Roller-Coaster

     I'm on a roller coaster today... Ups & down... no... is 'Very Up' then... 'Very Down'.... haha. I did not expect today to be like this.. but overall... i learned a lesson, what's been going on behind my back...

     First, the not-so-happy thing... Those surrounding me should know that i did, once awhile, mention about my work place... Receiving remarks and comments that are negative about me... I wonder why and who did that... Though i do have suspect in my mind, the puzzle is not put together yet. During lunch, i heard that my ex-boss who peeped into our emails, asked my collegue about why i send a certain email. For your info, that email meant to be an info for shift members, letting them know who is coming to take over them during the one-man-per-team period. Am i wrong? The lady boss interprete it as i send them so that they know who is working on which day, so can plan outing... Though it wasn't wrong if we want to do that, but her comments was simply thinking that i was the one planning something. Even give comments like 'so i know who is playing politics'. I was like... "WTF~!" Whoever know me well, will know how much i detest about this. Thankfully, those collegues of mine, all know me pretty well and all know that she is the one playing politics, but... i just feel unfair and angry for being accused.

     She still can be friendly in front of me. But she seldom give me any information about the shift or things that i should not know... Wearing a mask in office is the worst thing anyone can do... that is why i kept myself out of offic, keep myself busy in cleanroom. If i am the kind of politics player... i would have curry flavour my manager... no wonder he also change his attitude towards me... but i don't give a damn, i worked there for my supervisor and shift members... if my supervisor think i underperform, i am willing to quit. But till now, he still know i am working hard.

     The positive news, i am back on talking terms with Tun Min. After shutdown (around a month plus already), he did not say hi or talk to me in office. Today, i try to talk to him like nothing happen before. Initially, he did reply but the atmosphere still pretty tense... but i was so happy when he came over to help me inside cleanroom... without me asking. Then things became more relax, he smile more, joke around abit more... I was so happy...~!! i know it may sound stupid to some of you... but i treasure friendship alot...

     i decided not to ask why and what happened in the past weeks. I learnt that when a guys don't wish to say, don't pester for the answer, if everything is ok with you, just leave it as it is. In the past, given my character, i would have pester to know what happen... but i learned along the way and learnt from bad experience... Anyway, what matter most is my effort pays... we are back on talking terms... YEAH~!