Initially, i was hestitating whether to give it a try. Knowing that my standard is below par, i would not stand a chance against the rest. But still, i am having a slight hope that it might finally be a chance for me to 'shine'. haha. Honestly, i am going there for the experience. Never try, never know... isn't it?
One main reason for me to take up this opportunity is that i am losing confidence in music. Definitely not the money factor. There are many way better singer around me that sound great! Imagine i am living in this kind of world! haha... Its an honor to have them as friend, on a negative side, its a pressure and demoralising. On the positive side, i have to work harder... But as human, we tend to think abit negative first! haha. I know that i always have stage fright or crowd fright. If i don't even overcome the auditioning part, i will still face the same issue. I will not even have a chance to be afraid of stage/crowd!
For a split second, i did ask myself if i should continue singing. That is when i walk out of YAMAHA. Despite the fact that GL was very encouraging and positive, i still find my performance one of my worst! My voice is tired and sang too high without really warming up. Thanks to those people who encourage me when hearing that i am trying out tonight. Thanks guys.
Now i fully understand why i am always being missed out when there is an idea of organising a performance. why i am not in the list of possible candidate. I guess i am really not up to standard yet. Its demmoralising but i accepted the truth...
Not to worry, at the moment, i am not throwing my towel... YET! At least, i know, i took a huge step forward. Things can only get better, isn't it?