tick tock tick...

     Time is ticking away... 5mins... 10 mins... 15mins... slightly bored of waiting ... i decided to message them... In the end, they were at the other place... having their lunch le... A little miscommunication had cause all these... and i do have the feeling of returning home to cool off... Can you imagine i almost fall asleep in the MRT station while waiting? In the end, i took the pencil and started to draw on my Checklist...

     I suddenly realise that its been a long time since i last draw something... suddenly realise... i am not living the life i wanted to live in... but i have to no choice as i had adapt... now i feel like living at others' expenses instead of mine... as in... affected in everyway that other people are living in... i somehow feel not original... but still... drawing and singing are my favorite pastime...

     Anyway... i continue to meet them and i tried to lighten my own mood... i guess not totally succeed... but at least i did a little bit... and as i once said... i no longer expect as much as before... i think i am just disappointed now instead of angry... Get most of the army things ready... left with about 5 items to get... and left with packing it into the bag... maybe i tomorrow try whether the bag was big enough...

     Realising this year... i am at my weakest position ever... Yes, when project are due... i have to be strong and strive for the best results... or else other people will suffer because of me... i need to be strong.. so as to motivates others... but who knows all the stories behind all these so-called success? so what if i get As & B for the two projects-based modules?...

     Riez, done up his own website too... which means... i have a place more to surf and lesser time to brood over things... just hope one day i can really find 'the one'... may not be a girl... but someone, maybe a friend, who can truly understand me... and not hurt me...