I know i shouldn't but i couldn't help it. Now all i can think of is GnaiL. I know its wrong and i also don't wish to, but my heart and mind just don't listen to me... haiz... now very confused... and my heart is beating faster... i wish to find out why but i know there is no way to... Really getting tired about it and sad that i am thinking about GnaiL. A very wrong move... I should have forget about him and be FREE~~~ but i don't know. Maybe i need a professional psychologist or whatsoever... I really don't wish to ... but haiz... suddenly i am missing GnaiL. We have problems and have not communicate for months. I tot i can forget about GnaiL but i guess i'm WEAK!!! -_-" really don't know what happen... I wish i could know... and hope GnaiL tell me personally even though i may not be able to face GnaiL anymore... as i'll get agitated whenever i saw GnaiL....

   I also don't know why... i seems to like step onto some 'xiao ren'... Very unlucky. Suddenly like alot of things happening. Someone crying here and there... for me somemore... haiz.. What for? haiz... then people say i changed which i know i didn't to an extend.... why? haiz... getting fustrated with all this things... Luckily, Eunice and Liying wil be meeting me.. I can get some rest.... Arghh... i AM not feeling good!!!