2006 Report Card

      Just like in 2005, its time to recap on what 2006 had made me... 2006 did not have as much impact as 2005... More special even would be Taiwan Trip, maybe my Birthday... or suppposedly meaningful ORD Chalet & Genting trip... Just like last year... or maybe slightly better as in really slightly better than last year... as i have a job on hand with more cash flow... hurray~!

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     : Most Touching Incident :

#1 Not much touching incident happened this year to me... all are pretty mild... not one that can make me cry... maybe the more notable one will be a recent event... my 22nd birthday... had a quarrel with buddy & friends... but end up they still willing to celebrate my birthday with me... despite the weather (rainning whole day leh... sad) & tension in our friendship... JQ even bought me some small gift apart from the Lounge 12 shared gift... something i feel surprised and a little touch to receive... Thanks JQ~!

#2 Oh... how can i forget about the scar i had... i scalded the back of my palm with hot water... The whole node show tremendous care for me... Dingze & HengGhee offering me food... the others asking me to rest... asking me my conditions... etc... i really felt for the first time in the whole year that i actually meant something (if not alot) to my node people... i think i did drop a tear... not for the pain... but the heart-warming reception i received... they are really my brothers in arms...

     : Most Disappointing/Hurting Incident :

Its not about once or twice ba... more like a series of event that caused myself hurt... or maybe its me, myself & i causing myself hurt... since no one would have admit that i am hurt due to him... or them... so ya... at times, i felt like i was ignored... or people doing things behind my back etc... then i would be sad and felt hurt... especially if people who are closer to me... ya so... guess those incidents really create a dent in my heart... not going to recover that easily...

     : Friend Of The Year :

Terence (could have been jin or hangming) - Never thought that he would be the one i selected... Since i know him from SI days... he is a willing party to fool around with me... those times where i named my no1, no2 & no3... haha... now no longer the standings.. though they still hold a place in my heart... my no1 Terence... haha... had a short chat with me in Taiwan... where i really really almost wanted to give up everything i have... its him that make me feel like... someone really know what i am going through... many friends told me they understand... but they only say and i don't feel it... i alwayz thought... actions speak louder than words... and Terence won it hands down... love ya *muakz* haha...

     : Highlights Of 2005 :

Guess it would have been the Taiwan ROC Trip... The outfield allows me to show care to my buddy due to the cold weather, not sure if he feel it lar... haha... i like the warmth... in heart when we sleep in the unimog head... Our node also showed care & concern to each other... so its really a meaningful one... R&R to me was special, due to some reason, i chose to go with another group... though sad, but never regret my decision... they had a happy R&R without me... so what could i expect more?

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      To many, maybe i never really performed... both being a friend or worker... being a friend... i felt i did my best, its for my friends to judge le... i could say nothing more... being a employee... i had some ups & down performance but still acceptable... i gave myself a C grade for my performance this year ba... a small improvement from last year's D

X'mas 2006

      This year X'mas had proven to be the memorable one... as memorable as last year's. Till now, i still remember who celebrate with me... and the things we did last year... Though nothing special, its proven to be memorable... This year... though i celebrate with slightly different group of people... i really really enjoy myself...

      A ktv session, dine in clementi hawker, a game of 6-man billard... Ends with a chatting session that contains everything under the sun... erm Moon i mean... haha... damn... what can i expect more from a billard game... its really interesting... with all the soccer terms that we came up with... we enjoy not only those balls going in... we enjoy the misses... the poses... haha... its simply unforgetable... great session, guys...

      Its not a high-end christmas in terms of cost... but yet... its definitely a high-end enjoyment... with my group of friends... hey guys.. you know who you are... Hope that you guys enjoy as much as i do... and Thanks a trillion... i really enjoyed myself... and hopefully we stay strong together~!

      This year, i also received smses from people whom i least expected... no matter what time they sent... its still precious wishes... Janson, Jiemin, Joel... Ivy... and also those whom always been sms-ing me in different occasions... thanks alot... at least i know you guys never forget about me~!

my first trophy~!

      Recently, too many things happened... and i was so afraid i will not have any outing on my birthday... but thankfully, my friends, despite being hurt by me... (im hurt too ok... haha) willing to fork out their time for me... WST ~! Though my heart still have many uncertainties... for now.. i can only treasure the moments...

