Saturday, December 31, 2005

2005 Report Card

      Alright... its time to summarise what had happens in 2005... i had always been saying... 2005 is the worst time ever in my whole life... the first time i ever suffer from depression... suffer from so many illness... injured for so many times... all i can say is... its a year i wish to forget ba... though of course there are times when i would love to remember... e.g. JB birthday celebration... i decided to mention only 3 notable incidents and 1 friend...
     : Most Touching Incident :

It happens during Justin's birthday... i was having some struggle within my heart and i showed some attitude to my friends around me... but yet... they stick through me... on the way to the chalet... i left my handphone on the cab... and when i notice it... the cab had drove off... Jiu Hsiang & Dingze immediately chased after the cab with me... though failed to stop the cab... i managed to get the hp back... i was devastated in losing the phone again... i lost once before this year... hence losing the 2nd would be a hit... yet... Jiu Hsiang & Dingze keep calling my phone hoping the passenger would pick it up... and indeed, she picked up and the cab returned to hand over the phone... Terence & Kok Hong was there too... this incident immediately made me guilty on the way i treated them... they may say its in the past... but its these incidents that make me realise how idiotic i am and how much i should treasure my friends... Thanks guys... Thanks Dz & Jx...

     : Most Disappointing/Hurting Incident :

Losing a buddy that i treasure so much... After losing TH early this year, Jx had been offering helps for us to reconcile... being there for me when i was feeling down... all these had moved my heart... Trying my best to be there for him... making sure everything works well for him and taking care of him whether he really needs anot... but i guess, to him i am over-zealous... maybe a nuisance to him in return... and now i had lost a buddy... lost a friendship... he never really tell me what had happen... hence i could do nothing to salvage this friendship... Its absolutely hurting to lost someone so dear to you... someone you look up to... a brother in your life... i am really hurt... hope things turn around in 2006

     : Friend Of The Year :

Dingze - Though there are many people i would like to thank for doing so much for me... being there to cheer me up when i am down... People like Jianqiang & Kang etc... or Ermei for doing so much for me in the month of December... i would like to thank Dingze for sticking with me through thick & thin... whenever i am down... he pulled me up and assist me to move on... despite my wilfulness & being a nuisance to him... clinging to him... i would never do enough to thank him... Awesome friend... buddy... brother... Simply love him... *muakz* haha...

     : Highlights Of 2005 :

There isn't any really good events for me to be named as highlight... Whatever Teck done for me in Dec & My Birthday gift deserves a nomination ba... but i guess National Day '05/Finale is more amazing ba... After putting so much effort... everything paid off when we successfully performed in front of the National TV/Padang Crowd... in front of Singaporeans... and when you are right under the fireworks during the finale was really amazing... the feelings... the atmosphere... its definitely great... but that makes other fireworks not so interesting le... haha...


      i guess that i didn't perform enough this year... being a friend... i am sucky... being a worker... i am just having so-so performance... failure to keep 2-3 friendships... causing hurts to people... haiz... but thankfully i salvage one, recovering another... but left one unsolved... so 1W 1D 1L, i guess? haha... average results? i gave myself a D grade for my performance this year ba...