i had deleted the previous post... where i post my shoutings... totally went bersek last night... losing control... but don't worry, i locked myself in the room hence no one saw it... and would not be in danger... i was chatting with Jx and trying to calm myself... but somehow i was took over... i was feeling awful...
Getting more and more fustrated & painful... i appear offline & not picking up calls... i couldn't control myself... the tears... the pain... i don't know... i just wasn't myself... i was struggling... or am still struggling... feeling fan.... Argh~!
i want answer... yet i cant get answer as there is no answer or no answer intend to be given to me... i can't force the answer as i know it will cause unhappiness... and i do not wish to make anyone unhappy... hence i decided to struggle myself... the bowling thingy just activate me... and i overstep the limit... i am in crazy mode... bersek mode....