when will happiness come?

      Why can't things just be turning out fine and let me just enjoy my day? for just 24 hours...? Why is it hard to maintain friendship? Why isn't there trust & understanding?

      A proposed Sentosa outing, after last night incident, was expected to lighten our mood... let us enjoy the moment... but everything changed... Due to miscommunication and anger... misunderstanding occurs and i almost lose a friend and for her, 3 friends.... but thank goodness its solved...

      i did, after that, enjoy a little moment of enjoyment as i finally lifted the 'rock' resting on my heart... but the enjoyment doesn't last for long... As the clock continues to tick, another incident happens... i should consider it as re-occuring... I had an arguement with TH... This time round... both volcanos exploded... He left without a word... and me? even i do care where he is... i am too tired to give in again...

      i am still trying to recover and be my usual self... but for him, he kept asking me why am i sad... or even like today... i finally smile from my heart... he asked me... "Today you didn't bring your sorrows out ah?" This is not the only comments... Just recently he kept speaking in sacarism... And i had been enduring for a long time... So i guess, its time for him to know what's been going on... If in the end, all turn against me and supported him... fine... i'll be the scapegoat of this incident... too exhausted to fight back...