losin' direction

      After completing Project [Jx], all of sudden... i lost my direction of life... casting aside all my woes... i fully concentrate on the project itself... hoping to get the best result... haha.. almost forget Siang's birthday celebration... Thanks to Ber for reminding me hours before the event... Still have lots of questions in my heart unanswered... i continue to feel blue & search for some direction...

      My legs had more or less recovered... special thanks to Kek for introducing me to such a great sinseh... though the treatment was painful... but thankfully i endured through it... now recovering... something surpass my expectation... i could move without pain... but still need a little more rest to see if it can recover fully...

      Went Ktv with TH & Jin... had a good time and nice dinner... fish porridge and shared tian ji with Jin... not too bad... nice food... like the sauce especially... After which i rushed back home just to play dota with Jx... afraid that if i return too late... he will be asleep... thankfully, he did not... at first he didn't reply... hence kinda disappointed... but after awhile he went online... and we start playing... but just one game... haiz... thought can play more... but he was too tired... i guess...

      Trying my best to look happy... but i guess, i did succeed? didn't i, jin? deep within me... still feel the emptiness... the bewilderness... i begin to feel that i don't know myself... what i really want... from him... from anyone else... i guess if my questions and curosity was not answered... i would need a long time to recover... or will i?