"Not something to be proud of, then why do you keep saying it", you might say. To me, it is something rather hurting. It is quite shocking. Not to my friends, but to me as well. I had to admit i am not as hardworking as i am this semester. Not when i am like a lost sheep in the large grassland.
"最无奈的是，我不能怨任何人。这是自己造成的。"
"伤心。无助。彷徨。疲倦。泪湿眼眶。"
"我好累！我好想哭！但可笑的是我眼泪是干的了。"
These are just some of my feelings i posted on twitter when the shocking results sinking in. But no, i did not really shed a tear. I wanted to but... my eyes are too dry. I wanted to vent out my anger, wanted to blame the whole world! BUT, this time round, i am unable to do it. I had no one to blame on, but myself. I really become lost of emotions soon after. No longer sad, no longer helpless, no longer feeling anything. Totally blank!
Left 11 days for my FYP and nothing is done yet. I need someone to slap me, someone to bash me up, someone to make me feel pain before i can stand up once again. i need.... it...