inhumane

      Guess i am not that inhuman after all... Alright, i did hate him for making my life miserable... i did hate him for making me feel so insecure with my buddy... i did hate him for making my buddy treating me not as good as before... i did hate him taking away my everything... but still... i tried to help him? haha... guess i'm a fool isn't it?

      No matter how much i hate him for... he is still my buddy good friend or best friend... and still i couldn't help but jealous... haha.. AGAIN?!!! that my buddy care for him... but what to do... he is my buddy's good friend what... For my buddy, i am willing to let go some hatred and try to help him... Just for my buddy... Hmm... i had been trying hard to earn my trust & assurance from my buddy... though i still get none... hmm... assurance, i mean...

      i'm not that inhuman... i still care for him as he is still a person... a comrade... a ex-friend of mine? or maybe i still treat him as friend ba... its not that i'm cold blooded... whoever know me well, know this fact... Whenever i tried to give in abit... i saw things i did not wish to see... Jealousy, petty-ness... anger filled me again... blocking all the thoughts of reconcile...

      Now that he is feeling better, i can also relax awhile... too many people falling sick... IPPT is indeed tough... my buddy Dz... Terence both weakened by IPPT... my good pal, Jx also down with fever... Hope all recovering soon...