hating myself

      Have you ever feel tired after working... and feel why are you working so hard for? Have you ever look forward for games after working so hard to end up knowing that you aren't going to play? Disappointment is there, even one know that no one is at fault. Wanting to play games, is it my fault?

      I wasn't myself for days. Stress from work... First time ever, i really feel brainless for life... An argument with my mum over small stuff... I'm tired... tired of my life... a life of no life... i doesn't seems to have things my way... Before anyone reading my post going to scold i'm childish, or i am willful. Make this clear. I AM JUST TIRED~! It may not be one of you guys who cause my unhappiness but it just trigger my unhappiness... That's all. Moreover, everyone have the right to be angry.

      I'm tired... real tired... i don't care if people think that i am not grown up, whatsoever... i want a life... so many things in mind... sleepless nights for so f**king long... Now... i feel that no one to turn to... i'm back alone... striving hard for this stoopid 'life'... No longer working for interest... its the money that get me going....

      Alright, go on... think whatever you guys want... i don't f**king care anymore... i'm tired... i am really tired... wanting out...