      Lounge 12 gave me a present... though it is obviously Ermei's idea... i know the rest of the 11 too well... and no one would came up with this gift's idea... and though i really hope for something special from my buddy... its unusual for him to do so... not after so many things happened... and this was better than nothing... though i had to admit... i wasn't pleased with idea initially... my brain think too much... looking at the gift... i had plenty of thoughts... but like i said earlier on... everyone still wish me well... that's why they chipped in...

      My first ever trophy... though i won 4 or 5 in sAvvyAwards or even in 3SIG... All is just a gift... or photoframe-made medal.... The first time i really hold a trophy... though others may say the idea is stupid... but hey... its the thoughts that count... and i have thought of making a trophy also... just that no one will support my idea if i said so... So i'm still happy receiving an unofficial one... in this manner...

      Special Thanks to those who supported me... The title... "Lounge 12 FC Star Achiever (Gold Award) for His Outstanding Personality"... (abit long sia) i don't deserve it... but its still... since its a gift from you guys... i will keep it... with honor... hoping to live up to the name... (sound like im giving a Star Award Thankyou speech) i will work hard the upcoming year... and hope you guys will be happy to see me... and not hating to see me... Thanks guys...

      A small note to Ermei: You still have the problem of typing/spelling error... haiz... work with you so many times... still never change... Thanks anyway...

roll of honours

      Special Thanks to the following person for their well wishes through sms, msn, e-card, frienster or verbally...

(Not in any order) my Family, Jin, YaoQiang, Teckhui, ChenSiang, Serene, Weiping, Din, JiaJing, Senior Weiliang, Jiahui, Kang, Kek, Liying, Songxian & Xiudian, Haymar, Ivy, Jenson, Jian Long, Belinda, Aris, Auntie Geline, JiuHsiang, Weiming, Jannah aka Ella, Jack & JianQiang, JianXin, others from Lounge12 (despite never wishes me... they sent me a gift)

Biggest Disappointment:

Dingze never say 'happy birthday' to me... but he did celebrate with me (Hence forgiven)

JiuHsiang unable to celebrate with me... but he called and chat with me (so... forgiven)

Happiest Moment:

WST make it a point to sacrify their TV time for me and celebrate with me. Despite some unhappy stuff happens recently, they celebrate selflessly... Thanks guys... i am touched...

Received Jx's call immediately after knowing its my birthday, (fine... i told him ok...?) but its been a real long time since i last see mr jx aka Kenji... at least can hear his voice & he explain his reason...

First MSN: Mr Jin
First Birthday Card: Ms Ivy (days before, i receive it)
First E-Card: Mr ChenSiang (or is it Ermei)
First SMS: Mr Ermei
First Testimonial: Mr Jianqiang
First Call: Mr Jx (J.Long miscall me)
The only Gift: Lounge12
The only Cake: Family
Last one to wish me: Ms Belinda (through Friendster)

back to SI

      My first post after im 22 years old... i am in a tough period of time... nursing my hurt that i caused myself... though till now... can feel the pain... or sadness... i suppress that feeling for the better of future...

      after dz told me abt our ns unit... i checked once i reached home.. but can't log in... as i forgotten my password... but thankfully when i click the 'forget password?' button.... a question that i could have easily answered pop out.... 'what is your buddy's name? just name' i was totally shocked... but thankfully.. you don't change buddy just like that... and luckily i never change my buddy... and i did answer it correctly to access the new password...

      SI is the place they put, but according to yaoqiang... SI no reservist unit... so i also now unsure if the unit is true or a temp. one... for this... maybe will know later ba... as for now.. i hope i will get to have a meaningful birthday this year... and hope that we all, not only me... can enjoy today... that is my wish... at least... for now... oh ya.. Happy Birthday Weiping~!

the reason... is you

      ZOUk... you are supposed to enjoy there... you are supposed to let out all and ENJOY~! but... but... why am i feeling so down... issit that i lost the passion for music? the passion for dancing?... maybe its due to the reason that i am really tired.... wanna sleep... but is that a reason? or is it due to the fact that my body is there... but my mind is elsewhere?...

      when i look at the paper bag i holding on... its filled with all the emotions... a box of chocolate that reminds me that someone out there still care for me... never forget me even he went overseas... a box of cards... that contains the well wishes i wanted to sent out to all my beloved friens... and yet... a few video tapes what remind me that i am sad... maybe not by the person whom i intend to pass to... but more on myself... why i am being made this way...

