Considering Retirement

      Actually, i meant what i said. I was rather devastated when i couldn't bowl properly yesterday. My finger is no longer the problem. But can you imagine that i actually scared of bowling a hook ball? My finger did not feel any pain after the bowling. Only when clenching my fist, i can feel slight pain. I hit my all time low (that i could really remember). But the fun with Jack & Dingze did made up a little. I actually feel that i will not be achieving any good results before bowling, so i did mentioned to Dingze about my retirement. *laugh*

      Apart from bowling, i couldn't really hold a tune well nowadays. Last week's KTV, i actually lost the feel to sing, the enthusiasm to sing also... What happen to me? My interest actually drops... I still wanted & interested to do well in these two areas. But seems that it couldn't be help... is it due to my tiredness? I couldn't motivate myself for exercise due to tiredness too... Alright, maybe its purely excuses... but i sure feel tired of everything. Recently, i became more solo. Staying at home, watching anime, playing pokemon... Hmm... was it bad? i don't know.

      I also went to HangMing's place for Maths revision. i am facing problem in Year 2 Polytechnic's maths. Used to do those questions with ease, now? Stuck for hours~!!! *laugh* Also lost the motivation to study, or should i say... don't know how to begin. I need a long break in order to be back at my peak i think... Can i really cope with University after 3-4 years of break? Beats me...

      Workload increased as now i need to lead a team of newbies, plus still perform my job well. Wonder if i could succeed. I feel that i done my best. But was my best good enough? Its for me to find out soon...