gym attraction

      Hitting the gym is indeed an enjoyment for me... After gaining so much weight over the last two months... especially the junk food i ate over the World Cup period... i became a little self-conscious le... gained back the 5kg that i lost during the depression period... But hey its not a good thing ok... but i am going to make sure i use this to build up my muscle... haha...

      Yishun SAFRA really make me feel like home... its not crowded... the people there are friendly... environment encouraging... but too bad... no hunks or babes... only people like me... lol... i simply love the sauna... imagine someone who almost fall asleep while running on thread and end up feel so energetic upon leaving the place... Sauna did the thing for me...

      My old injury return while i am running... hence i slowed down the speed and soon stop... i felt lethargic as i slept quite late for a few days le... after my short regime... i went to the sauna in the male's toilet and rest there... in 5 mins... i sweat more than i exercise 1hr... haha... its really great feeling... i almost tempted to sign up for the SAFRA EnergyOne membership lor... end up didn't lar... hey need money ok... but may consider...

      Need to watch my diet soon... hehe.. maybe after world cup? hehe... will look into it... but now... i can only grumble... I AM FAT LE *sob sob*

OREO* Cheesecake

      Mon's buffet wasn't a bad outing... first time ever, 12 of us all available for an outing... My first outing after trying to reconcile with teck... i am not rushing into things... need more time... see how things work ba... Hmm... Never get to talk to Jx that day... i think the rest 10 i had conversation with le... nevertheless... still ok lar.. the outing... food wise.. honest speaking... was average...

      Got myself a new 512RAM with the help of my buddy... now my pc is boosted with 768RAM le... no more laggy dotA... haha... its really smoother running... my pc seems to be having small upgrades... router... sound card... now RAM... it cost me some money though... but if its worth it... no harm... just have to save up more? and may work harder for money after the losing in World Cup... haha... no worries... i'm just a small punters... its the fun with friends that make me buy more... hehe... alright.. i am just finding excuses... *bleah*

      i had just make some cheesecake... OREO Cheesecake... 2nd attempt with a total different recipe... but i won't say its a success... due to lacking of ingredients... but its really simple.. thanks to Kraft Kitchen... at least i did try... right? haha... My dream home must have a kitchen with all my baking needs in it... i still want to have fun in kitchen leh...

Oreo Cheesecake...

...with little decoration...

      i'd tried hard to make it look appetizing... maybe its still not so... But i'm sure, its not gonna be the last... but i am a little sick of cheese for the moment... lol...

My First Concert

      Dinner on FRI... a make-up dinner for Ris... Jocelyn, Yiliang, Jeremy & twins make up the numbers too... Jocelyn is the bride on the previous SAT... she look gorgeous that day... it simply proved that the 'a lady will look most beautiful on her wedding day' quote... a little rush for me.. but overall thanks to my friends who all had transport... sent me to Tiong Bahru MRT... Felt strange that i seems to move on to another level... used to be relatives wedding.. now? friend's... lol... kind of strange.. but definitely happy for them...

      I went to JJ Live Concert... saw Campus Superstar at MRT... they look really small... JJ is great... His rendition of 'Qing Ni Gen Wo Zhou Ba', a song he wrote for Wilber... was very nice... He sang 4 composition he wrote for other singer and 4 songs from 4 'senior' in the music industry that make an impact in his music... A-Do & Jin Sha is his special guest of the night... they both did a duet with JJ... JJ vocal powess was showcased too... he made me feel like joining Superstar, i'm honest... Do you guys support me? Anyway... near the end... he almost became the 2nd person to sing live in front of me and moved me to tears.. the first being Dz...

