Back to Reality

      Wasn't feeling that well... emotionally for the past few days. Since HongKong trip, i couldn't help but feel sad despite the fact that i don't look sad in front of most people. Guess of all, only Dingze & Nat or maybe Xinyi know the reason why i am rather sad during or after the trip. Never did i go into details though. Its hard to say... Don't ask, i don't know how to put it in words.

      First day of work, i received lots of complai... erm i mean comments about my team members during my leave. None of the relief-leaders wanted to work with my members again. Now then they know how i feel. *laugh* Sometimes, i do respect myself for being able to survive despite being sandwiched. But still, i can't help to despise myself for the lack of leadership & unable to train my members to be capable FA. I even received call before one of the leader reach the work place early that day and edit their reports.

      Really getting annoyed and felt like quiting after hearing news that alot of them are leaving. Some planning to go ahead of me. Its rather sad to think about my own future. Where should i be heading to? Which course or industry should i choose? What i like may not be what i could get. Not everyone is like Jianqiang or Dingze who pursue what they wanted.

      Despite feeling all down and low, i am glad that i am still useful for my fellow friends. Apart from work, i am still the old listener or people who can give-advice-without-experiencing-it-myself listener. Ironic? haha... Spend my KTV session singing abit but watch a number of mtvs. haha...

      On a lighter note, I watched Alvin & the Chipmunks yesterday. Storyline was predictable yet the chipmunks are real cool & cute... Their voice also great in the movie. Songs are nice. I love scenes in the movie like Theodore having bad dreams and the trio singing at the window pane. Enjoyed the movie TILL that idiot Wani called from workplace.