bad times

      Handphone seems to hate me too... haha... lost it on the bus that went back to camp today... a private company hence unable to track him down today... hopefully tml 2LT Noel keep his promise and call down... at least making an attempt to find it ba... i don't expect much from this... its like fated... yesterday if not due to JH, TH, DZ & Terence... i could have lost my phone too... haiz... Just hope that the driver or whoever found my phone will be as kindhearted as yesterday cleaner... No money to get another phone leh... must find non-camera phone stll...

      Positively, i learnt about what a military-style funeral looks like... not really funeral but the process of crematoring (got this word?)... There is military band... and LOTS of high ranking officers... Negatively, its wasting our weekends to attend this.. for someone we do not know at all... and i also lost my phone because of going this... haiz... but its really an eye-opener... i chose to look more positively... oh ya.. CSM chao geng and did not attend the ceremony...

      it seems like i am the one that lazy or never attempt to improve things regarding TH incident... i am the one stopping at where i am and not moving on... but i am really tired... especially making myself not as bouncy as before... haha... haiz... i guess i need some time ba... too many things happening... hahaa... going running soon le... even my legs still not recovered... Oops...

2wk's update

      Our friendship is not as good as before... but i still okay with it... why? its probably due to the fact that i was too tired to accomodate another person needs... i dun wish to change just to cater to one person's request... as in LOTS of request from that ONE person and moreover he is just a friend... Not my GF leh... haha...

      Army just getting more and more irritating... Lack of leaderships... No-brainer... Commanding people without much reasoning... All of the sudden, i'm just glad to be man... I now looked down on Specs (not all though, but mostly) & Sirs (same case)... CSM, OC are all idiots to me... making my blood boils... yet we had to work for them... i mean be a slave for them... haha...

      Had been busy with NDP 2005... alot of unhappiness surrounding it... but what to do... NDP itself is fun but with those people in-charge, the feeling had been robbed... hmm... but still the FINALE's feeling was good even i don't really feel the smooth transition... maybe not fully yet... and our performance had been changing and changing... hopefully it is finalised le...

      As for myself, i am feeling good (apart from facing the draggy matter)... Ankle was again injured to to the uncomfortable-ness of the costume in NDP... the shoe was hard and we need to run with that... hmm...

      Went Jocelyn bday last night at M-Zone 97... a loud place that hurt our ears due to the live band... wasnt that good actually... with 2 bands... one even consist of 2 gays & 1 auntie!!! Her bf was a friendly guys... making the outing not a bad one... the music selected was young but the crowd are... erm... you know lar... haha... anyway... later going to 2WO's, who died while running in Jurong camp, funeral... what a hussle... update while i get back? ciaoz...

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

Who's the True You?

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Exceptional Your Verbal Intelligence is Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

accusation

      Attract attention? Childish? Wilful? These are some accusation i get... not from anyone else but from one that i considered as a close friend... Never will expect such hurting remarks from someone i trust so much...

      Everyone have their low-period in time... and so do i... but i was accused to attract people's attention for the recent happenings... When i was down, he was by my side... pulling me out of the situation... and i am glad he was there... and i, myself, struggled out... emotionally, mentally... but after some heated conversation somehow... things changed...

      Is this how people view me as? trying attract attention? trying to get care from others? while behaving naturally, i was being viewed as acting cute... acting childish just to get other's attention... get others' care? at least i know TH thinks so...

      Shouldn't i be the one that is angry rather than the one who accused me to be angry? If everyone thinks i trying to tao my bunk's huan xin... then fine... i'll stop all the 'acting' and try to be more 'natural', more 'serious'... whatever...

when will happiness come?

      Why can't things just be turning out fine and let me just enjoy my day? for just 24 hours...? Why is it hard to maintain friendship? Why isn't there trust & understanding?

