clarify speculations

      I wasn't feeling that good recently... was feeling some dilemma last week... hence whatever i do... i simply feel tired. I have to admit, i am feeling rather down or lost here & there... but to clear things up, i need to clarify one thing. It coincidently happens days after knowing Terence being attached, hence causing speculations that i am feeling down because of him. Aiight~ maybe indirectly, that incident was one of the minor reason... but hey, when i say he is my No.1. Its purely entertainment. For those who think otherwise, i shall not waste my time clarify again.

      Terence IS one of my better friends who listened to be during a period of time when no one believes me. He saw what i saw then... in my shoes... hence i was able to move on... Hence to him, i have pure respect. If he being my #1, is because of i love him... then... i have lots of lovers then... with some having girlfriends or wife by their side. We are just fooling around, CgM's girlfriend even know me by person.

      The reason why i did not choose to reveal what i am thinking is largely due to the fact that there are too many things connected to it. Not one or two words will be able to explain, plus... i do not have someone who i can 100% open my heart with yet... currently, 60% is already hard to find... Some already been removed in my list *laugh*. Contracts ended...

      But on the brighter side of this incident, i learned more emotions. Maybe due to some movies i watched recently, i learned how to put more emotions or i could put more emotions into songs i sung. Went KTV last week, and sang a few songs that i never did before. I was so glad with my 'performance'. Not sure how others think though, i was particularly impressed by myself *laugh* when i sang "Fu Huo" (Revived) & "Lei" (Tears) by Lin Yu Zhong & Mi Lu Bing respectively. Those who have chance in going ktv with me... watch out for a better interpretations of the songs i will be singing...