Jin Sha & JJ

JJ dancing

A-Do & JJ

Stylist JJ

Singing Cao Cao (my buddy surname behind)

Finale

JJ belt out his last song

      JJ's concert is definitely worthwhile... the atmosphere... the songs... the vocal... it make me wanna go for concert again... now... i guess... wait for Dingze to accompany me to another one? lol... As most of my friends seldom go for concert... Jin also can lar... if you have any in mind... i may consider... maybe one day... i have a concert too... lol...

losing

      Spent my last guard duty with another special friend to me... but... ended with alittle sadness... maybe every good things will come to the end... but its a fact i do not want to admit.. especially friendship... Hmm... if we left SAF, i am sure we still have time to meet up and not insist that we will never be gathered again... its all down to each's mentality... Hence, just a little sadness... No matter what i will never give up my friendship...

      World Cup fever had burnt me... lost some money at this world cup... the first world cup that make me follow... the first that i bet on... the first time i watch soccer matches... live somemore...its kinda great... as for the money... never bet alot.. but still betting will not kill my interest in soccer... i hope to win $$ but yet more if the team i support wins...

      Jin ask us to play badminton today... had a great session with Terence, Dz & of coz... Jin... he is not bad... just that use abit too much strength.. hehe.. but nice sparring session... though you let me won... lol... But one bad omen today... i lost my handphone... yes... again.. this time round.. it will never be back...

      Jin ask us to play badminton today... had a great session with Terence, Dz & of coz... Jin... he is not bad... just that use abit too much strength.. hehe.. but nice sparring session... though you let me won... lol... But one bad omen today... i lost my handphone... yes... again.. this time round.. it will never be back... No more taxi chasing... or Cleaning uncle incident... i will never get back the phone le...

      Now waiting for Dz to play dotA... need to vent my anger... OWNING... lol.. but Dz Dz... where are thou?

living ashamed

      Time to update my weekly doings? Had some emotional bust up... but now better le... Thanks to Dz & sorry for making enduring my sh*t... I'm just a weakling... Making him suffer alot... feeling so ashame... hmm...

      My combat shoot proved to be a successful one... as i miss only one shot in the day and hit about 10 pts in the night.... i managed to cover my friend's misses... i'm pleased with it... consider that i had a bad headache then... can't even maintain my balance when i try to stand up... Dz helped me to bandage in the morning... its an emotional booster.. lol... buddy help one leh.. of course lar... but end up, i am forced to change it... as the Velco torn the bandage... but still the thoughts never leave the bandage... haha.. mushy right me?

      My mind now is much clearer... and emotionally strengthened by talks with my buddy... Dz don't worry, i'll learn to control... if really a need... then maybe i will refer myself to professional... at the moment... have you enough le... left with IPPT to clear...

You should pick your Zen Friend

      You know who we're talking about — the person who always has their head on straight, who can sound reasonable even in the most unreasonable of times, and who makes you calmer just by standing in the same room as you. Whether you've known them all your life or recently met them in yoga class, there's just something about this calming companion that made you realize from the very beginning you wanted them in your life.

      This highly evolved, kind, caring, and soothing sidekick has a contagiously peaceful presence. Their grounding influence and nurturing heart give you a spiritual boost you don't easily find with others. The two of you share an appreciation for individual expression that makes any time a perfect time to spend together. Ommm!

Scalded Last Outfield

      I quietly cried a little... no, not due to the scalded wrist... but the concern i received from all... Not only my buddy... but the whole node... This happens outfield... They all bring me to the medic down the hill, share their food with me... i'm really touched... its painful but i decided not to tell them that... as in my heart... their care did ease the pain and i don't want them to worry... Luckily Dz was around to attend to my needs as it is kind of inconvenient to use one hand to work... so Thanks Buddy... Anyway, went to see a doctor & its recovering... Hence, no worries...

      With World Cup kicking off... Germany's match marks my first WC Full match... first time watch with friends through net... Watched ENG match with Dz & Jq... nice experience though we were not treated to a good performance by ENG... The Underdogs lived up to their names in this world cup... CRC, CIV, T&T all perform pretty well... though only T&T managed to snatch a point from SWE...

