I had been having a mixed feeling throughout the whole day. Yesterday, something happened and trigger my tiredness... Recently had been rather worn out over the events, assigments, school etc... Hence, get rather emotional easily...
I gained a good friend 2 years ago, but lost a xiao di last year... both around this day. I had been asking myself if i should sms him. It was his birthday today. But... why should i take the first step since he is the one that did not wish to contact us... Why must we always be the one to give in...
Despite all the struggle... i smsed him at 09:09:09pm a birthday greetings... to meet the special moment. But the reply i get was lukewarm. At least he bothers to reply, i guess? I shall not say i am disappointed... but guess still nursing the pain of losing a friend... but definitely not that hurting... Just tired... and a little emo.
I wonder why he put the photo of me and him during our 'August fun Time'. Guess he did once said that he like the photos alot... So maybe i think too much, nothing significant over that decision... Anyway, i am too tired to think of anything else... But like what Nat say, i do feel better after deciding to sms him. Thanks thinyu for the listening ear too.. =D