emotional struggles

     i finally thought it over... after much talks to Zhi Xiong, i feel that i know what to expect better... i am just an ordinary guy... someone who will unlikely create an impact over friends... there is no complaints or whatever... just that maybe i am just too confident? its impossible to be part of a group just within months...

     pardon me for feeling introvert... i am not feeling good either... its that same old feeling that had me psychologically wore out for weeks or even months... i guess everything will soon came to an end... i had tried very hard... i really did... still dun feel accepted. Maybe because of the brand new kind of personality i am dealing with... i don't feel 'it'... nevermind... maybe im over-sensitive

     i really feel disappointed when they went to the beach without telling me... as i did mentioned that i want to go to see sunrise... but i don't know why... maybe this is the reason why i don't wish to go to the chalet... i am afraid of becoming more hurt... emotional torture... truth hurts...

     Thank god, Zhi Xiong was there to talk to me when i was bored... we went out and have a walk... have a long, hmm... its really long, chat... never had i talk to him for so long... we talk about almost everything... people around us... plans... future... history... so glad that he accompanied me...

     Putting this aside... i have one more chalet that will last till this weekend... hope that i can really relaxed and have fun... will not be online till further notice ba... need time to cool off... i have fun during the photonics chalet... just a few disappointment... but i am going to miss them all....