zuo you wei nan

      i struggle and struggle... i ask myself again and again... it is not an easy decision to make... but for the sake of you... for the sake of me... i made this stupid decision... Zui Hou De Teng Ai, Shi Shou Fang Kai... Bu Zai Rang Ni Zuo You Wei Nan Le...

      i am not having a great time last week... i get fustrated easily... i get moody easily... i simply cant control my mood anymore... my gastric & stomach is weaker now with the fact that i felt like puking last week again... and i did, in fact... but who cares... i suspect myself suffering from depression... Thanks TeeRong & the specs for caring and letting me sleep in their bunk when my bunk is loud...

      i was hoping to settle my problem before going ROC... but somehow... my hopes were dashed... on TUE night, i would be leaving... and i may not be back... it all depends on what the someone above wants... i no longer yearn for safety nor scared of danger in ROC... i will not explain why i feel so, but it no longer hold any importance in my heart...

      Congrats to HangMing for getting into NUS, he deserves the place... For me? still yet to receive any notification from NTU... Don't think i will know if i get in unless i made it back to Singapore in late April... Till then, Take care my friends...

      Dedicated to Dz: Zuo You Wei Nan