longest post ever

      Its been days since my last post and I broke my promise of having a daily updates during my reservice. Something had happened when I crossed the half-way mark during my ICT. On Sunday, March 22 5.50pm, my aunt passed away peacefully. My schedule became messy after that. It reminds me that whatever job we have, we should try and finish it as early as possible so that we leave ourselves some time allowance for unexpected things to happen.

Army ICT

      Nothing special happened in ICT. The bad apples continues to rot, while the good ones continue to sleeps. *laugh* Oh, I passed my IPPT (with a little help) in one go and get $100~! For the past few years, I only passed the IPPT with a few tries. I usually passed the Chin-Up on a different attempt. I was pretty pleased with my 2.4km timing. I was unfamiliar with the route, just like the rest, yet I ran 11 flat timing. I came in third but I think I did inspire a few to better their timing (I hope). 2 of my friends were aiming to get a silver timing, hence I tried to let them chase me. Paul ran passed me on the last stretch. *laugh* I remember me shouting on the last 100m to him. He ran faster as he thought I was very near him. *laugh* That, to me, was an achievement. It makes me remember my last IPPT in BMTC. I helped my friend to pass his 2.4km to pass the IPPT. I gave up bettering my timing. But was happy enough~!!! *proud of myself*

Studies – Projects & Tests

      I was informed that there will be a test for Engg Econs on the last day of my ICT. Hence, I was a little afraid that I couldn’t study. Initial plan was to study during that week after ICT since the test falls on a Friday, I have a Sunday to study as well. But due to my aunt’s death, I went to her wake (though not of much help) as a form of respect and accompany my other relatives and cousins who were there. In the end I couldn’t concentrate much and did not study till the exact day of test. Thankfully, my friends and army in-charges were all supportive (bad apples aren’t my friends), or else I may not make it. Due to the lack of time, I decided to study smart after knowing my lecturer’s style. It worked; I can answer most of the questions. But I have to thank my aunt for watching over me. The results were out two days ago. When lecturer went through the answers, I seems to made a lot of mistakes like writing down the wrong numbers. I do not deserve the score I get (I was above average). I get to score thanks to the leniency of my lecturer’s marking. He gave points to workings & understandings, instead of final answer. Thanks Aunt, for watching over me.

      Deadlines for projects and homework were getting nearer, but I am still lost here and there. But things are getting clearer. We managed to submit our homework on time, though I expected a much better product. Never mind, I guess I shouldn’t expect much from this group of people. I was severely insecure and agitated over the past few days. But thanks to Ermei, Qiang for listening to my non-stop complaining to get me back at work… Xinyi also did hear a little bit, but that was after I was calmer. Things are now back on track, so not to worry. Thanks Ermei for running here and there to get the information I need. I appreciate it~!

Taoist Youth Society – Mini Exhibition

      I felt a change in me, or I should say, I felt a change in me is needed. After my aunt pass away, i get less agitated easily and more willing to help people around me. I went to help Ermei in a neighborhood mini exhibition last Sunday. Though I am a free thinker, I was more inclined towards Taoism or Buddhism due to my family’s influence. Maybe this is the reason I can relate more towards the event and accept the invitation to help out.

Other changes in me

      I recently change my diet a little. I tried to drink at least 1 litre of water a day (plain or green tea) and I did it successfully for 3 consecutive days. I cut down on meat intake as well. Apart from wanting to get a healthier diet, it is a form of giving respect to my aunt. I will eat vegetarian whenever I can. Hope I can last long. Not sure if its due to the food, my temper became much better. *laugh*

      I noticed that I became slightly more open, more vocal at home. Many may not know this; I was a very different person at home or outside. Something my parents should have noticed long ago. When I was younger, I always quarrel with my brother but was usually asked to give in, due to his character, by my family. This resulted in me getting quieter and finding it no point in saying out my views and will definitely avoid conflicts if I just keep quiet. I actually did it outside too, but with friends, I am more comfortable to be more vocal. I felt that we are all equal.

Family and Friends

      Our family seems more close-knitted. I do not usually go out with my cousins. But recently, we went to pay respect together, went play basketball, Wii,bring my cousin to polyclinic with my other cousins… yesterday, I had a mini family vegetarian dinner with my 9 relatives. Its great and we went AMK to have a walk after that. I treat them desserts, local delights. I was supposed to treat them Andersen’s but plan postponed *phew* because the adults are more inclined to cheap and good food, prefer local delights. My cousins warned me that they will still demand a treat ‘soon’, *sigh* Looks like I couldn’t run away. *looking at my wallet* I was enjoying my time with my relatives. Throughout the journey, the battle was on. *laugh* The battle of ‘DJ Max’ on PSP interface. All right, I was couldn’t win my cousin, who has been playing this for a long time. But I was better than my sister and other cousin, okay?! *laugh*

      Due to my tighter schedule, I did not find friends to go out. But I did go to two functions which was planned before my aunt’s incident. Qiang’s birthday celebration and EC0118’s reunion dinner. I enjoyed the time with friends but I noticed one thing, I do not have the urge of going out with friends as much as before. May be due to my tired-ness, hope that I will not become hans solo as this is not who I should be.