      My mood had been improving... after talks & outing with Dz and people... so don't worry about me suffering from depression again... as i promise i will try not to went into the situation... as i know you guys will be worry & do care about me... erm... right? haha...

Great Times

      My PC have too many minor problems le... haha.. thanks Dingze for helping me and acting as an advisor, technician, IT assistant... etc etc... Finally get a sound card & a RAM from Dz... hoping to improve my PC's condition... Though i had not yet installed as last night came home to late... and i still need a disc for my sound card from Dz...

      Yesterday mood was a little dampened after the Paradiz Center's Lan gaming was smaller now and the conditions of the pc making us all 'pek chek' and it really waste alot of time... but at least there is a turning point... We went to the building beside it... Parklane? Not sure... and we enjoy great time... FIFA 2005... haha... 4 person... 2v2... its really, really fun...

     We had friendly competition... Me & Jack Vs Dingze & Jianqiang... and it turn out that me & Jack were the better ones *clear throats*... haha... 4 wins... but i must give credits to the opponents... they had greater possession and just unlucky to not having all goals conveted... it ignite the passion for FIFA within us... i'm sure this is not the only time we play together... Let's play again...

      Like Dz said... they will come back stronger & not let us win... Bring It On, baby~!

inhumane

      Guess i am not that inhuman after all... Alright, i did hate him for making my life miserable... i did hate him for making me feel so insecure with my buddy... i did hate him for making my buddy treating me not as good as before... i did hate him taking away my everything... but still... i tried to help him? haha... guess i'm a fool isn't it?

      No matter how much i hate him for... he is still my buddy good friend or best friend... and still i couldn't help but jealous... haha.. AGAIN?!!! that my buddy care for him... but what to do... he is my buddy's good friend what... For my buddy, i am willing to let go some hatred and try to help him... Just for my buddy... Hmm... i had been trying hard to earn my trust & assurance from my buddy... though i still get none... hmm... assurance, i mean...

      i'm not that inhuman... i still care for him as he is still a person... a comrade... a ex-friend of mine? or maybe i still treat him as friend ba... its not that i'm cold blooded... whoever know me well, know this fact... Whenever i tried to give in abit... i saw things i did not wish to see... Jealousy, petty-ness... anger filled me again... blocking all the thoughts of reconcile...

      Now that he is feeling better, i can also relax awhile... too many people falling sick... IPPT is indeed tough... my buddy Dz... Terence both weakened by IPPT... my good pal, Jx also down with fever... Hope all recovering soon...

emOtions, Guo Min

      Dui Bu Qi Wo Ai Ni... the atmosphere in the room is now filled with lots of emotions & love... We came into the room with some duets and did some credible job on those songs... two guys... what do you expect? But things changed when he sing Joi Chua's Dui Bu Qi Wo Ai Ni... I simply quiet down and listen to him attentively... something went wrong within me...

      When he belted another solo effort, Guo Min by Rainee Yang... my body became slightly numbed... i felt somehow a little pressurize too... haha... as i felt that suddenly he sing with 'gan dong du' while my singing detoriates... haha... so when i sing the next song after Guo Min... my body starts to numb and my heartbeat goes faster... yes... i don't know why but i simply goes emotional... very emotional indeed...

      i tried to relax myself... but when he started to sing Hui Jia... i'm moved to tears... CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? this is the first time i went KTV with a friend and he can moved me... yes... Fabian may possess a great voice... but still i never moved to tears by him, yet... Now this person holds the record of the only guy to make me cry while listen to him sing... and he is.... none other person than my buddy, Dingze.... Dingze... you are simply great... powered up with your rendition of Guo Min & Dui Bu Qi Wo Ai Ni...

      During the week, i am shocked and disappointed at some news about my buddy... but soon i got over it... and he had long reinstated his position as my idol... someone i really look up to...

      i'm really weak after ippt... time to rest... to recover from the cold i get on TUE...