its the process that matters

      its been a long time since i last bowled using my own ball... and today is the great opportunity i had... i went to Marina South with Dz, Jx & TH for bowling... $1.50 per game... cheap... though lousy system... but i guess the price pay back the substandard lanes & system... a pity that Terence & non-bowling-lover Jin were not able to make it...

      After much persuading... Jx decided to book in tomorrow with TH... hence both were available... Initially, Jx was relunctant to come... but gladly he did... in the end, four of us went for the game... its been a long time since four of us went out together... I guess they did enjoyed... me? not sure...

      Using my personal ball, i did had a good run of results despite average first game... you would have thought i should be happy with scores like 155, 150... yes maybe... its been a long time since i last scored such a high score (for my standard)... but i am not really happy in fact... during the game... a situation appeared... no, not fighting nor quarrelling... but the fact that i felt as if i was playing alone...

      Jx & Dz explained that maybe due to the difference in standard and they thought i am serious about the sport... they try not to disturb my concentration... but actual fact... i toned down during the game because i felt i was once again playing alone... The previous time (Tang's dinner) was that i had no supporter... this time round? despite four players... its more of a stranger sharing lanes with 3 good friends... they enjoyed their time... but i am like all alone... its the way i feel it...

      Feeling really sad at what's going on... so what if i scored... and win almost all games... and eventual champion... i still not happy... its the process... the fun of the game... if i really go for scores... i can bowl alone, why need to ask you guys out then...? i could simply go with Dz when he asked or go alone to bowl with my ball... what for playing with friends if you are not going to communicate... what is the purpose of playing together when you couldn't have fun together...

      Kinda miss the atmosphere the bowling club used to have... HanKeong, Robin they all... spurring each other & happy for each other... friendly competition that brought us to another level... and i really regret telling people i am from learned bowling...