accusation

      Attract attention? Childish? Wilful? These are some accusation i get... not from anyone else but from one that i considered as a close friend... Never will expect such hurting remarks from someone i trust so much...

      Everyone have their low-period in time... and so do i... but i was accused to attract people's attention for the recent happenings... When i was down, he was by my side... pulling me out of the situation... and i am glad he was there... and i, myself, struggled out... emotionally, mentally... but after some heated conversation somehow... things changed...

      Is this how people view me as? trying attract attention? trying to get care from others? while behaving naturally, i was being viewed as acting cute... acting childish just to get other's attention... get others' care? at least i know TH thinks so...

      Shouldn't i be the one that is angry rather than the one who accused me to be angry? If everyone thinks i trying to tao my bunk's huan xin... then fine... i'll stop all the 'acting' and try to be more 'natural', more 'serious'... whatever...