Principal). Its selfish if we don't let Mrs Song go, but at least they should bring someone that can match Mrs Song capabilities. Somemore, Mrs Song are only with us for less than 3 years. The changes she brought into Braddell make us once again proud to be Braddellites but the honor and glory were short. Choir started and supported by her also. But we can't do anything but to see BWSS goes under GYSS.

Four
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    You tend to be loyal, dedicated and good-hearted. You're one of the most diligent students when you really try, and you tend to make your schoolwork a priority. You also express those same qualities in your love relationship. No one is more faithful and rusting than you. In fact,those tendencies can be a little negative in your romantic life. You may sometimes hang on too long to a guy/gal who doesn't give you the respect and love you deserve. You can be stubborn and a bit of a troublemaker if the mood strikes you but you can usually dig yourself out of that hole just in time to stay out of major trouble. You usually fall for extremes when choosing a love mate - he/she may be a show-off or a teacher's pet. Whatever the type, it helps if he/she is good-looking, too, but that's not a major consideration for you.

Understanding Sagittarius

Symbol: The Archer
Ruling Planet: Jupiter
Element: Fire
Cross/Quality: Mutable
Group: Theoretical
House Ruled: Ninth
Polarity: Positive
Opposite Sign: Gemini
Favorable Colors: Purple & Blue
Lucky Gem: Turquoise
Key Body Part: Hips & Thighs
Period: Nov.22 - Dec.21

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Basic Profile:Independent, honest, optimistic, friendly, driven, freewheeling, free spirit, good-humored, casual, forthright, philosophical, restless, un-inhibited, , adventurous, intuitive, but can be self-righteous, rebellious, irresponsible, careless, inaccurate, superficial, impulsive, outspoken, candid,

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Famous Sagittarians:
Frank Sinatra, Steven Spielberg, Tina Turner, Joe DiMaggio, Beethoven, Noel Coward, Walt Disney, Mark Twain, Winston Churchill, Woody Allen, Brad Pitt, Jane Austen, Emily Dickinson, Frank Zappa, Jimi Hendrix, Jim Morrison

Same Old Brand New Me

     Going into a brand new month... What will be my new wishes? Hmm... of course, passing my attachment!! *smile* 2 projects on hand, one i'm still doing it, while the other depends on the IT people in my company. Darren and i do not have access to the net server. There isn't any direct control.  

     *taking a deep breath* This month is going to be refreshing and i can sense good things coming up *smile*. Having a new haircut and wearing back my kilowatt smile, i hope that i'm regaining my soul. This new image receive pretty good feedback comparing to the 'old' look that make me look 'old', some said. i guess, that image doesn't suit my age? Right, Eunice? *smile*

     August, a month which i will be re-entering NYP. With my friends there, i will never feel lonely even though we might get tied up by projects and studies for some of them, making the time to gather around being brought to minimal. Its still okay for me *smile*. At least i know they are there.

     As usual i hope to lose weight... (a little irritating when i keep saying but did not work out, isn't it?) hmm.... continuing my web till its consider done? And one more thing. My broadband access will be activated tonight at ard evening. So.... YEAH!!!!!!!

""A man should not strive to eliminate his complexes but to get into accord with them: they are legitimately what directs his conduct in the world.""

- Sigmund Freud

     i hope that i can get use to what i am and walk out of the current life. Obtain a brand new life!!But still, even with my image a little different, my character will remain as the old 'ME'.*smile* Still philosophical as before...