      no one would care how i feel now... haha... guess everyone would be saying 'what's new?' or 'isn't that a norm thing?'... but when someone who lived for his friends is being hurt due to his friends... what is his reason of survival...? what is...

curtains drawn

      The results is out... and i only managed to get 3 prediction right. Li Nanxing, Boon Hui Lu & Huang Yiliang win convincingly... Hong Huifang was not bad... though i thought Constance could win. Ivy wasn't that great in the show... Ann Kok was so much better... but guess i could do nothing. Weilian's fans' spending power was once again showed as he beat Elvin to it. Actually nothing surprising... Kym Ng seems to be underated after failing to win the host award this year. But at least she is back with the Top 10 award. Adrian was great though he lost in the Best Actor to Nanxing...

      The most shocking results to me after seeing the full results online is the absence of many top artiste in the Top 10 category. Jacelyn Tay, Terence Cao & Hanwei was the few surprised exclusion. Gurmit Singh don't really deserves to be there. But since the emergence of many up-and-coming new stars like Elvin & Felicia... i shouldn't be surprised that much when big names out of the list. Thankfully Julian didn't win despite leading in the top 10 awards since the voting begins...

      Anyway... will go and watch the video before commenting of the night... haha.... By the way, ARSENAL drew with Chelsea... a commendable results with many big names missing in the Emirates camp. All the best.. hehe...

star awards 2006

      Annual Star Awards will be telecast LIVE tomorrow on Channel 8. So its time for my prediction this year. haha... i became not that active in watching local television compared to years ago, but i still managed to watch a few episode or a few series... so my prediction should still be ok? My BOLD Predictions:

Best Actor : Adrian Pang (or maybe Li Nanxing)
Best Actress : Ann Kok (or Jesseca Liu)
Best Supporting Actor : Huang Yi Liang (or Adam if mediacorp wan to groom him)
Best Supporting Actress : Constance Song
Best Variety Show Host : Kym Ng
Most Popular Newcomer : Elvin Ng
Young Talent Award : Kyle Chan Xing Yu (or Boon Hui Lu)

      Had been watching Ella's new show, Hana-Kimi with Wu Zhun (from Fahrenheit)... its really nice... some parts of the show reflects my feelings & my life... i wouldn't say identical... but its definitely similar... she was once gigantic... but for love & idol, she slim down and became a fast runner, even FASTER than the guys... i was once a fat ass but after slimming down for some reasons... though not the FASTEST runner... but at least my running had been improved too...

      Wasn't feeling so good these days... as the day is coming... and will it be a disappointment or will it be a day i dreamt for...? i had no idea... and there is a part of me feeling jealous seeing that particular picture in his profile... yet i never made it to his profile... never once... its saddening... but i have to admit it... he is his good/close friend... and may be closer than i do... i have to learn to feel content... its just me...

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      To say that i am not tired, its will be nonsense... i am really very TIRED... Feeling the stress piling up over the tight schedule & my inability at my work place... i felt that i am really lack of experience, lack of knowledge & i am definitely someone FAR TOO SLOW... i must admit... i am someone with reactions slow... is it due to age? im aging... HELP ME~! haha... i was so disappointed that i was not trusted at my workplace and was insist to verify my finding... but guess he will never trust anyone than himself...

      Glad to hear that Jx had finish his exam... Now... with that day coming... i wonder if i could have my wish fufiled... having my buddy & him around with me on that day... haha... Kinda wish him... and its always been my wish to be with my buddy & him on this particular day... to see if my dreams can come true... we shall wait & see...

      Had been watching Ella's new show, Hana-Kimi with Wu Zhun (from Fahrenheit)... its really nice... some parts of the show reflects my feelings & my life... i wouldn't say identical... but its definitely similar... she was once gigantic... but for love & idol, she slim down and became a fast runner, even FASTER than the guys... i was once a fat ass but after slimming down for some reasons... though not the FASTEST runner... but at least my running had been improved too...

      Wasn't feeling so good these days... as the day is coming... and will it be a disappointment or will it be a day i dreamt for...? i had no idea... and there is a part of me feeling jealous seeing that particular picture in his profile... yet i never made it to his profile... never once... its saddening... but i have to admit it... he is his good/close friend... and may be closer than i do... i have to learn to feel content... its just me...