safe 'n' sound

      Seeing this post means all but one thing... i'm BACK... in one piece definitely... emotions filled my heart when i step back the shore... Everything seems to be unexplainable... i felt so good to be back in Singapore yet... i will miss those times in Taiwan...

      i gained experience driving and siting as a passenger in ROC... deploying outfield was special... those times i'll never forget too... it is those cold weather... i felt the warmth in bonds...

      Spend my rest of the ROC days with another group of friends... and had a total new experience... a more commercial kind... try lots of local food... saw the famous 'Bin Lang Xi Si'... Apart from hiccups from the Army side... the overall experience is still memorable...

      At times, i do feel disappointment emotionally but yet i learnt alot... and gained alot... hence i'm not complaining... but it's really good to be back... too...

zuo you wei nan

      i struggle and struggle... i ask myself again and again... it is not an easy decision to make... but for the sake of you... for the sake of me... i made this stupid decision... Zui Hou De Teng Ai, Shi Shou Fang Kai... Bu Zai Rang Ni Zuo You Wei Nan Le...

      i am not having a great time last week... i get fustrated easily... i get moody easily... i simply cant control my mood anymore... my gastric & stomach is weaker now with the fact that i felt like puking last week again... and i did, in fact... but who cares... i suspect myself suffering from depression... Thanks TeeRong & the specs for caring and letting me sleep in their bunk when my bunk is loud...

      i was hoping to settle my problem before going ROC... but somehow... my hopes were dashed... on TUE night, i would be leaving... and i may not be back... it all depends on what the someone above wants... i no longer yearn for safety nor scared of danger in ROC... i will not explain why i feel so, but it no longer hold any importance in my heart...

      Congrats to HangMing for getting into NUS, he deserves the place... For me? still yet to receive any notification from NTU... Don't think i will know if i get in unless i made it back to Singapore in late April... Till then, Take care my friends...

      Dedicated to Dz: Zuo You Wei Nan