good
movie, bad outing
Pirates of the Caribbean, a movie that includes a little bit
of scary element, a little bit of love element and laugh element, is lack of a
story line. Not a very interesting story line but is enough to make a person day
better and attract enough attention.
A much awaited movie outing with Aris and
Twins. It was postponed for a few weeks since and i was looking forward to it.
*sigh* Recently, not feeling very good and a little down and depressed, i hope
this outing can lighten my mood. Unfortunately, it did not and make me feel
worse. I did not enjoy the movie due to lots of interruption from the handphone.
Never really get to enjoy the movie, even though i know what's going on...
A friend of mine need my help in terms of
financial help. For those who know me well, will know that i will help IF i can.
But unfortunately, that was not what happen last night. i am rushing throughout
from Final-Year Project (FYP) to Swensen's interview to Orchard. i
totally have no time to do a transaction and of course, i have assured my friend
that i will transfer the money right after the movie.*frown* She know that i am
in the movie, yet keep messaging during the movie.
This interruption spoiled my day, or night to
be exact. i expected myself to enjoy the movie and get better over the bad
feeling i had in the past few days. Instead, i'm feeling let down by friend. No
matter how urgent the need goes (not mentioning the reason to me)... i believe i
do deserve a break for movie isn't it? It really struck me after that, am i
really too nice? i transfer the money even before i took a leak which seems to
be more urgent.*sigh*
No matter how good the movie is, it is wasted
that i did not enjoy the movie as much as my friends do. Swensen's job
was, of course, a successful one. Get the job with a very low pay. But i guess i
need more exposure in different line. In Swensen's, there are chances for
me to be a runner, a waiter, a cashier or even the 'ice-cream man', the person
who scooped and arranged the delicious ice-cream for us. To achieve all these,
my performance there must be good. Now waiting for calls on which day to go for
work. Next week, i will no longer be as free as now, which i think is a good
think for me. *smile*
~ You are most like An Emerald ~
Caring, giving and very emotional. You're the
person
people turn to with a problem. You worry about
everybody,
and genuinely want to help - a little too much
sometimes.
As an emerald, you tend to take a more backseat to
the other
gems, but your inner beauty soon captivates those
who take
the time to get to know you.
Congratulations ... You're the selfless gem
everybody needs as a friend.
?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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struggled
with feelings
i'm suffering from depression as i believed i am.
Suddenly, i am feeling lost in this world. What will the future be like? Why am
i not doing what i am suppose to do? Why are things work against me? Yet i
should be happy with some things that happen and meant to be good news...
Aris and i went for a job application at the
same outlet of Swensen's. I am chosen for the interview while he is not.
i should be happy that i get the job, isn't it? But on the other hand, i like
the environment in NTUC. I wished to go back, but fear to go back. There are
people there who i don't wish to meet or work with and, i guess, don't wish to see
me either. I am also sad that my buddy didn't get the job even though the person
who contacted me say he can go down and fill up another form and place under KIV,
i guess is shortlisted. Should i go for it?
i should be happy that my supervisor saw me
today and say he was quite happy with my progress, my performance. But i don't
know why the feeling is short-lived. Soon, i am filled with sadness again. And
more worst, the fear of screwing up the Wk6 presentation make me feel more down.
Why, just why, can't i be happy at the moment? i know i can do better, i wasted
lots of time. i can finished the stuff using less than a week, but i always
stretched it to a week. Poor productivity.
Getting my blog done few days ago was the
happiest moment for these days. But just now, i accidentally deleted one whole
part of the blog, making the alignment look ugly now... i hope i can find the
only back up in my school lab. Recently, i drank. "No big deal!" to
many of you, but to me, if you know me well, i seldom drink. This time round i
drank for two days. Even though i only drank one or two bottles and not yet
drunk, i felt like drinking more...
i don't know why i am feeling all this right
now. Don't ask me, i am not sure myself. i really cried just now when i deleted
the blog. It had been a long long time when i last cried. i guess its few months
back. i felt very secure with Liying and Siang when i meet them just now, so i
asked them to stay longer with me. Even though i really have nothing to say or
interesting to chat about, i am glad to feel their presence. Call me stupid,
call me childish. There is a child in everyone, and i only ask for the company
of friends when i'm lost in this world, is it ridiculus? Can't i make such a
simple request?
Chocolate fudge
What dessert are you?
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You are Classical Music. I will not judge you
according to this. Me, as a person, I could
probably have some good times with you.
What type of music are you?
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You are a Mexican Jumping bean.
You are so cool. I cannot believe how cool you are.
You (and other people) like you have got to be
the coolest people in the world. Thats so
amazing.
What kind of bean are you?
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fustration
My Oh My! Guess what... My brother is coming back to live with us. Normally, he only came back on weekends or some weekdays. This time round, he will be moving out of the old camp and live here!!! He is now moving to Bedok camp, i think, which he will not be staying in camp. Not sure the reasons, but its a bad news for ME!
From his attitude to his manners, none is appreciated by me. A male Chauvinist, "Da Nan Ren Zhu Yi". No toilet manners etc. WHAT A MAN!
As i am right, after he moves in, lots of things happen. Not really big but when small small things added up, it was big, isn't it? i no longer can enjoy my TV shows with that ass keep switching channels... He is currently holding up about 50% of the cupboards in my room. Now he needs more. What the... Just for your information, the other 50% is shared by me and my uncle. So...
i can feel that my life is not going to be smooth. With my opposition party coming back to stay... *sigh* PRAY for me!