      A proposed Sentosa outing, after last night incident, was expected to lighten our mood... let us enjoy the moment... but everything changed... Due to miscommunication and anger... misunderstanding occurs and i almost lose a friend and for her, 3 friends.... but thank goodness its solved...

      i did, after that, enjoy a little moment of enjoyment as i finally lifted the 'rock' resting on my heart... but the enjoyment doesn't last for long... As the clock continues to tick, another incident happens... i should consider it as re-occuring... I had an arguement with TH... This time round... both volcanos exploded... He left without a word... and me? even i do care where he is... i am too tired to give in again...

      i am still trying to recover and be my usual self... but for him, he kept asking me why am i sad... or even like today... i finally smile from my heart... he asked me... "Today you didn't bring your sorrows out ah?" This is not the only comments... Just recently he kept speaking in sacarism... And i had been enduring for a long time... So i guess, its time for him to know what's been going on... If in the end, all turn against me and supported him... fine... i'll be the scapegoat of this incident... too exhausted to fight back...

what a mess

      The node outing thingy was making us fed up... tired etc... Basically making a mess out of us... 7 of us ended up not going... TH, DZ, Terence, Kek, JH, KH & me... Most of us agree to go... and even when given a choice not to go... DZ, Terence, KH still want to go while JH & me are deciding...

      JH & me was pondering about the fact that the atmosphere had change and the node outing wasn't the one that we want it to be... not about the events... but the atmosphere... especially if you are at the Keat Hong camp... with JQ creating more problems or useless comments rather than solutions into the discussions...

      In the end... i keep receiving changes to plans and many people got fed up about the changes... especially everyone have a long day... i felt fed up too... So in the end, those drinkers carry on... (should be at Double O now) while the non-drinkers all resting at home... might go out tomorrow but not as a node... as private meet up ba... to explain the whole story will be tiring...

a day out

      i could say that it had been a long time since i last went out shopping or ktv-ing... especially since the PMS period... So kinda looking forward... Not too bad... DZ, JQ, TH, Edwin, WL did turn up for the singing session... We did a few new numbers... songs i would have never tab into before... So its kinda new experience for me to do those songs and i didnt excel in it though...

      TH, Jack(from another KTV room), JQ & i went on shopping... Terence again had something that make it unable to join us... what's new? Kek also wasn't able to make it... I am having "given up" or chim sim attitude le... haha... Its was not the first time and definitely not the last time... We ended eating and shopping all the way from Chinatown to Bugis... Saw a few tops that look nice... bought one under offer with TH... 2 for $25...

      i am still in love with the Man Studio's top... Did not buy it due to the comments from Jack & TH... They say its not my style and i look very studious in it... it is a style which i long wanted to try but don't have a chance nor dare... not till today... so i will reconsider my options... anyway... i got my rejection letter from NTU... FINALLY got it... will try again one last time next year...

naruto

      For weeks, i missed out all the naruto action... Till this morning, i managed to download the movie & 3 episode of naruto... one more underway... Manga was more interesting as the story surpass the animation... The movie was a little disappointing despite the nice colour and drawings of character... i thought it would be a hit... but unfortunately, a typical storyline which i actually saw the manga long ago... hmmm

      Later going karaoke with ns friends... its been weeks or months since i last get into the KTV... the fact that many people don't like to sing, had restricted me from going there... i would go to places my friends wanted to... and with NDP heating up... lesser time for KTV lor... haha... hope that i do enjoy today's session...

first rehearsal

      Bored... The waiting time of doing nothing was killing us... All we need to do is a mere 2-3 minutes appearance... Supposed to be pushing, or riding, some flower thingy into the performance areana and out of the place... but due to lack of props... we ended up running through it...

      As for Teck Hui, we did talk, at first awkwardly but soon not too bad at the end of the day... Feeling not too good during the training... After waking up during nap... i felt fustrated (who don't, after nap?) when Teck Hui & Jiu Hsiang quarrel over a small thing... a small exchange of words... Everyone just seems to get heat up easily... and to add fuel to the fire... i hurt my sprained leg by stepping onto a bottle while walking down the stairs...

      No matter what, i still treat TH & JH as my good friends, if not buddies... Hope they do treat me that way in return... Simple wishes from a simple guy c", )

argHh...

      This week was rather relax compared to last week... Reason? its likely to because of the ending of LRI... Anyway... things for me took a turn near the end of the week...

      Jiu Hsiang starts to talk to me but in return... now Teck Hui stops... still not knowing the reasons... but JH thinks it must be i said something wrong... he had never seen TH so angry before... TH says he will tell me the reason today... see whether i can get to know the reason... Maybe i should just keep my mouth shut... and keep to myself... this will result in lesser arguement and will not 'de zui ren' that easily...

      Later going Kranji camp to start my first ever NDP rehearsal... hmm... good luck...