settling down

      Rearranging all the photos and looking back at them just simply dug out my fond memories... sometimes... i hate to admit but i do miss those period of time during NDP preparation... even if there are misunderstandings... there are quarrels... some memories are just nice...

      its been hard for me... but i felt that no point of dragging a pointless friendship... those who know me... know that i would rather make one less friend than lose one good friend... Do i have a choice? i had been thinking of it for many weeks or months... There are people who tried to let us reconcile.. there are some who asked me to be me and let go if there is a need to... but why am i holding on to it for so long?

      i had been giving both of us chances to see if there is any salvage to the friendship... not long but meaningful to me... but i don't see the effort from the other party... Others may believe that he tried... or he never 'avoid' me... but if that's the case... so be it... i had thought it through... even if in the end... i may be hated by a few people... No one can be liked by everyone... so why am i always trying so hard to please everyone... and i do mean everyone...

      I wouldn't force myself to be at a place where i don't belong... Definitely i'll go to a place where people accepted me as who i am... at least i don't feel that bad with them... Special thanks to Jin, Mun, Kelv... maybe KR & Fabian to be there chatting with me and make me occupied... so as not to think so much... Special thanks to Dingze & Jiu Hsiang too... for trying their best to make us reconcile...

      Had a chat with a buddy of mine... someone whom i look up to... He may not feel that i am his buddy but in my heart... i treat him as one... He is facing emotional struggle... something no one will expect from someone like him... but i really hope that you can pull yourself up... and be strong... be the confident soul again... feel free to talk to me... i am willing to provide a listening ear... c",)