Recently, not knowing why, have been feeling tired, agitated easily... Whenever i receive calls telling me that the meetings (gatherings) are cancelled, i'll get quite pissed off... I can understand their situation and put myself into their shoes... their positions, but i just can't stand that the truth is... gatherings is call off... Maybe its due to the 'hope' of meeting them... i always looking forward for gathering with old friends, be it poly, secondary or whatsoever.... i am really tired of arguing (making me a much more quiet person nowadays... i think could be bad...) i really don't know why... i still can angry... haiz... but at the bottom of my heart... i really miss them and hope to meet... but i'm just ... really don't know what had happen to me... recently my xiao mei ask me what has happen to me... i can't find the answer... i guess its the change in me, change in my life... that contributes to.. the big impact in me....