PMS

      Days after days... i had not recovered from the PMS period... (a term my friends used to describe the period when i had mood swing in poly days) And days after days... i am just getting tired...

      Life is so boring... everyday seems to be repeating itself... everything was so predictable... no challenges making me look forward to... the only challenge is to improve myself... own timing... own results... and being a perfectionist (i am trying to change)... i wasn't making things easy for myself... there are many nights when i wanted to be in a quiet place... an empty room or even the balcony... thx people for accompanying me...

      I did felt some warmth this week... from John upon standing by my side when Tee Rong somehow react a little negatively to my comments... Jin, Kelvin & Jiu Hsiang for IPPT... TeckHui, LT Wu & JianXin for reacting to my light injury... And i think to him might be an unnecessity... but to me... its something you'll seldom hear...

      During setting up, i was dumbfound at one moment... it happened when i suppose to do camoe but that day itself... we were excused of doing that... in the end... i stop for a few minutes before helping in guy rope... Even when i helped... i entangled one of the rope and couldn't see the correct route... which slows the whole process down by at least 5minutes... Everyone will feel that the timing ok and might be due to my injury time... but i feel its because i do not know my stuff well... i used to be able to handle it... but due to leaving the thing out of my job scope... i lost the touch... Sorry... Dingze... i'll try harder... and make sure we make the timing... and Thanks Sgt Marcus... for your trust...