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shift, idol...

      Just as you guys are still sleeping by now, i am all set to leave my home for work... It is the second day of my work after starting shift. I could feel that i beginning to lose my normal living style... since its deems to be more difficult for us to accomodate each other than last time...

      But everything still went quite well for the first day, as i said its not all that well but overall, its still a nice day at work... at night, the Finals of the AFPD Idols was held... i only watched the performances and not the results hence not sure who is going to win... but i guess its going to be a battle between the Malay, Noor or Jap, Nakazawa.... both possess a great voice... but too bad... AFPD is no Mediacorp... the system is kinda bad... and of course they sing too close to the mike... and judging criteria is not that transparent for me to gauge the champions...

      i voted for the malay since his voice was almost identical with the original singer... he sang a malay song full of emotions... this also make me feel that... chinese talent in singapore seems to be quite little... maybe at Proj. Superstar, i hope to see some hope being regained.... haha... Singapore Idol? i am going to root for Hady... he is far better & polished than Jonathan... but of course, Jon is much better than Slyvester Sim.... haha...

      Now that all my shift begins.. i could only hope to enjoy all the outing i had whenever i could... Money Vs Lifestyle... a tough decision... but seems the question is always around...

scars of life

      i am emotional kind of person... and when i am all alone... doing nothing... i will start to have my mind reflecting about my life... what i had done... and this time round... i start to think about the scars i get all these 21+ years...

      it all begins when i had cuts and bleeds in my company... some are deeper... some are minor... no worries... its normal as i never wear gloves handling glass panels... but after that i went to take a pair of gloves....

      i noticed that on my right hand... i had a small scar from primary school... we are playful and i get hurt by a friend... no, i don't blame him... but this scar made me remember his name till today... we are good friends then... Lionel... haha... Then came secondary school... the emotional scar... some things happened... and till today... i am still living with it... not totally affected but cant deny that it made my life dented...

      Army is the place where i earn my happiest moment and also my saddest moment... i had a number of scars... haha... emotional... physical... and also first time ever... i create scar on people i valued most... all my friends.... physically... i had one for mr Sito... i had a deep cut on my left leg when i fell into the small drainage... some upgrading in process and i fell into the 'trap'... and many small cuts while operating & work as RID 2IC... i am a golden spiker... remember? haha... Just as i about to leave army NSF life for good... i scalded myself... and that had become a scar in my left hand... a very obvious scar... it make me remember of the love i received from all my node mates when the incidents happened....

      thanks guys... its you guys that i missed most in army... the people i worked with in army... but of course not all lar.. haha... i try to forget those who bully me & treat me bad... hehe...

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

welcome, ahmad & xy

      first and foremost... a special welcome to Terence & Xinyi... Terence should be first time here... someone who made me feel understood finally in ROC... and Xinyi, after a year or so absence from my blog.. haha... Terence feel free to post message here ok... if not will be quite bored... as Jin always busy also.. haha... then Dingze and my other friends also never post message de...

      Today, i can't really finish my job again... but my superior ask one of the team leader to tell me continue to work on MON... so i left at 7.30pm... actually can go off earlier.. just that i never get to see the TL and they thought i left... so i am kind of glad...

      Again, leaving the company alone can be kind of lonely... and makes me wonder if i can really survive there... but when i working... time fly real fast... and time seems not enough... today i delayed and shortened my lunch without informing my supervisor... as i am handling one important case... first time felt like im of some use... though managed to keep the TL & supervisors informed... the reports make me delay my other work... but at least i finish one out of two right... hehe...

      Working there did affect my plans for further study... whether i want to work or go for studies... the people there quite nice... and the job at the moment still kind of interesting to me... but will have to see how things go.... tomorrow will head down to SIM with renjie & yaoqiang... take a look at what they offers... before have a clearer picture? though NTU is still my first choice... haha.. if i ever get in ba...

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 60%

Pride: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Greed: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 26%

You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic.

How Sinful Are You?

smile pasta

      finally finish one episode of smile pasta... the idol drama from Zhang Dong Liang & Cyndi Wang... It not a bad show... not bad at all... cute... comical... but with some emotional parts... their acting had surpass my expectation... haha... it brightens my tough day a little...

      i am having a tough day today... not that smooth at work... can you imagine how i would feel if i do a report using 4hrs? i felt so so tired and felt that i am so slow a learner... but its my first time doing this kind of project leh... Maybe i giving myself too much pressure... Felt so alone when i sit at the bus stop... haha... just maybe too tired.. the emptiness set in... no worries... i am ok now... thx ming ming... we will work hard together...

      hmm... guess its time for work again... jiayou jiayou jiayou....

drivin' out

      After having a test drive yesterday morning in the carpark beside my home... i get to drive out for the first time since i pass my driving test. Guess who is my first passengers? haha... Its my best friends, Zhang & Dingze...

      We went for supper after an outing... and decide to ask my family if the car was available.. and thankfully, it is... and there you go... my first driving... and i am so happy that it turn out to be Dingze & Zhang... Dingze is both my first V-Comm in army & now in civi... felt secure with him around... he knows Singapore road well... unlike me... haha... that compliments my shortings... haha... things went quite smoothly... we ate our supper... everyone home safely... i park my car beautifully but i spoilt my bro's ornament in his car... haha... but he did not give me a thrashing... so was really glad over it...

      its really great outing with Jack, Dz & Zhang... have ktv, LAN and then supper.... though i had a cough, sore throat & tight pocket... its all worth it... how many chances you can get to enjoy... and that's what i need most at this moment... Thanks guys... you made my day...

stressed out

      Since i passed my written test last friday... i had been moving on to hands-on in my job... doing some simple analysis... and had been trying to learn how to do it... plus report... but now, everything back to square one... as i can't explain the little details of the process of the manufacturing of the product in my company... hence i had to learn all over again... the details and will have a small test on MON before the upcoming BIG test to confirm my post in the company...

      have been rather stress out over my work... Everyone thought i'm earning big bucks... but unfortunately... there is more to the fact... i'm not drawing big salary yet... and had been spending alot on food (SAF is free) and transport (SAF stay-in)... so me going bankrupt soon... haha... Hence i really need to chill out...

      Going out later to relax abit with a group of my best friends... Zhang, Jack & Dingze... Time for fun... yeah~!