What's going on with the world today? At an age of 24, i should be attending weddings, graduations, celebrations etc. But yet, i heard news about death... China world-shakening earthquakes... Myanmar tragic typhoon... and now... the news about the departure of my friend, Hazel Xu. Its pretty saddening. Having my third friend leaving us within 2 years or less. But i long learned to move on... live on...
To be honest, i do not have the rights to be that upset. Maybe a little bit about me & her. Both of us are primary school friends. To be exact, we are classmates for only 2 years. That's after primary 4 streaming exam, where i was in one of the worst EM2 classes. I do not have any problems with any of my classmates then... so of course, we soon became good friends.... you know? those friends whom they always tease each other? I remember being called by her 'Ta Tou Tic Toc'. Its a name from a character in mediacorp serials then... This was the most clear impression of her in my mind. I tends to forget people when too long never meet up as people do change. As for her, i still can remember this. It shows that we do have some good times together... But that was then...
After moving on from primary school, we all got separated into different schools. We do not have technology like Handphone then... that we could update each other via sms... we need to call up each other etc. Hence, slowly we lost contacts... i never met any primary school friends since my secondary school days... even if i do saw one or two, i will not have the courage to call them. I was pretty 'zhi bei' then... largely due to my failures in getting good results in PSLE or secondary or even due to my size... haha... might be due to the reason of not meeting up, i did not feel as devastated as i heard about the late Jeremy or even the late MingHui. But who can really take it when you know someone you know passed away, needless to say someone you used to be close with.
After moving on from primary school, we all got separated into different schools. We do not have technology like Handphone then... that we could update each other via sms... we need to call up each other etc. Hence, slowly we lost contacts... i never met any primary school friends since my secondary school days... even if i do saw one or two, i will not have the courage to call them. I was pretty 'zhi bei' then... largely due to my failures in getting good results in PSLE or secondary or even due to my size... haha... might be due to the reason of not meeting up, i did not feel as devastated as i heard about the late Jeremy or even the late MingHui. But who can really take it when you know someone you know passed away, needless to say someone you used to be close with.
Life is always so unpredictable. Why be affected by things you couldn't change? Don't get that affected. Live your own life. Be sad only for your own failures, but only be sad for awhile. Time wait for no one... The world will not stop rotating for you... even for one split second. We need to get up and move on... Live life to the fullest. Who know when i will be gone from this world? Make an impact on the people around you. Positive impact. Help others, be their listeners, do whatever you can within your abilities. Only then, when we leave this world, we can be proud and say, there is some great achievements in my living life. not merely some qualifications or awards...
As for Hazel, i will remember those times we had together. Though its a pity that we did not meet up for years... but still the memories are fresh in my mind. The three days you spent in hospital may be the toughest times you had in this world, but i hope at the minute your heart beats stop... you leave with a peace of mind... no regrets in this world... if fate permits... hope that next life, we can be friends still... Thanks for the memories...
Rest in peace, Hazel...